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245willow19

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Help!
#18714779 - 08/16/13 01:44 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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I seriously don’t know what is wrong with me. For a year I thought I was schizophrenic or something. These antidepressants aren’t working at all. I am finally coming off Olanzapine because I no longer need them and I’ve gained so much weight. I suffered a mental breakdown a year ago and experienced a psychotic episode. I need serious help before I do something really fucking stupid and rue it
Anyway I go through these phases of hyperactive craziness where I jump up and down and spin around and make loud irritating noises and punch walls and even attack people (I can’t help myself. I feel like I am going insane). This phase usually lasts about a few hours or so and then I spiral down into a vortex of despair and feel depressed for the rest of the day or week or even month and contemplate suicide and do unsound things to my body. I am mostly sober, no opiates, or cannabis or alcohol but I still feel weird and out of control. My behaviour is out of control and my forebears and friends don’t know what to do with me. They think I am just acting or taking too much drugs but I cannot help myself
I need help, some serious fucking help before something bad happens. From time to time, I suffer anxiety attacks where I twitch and feel light headed and can’t breathe properly for a moment. The doctors, well, my consultant psychiatrist doesn’t know exactly what is wrong with me and I am just left here undiagnosed, waiting for my life to get better when in reality It feels like it is only getting worse. What are my options? Do you think I should change psychiatrist? What mental illness do you think I have? Am I normal? I am calling for aid because I want to get better, but nobody is helping me at all and I feel so worthless and alone . I can't focus on studies and often have no energy so I just stay in my bedroom and try sleep.
Edited by 245willow19 (08/16/13 02:12 PM)
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Taybs
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: 245willow19]
#18714799 - 08/16/13 01:49 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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i hate suggesting this but try eatin some shrooms ... they always make me happy and motivated
surround yourself with awesome friends too
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: 245willow19]
#18714807 - 08/16/13 01:51 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sounds like you suffer from Manic-Depressive Bi-Polar Disorder. You might want to mention to your doctor the mood swings from crazy energetic to unbearably depressed. Those are tell tale signs that you're having a Manic episode, or a Depressive episode. A few months on some anti-psychotics helped clear it up for me. Now I'm just straight chillin'.
I genuinely hope you find some peace in this world Esekon. No one should have to suffer in silence.
Worst comes to worst, do what I did. Admit yourself into a Mental Hospital. Changed my life, that's for sure. I'll never look at mental illness the same way.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: Taybs]
#18714808 - 08/16/13 01:51 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Stop typing things out in one massive chunk.
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245willow19

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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: HeyImShroomy]
#18714815 - 08/16/13 01:53 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sounds like you suffer from Manic-Depressive Bi-Polar Disorder. You might want to mention to your doctor the mood swings from crazy energetic to unbearably depressed. Those are tell tale signs that you're having a Manic episode, or a Depressive episode. A few months on some anti-psychotics helped clear it up for me. Now I'm just straight chillin'.
I genuinely hope you find some peace in this world Esekon. No one should have to suffer in silence.
Worst comes to worst, do what I did. Admit yourself into a Mental Hospital. Changed my life, that's for sure. I'll never look at mental illness the same way.
I have mentioned it several times, but nothing happens, he just takes down some notes and nods his head . A few months on anti-psychotic helped me to some extent, but didn't solve the problem. I have too much energy at night and too little energy in the day
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: Taybs]
#18714821 - 08/16/13 01:54 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Taybs said: i hate suggesting this but try eatin some shrooms ... they always make me happy and motivated
Terrible advice. You need to see another psychiatrist man.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: Constantine]
#18714833 - 08/16/13 01:57 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Constantine said:
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Taybs said: i hate suggesting this but try eatin some shrooms ... they always make me happy and motivated
Terrible advice. You need to see another psychiatrist man.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: ModestMouse]
#18714848 - 08/16/13 02:01 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sounds like you should start excersizing.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: Constantine]
#18714851 - 08/16/13 02:02 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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You sound like you are at a breaking point. Don't allow yourself to get there Esekon. It's a dangerous mindset to be in.
If the Doctor's are not helping, and you are out of options, hospitalization is probably your best bet. It was incredibly hard for me to admit I needed help, but I would have taken my life or someone elses if I didn't get the help I properly needed.
Checking yourself into a hospital PROVES to the doctors that you need legitimate help, or your safety and the safety of those around you could be jeopardized. And maybe you need what I needed, a change in perspective.
After I saw the people who suffer from debilitating mental illnesses, I wasn't so worried about mine anymore. My suffering was intense to me, but it was nothing like what some others go through. I gained a lot of insight and knowledge in the two weeks that I stayed there. By the time I walked out, smelled the fresh air again, and lit up a cig, I knew I was a different man. Not because of the meds they gave me, but because of the experience itself.
You my Friend, need a life changing experience.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: ModestMouse]
#18714856 - 08/16/13 02:02 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: Sounds like you should start excersizing.
I violently bang my head against the pillow for hours to get rid of some of my energy and often go for walks or cycles around my town for a few hours during the night.
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You sound like you are at a breaking point. Don't allow yourself to get there Esekon. It's a dangerous mindset to be in.
If the Doctor's are not helping, and you are out of options, hospitalization is probably your best bet. It was incredibly hard for me to admit I needed help, but I would have taken my life or someone elses if I didn't get the help I properly needed.
Checking yourself into a hospital PROVES to the doctors that you need legitimate help, or your safety and the safety of those around you could be jeopardized. And maybe you need what I needed, a change in perspective.
After I saw the people who suffer from debilitating mental illnesses, I wasn't so worried about mine anymore. My suffering was intense to me, but it was nothing like what some others go through. I gained a lot of insight and knowledge in the two weeks that I stayed there. By the time I walked out, smelled the fresh air again, and lit up a cig, I knew I was a different man. Not because of the meds they gave me, but because of the experience itself.
You my Friend, need a life changing experience.
If I check in to the loony bin, it would seriously prevent me from getting a future job because they'll think I am a risk and a fucking nutter. I am at breaking point at the moment and my list of options is growing very thin . Nothing is working and this is a cry for help...I ain't looking for attention...just options and a way to get some aid before I do something
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: 245willow19]
#18714905 - 08/16/13 02:17 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Aren't you addicted to drugs?
Step 1: Stop intake of ALL drugs. Step 2: Start exercising Step 3: See another doctor
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: 245willow19] 1
#18715006 - 08/16/13 02:46 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Esekon Kelly said: If I check in to the loony bin, it would seriously prevent me from getting a future job because they'll think I am a risk and a fucking nutter. I am at breaking point at the moment and my list of options is growing very thin . Nothing is working and this is a cry for help...I ain't looking for attention...just options and a way to get some aid before I do something
My friend, Doctor/Patient Confidentiality exists for a reason. No employer can look up your medical history and see that you've been to a mental hospital. Trust me, my life got a hell of a lot better after I went there.
I'm 21, a highschool drop out with no GED, no college experience whatsoever, and I still make more than $20,000 a year. Do you know why? Because I quit bitching about my problems, and took control of them. Once I realized that no one can help me but myself, my life totally turned around.
If I can do it Esekon, I KNOW you can. Drop your pride for a moment, and look at what is best for you in the NOW, not the future.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: pwnasaurus]
#18715085 - 08/16/13 03:13 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: vinsue]
#18715231 - 08/16/13 03:50 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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get off opiates and then see whats up
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245willow19

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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: Led Zeppelin]
#18715286 - 08/16/13 04:03 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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get off opiates and then see whats up
I am off opiates forever now. No more.
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My friend, Doctor/Patient Confidentiality exists for a reason. No employer can look up your medical history and see that you've been to a mental hospital. Trust me, my life got a hell of a lot better after I went there.
I'm 21, a highschool drop out with no GED, no college experience whatsoever, and I still make more than $20,000 a year. Do you know why? Because I quit bitching about my problems, and took control of them. Once I realized that no one can help me but myself, my life totally turned around.
If I can do it Esekon, I KNOW you can. Drop your pride for a moment, and look at what is best for you in the NOW, not the future.
Sometimes I just need a and everything becomes all right. Thanks for your advice. If I feel like I am a danger to myself or others, I will check in to loony bin asap, alright.
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Aren't you addicted to drugs?
Step 1: Stop intake of ALL drugs. Step 2: Start exercising Step 3: See another doctor
Sorry I ain't a drug addict.
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Re: I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Help! [Re: 245willow19]
#18715411 - 08/16/13 04:29 PM (10 years, 5 months ago) |
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So you haven't taken ANY drugs in the last month and you're still feeling this way? That includes alcohol, weed, opiates, even coffee.
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