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Anonymous #1
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Suicide
#18766897 - 08/28/13 01:18 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I am going insane, I just don't give a fuck anymore. Fucking ratrace society. I want to kill myself in the most painful and disturbing way possible, put myself on fire and hang my self above a highway without wearing pants or something. Fucking feudalists, we live to pay rent. It is illegal to live on the street, live in trailer-parks or to live in your own forest. No escape; no mercy. The local governments will force you of your trailer, fine you for visibly sleeping on the street, or disown your own ground. The only way to live on yourself here is to work high-end jobs. I am a software developer and I fucking hate it, I am a slave and I have to be to own a small apartment.
I need some serious hugging or I am gonna burn a lot of innocent people. I am not trolling, I need an escape or I will become seriously dangerous. My hatred is just indescribable without a knife and a lot of blood and intestines.
Edited by Anonymous (08/28/13 01:20 AM)
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Mycjunky
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Don't have any advice. Life sucks but I share your opinion that it is bullshit you can't live a simple life without the government fucking with you. Even if you own your own property it's not like you really own it and could live off it since you still gotta pay property taxes.
I hope things improve for you.
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Anonymous #2
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You want to die? Fine. Only a fucking pussy piece of shit hurts other people on their way out. Good luck shitbag.
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Anonymous #1
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Pussies hurt a lot of people, I just want to choke chicks and a lot of sodomy. Stop trolling douche bag, I am being serious.
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lessismore
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Appreciate nature
Its always there and its free
We all have to work but we can work minimum hours and do what we love in our spare time
Trading code for shelter and food sounds good to me 
Sit in/walk in nature everyday, Houseplants, pets help me
Reduces stress brings happiness
Meditation in nature is even better
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lessismore
Registered: 02/10/13
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Btw I used to sit in a cubicle all day and code too and 3-4 bosses i didnt know 
Work to live and be happy, not live to work
Also i love to code sometimes just not 16hrs a day
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Nature and ass have been the only thing I've appreciated lately. I am becoming more and more of a homosexual, trannies and my bosses are the only people that like me.
I am losing all my inhibitions because of my chronic state of dysthymia, but maybe that is a good thing.
I guess this is what is to be alive, to suffer and to fuck. Good advice though .
Edited by Anonymous (08/28/13 05:02 AM)
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zzripz
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Anonymous said: I am going insane, I just don't give a fuck anymore. Fucking ratrace society. I want to kill myself in the most painful and disturbing way possible, put myself on fire and hang my self above a highway without wearing pants or something. Fucking feudalists, we live to pay rent. It is illegal to live on the street, live in trailer-parks or to live in your own forest. No escape; no mercy. The local governments will force you of your trailer, fine you for visibly sleeping on the street, or disown your own ground. The only way to live on yourself here is to work high-end jobs. I am a software developer and I fucking hate it, I am a slave and I have to be to own a small apartment.
I need some serious hugging or I am gonna burn a lot of innocent people. I am not trolling, I need an escape or I will become seriously dangerous. My hatred is just indescribable without a knife and a lot of blood and intestines.
First off understand I feel the same way as you--though not the wanting to do a violent number on my body. Whats my body ever done to deserve that. i WOULD like to do it to these fukin psychos in suits fukin planet Earth up though. Would like to see their heads on sticks with their phony smiles crow-pluck ready!
I mean shit this Syria shit. They are at it again. From what I gather thwey have staged ANOTHER false flag, chemically attacking men women and children so they get the excuse with their media pumping the horrific images of their evil on all news channels to invade Syria. Like they did same about Iraq after their 9/11 false flag!! And THEN you hear the idiots who buy their toxic shit and say 'yeahh lets go in an bomb em'...? I mean this evil toxic shit makes you wanna tear at your clothes go into the street and wail and moan rocking back and forth weeping. That is how I sometimes feel inside. i just cannot BELIEVE how insane it all is. This love for war and horror and even attacking innocent little children.
So, look. Please do not think you are by yourself in despair. What the ANSWER is I dunno. I do my bit in exploring how it has come to this and speaking truth as I am learning about it. But you are not on your own with your grief about the state of this world, and what a SECTION of humans are doing to fuck with others, including other species and nature. They are VERY VERY insane!
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Re: Suicide [Re: zzripz] 1
#18767465 - 08/28/13 07:51 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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OP needs to be reported to authorities for threatening to burn lots of innocent people. People like you are why i am glad i have guns.
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Anonymous #1
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Re: Suicide [Re: zzripz]
#18767644 - 08/28/13 09:00 AM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sad, but true. The world is insane and normally I don't cry like a little bitch. Well, this was more like the howl of a psycho. But not coming out of the closet is hard when the space is getting so narrow.
I won't hurt people fast, I am more likely to cut my wrist and squirt it all over little children.
That Syria shit is too obvious indeed. I should be happy I am at the right side of the world, but I am not.
Edited by Anonymous (08/28/13 09:05 AM)
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lessismore
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The fun thing about waking up is that it often own mistakes we can see in others
So youre like everyone else
I bet we have all lived as our thoughts/desires/emotions once, and also lived for the money/working Being all selfish for some time, judging others, hating instead of loving And most have probably trashed in nature once
What you can do is be how you like others to be and learn from own mistakes Notice youre exactly like everyone else Frustration will get you back to old lifestyle quickly
Judging is the most common mistanke in society
No acceptance because of it And we have all made that mistake over and over again Even when we think we stopped doing it 
Nature helps
You cant change the world with money/politics but you can change it by changing yourself
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zzripz
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your right not to be. I mean we are all connected. When you see Earth from a distance you see land and seas which is ALL connected. So all the horror and pollution they doing there will affect every where else. Alreeady America is part of/guilty for the construction of nuclear plants on an isalnd PRONE for tsunamis and earthquakes--Japan. Remember FUKUSHIMA?? have you heard one peep from the media about it lately? No. But in fact it is the worst EVER disaster and all the radioactive pollution is pumping into the ocean. So on top of THAT ecocide this psychos now wanna do yet more murdering and spreading their toxic crap all over from the evil fucking weapons.
I am saying all this not to push you further into depression. I just feel that it is a lie to soft soap people and say 'be positive'. The world is really insane, and as well as our personal problems due to the fucked up injust system you got the world problems pushing uyou into a corner too. I feel it is important to be aware of this and let others know that others are aware of it too. Nothing fucks me off more when amidst this insane crap people seem to be so well adjusted. I mean why aren't millions right now out on the streets protesting against Obama etc and their fukin war mongering.l They're all fukin with their stupod moblie phones
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Re: Suicide [Re: zzripz] 1
#18768636 - 08/28/13 02:19 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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OP time to go see someone. You are incredibly dark and in a narrow perspective because you probably isolated yourself and now no one challenges your ideas.
Life does not suck at all. Life is flooring. It's just depressed people that don't enjoy life. Very easy to think your depression has anything to do with life, it doesn't, it's just a state of the brain, like sleep.
Try first of all calming right down. Try some relaxation. I found with relaxation I finally got what I was looking for after years of anxiety and depression. I was just completely out of touch with reality. Relaxation brings you back.
Have you done anything in the past that you really regret? Don't worry about it, the past is gone, there is no past. There is only now.
You are a pretty misguided, dark, unusually hateful person and all for no good reason except maybe you feel marginalised by society because of your sexual preference.
There is no one driving this misguidedness, darkness and hate except you...
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Op if you had time to select the emoticon for the thread title, then this case isnt to serious.
either way suicide doesn't do shit but make the people around you contemplate it also.
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Circastes, I just like to talk like a dirty whore. This is just the way I express myself.
I've seen quite some psychologists already and they are useless, any shroomerite is better.
In my puberty I've always liked woman and I still do, me losing my mind turned me into a faggot. My sexual preference has nothing to do with it. I still feel straight, I just like woman with dicks. I guess you guys would call that bisexual.
Indeed, I've isolated myself for a long time, I haven't grown up with parents so I don't have the luxury of nurture. Please do tell what is so dark and misguided about the way I think.
Edited by Anonymous (08/28/13 03:49 PM)
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VivaLaMushie
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Anonymous said: OP needs to be reported to authorities for threatening to burn lots of innocent people. People like you are why i am glad i have guns.
Yeah no shit.
op if you want to kill yourself, you have the right to but don't take innocent peoples lives along with you.
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VivaLaMushie said:
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Anonymous said: OP needs to be reported to authorities for threatening to burn lots of innocent people. People like you are why i am glad i have guns.
Yeah no shit.
op if you want to kill yourself, you have the right to but don't take innocent peoples lives along with you.
I'll take your life you little bitch.
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urbannerd
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trolololololololo
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urbannerd said: trolololololololo
I am trolling and being serious at the same time, this is just my way with words. When I woke up I was feeling seriously suicidal, but I don't even take myself seriously anymore. I do appreciate the comments of mio and zzripz
Edited by Anonymous (08/28/13 03:57 PM)
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VivaLaMushie
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Maybe if you were a tad more nice, you wouldn't hate your life so much.
I hope the days sun rays shine down on your dark soul and make you feel better.
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