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Ultimate Nightmare Trip
    #18730204 - 08/19/13 10:33 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Acid trip sent me to hell, I was revealed this entire time I have been duped and I am the devil. I thought I could just repent at like age 65 and become a good person and be worthy for heaven..But In reality, I never had a chance at all. I have been trolled into being so confused about what to believe and everyone has been in on it my entire life. Like the truman show, only worse.. Because every aspect of reality is just used to control me. One huge inside joke between (me) and the universe.

I was picked up and I was begging and screaming, pleading for another chance.. Just one last to prove my worthyness, so the trip ended and i got the message...That life is one big trip filled with lies and deceit.. Once I actually die ill be in hell.. No matter what. That was always the plan and taking a trip only showed me the ending.. I am essentially going to hell, for creating my own hell for believing that trip was reality, because you guys will say its all in my head and not real... But thats just a way to numb my truth and get me to think otherwise because well.. It doesnt matter. I cant escape death.

It seemed I was the only living being, and everything else was just a projection. I cant prove it but thats just how it feels.. Its my luck.. There will be no paradise for me. That is just to easy.

How could a trip really let me see all of this madness? How can I be certain it was all because of the drug? My mind cant be that crazy..can it? I was mocked and riddiculed for thinking I couls be saved.. I was tossed right into a fire pit.. I was a dead soul  I couldnt see my body.. I was straight energy being tormented eternally.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18730279 - 08/19/13 10:50 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I kept saying "nooo...nooo...this cant be it...is this for real? mom..." but there never was mom...dad..never was dad...bible....never was a bible...jesus...never existed...no credibility for being saved..

then i seen heaven above me and it was like a vip section to the best after party of all time...everyone there gets to have fun...forever...the party never stops..but i couldnt reach it.. i failed... i failed...

it was all a huge joke and entities were laughing histarically at my demise...


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18730327 - 08/19/13 11:01 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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It seemed I was the only living being, and everything else was just a projection.




I've had that before bud too, and I can assure you that it is you who is my projection! :grin:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: wolf8312]
    #18730341 - 08/19/13 11:06 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I'm glad my bad trip on acid wasn't like this...  Makes me glad i don't do acid anymore...


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Chastity Psilocybe]
    #18730357 - 08/19/13 11:12 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Entities on LSD? 
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Chastity Psilocybe]
    #18730379 - 08/19/13 11:20 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I've had quite a few trips like this and I think a lot of people have. I felt like every person in the world was just some kind of entity testing me my whole life, and I was the only one that was real. I also thought my tripping buddy was the devil and was very mad at me for figuring this out. Its really strange that a lot of people experience this feeling while tripping. I wonder if there's something to it, wether it being somehow the 'truth', or just how the chemicals affect our brains to make us think the same thing. Probably the latter, but very interesting non the less.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: CatchThirtythr33]
    #18730390 - 08/19/13 11:21 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

how is life possible? uggh


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18730417 - 08/19/13 11:28 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Your reality is only a perception of what you believe. If you believe in god and you fear the devil, then its you battling your own fears.
After reading some of your other posts, it seems you are a religious/christian god believing of a person. I don't see how this belief system would work very well with psychedelic drugs.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: mushroomfred]
    #18730475 - 08/19/13 11:48 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

yeah well i had fun on a few shroom trips.. i just had more bad experiences than good..


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18730503 - 08/20/13 12:06 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

If your still feeling this way several days after the trip, I would be concerned honestly.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: huffinglue]
    #18730653 - 08/20/13 01:11 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Then maybe psychedelics aren't your thing? To truly enjoy a trip you need to literally let go of pre determined beliefs and fears. 

I would lay off drugs for a while, gather your senses, and learn something from your past trips.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: mushroomfred]
    #18730658 - 08/20/13 01:14 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)



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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: huffinglue]
    #18730671 - 08/20/13 01:27 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Psychedelics opened me up to whole another world over a year ago after 10 years of experience and i respected them, time and a place always. The world They showed me I never believed in and I'm a skeptic I still am, I need proof of everything to believe its really there. So I went straight no more shrooms or acid, even stopped weed. It still didn't stop entity's manifesting every negative emotion, experience i had in my life all at once, i felt soulless, felt like i would never love again so i got help from high magick, it got them out my house and the person repaired me to an extent some emotions experiences had to stay they were important and apart of who i am, im working through them every day. But I was instantly was floating on cloud 9 after the help. Food never tasted so good, i felt like the air i breathed was like pure bliss.  I also had my house cleansed and magickally locked by this person. And no they didnt charge me a cent.

I have had another 6 encounters with entity's scince then just not at home. Whenever I work away, stay at friends, go on holiday they seem to know that I' have no lock and I'm open vessel ready to be taken for a ride, some are just sad, some are very mischievous and some are just have mean intentions. There tricksters be careful. Don't go down the road if you have a choice, my last straw was when the physical pain started and had bruises for a month. All I can say is try and visualise white light and love, it's the best protection.

I could go on but what I'm trying to say is you know what's really going on when your not under the influence of any drug. Oh and I had my brain scanned and checked out mentally to make sure I wasn't crazy, and a few photos taken of me through this time showed me I wasn't crazy.
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: This_Guy]
    #18730674 - 08/20/13 01:30 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

So OP you going to drop acid again?


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: my3rdeye]
    #18730883 - 08/20/13 04:14 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: CatchThirtythr33]
    #18730893 - 08/20/13 04:23 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

OP it seems like psychedelics are not for you. If I were you I wouldn't take these experiences to heart, and I'd stop taking psychedelics.




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Entities on LSD? 
:justno:





It's very possible. I've had many entity contact experiences on LSD.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Dark_Star]
    #18730980 - 08/20/13 05:37 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

So you are doubting if other exist? Well the answer is you can't know except through the senses. They are all you have. If all sensory input could somehow be stopped, including awareness of gravity , orientation and temperature, your only awareness would be of internal sensation -such as pain from a rotten tooth or breathing chlorine- and the awareness of your thoughts.
If your nerves could be blocked by anaesthetic, you would be left only with your thoughts.
Now suppose this was done to a newborn baby which has no vocabulary, which never sees, hears or feels anything.

Would it be aware at all? Remember, unlike Helen Keller, it could not be taught by external stimulation- there are no sensory channels available.


Would a person exist , from your point of view?

Now think hard. Would you exist from it's point of view?


I don't know the answer to these questions. You are free to decide. My point is that there is no possible way, other than the sensory, through which the questions are even answerable in principle. You do not exist from a cloud's point of view, because it has none.

Some might say that a disconnected mind might know "through the spirit " that others exist- but that would be just as open to the doubts you express about sensory knowledge. How could anyone ever know for sure?

Dr.Johnson's famous rejection of solipsism was to kick a stone, saying "I refute it, thus!" Now as a Scot, I would like to be able to refute a few of Johnson's jibes by applying my boot to his backside in similar vein, but in this case he's right. We either take the world as our common senses tell us it is , or we do not. But if we do not, we will soon be in a sorry pickle.

The supposition that things are real, coupled with the consistency of the supporting evidence, is all we have. It's either that or nothing.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Dark_Star]
    #18731029 - 08/20/13 06:10 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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OP it seems like psychedelics are not for you. If I were you I wouldn't take these experiences to heart, and I'd stop taking psychedelics.




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Entities on LSD? 
:justno:





It's very possible. I've had many entity contact experiences on LSD.





LSD is very confusing when it comes to entites, for me. First, I always felt how Catchthirty felt. I never got close to entity contact with LSD and mocked everyone that claimed to do so. Then I mixed LSD with some spice one day and it totally threw me in a state that nothing ever has. I was told the meaning of life and all that crap.

Moral of the story..any psych can help achieve entity contact if its combined with the right drug and the stars are aligned just right.

But LSD invoking entities on lower doses and just LSD by itself it very farfetched IMHO


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Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
    #18731103 - 08/20/13 07:01 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Jesus_Animal_The said:
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Dark_Star said:
OP it seems like psychedelics are not for you. If I were you I wouldn't take these experiences to heart, and I'd stop taking psychedelics.




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CatchThirtythr33 said:
Entities on LSD? 
:justno:





It's very possible. I've had many entity contact experiences on LSD.





LSD is very confusing when it comes to entites, for me. First, I always felt how Catchthirty felt. I never got close to entity contact with LSD and mocked everyone that claimed to do so. Then I mixed LSD with some spice one day and it totally threw me in a state that nothing ever has. I was told the meaning of life and all that crap.

Moral of the story..any psych can help achieve entity contact if its combined with the right drug and the stars are aligned just right.

But LSD invoking entities on lower doses and just LSD by itself it very farfetched IMHO




Some people's senses are more sensitive than others it's got nothin to do with does levels, people reach entities with nothin more than meditation, its all about activating these senses and unfortunately some people have these senses opened through experiences and cannot shut them again or close the door.:shrug:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: COOKED101]
    #18731117 - 08/20/13 07:09 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

lol negative nancy!


ive had a few hellish experiences....

learned to adjust the vibes or change the set....feel safe, for you will only be in the now. focus on other concepts if death frightens you so much


why not try and integrate that experience?-- by doing 'better' things that you wont go to hell for? psychs are the best teachers, and i think you were trying to teach yourself a lesson


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: anarchris420]
    #18731206 - 08/20/13 07:44 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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lol negative nancy!


ive had a few hellish experiences....

learned to adjust the vibes or change the set....feel safe, for you will only be in the now. focus on other concepts if death frightens you so much


why not try and integrate that experience?-- by doing 'better' things that you wont go to hell for? psychs are the best teachers, and i think you were trying to teach yourself a lesson




I agree with everything you said, set and setting is a must, and they are are great teachers sometimes teach you things you never thought possible.

Negative Nancy, nah bro, I got nothin but time and patience for anyone that needs it and positivity is what's keep my heart strong and my mind healthy, I'm very grateful for everything around me.:cheers:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: mushroomfred]
    #18731218 - 08/20/13 07:48 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Then maybe psychedelics aren't your thing? To truly enjoy a trip you need to literally let go of pre determined beliefs and fears. 





I second this, I've seen death core on here a lot and youre obviously intelligent and observant but I believe you take in what you want to take in. To really benefit from these psychedelic experiences whether they be meditation, sensory deprivation, or breathwork,, or even drugs..you need an open mind.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Agentchewy]
    #18731262 - 08/20/13 08:07 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

OP, sounds to me like what you have there is a bad infestation of your belief systems with monotheistic, dualistic, good/evil, heaven/hell type of thinking. In other words pure crap. You've been spending too much time around Christian spam.

I would recommend you listen to A LOT more Alan Watts, and generally bring some more variation into how you organize your world view. Spring for some Ayahuasca in a real ceremony, you'll hear a very different song about the universe.

Everything the plants ever told and showed me leans towards Hindu, Egyptian or Greek type of thinking. Many gods, many places, big diverse universe. The idea of reality being like an ecosystem. Polytheistic, dynamic, organic, complex, changing and evolving. Trees become food for insects become food for animals and so on and so forth, cyclically, continuously. The eternal symphony. You can say it's all made of shit or all made of wonders and amazing biology and energy transforming. This idea that when your body dies you'll go to one shitty place and stay there forever, that's IMO some pretty ludicrous biblical crap, and you'll be well advised to expand your mind from that sort of thinking.

:hellfire: :satansmoking: Boo :satansmoking:  :hellfire: :lol:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
    #18733279 - 08/20/13 05:21 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Jesus_Animal_The said:
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Dark_Star said:

But LSD invoking entities on lower doses and just LSD by itself it very farfetched IMHO




Pretty sure people have seen them stone cold sober. I don't agree it's DMT only for entities. John Lilly met them on Ketamine. 99 percent of people who see something on LSD likely don't tell everyone either, because no one believes them, its illegal etc. I have found some interesting stories about LSD entities on the internet though. Not seen one myself, but hope to!

Anyway OP despite joking about it I am curious if this was your last trip. I have had the nightmare LSD trip and it took years to get back on that horse. Many low dose trips before going full retard again. You just know the risk now, I know lots of people who decided 50 awesome trips are not worth one nightmare. If you quit you are part of a large majority who decide to just drink, or do blow or meth or pills or whatever drug "adults" do.
Maybe you will go sober and find Jesus I would guess most people named "death core" are rebelling against that sort of upbringing anyway. LSD is going to hit your religion button, or mystical spot or whatever. If you have big internal conflicts in that area I would be careful. I'm an atheist and LSD still puts the fear of God in me.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: my3rdeye]
    #18733513 - 08/20/13 06:24 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

yeah my first trip...

then my second trip was on hella shrooms.. the tv commercials were evil..mocking me and stuff..

i smoked pot today..good super dank.. thoughts were racing. .scared.. told myself im never touching stiff again.. i was gonna get a strip on saturday but during my high i told myself its a trap.. that when im high i know the truth but when im sober my senses are being numbed so i will desire being high..

its messed up..

i feel like i have to trip out to fix my problem..but im afraid it will be a trick that will make me worse..but i gotta..hmm


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18733569 - 08/20/13 06:34 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Dude. Stop all drug intake, eat a healthy diet that consists of a variety of fruits & vegetables, exercise on a daily basis, start meditating on a daily basis...even if it's just 5 minutes a day. Also look into supplementing with n-acetylcysteine. Do this, give it time, and things will improve.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Dark_Star]
    #18733682 - 08/20/13 06:56 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Sounds like paranoia got the best of you. I wouldn't take your experience literally. Maybe you just found the fear that lives inside you.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Eric573]
    #18733845 - 08/20/13 07:27 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

dark, i jog 15 miles a day, im lean, and fit..

that was the only benefit from my bad acid experience.. retrospection... i appreciate life more but i dont think i deserve to be happy or succeed...especially when i know one day it will all vanish... but in the back of my mind...i sense hope...like itll all work out positively in my end...

but with my luck...things always suck..

illuminati, poison, cancer, evil, dying planet, sick societies..etc.. its hard to find pleasure when all there is, is misery...

money is the way of life it seems.. even if i dont revolve around money, the majority of people only crave it and are willing to screw each other over for it and put themselves higher than others.. its sad because i feel all alone on this planet.. i cant trust anyone.. everyone is phony and stupid.. i wish more people were like me.

i love art, nature, and the small things in life.. but being around the filth only makes it hard to "let go" of my fear...

control is in the air...but we all gotta breathe..so to speak


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18734164 - 08/20/13 08:32 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Why don't you read some Winnie the Pooh or The Tao of Pooh? Reading Winnie the Pooh always puts me in a better mood. The stories and writing are hilarious and the characters are interesting to think about. You can be pretentious like Rabbit or Owl, be depressed like Eeyore, scared like Piglet, or you can be like Winnie the Pooh and take it all in stride. Winnie the Pooh doesn't over-think things to the point of obsession.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18734191 - 08/20/13 08:37 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

This could be the antithesis of a unitary transcendent experience, instead of feeling one with the energy/God that pervades the universe, it's a feeling of alienation from an inauthentic universe. I'm not saying this is what happened, I'd just like to explore the possibilities rather than write it off. How would you feel about having divinity, what if this trip reflects your feelings about being divine?

These trips are very difficult to overcome by thinking, they always have their own stream of logic that never yields to reason. Whenever possible I try to internalize the trip within the body, to encourage it to run its course without getting into an argument of sorts that can't be won. I know it's hard to take a step back once the ball gets rolling.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Molybdites]
    #18734230 - 08/20/13 08:45 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

okay its like this...

im trapped internally. its this feeling like i am truman in the truman show.. only the "show" is my existence. Like i am essentially trying to be reassured that everything around me is actually reality, and not just some imaginary run through.

Like I cant find pleasure in anything because nothing is real anyway. Its all in my head... I am communicating with myself right now..because that is what i deserve.. When I panicked I calmed myself down saying "okay im fine, ill call my girlfriend" but then im like "wait a minute shes not real, its just a trick to keep me distracted from the truth"..

yes i have a girlfriend...

So then im like "okay ill listen to some music... okay shit its all an illusion... this isnt working"... I cant escape death... this hell is only the beginning..because its eternal.. i will lose everything i once loved and cherished...only... it was never real to begin with..  im not suicidal but i think im trying my hardest to stay alive so i can avoid my punishment.. i dont deserve bliss or heaven. i deserve hell because i was born.. i try and try to convince myself that i am a good person but its just a lie.. a big loe... because in my heart i only fear hell and dont care about heaven, or god, or jesus or anyone.
because i know this will all be forgotten one day... and its not real in the first place.. its all a joke..

and if religion IS all a lie, then the unanswered question still remains... WHERE DID ALL OF THIS START FROM? HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? WHY AM I "THE ME" OF THIS UNIVERSE.. HOW CAN I PROVE THIS IS MORE THAN A SIMULATION? THE ANSWER IS I CANT.
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18734243 - 08/20/13 08:48 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

"it's a feeling of alienation from an inauthentic universe."

yes.. read my previous post, i wrote that prior to even seeing your post so..very interesting


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    #18734354 - 08/20/13 09:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

I don't know if you have seen the movie "The Believer", but in the end the main character is running up the flights of stairs and the Rabbi calls after him something like "There is nothing there. You won't find anything."

There is no "truth" to anything. Life is amazing in the way things are interconnected. Everything is part of a massive ecosystem working together. But everything is working together towards nothing. There is no end. There is no "intent" in nature. All you can do is be glad that you get to watch the process of life unfold for a short amount of time before your body is broken down and becomes part of some other form, living or not.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Molybdites]
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18734403 - 08/20/13 09:15 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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okay its like this...

im trapped internally. its this feeling like i am truman in the truman show.. only the "show" is my existence. Like i am essentially trying to be reassured that everything around me is actually reality, and not just some imaginary run through.

Like I cant find pleasure in anything because nothing is real anyway. Its all in my head... I am communicating with myself right now..because that is what i deserve.. When I panicked I calmed myself down saying "okay im fine, ill call my girlfriend" but then im like "wait a minute shes not real, its just a trick to keep me distracted from the truth"..

yes i have a girlfriend...

So then im like "okay ill listen to some music... okay shit its all an illusion... this isnt working"... I cant escape death... this hell is only the beginning..because its eternal.. i will lose everything i once loved and cherished...only... it was never real to begin with..  im not suicidal but i think im trying my hardest to stay alive so i can avoid my punishment.. i dont deserve bliss or heaven. i deserve hell because i was born.. i try and try to convince myself that i am a good person but its just a lie.. a big loe... because in my heart i only fear hell and dont care about heaven, or god, or jesus or anyone.
because i know this will all be forgotten one day... and its not real in the first place.. its all a joke..

and if religion IS all a lie, then the unanswered question still remains... WHERE DID ALL OF THIS START FROM? HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? WHY AM I "THE ME" OF THIS UNIVERSE.. HOW CAN I PROVE THIS IS MORE THAN A SIMULATION? THE ANSWER IS I CANT.
im screaming to nobody..





I have asked all the same questions before... The reason you are "THE ME" of this universe is because of this:



We are simply just an equation in the mix of a universe lined with infinite possibilities.

"Like I cant find pleasure in anything because nothing is real anyway. Its all in my head... I am communicating with myself right now..because that is what i deserve.. When I panicked I calmed myself down saying "okay im fine, ill call my girlfriend" but then im like "wait a minute shes not real, its just a trick to keep me distracted from the truth".."

The human condition lies in just the same way the universe lies. Massively intricate with infinite possibilities with the consequence of a fabric of time and space that can only be constructed based on those possibilities...

Did you get the duality? The cause lies in the effect just as much as the effect lies in the cause. All that exists in consciousness is this... -1, 0, and 1. 1 arises from 0 based on the concept of cause to effect. Without an apple to appear before you (cause), you have no perception to the seeing of the apple (effect). Without the perception of the object "You" or "I", don't exist. So from there obviously, -1 is the opposite, or ANTITHESIS to which our mind no matter what has to construct based on the laws of the universe. There are a certain amount of protons in an atom to equal a certain amount of electrons. The duality of the universe. Obviously 0 is the void in which everything arises and will always arise which is the concept of "god".

I was once in your position, lost in the ocean of seeking cause. You feel defeated as if you have no control over the perception you have brought yourself to arise in. You're right. We don't have control over anything because the universe is it's own medium as we are. But that's the very reason you were put into the universe. It's a TEST. THE ULTIMATE TEST. The test in which now have the free choice to break from your chains and become a free ball of energy which you are supposed to be. Let the universe manifest around you(cause), and you do your part to react in the correct and moral way(effect). We are simply the effect of cause in the chain of the universe. Ever heard of your subconscious?....


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: ziggity]
    #18734423 - 08/20/13 09:20 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

hmm..yeah... interesting..thanks for that, ill watch the video..

how do i change my subconscious mind?


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    #18735291 - 08/21/13 12:42 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

nah, don't listen to these guys.
go with the flow in the river of styx man.

watch NEON GENESIS EVANGELION.
you'll get so mind fucked when you finish the series.
you'll be begging to finish what you started here in hell.






MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA :kingtard::onfire:


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    #18735302 - 08/21/13 12:44 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: rikuni]
    #18735326 - 08/21/13 12:52 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

just type a summary, delarge..

yeah sadly im not in europe :frown:


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    #18735343 - 08/21/13 12:58 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

its about a boy who was rejected by his parents, and then he is "used" by his father who abandon him to pilot giant robots to fight angels. (alien monster things)
and because of this abandonment he can no loner allow anyone into his heart.
its very good for people like you and me to watch.

it won't have the same emotional impact unless you watch every episode of the original series with the original ending

and don't watch the movies or remakes.

but yeah its more of an emotional thing. the ending is intellectual, but it won't have the impact or meaning behind it unless you watch the whole series.
its only 27 episodes. I saw it multiple times this year.

it has a large dose of freud references and exploring the mind of a young teenage boy who cannot connect with anyone and it paints a picture of all his failures to connect.


just watch it ok.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18735497 - 08/21/13 02:13 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Dude. Get some Ayahuasca, in a freaking ceremony. Or a Peyote sweat lodge. IMO you need one of them and pretty bad :lol:

Of course commercials sounded evil on shrooms, that's actually true, they ARE evil and you shouldn't be melting your brain watching them. Wth are you doing watching commercial on shrooms?

I've said it before and I'll say it again: try laying off the Christian words and concepts, like hell. They clearly aren't helping you. O yeah, and Alan Watts. Just youtube the guy and listen for a while, or put him on the mp3player as you go jogging. He'll help you chill out more, laugh more and stop taking it all so freaking seriously  :aliendance: :alientransform:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18735609 - 08/21/13 02:51 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

^^ You're recommending to this guy to take the hardest psychedelic on the planet when he's having difficulty with mild trips? I'm not sure that's responsible advice man...

O_O

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    #18735691 - 08/21/13 03:41 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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    #18735693 - 08/21/13 03:42 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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^^ You're recommending to this guy to take the hardest psychedelic on the planet when he's having difficulty with mild trips? I'm not sure that's responsible advice man...

O_O

You won't fix a problem with the same thinking that created a problem.



I'm not recommending a psychedelic. I'm recommending an experience, a ceremony. There's quite a bit of difference IMO. I thought there wasn't, until I actually showed up and saw it for myself. Now I stand corrected :biggrin:


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    #18735771 - 08/21/13 04:24 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Acid trip sent me to hell, I was revealed this entire time I have been duped and I am the devil. I thought I could just repent at like age 65 and become a good person and be worthy for heaven..But In reality, I never had a chance at all. I have been trolled into being so confused about what to believe and everyone has been in on it my entire life. Like the truman show, only worse.. Because every aspect of reality is just used to control me. One huge inside joke between (me) and the universe.

I was picked up and I was begging and screaming, pleading for another chance.. Just one last to prove my worthyness, so the trip ended and i got the message...That life is one big trip filled with lies and deceit.. Once I actually die ill be in hell.. No matter what. That was always the plan and taking a trip only showed me the ending.. I am essentially going to hell, for creating my own hell for believing that trip was reality, because you guys will say its all in my head and not real... But thats just a way to numb my truth and get me to think otherwise because well.. It doesnt matter. I cant escape death.

It seemed I was the only living being, and everything else was just a projection. I cant prove it but thats just how it feels.. Its my luck.. There will be no paradise for me. That is just to easy.

How could a trip really let me see all of this madness? How can I be certain it was all because of the drug? My mind cant be that crazy..can it? I was mocked and riddiculed for thinking I couls be saved.. I was tossed right into a fire pit.. I was a dead soul  I couldnt see my body.. I was straight energy being tormented eternally.





That's one serious case of solipsism. I recommend taking some advise from members here, stop tripping for a while and begin meditation with healthy food and exercise.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Stratman]
    #18736491 - 08/21/13 09:04 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

...

that trip was a long time ago.

i havent tripped in a long time.

its just lingering feelings that wont go away until i die..but when i die im screwed anyway.

im gonna trip again on acid..soon... if it makes me worse, whatever..i think im at rock bottom now..

im a little scared to smoke the rest of this blunt i put out.. whenever i get high im able to remember my trip more and more and i panic.. drink water.. realize its only killing me faster cuz of the fluoride.. tirn on some music.. realize its just a distraction.. turn off music.. which doesnt work... proceed to get more water to calm down.. think of the fluoride.. so i lay down and sleep so itll end..

wake up sober, say it must of been cuz of the weed... but then say thats what i was meant to think...dwell.. then come on here to read threads...

again...im in shape.. i jog every day..many miles.. i work to... im not some junkie.. im just on the right planet at the wrong time in history.. i want the gvt to either rape each other to death, or stop being power tripping bastards..

that makes me think of religion.. and how its all part of the "plan".. life is meant to be this day.. artificial perceptions.. all leading to false solutions..which ultimately lead to death..

everytime i go outside i know were being bombarded with chem trails.. and fucking retards looking for their next fix...and ways to use others..


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18736761 - 08/21/13 10:23 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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its just lingering feelings that wont go away until i die



until you die OR take some nice Ayahuasca in a ceremony :lol:

That's the big RESET button that puts a stop to your self-defeating pessimistic thinking patterns and makes Christmas come again.

You may think in your head that you know what I'm talking about, because you've tripped on your couch before on shrooms and acid. Trust me, you don't. I thought I did too before I did it. I'm recommending a proper Aya ceremony for what you're saying here, because I also used to have thoughts in that direction, I'm futile my life is futile the world is pointless etc. And yes they did go away. If I started having them again, I'd now be very chill about it. I know all I have to do is save up again, fly over to the Netherlands, meet some friends, show up at the Santo Daime church and have some of the good medicine and proper music. I'm quite confident that it will work again, as I've seen it work before. These are solvable problems, if you're willing to put in the work and show up for the cure.

Now you can keep on wishing and hoping and bitching and fearing, or you can try to self-medicate with acid on your couch again, or you can actually do the effective thing: show up to something that's proven to work for centuries, for people with much more severe problems than you happen to have now. Heroin addictions and alcoholism and all that.

I suspect a Peyote sweat lodge would do much of the same, and might be more accessible in your area. But you do have to get out of your comfort zone, maybe travel and connect with some new groups. Does take a bit of effort. IMO meeting some non-Christian Peyote or Ayahuasca takers will do you a lot of good on the theology side as well. Broadens one's perspective.

Also, if you're trolling, then awesome job :lol:

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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18737293 - 08/21/13 12:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

whatever you fucking do.
do not read the bible or watch the matrix.
ESPECIALLY HIGH.


when i get high sometimes, its like i become visible AND EVERYONE CAN SEE ME.

THEY ALL KNOW I BROKE THE RULES OF THE PROGRAM AND I MUST BE DESTROYED!!!






HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!


you got caught.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18737337 - 08/21/13 12:47 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

delarge is trolling. Im not trolling. Im just a confused individual who trys to rationalize my thoughts but no matter how much i try to convince myself, it seems like its all one big trap... like all of this could be an illusion.. if you say its not, its only part of the illusion.. and im only talking to myself...

fuck it.. i got nothing left to lose.. how much money do i need? im from the east coast.


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    #18737438 - 08/21/13 01:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

You seem scared of the entrapment of time...

Yes, you a trapped in an unforgivable void or matrix in which you have no choice but to PARTICIPATE. When you wake up, do you have to somehow reprogram your eyes to start seeing, your fingers to start feeling, or your nose to start smelling? No. You're seeking answers which can only be achieved by DOING. You won't drink tap water from a faucet because you know it's poisoned with flouride to slowly deteriorate your body. That's the test. You now know the truth, so you need to use the truth to your advantage. Go get a water distillation system from Lowe's or Home Depot for $10.

I'm trying to use examples YOU have used to help benefit YOUR consciousness...

Consciousness(now) = Planck's constant * Frequency of surrounding atmosphere.

You have no power and you have no choice. But the minute you make this realization, you are now empowered to BRING ABOUT POWER AND BRING ABOUT CHOICE IN YOUR LIFE. The answer lies in the journey just as much as the journey is embedded in the answer. Without the journey, you have no answer. Without the wanting of an answer, you have no journey...

That's the TEST. THE ULTIMATE TEST. You have been given something from nothing but yet you keep wondering what that nothing is. Well the nothing is YOU TESTING YOU. You will never achieve anything by constantly doubting yourself. I suggest you look into philosophy topics such as SKEPTICISM, etc. I once read a book called "The Vocation of Man" by Johann Fichte. You have to have faith that your actions will lead you to an answer. you are seeking an answer without a journey believing that it will just come right to you and then time will suddenly disappear and you will be in some everlasting heaven which you love. No. It's not like that at all. Without the beauty and pride of the journey, you have no answers to seek.

You say you are in a hell. We are not in a hell one bit. If you begin to understand that you have no control over the cause but all control over the effect then you will begin to realize just how beautiful life actually is. Most people would consider me insane to say that I find war, violence, mind control, governments, etc. to one of the most intricately beautiful subjects to explore. I find it all beautiful. A man being murdered because of his beliefs? That's fascinating as to how and why would someone react in such a way. What chemical reaction inside the brain caused the very instance of death to be present in the situation.

And to the opposite. Peace, Love, Joy, etc. are all just as beautiful and fascinating topics. How do two humans instantly "connect" subconsciously and form a bond which can never be broken even through thick and thin? Why is it that you are happy when you are surrounded by happy people and sad when you are surrounded by sad people?

It's all an equation which YOU HAVE PUT YOURSELF TO SOLVE. NOW STOP BITCHING ABOUT DYING AND START LIVING... When you die you will find out what it all meant. But you have only so much time to actually IMMERSE YOURSELF INTO THE GAME OF LIFE. PLAY THE GAME JUST LIKE WE ALL HAVE TO....


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18737440 - 08/21/13 01:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

lol seriously thought dude.

just dive right in to hell.

you'll realize the beauty of the void.
fucking all that satanic heavy metal satan/hell worship shit IS ALL ABOUT how awesome hell is once you give in to your true desire.

to be satan.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18737492 - 08/21/13 01:26 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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    #18737498 - 08/21/13 01:28 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

yeah thats actually a pretty good idea.

and remember if everything is a lie, than that too must be a lie.
and if there is no dark or light, then there are only stars in a sky.
and the sun will always come again. and then you KNOW in your heart,
that even if everything goes completely dark, nothing will keep you two apart.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18737507 - 08/21/13 01:31 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

@ziggity - what you say makes sense. yes i am scared because i dont even remember my first moments of realizing I am here. My earliest memory was at like 4-5 years old. i had to be programmed by stupid adults and influenced by stupid children taught by other stupid adults..

I wont draw this out but I wish I could be more than me even for 5 seconds.. that way ill know there is more to life than me.

@delarge - i dont wanna be satan. deathcore is deathmetal with groove/punk/melodic elements, lyrical themes are disguises for the shit this planet harbors and the evil men and their puppets addinh to it. I wish satan would leave existence, I wish peace was in ever direction.. forever.


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    #18737535 - 08/21/13 01:39 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

the only pain you're gonna face is being all alone.

everything else will be ok.


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    #18737632 - 08/21/13 02:02 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

i face that everyday


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18737800 - 08/21/13 02:29 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

dude the void gets me so fucking horny. ):
its so lonely in space.


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    #18737835 - 08/21/13 02:33 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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@ziggity - what you say makes sense. yes i am scared because i dont even remember my first moments of realizing I am here. My earliest memory was at like 4-5 years old. i had to be programmed by stupid adults and influenced by stupid children taught by other stupid adults..



We're homo sapiens mate, that means we're actually quite smart compared to most other things on this planet. Now true, we could learn a lot from say, dolphins, fuck more, swim more, have fun have orgies and eat a lot of fresh fish, but by and large being even a poorly educated homo sapiens is a lot more interesting than being a tree in the forest or a piece of volcanic rock. This also happens to be WHY you're not a tree in the forest or a piece of volcanic rock at the moment, although you used to be one at some point.

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I wont draw this out but I wish I could be more than me even for 5 seconds.. that way ill know there is more to life than me.



There is. That's what the ceremonies are for. They help you see your place in the greater pattern. Hear your voice within the much larger symphony, see exactly how it fits in and what else there is outside. These things are very easily lost and forgotten in the city, during the drudgery of daily work and life in concrete rectangular boxes. Show up, drink the potion, listen to the songs for 7 hours and you WILL be restored to balance. Your chemistry will change, your understanding will change, your world will change.

Someone above recommended Peru. I will also point out Santo Daime and Uniao do Vegetal from Brazil. Same potion different style. They do ceremonies in larger groups. I recommend these as they're what I've tested so far so I know them to work first hand. I also plan to go the Peruvian way as well, but that's not what I had in my area. Peru and the shamans are definitely a great way to do it, both ways are miles ahead of you alone with some LSD on the couch.

How much money you need is not clear yet. I live in Europe, I had to find a way to do it from here. If you're in the US, you have to do your own searching and Googling. You're certainly much closer to the real things in Brazil and Peru. Also you have the Native American Church over there. For all we know they could have sweat lodges in your back yard, close to your city, and if you never seeked them out you wouldn't know about it. Where I go to take my Ayahuasca, in the Netherlands, most people have no idea that it exists, what it can do, or that it's available for the price of a large pizza right in their local church. I have to take 2 flights to get there. :shrug: The country has a lot of Heroin addicts that could very well use it to help with their addiction, but it's as of yet largely unknown. Now you know. You've been told about it. Google that stuff and learn about it. See the research if you need to. It does pay off like nothing else, but it's your pilgrimage, you need to show up and make it. Most of the costs are travel related, the ceremony shouldn't cost an arm and a leg. With the Santo Daime it's like $40. Other groups or solo organizers charge hundreds or even thousands (for week-long retreats, room & board included). I went and got it as cheap as I could get it, from a reliable source. The Santo Daime people have some Christian spam in there, some cheap useless Jesus imagery and prayers, but they sing in Portuguese for most of the ceremony so you can just ignore the text completely. The potion and the music will work with you, not the :facepalm: Christian lyrics. I have a few trip reports from the Santo Daime experiences, you're welcome to read 'em if you feel inclined.

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@delarge - i dont wanna be satan. deathcore is deathmetal with groove/punk/melodic elements, lyrical themes are disguises for the shit this planet harbors and the evil men and their puppets addinh to it. I wish satan would leave existence, I wish peace was in ever direction.. forever.



Take it easy with teh Satan imagery my friend, it's all empty marketing. There is no such animal :lol:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18737886 - 08/21/13 02:44 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

wait till he finds out jesus and satan are the same person, with a schizophrenic personality...

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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18738631 - 08/21/13 05:00 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

i always read a decent post from spacerific followed by junk from delarge.. i had that thought on my bad trip.. only it was satan that creates.. and all religions are his creations.. thats why im so messed up, because hell is one blink away..

ill research on the travel costs.. thanks


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    #18738823 - 08/21/13 05:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

dude, no one really goes to hell until they are ready.
maybe it was just your time to hatch and become a transcendental entity like satan.
an angel in the fires of heaven, where your heart is turned to stone, but the world is your body.

god has been holding your hand this whole time, and you asked for more time, so he is letting you prepare. most times he just lets go and you are left to figure out whats going on for yourself.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18738922 - 08/21/13 06:04 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

everyones ready for hell because we all are evil..

playing video games and fucking like animals, lusting for distance that we can never reach, filling our wallets and debt driven slavery banks with paper money...

is there anyway to be saved?


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    #18738948 - 08/21/13 06:10 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

when you're pure of heart.
you realize good is evil and EVIL IS GOOD!

what you need to do is be MORE EVIL.
destroy all boundaries.

only when you start to flicker through to total oblivion through  the power of imagination alone, will it be time to stop. Then you will become a bhudda.


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18738975 - 08/21/13 06:15 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

nah id rather be nice and in hell than evil in heaven


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    #18738987 - 08/21/13 06:17 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

but being nice and good is being evil remember...

and being evil is when you're really being good.

if its all a joke, like you said.
then its time for you to be a clown. :clown:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Delarge]
    #18739000 - 08/21/13 06:19 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

more like a jester...

i think im just gonna live the rest of my life entertaining the illusion around me


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    #18739158 - 08/21/13 07:04 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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Dark_Star said:
Dude. Stop all drug intake, eat a healthy diet that consists of a variety of fruits & vegetables, exercise on a daily basis, start meditating on a daily basis...even if it's just 5 minutes a day. Also look into supplementing with n-acetylcysteine. Do this, give it time, and things will improve.




^ listen to this guy. he knows what he's talking about, and i totally agree. i'm in the same boat. i love psychedelics and have tripped on LSD hundreds of times, with one hellish trip a couple years ago. 

i keep thinking i need psychedelic experiences, and feeling like i need to keep chasing enlightenment or a spiritual cleansing, both of which i've already had numerous times. the key is to implement what you have learned and experienced from psychedelics into your daily life and behaviors and choices. don't get all hung up on what "reality" is.  nobody knows.  know that you are alive, and that you control reality.

i agree with dark star about stopping, or at least taking a break from, psychedelics. perhaps they are not for you. LSD isn't for everybody.  get back to the basics. eat healthy. meditate. live in the now. be mindful without judgment. and YES, N-Acetylcysteine, has been highly recommended to me for a variety of reasons. it helps the mitochondria function better, and assists with pot withdrawal, irritability, and is a grounding antioxidant. i take it on and off, although i should be taking it daily. start off with 500-600mg daily, then work your way up to 1200mg a day for a few weeks, then after a while a good daily dose is 2400mg.

there are studies to show its efficacy

anyway, like i said, i am a well seasoned tripper, and always hesitate before dropping LSD, which likely means i need to take a break, and i only eat it about once a year nowadays.  i might need to take a couple years off at LEAST. listen to others and most importantly, listen to yourself. LSD can take you far out there, whether or not you use it frequently. i used to believe i was Jesus Christ, a prophet, etc. and once i slowed it down, i became grounded and laughed at how spaced out i was.  gotta stay grounded once you come back. good luck to ya


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: crispy86]
    #18739167 - 08/21/13 07:07 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Would recommend

nature+psytrance for any lsd/mushroom trip

almost impossible to get a bad trip in those settings for me
got some good psytrance in my journal that give good mood  and let you go deep (1hr+ good mixes)

btw. I've had my share of bad trips, but as long as you upgrade more than you downgrade you should be ok :-)
I prefer not to talk about them, but I had no problem tripping after them
(anybody that has tripped mushrooms has had a bad trip almost, they're pretty bad, but you get over them luckily)

After my worst bad trip I took a long break, several months.. only trip when you feel ready

peace


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18739171 - 08/21/13 07:08 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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dark, i jog 15 miles a day, im lean, and fit..

that was the only benefit from my bad acid experience.. retrospection... i appreciate life more but i dont think i deserve to be happy or succeed...especially when i know one day it will all vanish... but in the back of my mind...i sense hope...like itll all work out positively in my end...

but with my luck...things always suck..

illuminati, poison, cancer, evil, dying planet, sick societies..etc.. its hard to find pleasure when all there is, is misery...

money is the way of life it seems.. even if i dont revolve around money, the majority of people only crave it and are willing to screw each other over for it and put themselves higher than others.. its sad because i feel all alone on this planet.. i cant trust anyone.. everyone is phony and stupid.. i wish more people were like me.

i love art, nature, and the small things in life.. but being around the filth only makes it hard to "let go" of my fear...

control is in the air...but we all gotta breathe..so to speak




i have a lot of similar feelings, but you gotta let go of what you can't control, and take control of the things you can.

believe me, there a LOTS of people out there like you...sounds like i'm one of them, and i'm some random guy online who wanted to help you out and connect. you will find them, or they will find you. be patient and live in the moment


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    #18739179 - 08/21/13 07:09 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

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crispy86 said:
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Deathcore said:
dark, i jog 15 miles a day, im lean, and fit..

that was the only benefit from my bad acid experience.. retrospection... i appreciate life more but i dont think i deserve to be happy or succeed...especially when i know one day it will all vanish... but in the back of my mind...i sense hope...like itll all work out positively in my end...

but with my luck...things always suck..

illuminati, poison, cancer, evil, dying planet, sick societies..etc.. its hard to find pleasure when all there is, is misery...

money is the way of life it seems.. even if i dont revolve around money, the majority of people only crave it and are willing to screw each other over for it and put themselves higher than others.. its sad because i feel all alone on this planet.. i cant trust anyone.. everyone is phony and stupid.. i wish more people were like me.

i love art, nature, and the small things in life.. but being around the filth only makes it hard to "let go" of my fear...

control is in the air...but we all gotta breathe..so to speak




i have a lot of similar feelings, but you gotta let go of what you can't control, and take control of the things you can.

believe me, there a LOTS of people out there like you...sounds like i'm one of them, and i'm some random guy online who wanted to help you out and connect. you will find them, or they will find you. be patient and live in the moment





You can't change the world with money/status/politics, but you can change it by changing yourself

Politics are only temporary, but your soul lives on in others


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: lessismore]
    #18740176 - 08/21/13 10:35 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Satan, good and evil, heaven and hell and salvation again :facepalm: Salvation from what? Zee Germans? :lol:

Somebody wasted A LOT of psychedelics and learned very little from what they had to say.

Ok Deathcore, you're right. Satan is real, out to get you and all of us, the planet is fucked and dying and we're obviously a bunch of useless consumerist zombies bound to go to the same "hell" you're going to. At least we'll be able to continue this thread forever until the end of time and then some.

Oh and apparently we're bad people for wanting to mate with our respective species, because yeah. It feels good so we should feel guilty about liking it because we're undeserving sinners. Please continue to torment yourself with this type of mumbo jumbo, it really works well to improve your every day experience. Write again, this time in more detail, about how you're going to hell and Satan is after you and you need salvation really bad (but can't get it). Really dwell on this crap and spend more time analyzing it at length. See if you can give yourself panic attacks, an ulcer, any kind of stress-related illness really, otherwise you're just wasting your time.

:popcorn:

Also, try some self-flagellation, it builds character.

Also avoid stand up comedy and laughter in general, playing with children and animals, spending quality time with your lady. That's obviously empty and pointless because we're all going to hell anyway. Avoid art too, it's no use. And stay away from frisbees.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'll go sacrifice to :satansmoking:
I'm evil and depraved and my soul is hopelessly corrupted, so I kinda have to :lol:



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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18740343 - 08/21/13 11:37 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

im not trying self-flagellation... during a trip, i attempted it but it was all in my head..

i think tripping is really another life time, lifes one long trip with universal rules so maybe taking psyces arent something we all should do. it literally opens more parts of your brain, maybe we were always alive..

im going to bed..not that itll help.. your post scared me bro..


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18740346 - 08/21/13 11:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago)

so in reality...right here..right now..i know the truth and im just talking to myself..its sneaky
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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Deathcore]
    #18740430 - 08/22/13 12:02 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Get yourself some Aya dude, or like someone else said, lay off the trips for a while. Either will work, just try to move away from the Christian world view that's now messing with your head.

I hear Pastafarianism is really great :lol:


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18740494 - 08/22/13 12:28 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

this is more than Christianity..this is a whole new level of thinking... its like a mind fuck..


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Re: Ultimate Nightmare Trip [Re: Spacerific]
    #18740821 - 08/22/13 03:28 AM (10 years, 5 months ago)

Did you know satanist is to live as your senses?:wink:

Good way to serve the wrong lord
But to each their own, desires all the time do no good for me

If people didnt live as their thoughts/desires/emotions there would be no evil in the world
Desires give more desires, attachment, frustration

Better to have no desire


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