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Absent Minded



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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#18756399 - 08/25/13 06:29 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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1. I'm pretty unconcerned with the things the majority of the populace is concerned about, i.e. material objects, very high paying job, 5 kids, house in suburbia, etc., and because of it, people seem to think I'm lazy and directionless.
2. I find it hard to open up (truly open up) to people unless I have know them for a very, very close time and we are extremely good friends. For example, my best friend tells me everything going on in his life, whereas I am pretty much a sealed vault - I keep to myself about most things.
3. I'm 21 and I've never been in a serious, long term relationship with a girl. In fact I've never even really hooked up with a girl for longer than a month.
4. I'm extremely passionate about many things in life, but again, tying back in to number 2, tend to keep it to myself. People think I have no passions in life because I'm not constantly blabbing on about them.
5. My dog is pretty close to dying, and although I think now that I won't have a problem with it and accepting it, I'm honestly not sure... I really love that guy, I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself when he passes.
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Absent Minded]
#18756635 - 08/25/13 07:22 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Masked said: 2. So far, I haven't been able to experience the same emotional response as friends and family when a close family member/friend dies.....I can sense and feed of emotions easly, so I feel much more hurt seeing the people hurt around me. SO MUCH pain, it hurts for me to see people like that. I rarely go to funerals
I'm the same exact way and I've thought about that many times. I used to feel guilty about not being grief-stricken,......I feel like I suck at expressing my condolences and all I can manage to spit out is something generic sounding, which I feel like is a slap in the face to the person because I couldn't come up with anything better to say. 
All of that was pretty much as if the words were right out of my mouth....I know how that goes.
I mean I do have deep emotional responses to (certain) things, I just don't really express it, or show it, and if I do it's in a completely different way than others. For example, when I was younger and the times I got a really awesome present for Christmas or a birthday, I had no clue how to show how stoked I was, so I'd just say thank you with maybe a smirk on my face at most. Then I'd feel bad because I thought the person that got it for me would feel bad since I didn't appear excited or as if I liked the gift, when in reality I was uber super stoked.
I feel like I'm hyper empathetic in a way, I feel a lot I just don't know how to react to or show it. Walking into a room full of people feels like I'm picking up on the collective feeling of everyone....Looking at someone in the eyes is a huge sensory/emotional overload for me, picking up every tiny movement of their face and feeling as if I'm feeling everything that person is feeling at the moment. I damn near never give eye contact, it's too intimate of an experience for me....makes job interviews a huge fail for me .
I feel like I have a rich internal experience but on the outside I likely come across dull and expressionless...all through out school and most of my life I've been asked "What's wrong?" or "Why do you always look stoned?"...when I'm actually feeling just fine and didn't start smoking until after I was done with school...I just don't feel the need to express everything I'm feeling or I do it in ways that people don't pick up on.
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Absent Minded said: 1. I'm pretty unconcerned with the things the majority of the populace is concerned about, i.e. material objects, very high paying job, 5 kids, house in suburbia, etc., and because of it, people seem to think I'm lazy and directionless.
2. I find it hard to open up (truly open up) to people unless I have know them for a very, very close time and we are extremely good friends. For example, my best friend tells me everything going on in his life, whereas I am pretty much a sealed vault - I keep to myself about most things.
4. I'm extremely passionate about many things in life, but again, tying back in to number 2, tend to keep it to myself. People think I have no passions in life because I'm not constantly blabbing on about them.
Yup....This too 
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Absent Minded] 1
#18756685 - 08/25/13 07:30 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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1. I've been dating a Chinese girl for almost 5 years and I'm not even that into Asian women. It just sort of happened. She lived in China until she was 6 and moved here.
2. I'm a push over and am way too nice to people. People take advantage of that a lot of times and I know it's happening but I can't help it. It's just the way I am. The way a lot of guys joke around by being dicks to each other is completely foreign to me. I just don't know how to participate in it and it alienates me.
3. I go through life passively and just let whatever happen happen. For instance I ended up going to engineering school and became an engineer by a totally andorandom series of events. Now I realize that I see my job as trivial and a waste of life. All I want to do now is make music but can't because of loans I have to pay off.
4. I make friends with the weirdest people even though I'm socially a pretty normal guy. I can just see past people's flaws I guess. It makes me feel good to hangout with people who literally have no friends and introduce them to my friends.
5. I played guitar and practiced every day for 5 years before I started to play in a band setting. I've always been really self conscious about my playing but my biggest dream is to become a great player.
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The Nutter



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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: searching]
#18756719 - 08/25/13 07:36 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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5. I played guitar and practiced every day for 5 years before I started to play in a band setting. I've always been really self conscious about my playing but my biggest dream is to become a great player.
Good luck with that 
I played for a solid 8 or 9 years every day, wrote songs, wrote lyrics, recorded tons of original material. For the last 4 or 5 years, I don't play every day, but still keep with it.
going on 13 years, I also am a closet, solo musician still
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Masked]
#18756751 - 08/25/13 07:43 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah it's still fun even just doing it for yourself. But I'm finally with a band and I wrote and recorded my first full song ever recently. Now we have about 4 or 5 songs almost done. So it's going good so far.
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Masked]
#18756800 - 08/25/13 07:56 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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1) I'm a throat punching enthusiast. Not a common trend these days.
2) I've been to incarcerated. Before you ask, it didn't happen.
3) I'm a Taoist... or at least I try to live my life in a Taoist way. Easier said than done.
4)I used to be pretty good at BMX'ing but I couldn't keep doing it when I started to have hip problems from martial arts. Miss biking.
5) I'm usually very anti-social. Don't enjoy human contact. Looking for jobs is the worse... a fear of rejection? I think so.
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: ShroomPuncher]
#18756818 - 08/25/13 08:01 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Masked]
#18756846 - 08/25/13 08:13 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Absent Minded



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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: ShroomPuncher]
#18756906 - 08/25/13 08:31 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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ShroomPuncher said: 1) I'm a throat punching enthusiast. Not a common trend these days.
2) I've been to incarcerated. Before you ask, it didn't happen.
3) I'm a Taoist... or at least I try to live my life in a Taoist way. Easier said than done.
4)I used to be pretty good at BMX'ing but I couldn't keep doing it when I started to have hip problems from martial arts. Miss biking.
5) I'm usually very anti-social. Don't enjoy human contact. Looking for jobs is the worse... a fear of rejection? I think so.
punching throats... and shrooms? man you should get your anger problem checked out
and miss biking? fuck that, get back out there. I'm sure you could still go to parks and do some easy stuff, hit the hips/boxes/etc unless by bmx you mean the big ass dirt and trail riding, then I can see the hip problems coming into play
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: ShroomPuncher]
#18756935 - 08/25/13 08:38 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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1. I can not hold on to anger. People will even mad at me for not getting "mad" in times that I should. I just can't hold judges, or anything for long. I can't regret things for more than a few hours. I have to move on, my mind can not comprehend that feel of hate, regret, anger, madness. Although I do feel sadness, despair, other negative feelings. I can totally get mad, but it is ony towards others. Brought on by sympathy or empathy.
2. I live for others, I very little acknowledge myself. I feel for others more than myself. Like said above, I can't rap my head around having much of an ego. I can't say I'm egoless, or perfect. Or that I have it all together. I can't do that, I'm nothing but a human. So I'm having a hard time even righting qualities about myself. I don't have much sense of self. I am nothing but anoter human like yourself. I don't stand out, other people stand out. And that's why I love for.
3. I am content doing nothing I can lay around by myself, but I prefer the company of others. I don't talk much, I don't care for small talk much at all. I am totally fine sitting in silence. That silence people claim as "awkward" is much rather get a feel for vibes, than chat about nonsense like "how's the weather?" We'll we are feeling it aren't we, "blah blah blah" yeah I know just listen to this. I'm no introvert, but doing nothing is quite compelling. Maybe I just do too many drugs.
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: Absent Minded]
#18756947 - 08/25/13 08:40 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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this thread is very interesting to read.
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Re: 5 unique things about you yourself and selfyou. [Re: openmind]
#18756962 - 08/25/13 08:43 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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For my number 4, I don't think I could put it much better than open mind has.
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