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I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. * 5
    #18738977 - 08/21/13 06:16 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Hi guys, it's been a while.

I just got diagnosed with Porphyria a few hours ago, it's what drove King George III mad.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Porphyria

I've been in the hospital for 4 days now, getting massive amounts of morphine sulfate every 3 hours for my pain. The attack has finally stopped and I can function again. It's like I'm coming out of a 9 day long bad trip, I didn't sleep for over 72 hours and when I came into the hospital I was dry heaving constantly and shitting in my pants while in complete psychosis. It has been a very humbling experience to say the least.

The doctor says that I will need to keep a supply of morphine sulfate on hand for the attacks, and be on a low dose of long half-life opiates for the rest of my life.

I've been struggling with this disease and opiate addiction partially due to this for 10 years now. It is a bitter sweet ending to my suffering. I have put so much work into trying to be opiate free, and endured a PTSD-producing amount of pain thinking I was just being a pussy about withdrawing. It is a very comforting feeling to know that I will never be treated like a dope-sick junkie again in the ER when I'm in excruciating pain. As a opiate addict, it would seem that having your doctor tell you that you're going to have to take them for the rest of you life would be a dream come true... But honestly, after all the work I've put into trying to be clean from them, it produces a wide array of emotions inside of me knowing that I will never be able to be truly sober again without being in excruciating pain.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer] * 5
    #18738993 - 08/21/13 06:18 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

im sorry to hear that brother

best of luck on your lifes journey i wish good things to happen to you


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739047 - 08/21/13 06:30 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

:frown: I'll keep you in my thoughts, friend. :heart::inlove3:


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Hellogoodbyedeath]
    #18739077 - 08/21/13 06:39 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I hope you find some peace for your emotions :hug:


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: dontknow] * 1
    #18739094 - 08/21/13 06:45 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Don't worry about addiction op. We're all addicted to something, just roll with the punches the best you can.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: dontknow]
    #18739095 - 08/21/13 06:46 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Yea I'm on suboxone and wish I had opiates that were shorter acting, but I feel like opiates kill the serotonin feeling for me "not sure how to describe that" but its why things get psychedelic like while withdrawing and can be slightly pleasurable in the early early withdrawing phase. But I can understand never being clean from opiates would be depressing.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: crimsonking91]
    #18739184 - 08/21/13 07:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

That really sucks though, sorry man.
Dont know what else to say because that situation just sucks. I would love a lifetime supply of opiates but not at the expense of a illness.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: xbloodwhipx]
    #18739217 - 08/21/13 07:17 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Nice! Lucky asshole!


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739236 - 08/21/13 07:22 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I wish you the best with your management of this condition. Sounds like a rough one. Crazy how the body can just fall apart in a matter of moments, I speak from personal experience as well.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739250 - 08/21/13 07:24 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Rustifer said:
Hi guys, it's been a while.

I just got diagnosed with Porphyria a few hours ago, it's what drove King George III mad.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Porphyria

I've been in the hospital for 4 days now, getting massive amounts of morphine sulfate every 3 hours for my pain. The attack has finally stopped and I can function again. It's like I'm coming out of a 9 day long bad trip, I didn't sleep for over 72 hours and when I came into the hospital I was dry heaving constantly and shitting in my pants while in complete psychosis. It has been a very humbling experience to say the least.

The doctor says that I will need to keep a supply of morphine sulfate on hand for the attacks, and be on a low dose of long half-life opiates for the rest of my life.

I've been struggling with this disease and opiate addiction partially due to this for 10 years now. It is a bitter sweet ending to my suffering. I have put so much work into trying to be opiate free, and endured a PTSD-producing amount of pain thinking I was just being a pussy about withdrawing. It is a very comforting feeling to know that I will never be treated like a dope-sick junkie again in the ER when I'm in excruciating pain. As a opiate addict, it would seem that having your doctor tell you that you're going to have to take them for the rest of you life would be a dream come true... But honestly, after all the work I've put into trying to be clean from them, it produces a wide array of emotions inside of me knowing that I will never be able to be truly sober again without being in excruciating pain.




Feel your pain, had kidney stones for so long I can't even remember it now

They keep coming.. pain is so bad I can't even lay or walk due to it when it is worse
and they affect the whole body, itching, swelling, very dizzy, can't pee, almost like fainting when I drink water, can't speak/understand people after I drink water/walk often etc.

Worst pain in my life, only morphine can fix it, but had no morphine for years...

Nature,houseplants,pets,gardening keeps my mood up though

My best wishes
peace


btw... I got treated like a junkie in the ER too many times...
seems we share that, even though I could only lay down on my stomach due to the pain
docs sent me home without pain pills many times, sometimes with them


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Enjoywho]
    #18739258 - 08/21/13 07:26 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Nice! Lucky asshole!



Meh not really dude, opiates are easy to get off the street it would suck to HAVE to take them because of a illness.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Enjoywho]
    #18739267 - 08/21/13 07:27 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

shit i didnt realize that was a disease


i thought it was a pop-punk song



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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: xbloodwhipx]
    #18739271 - 08/21/13 07:28 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Enjoywho said:
Nice! Lucky asshole!



Meh not really dude, opiates are easy to get off the street it would suck to HAVE to take them because of a illness.




I know man that was my instant reaction from the title. Im sorry op wish there was somethin I could do my friend =(


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739284 - 08/21/13 07:30 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Sending good vibes your way. Does marijuana help at all?


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739285 - 08/21/13 07:31 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Quote:

Rustifer said:
Hi guys, it's been a while.

I just got diagnosed with Porphyria a few hours ago, it's what drove King George III mad.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Porphyria

I've been in the hospital for 4 days now, getting massive amounts of morphine sulfate every 3 hours for my pain. The attack has finally stopped and I can function again. It's like I'm coming out of a 9 day long bad trip, I didn't sleep for over 72 hours and when I came into the hospital I was dry heaving constantly and shitting in my pants while in complete psychosis. It has been a very humbling experience to say the least.

The doctor says that I will need to keep a supply of morphine sulfate on hand for the attacks, and be on a low dose of long half-life opiates for the rest of my life.

I've been struggling with this disease and opiate addiction partially due to this for 10 years now. It is a bitter sweet ending to my suffering. I have put so much work into trying to be opiate free, and endured a PTSD-producing amount of pain thinking I was just being a pussy about withdrawing. It is a very comforting feeling to know that I will never be treated like a dope-sick junkie again in the ER when I'm in excruciating pain. As a opiate addict, it would seem that having your doctor tell you that you're going to have to take them for the rest of you life would be a dream come true... But honestly, after all the work I've put into trying to be clean from them, it produces a wide array of emotions inside of me knowing that I will never be able to be truly sober again without being in excruciating pain.




I would say that sounds like a mixed blessing, but not really. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, it sounds horrible. I'm glad you at least have recourse to medications and a diagnosis and I hope it's smoother sailing in the future.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer]
    #18739610 - 08/21/13 08:32 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

This is sad to hear, I wish you the best man.

:peace:


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Enjoywho]
    #18740106 - 08/21/13 10:13 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Thanks for all the good vibes and well wishes! I just spent a few hours with my lady friend and got my dose of that good good. My nurse is a pretty cool cat about a year younger than I, he got a kick when I pressed the space bar on my laptop as he pushed the plunger full of 8mg morphine sulfate to A Shot In The Arm from Wilco.  :fuckinawesome: 

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VivaLaMushie said:
Sending good vibes your way. Does marijuana help at all?




Yeah, it takes the down just a notch below wanting to off myself level. Helps with the dry heaving too.

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Enjoywho said:
Nice! Lucky asshole!



Meh not really dude, opiates are easy to get off the street it would suck to HAVE to take them because of a illness.




I know man that was my instant reaction from the title. Im sorry op wish there was something I could do my friend =(




My instant reaction was the same, and the inner junkie is giddy as hell. But logic keeps me from being completely happy about this. I was sober, (sober sober, not west side sober) for a number of months late 2012 to early 2013. I loved having my drive back, that feeling of being myself again. But the pain lead me to 'relapse' and here we are.

I function better opiated anyways. I was on suboxone all of 2011, and it was the best year of my life. Had a job, got promoted, was out rock climbing multiple times a week, had a girl, an apartment, etc etc.


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Rustifer] * 1
    #18740168 - 08/21/13 10:32 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I personally blame the homosexuals and anti-gun groups for ruining our freedoms with marijauana


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: indica]
    #18740198 - 08/21/13 10:42 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

lucky ass OP
opiates yum:tee:


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Re: I just found out I will have to be opiated for the remainder of my life. [Re: Doctor Sponge]
    #18740208 - 08/21/13 10:46 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Start a foundation, raise awareness.

Don't know what else to say, but hope you do well.


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