I recently searched 'Cannabis oil trip' on google, and found many negative posts on various forums. So Ive decided to share a life changing experience i had on cannabis oil with the world.
About 3 years ago a dear friend of mine (Laura) was diagnosed with cancer. She went through all the regular treatments but with no success. After another 2 years of fighting she made contact with me. She'd read in a few various places that people were using cannabis oil to treat their cancer and was wondering if i could help her find/make some oil. I did a bit of research, contacted a few people and managed to get 2 ounces of medical grade cannabis fittingly named 'LSD' which i used for the extraction.
It was very dark tacky oil, i knew it wouldnt be much but to see all that weed extract to 10-15ml. At this point she was back in hospital, and was planning to use the oil alongside the treatments she was being given. We all kept our hopes up, did everything we could but unfortunately later that month she passed away.
Another month passed and her widowed bf sweetly drove up with a few of her belongings for me to keep as a memory. He also passed me the little jar with the very dark green tar which was the oil that i had extracted. When Laura and I met I was a heavy weed smoker. I'd smoke away all my evenings quite happily. But by this point, when the oil had been handed back to me, I wasnt smoking any more. About 1 year before i knocked it on the head as i was finding the positives which i loved about cannabis (relaxation and the social aspect) were not the same anymore.
Knowing about all the medicinal uses of this oil i thought i'd give it a try. I made a couple of teas, even ate it straight a few times. Never massive amounts, maybe the size of a grain of rice, I got really very high, sometimes edging on uncomfortable but i would lay back with my girl and just vibrate the nights away.
I'd been talking to a fellow freeman online, we'd been giving each other bits of advice on life but had never met. One day he contacted me and said 'I've just had this overwhelming feeling that we have to meet'. I'm incredibly intuitive and generally go along with feelings. So we promptly arranged to meet the next day.
We sat and talked, i made pizza. But as the night went on, i brought out the oil and asked if he'd like a bit. He said yes so i went ahead and wiped my usual dose on a fruit leather, wrapped it up and gave it to him to eat. When i went to make my own leather, i'm not sure what came over me, but i wiped the oil like i would butter to bread, WAY more than my usual dose.
We sat and spoke a bit more in front of the fire, as the effect of the oil started kicking. We both started feeling incredibly high. (fairly usual). But then as the effects were waving in they started gettin really strong for me, i wasnt prepared for this. This man was a guest in my house and I was loosing my ability to hold a conversation. I started to get incredibly scared...almost frantic, like a child. I went to lie down in the other room, and as i lay for 10 minutes or so, I talked myself back round and went back out to keep my new friend company.
So i got back up and started making my way back to the front room where my friend was sat. Suddenly my vision went. My eyes were open, information was coming it, but my brain wasnt processing it as it usually did. It was like i was looking at the world through the eyes of Picasso. I started loosing touch with my body. I would ask him to touch me/hit me as i couldnt feel anything. I mean i could feel it...but not in the same way.
Still frantic like a child i asked if he could hold me, I'm a heterosexual man, but at this point i was so scared it was the only thing that would comfort me. He very sweetly obliged. So we went to my bed and layed down together, clutching each other. Before i knew it reality disintegrated. I completely lost touch with my body and this reality. We may as well been a puddle on the bed. We were both reaching stages of euphoria that neither of us thought possible. MDMA..eat your heart out!
This is where we both experienced death of ego. In this euphoria we completely lost ourselves.
Now i realise why i was so scared before...it wasnt me that was scared...it was ego. Ego was being torn away from me, but through euphoria, and unconditional love for each other, we both let go. We had no name, we had no life, we were just there in that moment vibrating intensely.
As if this wasnt an experience enough, it went even deeper. While deep in this euphoric act there seemed to be build ups and climaxes. But climaxes to what? We would work our way up, then get a little scared and pull back. This cycle seemed to repeat for a few hours, until finally, we let go. And this was the big one, we let go of our thoughts.
From here on, words could easily discredit what we were witness to. We peeled back the last veil of the 3 dimensional reality. All of our senses were completely overwhelmed. The euphoria i was describing before turned into something much more, it became every vibration but amplified to the size of the universe.
We continued to peel back layers. It seemed like a layer of imagination followed by a layer of creativity, followed by some more layers that are beyond words. But the last layer. It was like standing at the foot of the gates of Gods! We pondered for a bit, it may have been an eternity. We felt like we wanted to go through, but We didn't. I'm not sure why we didnt. I believe its because we weren't ready. This is where we RUSHED back into our bodies. Back into the room. 5 hours had past. We were both still incredibly high, but filled with so much love, and a feeling that i'd never had before, Everythings going to be ok.
Its taken me months to put this experience into perspective.
Since this experience i've had a new understanding of the universe and of One. I can never go back to seeing the world as i did before this day...and for that i am truely thankful <3
Peace and love to you <3 xxx
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