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Re: I've been cursed [Re: crkhd]
#16424731 - 06/23/12 09:14 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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crkhd said: ^ Varying degrees of toxicity from mercury exposure depending on the dose.
Have you tried chelation therapy OP? What I understand is that you can yank out all the heavy metals from your body. But then you have to replace the necessary ones and restore all the deficiencies it causes. Still, if mercury poisoning is that bad that it makes you suicidal then it can only be a win.
VERY VERY good idea! I am suprised I didn't catch that being the educated health freak that i am...Chelation therapy is a necessity not just for people suffering heavy metal poisoning.
Look up some good chelation therapy. Look up foods that chelate, these are foods that bind to heavy metals to help the body expel them.... Go HEAVY on the cilantro and antioxidants like those found in blueberries, acai berries, pomegranate, and there r a bunch of other strong antioxidants that are very good for the body and health. Detoxification is a MUST!
Also if u r serious about this I HIGHLY HIGHLY (cannot emphasis this enough) recommend doing some research on Coffee enemas. Get over the taboo and do it everyday for a week and then continue 2 times a week. This works miracles!!!
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OP I hope you feel better.
What do they currently have you on?
I felt crazy when I was young and diagnosed bi-polar, given all sorts of meds. Recognized the shit was actually making me more crazy and seriously suicidal.
Moments passing will continue to pass. One day you may not be this way, and your burden may be lifted. I can only hope you find peace.
Advice, if desired. -Spend time outside, with yourself and nature. Go for a good walk every day, sort your thoughts out. -Breathing exercises. -Contact a doctor with good intent, help him guide you to health if it is what you truly want.
These are only things I can suggest, they might have zero impact on your life whatsoever. They may help one day, they may not help the next. You are alive, you are breathing, suffering will come and it will go. Just as with your breath.
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Saint Marcus said: Also if u r serious about this I HIGHLY HIGHLY (cannot emphasis this enough) recommend doing some research on Coffee enemas. Get over the taboo and do it everyday for a week and then continue 2 times a week. This works miracles!!!
just drinking coffee is a fucking enema. PLEASE do not tell me you put coffee up your butt
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: g00ru]
#16427267 - 06/23/12 08:07 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Saint Marcus said: Also if u r serious about this I HIGHLY HIGHLY (cannot emphasis this enough) recommend doing some research on Coffee enemas. Get over the taboo and do it everyday for a week and then continue 2 times a week. This works miracles!!!
just drinking coffee is a fucking enema. PLEASE do not tell me you put coffee up your butt 
Not only that but I highly recommend that everyone who is health conscious do it as well. It literally works miracles for the body to be able to remove heavy toxins.
http://www.coffee-enema.ca/
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: Kupo]
#16427389 - 06/23/12 08:36 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Kupo said: OP I hope you feel better.
What do they currently have you on?
I felt crazy when I was young and diagnosed bi-polar, given all sorts of meds. Recognized the shit was actually making me more crazy and seriously suicidal.
Moments passing will continue to pass. One day you may not be this way, and your burden may be lifted. I can only hope you find peace.
Advice, if desired. -Spend time outside, with yourself and nature. Go for a good walk every day, sort your thoughts out. -Breathing exercises. -Contact a doctor with good intent, help him guide you to health if it is what you truly want.
These are only things I can suggest, they might have zero impact on your life whatsoever. They may help one day, they may not help the next. You are alive, you are breathing, suffering will come and it will go. Just as with your breath.
I'm on the Zyprexa injection. The two main side effects that are interfering with my life are the destruction of my sexual function and zombification. I got my weight under control fortunately. Everyone around me tells me that I'm doing better and that I just look good basically. Mentally though I'm pretty bad. Nothing seems real and I feel like I'm a robot coasting along through life. I went to the beach today and prayed to get killed by a shark. At least dying that way would be honorable.
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Hahaha! You are hilariously wonderful reefer. Killed by a shark. 
How long have you been on the Zyprexa and what was the original diagnosis?
If you are a robot coasting along through life, is this such statement not a valid description for a majority of society?
Are there any moments where "this" feels "real"?
I can only imagine, in a different society, how your life would be. Remove the hooks of anti-psychotics and conditioned beliefs, where would we be then?
Is there any moment of activity that removes you from this. Can you remember dreams, can you remember what happens in them?
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: Kupo] 1
#16427533 - 06/23/12 09:06 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Kupo said: Hahaha! You are hilariously wonderful reefer. Killed by a shark. 
How long have you been on the Zyprexa and what was the original diagnosis?
If you are a robot coasting along through life, is this such statement not a valid description for a majority of society?
Are there any moments where "this" feels "real"?
I can only imagine, in a different society, how your life would be. Remove the hooks of anti-psychotics and conditioned beliefs, where would we be then?
Is there any moment of activity that removes you from this. Can you remember dreams, can you remember what happens in them?
I've been on zyprexa for a long ass time. Like 3 years. I got diagnosed as schizophrenic like 3.5 years ago. I think the diagnosis is bullshit but I'm stuck in this hellish situation with no escape. Yes it seems to me most people are robotic but I am utterly aware of this fact and it's strange. Yes there are moments where things seem "real".
I dunno man. I don't remember any of my dreams. I go to sleep and wake up as if no time had passed between me falling asleep and waking up. The reason why I'm tempted by death is because when I'm asleep it's the only time I feel peaceful. I just want peace and it seems I won't get it in this life.
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Have u tried heart felt prayer? This can work wonders if done sincerely from the bottom of ur being?
The zombification is the worst part of SSRI's....Plus they will take at least a week to get out of ur system to be able to substitute the all natural and highly effective ayahuasca...
For me personally I needed a solution to all my problems and I found that in a deep connection to the universe and the fragments of consciousness that represent it. There are many ways to go about it but it can be hard to find which way works best for u.
I wish u the best brother.
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Saint Marcus said: Also if u r serious about this I HIGHLY HIGHLY (cannot emphasis this enough) recommend doing some research on Coffee enemas. Get over the taboo and do it everyday for a week and then continue 2 times a week. This works miracles!!!
just drinking coffee is a fucking enema. PLEASE do not tell me you put coffee up your butt 
Not only that but I highly recommend that everyone who is health conscious do it as well. It literally works miracles for the body to be able to remove heavy toxins.
http://www.coffee-enema.ca/
well steal my socks and call me a troll, that is something i had never imagined before
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Kupo said: OP I hope you feel better.
What do they currently have you on?
I felt crazy when I was young and diagnosed bi-polar, given all sorts of meds. Recognized the shit was actually making me more crazy and seriously suicidal.
Moments passing will continue to pass. One day you may not be this way, and your burden may be lifted. I can only hope you find peace.
Advice, if desired. -Spend time outside, with yourself and nature. Go for a good walk every day, sort your thoughts out. -Breathing exercises. -Contact a doctor with good intent, help him guide you to health if it is what you truly want.
These are only things I can suggest, they might have zero impact on your life whatsoever. They may help one day, they may not help the next. You are alive, you are breathing, suffering will come and it will go. Just as with your breath.
I'm on the Zyprexa injection. The two main side effects that are interfering with my life are the destruction of my sexual function and zombification. I got my weight under control fortunately. Everyone around me tells me that I'm doing better and that I just look good basically. Mentally though I'm pretty bad. Nothing seems real and I feel like I'm a robot coasting along through life. I went to the beach today and prayed to get killed by a shark. At least dying that way would be honorable.
Nothing seems real  Perhaps this isn't delusion. Don't pass it away as such.  What's wrong with robots anyway?
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3 years is a long time to be on a substance. The sheer amount of time/stress required to escape is indeed daunting.
When those moments come and things seem "real", how does one even begin to describe that? What is the difference between real and unreal?
Yeah, I can understand the temptation of death as an eternal comfort. But if you can recognize death as a return to nothingness, then how would you know that feeling of comfort unless you were to once again awaken?
You can give up or you can fight. To what it matters, not to say. Recognizing patterns, changing environment, seeking pleasure. To what it matters, not to say. If peace comes, will it not be fleeting? Will it too not burn in the fires of reaching?
Or could that peace be permanently imbibed into the now moment, and continually refreshed until you are a living breathing example of the word? Or rather than refreshed, just permanently a state as is?
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Then why if I'm on anti-psychotics do I not feel any better? This is stupid..
Anti Psychotics are poison that makes you poisoned. You are pretty much fucked but if you want to feel a little better then stop taking fucking anti psychotics, stop taking all pharmaceuticals forever.
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I know you're not schizophrenic. You've been poisoned with heavy metals and that mimics the effects of schizophrenia. It is accurate to say it's a curse too, though not in the supernatural sense. You have a lot of other miserable symptoms and you can kill yourself if you want. I'd suggest giving it a couple more years. Maybe you'll fall in love and then your misery won't seem as bad. Regards.
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: Ellis Dee]
#16431615 - 06/24/12 03:50 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Then why if I'm on anti-psychotics do I not feel any better? This is stupid..
Anti Psychotics are poison that makes you poisoned. You are pretty much fucked but if you want to feel a little better then stop taking fucking anti psychotics, stop taking all pharmaceuticals forever.
That can b viewed as giving dangerous medical advice. Illegal and may b held criminally responsible if nething happens...I feel the same way but I would def not recommend to just drop the antipsychotics u have been on for years. That could end up badly. As in suicide...
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Rail_Gun said: I know you're not schizophrenic. You've been poisoned with heavy metals and that mimics the effects of schizophrenia. It is accurate to say it's a curse too, though not in the supernatural sense. You have a lot of other miserable symptoms and you can kill yourself if you want. I'd suggest giving it a couple more years. Maybe you'll fall in love and then your misery won't seem as bad. Regards.
If it has anything to do with heavy metal poisoning then u should not just try to fall in love or some other form of escapism (shooting dope will work for a while)....instead try to remove the fucking metals.....Which is what was already suggested and if you follow the suggestions u may find release from the heavy metal mercury poisoning that can cause a lot of the symptoms that are present.....
Do the cleanse n chelate the metals bro. Take supplements and nutrients on a DAILY basis. Eat healthy and live healthy. Meditate and pray on a daily basis. Get ur spirit in order n this will solve the majority of problems that u n others experience on a daily basis.....
Not to mention when u r truly happy and serene then this is what u will attract!
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OP, have you gotten an MRI? Most insurance pays for them and they will tell you 100% what your neurological condition is. I got one a while back when I was going through some tough shit and felt like I had serious brain damage. Mine turned up negative, and you know what? I wouldn't be so surprised if yours did too.
Seriously, get an MRI, then you can stop wondering and really know whether your problems are neurological or if they are indeed completely psychological and spiritual (which makes them no less real by the way). If you have mercury poisoning or any types of degradation in your brain, it will show up in your diagram as impaired brain functioning.
Cause you keep saying "i've tried" but to me that sounds like you didn't try with enough sincerity because if you had, you would feel much happier. Spiritual benefits are available to anyone, nobody is "destined for suicide" that is true insanity to think that way.
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: Ellis Dee]
#16433003 - 06/24/12 09:18 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Rail_Gun said: I know you're not schizophrenic. You've been poisoned with heavy metals and that mimics the effects of schizophrenia. It is accurate to say it's a curse too, though not in the supernatural sense. You have a lot of other miserable symptoms and you can kill yourself if you want. I'd suggest giving it a couple more years. Maybe you'll fall in love and then your misery won't seem as bad. Regards.
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Thank you. Jesus I think you are the only one who understands me.. Yeah I'll probably stick around for another 2-3 years and re-evaluate my situation. Maybe get a girlfriend or sumthin'. I don't have a sex drive right now though and my hormones are all out of wack so I'm gonna wait until I get everything back to semi-normal and see.
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oojijimoo said: OP, have you gotten an MRI? Most insurance pays for them and they will tell you 100% what your neurological condition is. I got one a while back when I was going through some tough shit and felt like I had serious brain damage. Mine turned up negative, and you know what? I wouldn't be so surprised if yours did too.
Seriously, get an MRI, then you can stop wondering and really know whether your problems are neurological or if they are indeed completely psychological and spiritual (which makes them no less real by the way). If you have mercury poisoning or any types of degradation in your brain, it will show up in your diagram as impaired brain functioning.
Cause you keep saying "i've tried" but to me that sounds like you didn't try with enough sincerity because if you had, you would feel much happier. Spiritual benefits are available to anyone, nobody is "destined for suicide" that is true insanity to think that way.
I haven't gotten an MRI. I got a PET scan done a few years ago I believe. From what I've heard MRI's are a lot more accurate. Is this true?
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Re: I've been cursed [Re: Ellis Dee]
#16433310 - 06/24/12 10:04 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Rail_Gun said: I know you're not schizophrenic. You've been poisoned with heavy metals and that mimics the effects of schizophrenia. It is accurate to say it's a curse too, though not in the supernatural sense. You have a lot of other miserable symptoms and you can kill yourself if you want. I'd suggest giving it a couple more years. Maybe you'll fall in love and then your misery won't seem as bad. Regards.
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curse noun \ˈkərs\ Definition of CURSE 1 : a prayer or invocation for harm or injury to come upon one : imprecation 2 : something that is cursed or accursed 3 : evil or misfortune that comes as if in response to imprecation or as retribution 4 : a cause of great harm or misfortune : torment
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oojijimoo said: OP, have you gotten an MRI? Most insurance pays for them and they will tell you 100% what your neurological condition is. I got one a while back when I was going through some tough shit and felt like I had serious brain damage. Mine turned up negative, and you know what? I wouldn't be so surprised if yours did too.
Seriously, get an MRI, then you can stop wondering and really know whether your problems are neurological or if they are indeed completely psychological and spiritual (which makes them no less real by the way). If you have mercury poisoning or any types of degradation in your brain, it will show up in your diagram as impaired brain functioning.
Cause you keep saying "i've tried" but to me that sounds like you didn't try with enough sincerity because if you had, you would feel much happier. Spiritual benefits are available to anyone, nobody is "destined for suicide" that is true insanity to think that way.
I haven't gotten an MRI. I got a PET scan done a few years ago I believe. From what I've heard MRI's are a lot more accurate. Is this true?
not more accurate but it's a "magnetic resonance image" so it picks up metals and long term damage better whereas PET scan is immediate damage
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