Can someone give me an idea of what just happened to me? I began to meditate, trying to clear my mind. I have been reading Robert Bruce's Astral Dynamics. So far I am up to the NEW energy method where Bruce discusses the idea of focusing your awareness at specific energy circuit points and drawing these to the three major chakras essentially. These energy circuits would then ideally power the etheric body which would then give energy to the real-time body which would successfully land you a true real time projection and hopefully and astral projection. I am practicing very early beginner type stuff so I am trying not to jump too far ahead. However, this has not prevented my mind and self from still wanting a true OBE. I suddenly became interested in OBEs about 2 weeks ago for no apparent reason. I became obsessed and progressively went from wanting a quick OBE without all the meditative work to now, slowly letting this thing just happen and let it become a natural process. My personality goes on overdrive when I learn new things, especially things like this. Over the course of the past 2 weeks I have learned quite a deal about my mind and how much work it takes to quiet it. I am still not close but have been getting better the more I practice. Anyway, usually I will now practice Bruce's meditative exercises for about 30 minutes then I will focus my attention on trying to have the OBE, this gives my mind its reward for practicing the exercises. I do this between 3 - 5 times a day. 30 minutes ago, after some deep breathing exercises I came to the realization that I have tried to control this experience too much and when that would happen in past attempts everything would fail. I began to let go; I tried to distance myself while always remaining aware. I then remembered a technique I read about on the internet a week ago for forced OBE where the person would focus their awareness into a swinging motion. It said to picture yourself on a swing going from your third eye looking down to your nose looking up. Swing back and forth, back and forth and before you know it you will be out of body. I have tried this method a few times in the past but to no avail. This morning however, I shifted my awareness to doing this and found it incredibly easy. I began to gain this strange 'speed' then my heart began to pound faster and my body was moving up and down in that vibrating motion. This was the furthest I have come I began to think, I then dissolved that thought and dissolved my brain (?) all the while swinging back and forth. Then something weird happened. My words will try to describe this as best I can. All my thoughts disappeared and I felt this blankness in my mind. I was in this weird void. There were outlines of strange geometrical patterns, very very faint. Everything had a thin veil of white mist/ glass behind the geometrical moving shapes. This thing going on definitely was not in my minds eye imagination. It was happening internally in this odd way that I've never felt before. My body began to twitch and I heard strange noises, like clicking and brushing. (?) I began to come down I guess. I felt like I lost it and began to fall back into my mind. I tried to swing again but my mind felt scrambled. I was like I got hit with a bolt of 'brain lighting’ I decided it would be safest to stop the experiment and let my body and mind recoup for a few hours. And that's where I am out now.
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