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Grav
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thoughts on a thursday night
#1684748 - 07/03/03 07:18 PM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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Spirituality is shiney and attractive.
Why does life seem like meaningless sex. Orgasms, always searching for that fix. Searching for home. Divinity's just another addiction.
I remember not having a minute's rest until I could conjure up a method for the perfect utopian human existence. A recipe for unending mental anguish.
I don't care anymore about alot of the things that I used to. Part of me told me that I gave up, Part of me knows the path I walk does not pay mind to insecurities such as that.
Recently I begged for stability... peace of mind. I don't think I care about that anymore either. It feels more like a sick desperation than anything peaceful.
Overwhelming Paranoia and anxiety.... And it's all seemed to fade away with a little focus and experimentation. Fear is a key, Anger is a gift.
A tolerable level of pain, that is all too real. I burn like a quiet campfire.
It's always this concept of the goal that keeps me mystified. It's the perspective that morphs and contorts. That's a constant.
Life is not meaningless.
Thoughts like this make me feel truely alive. Awake, and conscious. The dark soul smiles and knows a love that is foolish to try and describe.
What new light is always being shed on me. A light with no walls, no rules.
"He who talks loud, says nothing" ~ Deadman.
"Look at each other" ~ Serj Tankian
Time to take a night time walk.
Peace & love to all you guys
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Gixxer_boy
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Grav]
#1684759 - 07/03/03 07:24 PM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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I agree fully with you (I think) . Life is nothing perfect, just a constant evolution of perspectives and feelings.
-------------------- "Why do women have breasts?" ...... .... ... .. . "So you can have something to look at when you're talking to them!" -Peter Griffin
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David_Scape
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Gixxer_boy]
#1684813 - 07/03/03 07:51 PM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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Strumpling
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Grav]
#1685399 - 07/04/03 12:11 AM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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did you get that squiggley feeling in your brain typing this? heh good stuff thx
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RebelSteve33
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Grav]
#1685404 - 07/04/03 12:13 AM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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there's only just a fine line between alone and all one.
-------------------- Namaste.
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Strumpling
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: RebelSteve33]
#1685446 - 07/04/03 12:26 AM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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lol that's clever I've never seen that before
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Faaip_De_Oiad
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Strumpling]
#1685740 - 07/04/03 03:28 AM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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O_O
you owe me a new mind
CUZ YOU JUST BLEW MINE!!!!!!
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Grav
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Faaip_De_Oiad]
#1685928 - 07/04/03 06:52 AM (20 years, 8 months ago) |
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I've been feeling squiggly for awhile.
I went on a walk to a big cemetery across town that's on this big sloping hill. I smoked a fat joint and watched the clouds. They were moving across the sky very fast. The aptmosphere felt electric. It was beautiful.
Then a police cruiser came barreling through the cemetery pathways. I tried to escape before he could see me, but then I played it cool once he got his headlights on me. He took my name and let me go.
It is a trip talking to a cop 10 minutes after smoking a fatty. I can't imagine doing it on mushrooms or acid.
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Mitchnast
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Re: thoughts on a thursday night [Re: Strumpling]
#1776850 - 08/03/03 09:55 PM (20 years, 7 months ago) |
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ive said it before, on this forum in fact. its one of my phrazes i came up with tripping :P
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