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Mello Kitty
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ellenallien said: i cant stay here.
why cant you?
i know they dont want me here. they express that quite a lot
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Prisoner#1
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ellen, you're currently in the best place you can be. talk with your parents, I know they arent blind to you having addiction issues, they're the best support base you can have now so you may want to do all you can to stay and get past what you're currently going through. this is the stability you need
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ellenallien said:
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Prisoner#1 said:
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ellenallien said: i cant stay here.
why cant you?
i know they dont want me here. they express that quite a lot 
have you asked why?
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Mello Kitty
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they have been having issues trusting me since i got here. they love me, but they dont like who i am anymore. they keep thinking just because im a drug addict that i will steal from them
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Feeling unwanted all the time at your place of residency will a lot of times push you towards using to get rid of that stress. I agree you need to find a different place to go so you are able to go through recovery in a place that feels comfortable.
Problems with halfway houses is that you are surrounded by addicts who are doing the same thing as you and they tend to start talking about how great addiction has been along with the shittiness.
Sometimes during the conversations about how much fun it is can lead into you going out and scoring. I saw it happen when I was in rehab when they put two Heroin addicts in the same room. They went out and scored some empire very soon after they started rooming together.
I think a long term rehab is your best bet in getting clean and starting over. 3-6 months isn't too bad if you are looking at the rest of your life to look forward to.
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Mello Kitty
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alcoholichunter said: I think a long term rehab is your best bet in getting clean and starting over. 3-6 months isn't too bad if you are looking at the rest of your life to look forward to.
rehab was a terrible experience for me. i been into a medical detox, and moved into a rehab. it was like a Prison in there. my roommates were two black girls right from prison who bullied me and tried to get me to fight constantly to get me kicked out an sent to jail because they didnt want a white roommate, not my words... i just cant do that again.. im so fuxx'd
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Re: <nobr><a href="#" class="FAtxtL" id="FALINK_1_0_0">halfway houses</a></nobr> ? [Re: Mello Kitty]
#17051967 - 10/17/12 11:36 PM (11 years, 4 months ago) |
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ellenallien said:
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alcoholichunter said: I think a long term rehab is your best bet in getting clean and starting over. 3-6 months isn't too bad if you are looking at the rest of your life to look forward to.
rehab was a terrible experience for me. i been into a medical detox, and moved into a rehab. it was like a Prison in there. my roommates were two black girls right from prison who bullied me and tried to get me to fight constantly to get me kicked out an sent to jail because they didnt want a white roommate, not my words... i just cant do that again.. im so fuxx'd
Lol i dont think you want any help anymore. You want to be taken care of while you nod out. Its not going to happen.
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Mello Kitty
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Re: <nobr><a href="#" class="FAtxtL" id="FALINK_1_0_0">halfway houses</a></nobr> ? [Re: Mello Kitty]
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if i wanted to be, i could be just find someone else to latch onto and be taken care of while i nod out. i did it before, i could do it again. im trying to make my own life now
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ellenallien said: they have been having issues trusting me since i got here. they love me, but they dont like who i am anymore. they keep thinking just because im a drug addict that i will steal from them
clearly that's a bond that needs to be repaired. you need to lean on them when you get tempted to start using again. they need to see the effort to stay sober, they really need to be a part of the effort, that'll start restoring the trust. honestly they'll be your best bet in kicking it, they have a much larger stake in your life than anyone else
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Mello Kitty
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ellenallien said: they have been having issues trusting me since i got here. they love me, but they dont like who i am anymore. they keep thinking just because im a drug addict that i will steal from them
clearly that's a bond that needs to be repaired. you need to lean on them when you get tempted to start using again. they need to see the effort to stay sober, they really need to be a part of the effort, that'll start restoring the trust. honestly they'll be your best bet in kicking it, they have a much larger stake in your life than anyone else
you speak so much truth i can only agree with you
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Mello Kitty
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im just having a hard time with them, and they with me. and i hate when i no longer feel welcome it makes me feel terrible that i cant just leave like i could in the past
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He's right. I resent my parents lots of the time for treating me like shit, but they are really your foundation as a person. If you are lucky enough to have people who will stick with you through rough times, and you really want to get clean, you owe it to them to be honest about what you are going through.
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