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 CherryBom
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 Your First Love 
#1495566 - 04/26/03 10:18 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Does it ever go away? Do you just keep on loving them forever in all of thier perfect imperfection? Do you just keep feeling like a million translucent butterflies in the pit of your stomach every time he laughs?
Dark nite, so clear up high
Stars were beacons in the sky
Body tingles
Knees are weak
Static burning
In her cheeks....
But that was long ago...? I'm not so sure that it's even real anymore. I'm all grown up and away... Or am I?
Is he?
I just don't know....
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 Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1495634 - 04/26/03 10:54 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't think your first love really ever does go away...
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Re: Your First Love [Re: LeViTY]
#1495651 - 04/26/03 11:06 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Neither do the following ones, i hope
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1495953 - 04/26/03 01:20 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I remember each of my loves not as i once loved them but as a warm memory and a highlight on my life
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 Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1496309 - 04/26/03 04:30 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Does it ever go away
i agree with levity..it never does.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: felix]
#1496825 - 04/26/03 09:01 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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it defiantly doesn't go away, I agree..it's funny you say this because my true love just came back into my life, asking me to move away with her....it's hard to know what to do, love make's you not think straight
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1496838 - 04/26/03 09:06 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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it doesnt, but that poem..
thank you for reminding me of that use of the word static
( seriously!  )
thank you thank you
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1496914 - 04/26/03 09:57 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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My first love was when I was 16 and I am now 30. He is married with a kid. I don't love him anymore. I was a totally different person then and he is not the sort of guy I would be attracted to anymore. I met him when I was working on the reception at a gym. He was blonde and beautiful. That was the main initial attraction! (Hey, I was a teenager.) We did get on well and I did love him. Though he is real materialistic and I am increasingly disgusted by materialism. He is a big corporate mover, and very conservative. That stuff didn't matter to me then but it does now. So anyways, given the time passed and the changes I doubt I would feel anything if I saw him again. Sorry to be unromantic. There is a man I have met since then (at 21) who I saw on and off for 6 years and still pulls my heart strings, but was bad for me. We were friends. But I am in a great relationship now, and so I just can't see him.
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 Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1496940 - 04/26/03 10:08 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I dunno. There's been lots of times where I thought I was in love, but really wasn't. There was a girl in High School who I thought I loved, but it was really just a crush. And I thought I loved my first girlfriend, but I was really just pussy-whipped. Now there's a girl I'm trying to get over, and I've always felt that I've loved her, but I may well discover that it was something else all along. It's hard to tell until you stop feeling that way.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1496985 - 04/26/03 10:45 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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yup love is geh
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CherryBom
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1497038 - 04/26/03 11:08 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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So bitter you all are!
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1497069 - 04/26/03 11:19 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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yup love is geh
There are times I agree with this. 
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What if everything around you
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1497118 - 04/26/03 11:53 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I met her 8 months ago.. and sitll going on..
she means so much to me.. i'd do anything for her. I love everything about her, i get butterflies still whenever we talk.. its weird..
I respect her and her feelings.. and actually am thinking of proposing if things are still working out fine after summer... and i never think like that.
*sighs and feels all floaty* I love the feeling she gives
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 Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1497159 - 04/27/03 12:26 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I despise my first "love".
Underneath It All - NIN
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
numb all through
i can still feel you
hear your call
underneath it all
kill my brain
yet you still remain
crucified
after all i've died
after all i've tried
you are still inside
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do
i can still feel you
all i do (you remain)
i can still feel you (i am stained)
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1497365 - 04/27/03 03:39 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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i'm still with my first love, for two and a half years
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Re: Your First Love [Re: enotake2]
#1497366 - 04/27/03 03:40 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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enotake, you say you just can't see him because why? are you afraid you may start to sway and fall out of love with your current?
i was with this chick for 2+ years...but one day i had to move away. we were still going full force on terms of relationship and neither of us wanted anyone else (i think..). walking away from her to catch my plane was very hard. i was the last one on...i think they were waiting for me, cause they slammed the door shut as soon as i got on board. then, her and her friend stood out by the tarmac and waved.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: felix]
#1497403 - 04/27/03 05:16 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah there is just a lingering feeling there. He is kind of manipulative and knows how to push my buttons and will try. So I just think it is better to stay away. Also, my boyfriend is a bit jealous of him, and talking to him I feel a bit guilty even though I haven't done anything wrong. I dunno. He lives in another state anyway, so its not that hard to just cut him off. As friends we only used to call and see each other every so often anyway. I am very happy in my current relationship and I don't want to do anything to jeopardise it.
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Computer games don't affect kids. I mean if Pacman affected our generation as kids, we'd all be running around in a darkened room, munching pills and listening to repetitive electronic music.
"Being bitter and hateful is like drinking a vial of poison and hoping the other person gets sick" FreakQLibrium
"My motto from here on out is: If someone or something (including me) in my life is conducting themselves in such a way that they can be seen on Jerry Springer, it's time to take out the garbage!!! When you stop taking their behaviour personally and see their antics as a true reflection on their character, it becomes absolutely nauseating." Anon. on abusive relationships.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1497504 - 04/27/03 08:47 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Welcome to the
Hypnotize zone
Today you'll hear the story
Of Russell Resthaven
And the day he tried
To save his girlfriend
Here's the story
Man you won't believe
What done happened
To me now man
What?
How did this nigga
Come round my way
Then fuck my bitch
But I'm gone kill him
When he get off
Work tonight though
Man fuck dat hoe man
You can't be tryin'
To save that bitch
Man my nigga den
Housed a hoe to
Brown Freesia
Man I spent cheese
On her and everything
And I bought rangs
And mo shit man
I'mma kill that nigga
Dat I'm goin' marry
You can't turn a hoe
Into a house wife man
I love her man
I love her man
It's mine man
I love her man
I gotta marry her man
I'mma marry her
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FreakQlibrium
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 Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1497517 - 04/27/03 08:59 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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i really don't wanna come accross as being cynical, i can only speak from my own experience. i occasionally find myself HIDING in store front windows to avoid meeting some girl i "thought" i used to love.....for me love just turned out to be a sick obsession....not that it isn't an amazing high thinking you've met "the one" lol 
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obsessed people suck, my girlfriend want to get married and have kids, andi want to fuck her sister
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FreakQlibrium
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1497524 - 04/27/03 09:08 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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i used to be the obsessive type mang, but i got over it. It seems like someone always gets the sh.......short end of the stick in any kind of a "love" relationship. Now i find the whole idea of it makes me somewhat nauseous.....
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FreakQlibrium
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Re: Your First Love [Re: LeViTY]
#1497550 - 04/27/03 09:28 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't think your first love really ever does go away..."
Especially if you marry the first girl you "love" and she hits you up for alimony
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man i done figured that out the first time i was in love, love is just the funny feelin in your tummy, ahahah it's like if you're not the one cheating and shitting on the other then you are the one being shitted and cheated on, it's never like both the people feel the same way, kinda sad oh well
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FreakQlibrium
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1497634 - 04/27/03 10:12 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thinking with your heart REALLY sucks man.... although thinking with your weenie can get you into all kinds of trouble too
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Edited by FreakQlibrium (04/27/03 10:13 AM)
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Scarfmeister
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I have been in love many times but i have never really loved anyone. It saddens me that i have never met someone to whom i could completely loose my self in, and i fear that i never will.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1498371 - 04/27/03 04:57 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I guess it just seemed so perfect and devastating, there's no way part of you can completely give that up.
"Why would I ever want to meet anyone else? Nothing can ever feel anything like this again..."
...but it does again, or so you hope.
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FreakQlibrium
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I have been in love many times but i have never really loved anyone. It saddens me that i have never met someone to whom i could completely loose my self in, and i fear that i never will."
i hear you man, but becoming so totally absorbed in another human being is fraught with perils of it's own.......when love goes bad and you're attatched it's like someone has impaled your heart with a triple pronged fish hook only to rip it out.....sorry for my lack of eloquence but that's what it always used to feel like to me.....i sincerely hope you enjoy a better fate.....
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Don't fear it, shroomnoob, accept it.
Losing yourself in another person is a sign of weakness. Love should never become an obsession [shoutout to my ex-GF here, 2 years and counting], but a mutual bond of respect and caring.
I'd never become obsessed with a girl or beat myself up if I didn't get lost in her eyes, ya know? Maybe as a man I just see it a different way, but anyone feel what I'm sayin?
For the ladies: If you are, in any way, the "ex-gf" type girl mentioned above torturing/stalking an ex-bf and still think you have a shot (ESPECIALLY if it is anywhere near the time period I mentioned above), you should leave the dude alone. He broke up with you for a reason. Freak.
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saucerflosecrets
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Adden]
#1498824 - 04/27/03 07:59 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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i think it's very difficult to get over your first love... because the standards for any subsequent lovers have already been set. i was with my first love for three years and we broke up because his personality had changed pretty drastically. he seems to be back to his old self, which makes me feel sad sometimes (we still talk). sometimes i miss him so much it's like a physical pain... i am with someone else now and i'm really happy, but sometimes i can't help but wonder "what if."
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Morphrying
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1498887 - 04/27/03 08:24 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Once you learn to be loved and love others, you should continue to love them forever, but sometimes people confuse love with infatuation and sexual attraction, and I don't think thats what love is....
You are normal, don worry bout it....
oh yeah the butterflies in my tummy thing only happens when I see someone I am sexually attracted to....Like when I went to the lingerie coffeeshop and said duhduhduhduhduh, and she said, go ahead and have a seat, then more duhduhduhduhvvvvietnamese cccc coffee please, uhhhhhhhhhhhh Iced....
Edited by Morphrying (04/27/03 08:38 PM)
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Captain Jack
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Morphrying]
#1499147 - 04/27/03 10:12 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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the relationships i've had
the love i used to feel
taught me about liking someone
and how to be with her
and now i am in love
bigger and better
and i can keep it
because of what i learned in the past
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SoundsOfWar
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i can kinda forget about the bad things enough to get a kick outta some of the good memories. i guess the pain you go through toughens your heart a little each time cause the innocent thought of love is hard to see as clearly as i used to think it was. but that's just life in general. anyway, I'm glad I had that crazy fucking girl around. like you people care
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love is a choice. an act of your will. love involves a certain level of self-sacrifice but also entails self-improvement. a relationship that doesn't work for the improvement of each person's health on all levels; spirtual, mental, physical, emotional... for the entirety of the relationship... contains no love. love, like control, is an absolute. there is either total control or only the illusion of control. one must understand that the only thing any of us can truly control is ourselves. the most in control person is the person with a great deal of self-control and a respect fopr the fact that he/she cannot truly control anything else. the same principles apply to love. one must first love oneself. you people speak of having your hearts broken. a broken heart caused by a relationship gone sour is a result of the realization that what you thought was love was actually a deception, a denial on your part. Once i found my true mate, and entered into a life of shared love I have evolved as a person in ways i never thought possible. having a true-love relationship changes EVERYTHING about your life in only the most positive of ways. the biggest steps that people fail to take to make love happen are 1) learning to love yourself and 2) putting forth the effort to cultivate a true-love relationship. selfishness has no place in a true-love relationship. you will only get out of a relationship what you put into it. the catch being that one cannot put into it with the selfish intention of getting back out of it. i could go on and on but my preaching is about done for today. remember to never take your mate for granted. easier said than done.
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I don't think you ever get over them completely and don't worry FQ I do the same thing....I'm terrified to run into my first love.....but at the same time I really wanna see him again and find out how he's doing...he almost ran me down to honk and wave at me the other day, but I dodn't realize it was him...other people see him all the time and apparently he see's me but I never see him....which is strange...but maybe its better that way.
You should never be concerned about loosing yourself in some one. The key to relationships is remembering: love is about co-existance not co-dependance. Live your life (yes your own life, not theirs) with that person, not for that person.
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Thor
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1500589 - 04/28/03 12:08 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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My first has always been in my mind, but I'm thankfull that I've never gone back down that road.
I think with the firsts we tend to romanticize it and think only of the good things about it while forgetting the bad things that caused the relationship to end in the first place.
My 1st I dated actually during 2 periods of my life, and I'm certain a 3rd time will not be a charm.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1500816 - 04/28/03 01:46 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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well since its been 20+ years since my 1st i think i can safely say i am over that manipulative, non-caring psycopathic mind fuck bitch that was my 1st real GF.
time heals....esp decades
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Thor
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Re: Your First Love [Re: oDin]
#1500938 - 04/28/03 02:24 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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well since its been 20+ years since my 1st i think i can safely say i am over that manipulative, non-caring psycopathic mind fuck bitch that was my 1st real GF.
time heals....esp decades
LOL! Hey if Odin says anything mean you know she must have been horrible
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Re: Your First Love [Re: oDin]
#1501129 - 04/28/03 03:25 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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well since its been 20+ years since my 1st i think i can safely say i am over that manipulative, non-caring psycopathic mind fuck bitch that was my 1st real GF.
time heals....esp decades
thats good to hear... my first love was definitey a 'non-caring psycopathic mind fuck bitch' now if only these decades you speak of would hurry the hell up....
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Captain Jack
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Re: Your First Love [Re: PeachMan]
#1501403 - 04/28/03 04:40 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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thor, never go down the same road twice.
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Lyena
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1501740 - 04/28/03 06:21 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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It goes away for a moment, but it's never really gone. Though my first love is far gone into the past he still has and will always have a little slice of my soul. And I'n okay with it. Of course both grow and change, but theres a ton of tiny triggers to memories that just wash it all back. I almost killed myself that way, remembering how everything used to be and longing for it.. the innocence and all the demons that came with it. Then I let it go, and remembered that instead of looking back on what once was to just relax and remember that it's over, like a dream. There was a lot to be learned.. but theres more to be learned.
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SoundsOfWar
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Lyena]
#1501798 - 04/28/03 06:42 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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hey, you put that really well. right on, i dig what you mean, it is like a dream thinking back. ah, the memories. cool
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Bullfrog1
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1502076 - 04/28/03 08:07 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Engraved forever in your mind this image shall be.
My first girl was a "bad" girl. She got in trouble alot. That's why I loved her so much, in a sympathetic kinda way. I only saw her once about a year after I was seeing her. Still in trouble, still loved her!
I can still picture her, the both of us watching TV on my couch. 28 years ago.
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CherryBom
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Bullfrog1]
#1507560 - 04/30/03 12:29 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think if your 'First Love' was a psycopathic bitch...it wasn't really love.
If you hold resentment towards someone...it's wasn't really love.
Love is something good and pure. It's unconditional. Love doesn't die. It's grows and changes and sometimes people grow apart and away from each other...but real love just doesn't die or fade away into resentment.
Call me a hopeless romantic...
Lovin'...is what I got
So remeber that
Why I don't cry when my dog runs away
I don't get angry at the bills I have to pay
I don't get angry when my mom smokes pot
Hit the bottle and goes right to the rock
Fuck it, or fight it...it's all the same
Livin with louie dogs the only way to stay sane...
Let the lovin'...let the lovin come back to me.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Lyena]
#1507601 - 04/30/03 12:40 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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It goes away for a moment, but it's never really gone. Though my first love is far gone into the past he still has and will always have a little slice of my soul. And I'n okay with it. Of course both grow and change, but theres a ton of tiny triggers to memories that just wash it all back. I almost killed myself that way, remembering how everything used to be and longing for it.. the innocence and all the demons that came with it. Then I let it go, and remembered that instead of looking back on what once was to just relax and remember that it's over, like a dream. There was a lot to be learned.. but theres more to be learned.
that's exactly how i feel about my first love... i still think about him all the time, and he taught me so many things about life and myself... i wouldn't relinquish the memories of those years for anything, but you're right, there is more to be learned in life...
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thor, never go down the same road twice.
This was a hard lesson learned for me when I was 19, went back the second time and it was good at first.. But the same shit happened again and I ditched her on New Years Eve cause I was so pissed at her.
I will never make that mistake again.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1508340 - 04/30/03 04:07 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I first "fell in love" with this girl in like 5th grade...
I liked her all thru Jr. High, then she moved to Hawaii (after going out with my best friend to) and then, in 9th grade she came back, and then in the summmer between 9th and 10th grade we hoooked up, and we are still going out now (been like 9 months almost)
I finnally got with her, and it only took me 4 and a half grades!
(haha, not saying I waited for her or anything tho, I had girlfriends before her, of course.)
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1512330 - 05/01/03 06:17 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Where'd that come from. If that's your response to me, your mistaken. What does 'her' mental state have to do with it?
I'm a psychotic asshole, but my woman loves me just the same.
Too much normalcy in a relationship isn't healthy either. 
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Bullfrog1]
#1512635 - 05/01/03 07:32 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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bottom line, you never unlove the true first love.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1512942 - 05/01/03 08:39 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Shroomism]
#1513115 - 05/01/03 09:19 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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my one and only Shroomism
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Spiffy]
#1513215 - 05/01/03 09:53 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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angel
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Bullfrog, that wasn't directed at you personally. It was just a general statement.
If you don't even like someone...it's a far cry from 'love'.
Love lasts.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1514657 - 05/02/03 11:29 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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man.. the summer reminds me of my firrst love...
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1514687 - 05/02/03 11:41 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Mine too.........
Drinking beer
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the malt makes your weiner sticky 
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angel
she's mine!
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1514746 - 05/02/03 12:16 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sticky like a post operative Aunt Jemima maple syrup hand job?
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I will never forget my first love, but thats a long time ago now. We were only kids back then.
I've had a crush on many girls since.
My last gf and I had a great time, the butterflies in the air and all =)
But most things end =/
I guess i never really have experienced real love to a girl in "that" way.
Recently I've experienced true love towards creation, the life, universe, and everything, a feeling of true bliss.
It just comes to me now and then, if I experience something just mildly positive.
Like fluffy white clouds, pretty girls, flowers, good movie, food, friendship, anything this ecxistance has to offer!
Peace, Love, Unity and Respect to everyone who wants it ! ! !
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Oh and Cherry Bomb you hopeless romantic!
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Re: Your First Love [Re: kangoo]
#1517056 - 05/03/03 05:39 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Recently I've experienced true love towards creation, the life, universe, and everything, a feeling of true bliss.
It just comes to me now and then, if I experience something just mildly positive.
Like fluffy white clouds, pretty girls, flowers, good movie, food, friendship, anything this ecxistance has to offer!"
That's the "Love" to which i aspire....i've experienced that universal glow a few times in varing degrees of intensity as well as temporal duratuion.....it seems to be fathomless and only limited by how much each individual is able to let in at any given moment(often at the suppression/transcendence of personal ego) Gr8 post man
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....love...
Brings back good ol memeries
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All of my "mutual" "loves" turned out to be bitter, sour young women with selfish agendas. Some argue that women are by nature this way, but I believe it to be largely cultural shortcomings that cause so much romantic misfortune.
I hope I'm not too isolated in admitting that my experience with any real brand of love extraneous to whimsical infatuation is quite close to nil.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Ped]
#1519665 - 05/04/03 02:45 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I hope I'm not too isolated in admitting that my experience with any real brand of love extraneous to whimsical infatuation is quite close to nil."
Well if even having one other being(myself) in the same category constitutes a crowd, then you are NOT alone
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Ped]
#1521598 - 05/05/03 10:50 AM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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All of my "mutual" "loves" turned out to be bitter, sour young women with selfish agendas. Some argue that women are by nature this way, but I believe it to be largely cultural shortcomings that cause so much romantic misfortune.
I hope I'm not too isolated in admitting that my experience with any real brand of love extraneous to whimsical infatuation is quite close to nil.
Let it be known that practically any statement that can be made about one sex will equally apply to the other. there are a few very minor differences which are primarily physiological but, on the whole, men and women are just alike in all the bad ways as well as the good. a person's character can never be determined by their sex alone.
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I believe that men and women vent their emotional problems in different ways, but the base is pretty much the same.
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CherryBom
Yoga Gypsy
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Phluck]
#1521847 - 05/05/03 12:43 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I can't beleive this thread is still going.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1521884 - 05/05/03 12:58 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's a powerful thread...
and it makes me kind of depressed.
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CherryBom
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Phluck]
#1521913 - 05/05/03 01:16 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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We all handle our emotions differently.
When I think about all the loves that have gone through my life, it makes me happy. I'm only 21 and I thought I was in love many times. I think because I'm such a dreamer. Even after realizing that sometimes a person isn't exactly what you thought them to be... there is still something there that brought you together in the first place.
Once you realize this, you can celebrate the lesson, the experience instead of a person who wears a mask by no fault of his own.
Even non-love is great.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1521938 - 05/05/03 01:30 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think thats a very good point, a lot of people are convinced its 'true love' every time they date
I mean yeah you can love someone and it be real... But you can also love a lot of people in your lifetime. So finding the one can mean falling in love many times and thinking each time that it could be the one.
I mean yeah its usually hard to move on, but you do and then you often end up with something better anyhow.
So I'll quote Monty Python since its so true "Always look on the bright side of life"
Tommorow is another day, carpe diem! lol
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Yoga Gypsy
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Thor]
#1521958 - 05/05/03 01:41 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Love grows and evolves and changes. As people grow and learn new things, have new ideas, thier perception of love might change and evolve as well.
When a new person is introduced into your life they bring with them the possibility of new things. New ideas, new experiences...which in turn help you grow and learn. They teach you.
Maybe it's possible that some people fall in love with the experience of liberation or freedom they feel when someone has introduced something new and exciting to thier life. Maybe it's not the person...but the emotions that surround the things they bring to your life.
...fucked if I know. It's all speculation. Love is something different to every person. To me, it's something real, something great, something undefinable.
True love lasts. Beyond human growth, beyond life and death. Past the sky and over the stars... lifetimes and eons old. Through this life...into the next life.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1521979 - 05/05/03 01:48 PM (21 years, 4 months ago) |
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Great points Bom.
My soulmate and I found each other 19 years ago this September. We still passionately love each other and tell each other "I love you", hug, kiss, and snuggle everyday.
She is the light of my life.
She saved me from myself.
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Thanks FreakQulibrium!
I've found that if you feel that "love" i described, you feel much better.
I can see how beautiful everyone (almost) and everything is!
I'm not in this state of bliss constantly, but when i remind myself how greatful i ought to be, just to be given the gift of life, I sometimes get that specially feeling, and then I'm in and good mood for atleast the rest of the day, unless something really shitty happens.
Oh theres so much to to do, see, experience, feel,...It's greeeeeeeeeeaaat!
Dang I should have done some studying instead of posting here =) Eh what the heck!
Have a pretty darn great week!! This goes out to everyone who wants it!
Peace =) =) =)
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Re: Your First Love [Re: kangoo]
#1581384 - 05/27/03 12:06 PM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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Again a very inspirational post to wake up to. i wanted to wait for my 4000th post B4 responding as in spite of my often infantile/non sensical posts in other areas of the Shroomery(specifically OTD) getting back to that inherent(i believe) state of LOVE apart from all the conditions and visissitudes of one's own daily existence is a very important part of my life.....
Anyone can be happy/peaceful when external conditions favour that.....but such a scenierio seems somewhat transient at best and therefore so is the happiness/peace of mind and BEING produced. It's MUCH better to realize that you are NOT your life situation or circumstances no matter how good/shitty they may be at any one given moment in the space-time continuum......
i actually find L8ly that's it's even easier for me to appreciate everything while my external conditions are crap.....i'm sure it will pass but in the mean time i'm not going to get down/ruminate and think crappy thoughts....which only serve to enhance the seeming "reality" of the situation anyway
It's a bit like that Buddhist(i think) expression:"And this TOO shall pass"
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This reminds me to point out that I would never even come close to doubting my love for my wife as we have been through the most despicable times of our lives together. While a few times found us at each other's throats in the end we only grew closer and never even came near splitting up. I think the true test of a relationship is really shitty times.
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Kanibus
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First Love, i was 13, she was 14 and in high school. I only saw her a couple times a year. I always thought about her, finally one time i met up with her and our emotions just got the best of us. It was an amazing night..
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Re: Your First Love [Re: Shroomism]
#1591938 - 05/30/03 12:44 AM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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The feeling is still there, like fishhooks in my heart but in a good way.
There was never much turbulence between us and we didnt leave on a sour note.We were just growning up and our lives went seperate ways.
"all I do
I can still feel you"
Love is forever.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: ]
#1592144 - 05/30/03 04:27 AM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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yup love is geh
couldnt have said better...
Quote:
obsessed people suck, my girlfriend want to get married and have kids, andi want to fuck her sister
hahahahahahahaha!
nemo 0wnzzzzz!
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1602693 - 06/02/03 08:02 PM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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Love
where does it come from
who lit this flame in us?
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acidcrys
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Re: Your First Love [Re: CherryBom]
#1603078 - 06/02/03 10:07 PM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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Does it ever go away? Do you just keep on loving them forever in all of thier perfect imperfection? Do you just keep feeling like a million translucent butterflies in the pit of your stomach every time he laughs?
True love?
My first true love was.. about.. 4-5 years ago.. I was talking to my best friend of like 2-3 years..and I had to leave to go to this damn mexi restaurant with my family. I didn't want to leave him. I didn't want to stop talking to him - even for what an hour? I went to the restaurant.. and I had no appetite.. I felt so.. confused.. because I realize how much I wanted to talk to him.. I realized I wanted to talk to him forever, know him forever, be with him forever. I realized I was in love.
Its funny because at the time .. I thought that emotion was sooo fucking strong.. I think it was mainly because he had a girlfriend.. and I viewed my feelings as unmutual... I was in hell. But... now as time has passed.. what I thought to be such a strong feeling for love... has.. fucking... multiplied a million times more than that day. Its grown so much.. man.. I just don't know what to think. And now we're dating.. and mmmmm.. I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life.. I'll never ever get tired of him..
By the way, He's Ori.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: acidcrys]
#1603772 - 06/03/03 06:03 AM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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Sweet as.
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Re: Your First Love [Re: enotake2]
#1610009 - 06/05/03 12:40 AM (21 years, 3 months ago) |
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I met my first love in college, we were together 3 years and then got married, which lasted another 3 years at which point she suddently decided to move out,
no cause and no warning. It was a tough time in my life, I was smitten with
her and would've done anything for her (and did at times). I utterly adored this
lady despite her sometimes cruel, tempremental and selfish outbursts (and to be fair she tried to deal with my shortcomming too). Coincidentally she left me soon
after she got her masters degree which I had saved up to pay for while she went to school and I worked. Initially I never thought I'd get over her... I'd spend days thinking about her, trying to figure out what whet wrong. I couldn't imagine life
without her. She was a big part of me. But amazingly enough, with time and distance, the pain has subsided and I can look back and enjoy the wonderful
memories we had together and also keep in mind the not so pleasent times
when she could be viciously intollerant. Sometimes I still miss her ocassionaly, but
it doesn't elicit the same strong emotions.
I must say that I've never met anyone since then who I've had any feelings for.
Everyone keeps telling me that I need
a mate, but I just havn't felt like that for anyone. Besides, I'm such a wreck myself
right now that it wouldn't be fair to be in a relationship with someone. Need to
find my own center and get life flowing through me again, then, once I"m
capable of "non clingy love" I'll see what the world brings me and what I can
offer to others...
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