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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #14932706 - 08/16/11 04:35 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

If you have a car and garage, carbon monoxide poisoning.

If you have a garage and no car, rent a car.

Thats the only definitive way for painless suicide
that I know of. ODing on opiates will do the trick,
but theres always the chance of you choking on your
own vomit, but you would probably be too high to feel it or care.

And everyone who bitches at me, I believe in pro-choice to die.


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #14932780 - 08/16/11 04:52 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Maybe you need to do something different for a change. Do something you have never done before, you need to feel alive again man. Go try some dangerous stunts or something and get that heart pumping again. I would really recommend getting into fights. Sign yourself up for boxing or find a random dude or a good friend and ask them if they want to get down. I am fucking serious when i say that.

Go out their and let life hit you in the face. Walk this life without a care of the past and future. Let go and forget about yourself for awhile. Open your eyes and look around you. You are not alone.


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #14932804 - 08/16/11 04:57 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Prisoner#1 said:
I hate to be nosy  but what brought you to this point?




I've always been depressed... even while medicated, the quality of life.. has just lacked flavor... its been a very robotic existence...

I finally found someone that was in short perfect.. and in essence breathed new life into me.. and inside of a week that's been dashed to hell.

Piling that on top of the rest of the crap I don't want to get into... I am just done. Medication doesn't help enough, I have no insurance so can't get the full on help I need.. and I am just tired of this constant fucking depression throwing me through a roller coaster of pain.. Even over stupid little crap like this.




Go out to the streets and find someone who is suffering to help.  Its actually quite easy, and it should make you feel lots better.  You seem only concerned with yourself right now, when we get like this it is all too easy to fall into despair.  Its wierd, but doing selfless things can sometimes be the most rewarding.

Good luck brother, pray for strength.

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: moonrockmushy] * 1
    #14932871 - 08/16/11 05:11 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

You aren't going to kill yourself. If you were you wouldn't bother posting anonymous.  :maximumtrolling:


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #14934363 - 08/16/11 10:04 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Prisoner#1 said:
I hate to be nosy  but what brought you to this point?




I've always been depressed... even while medicated, the quality of life.. has just lacked flavor... its been a very robotic existence...

I finally found someone that was in short perfect.. and in essence breathed new life into me.. and inside of a week that's been dashed to hell.

Piling that on top of the rest of the crap I don't want to get into... I am just done. Medication doesn't help enough, I have no insurance so can't get the full on help I need.. and I am just tired of this constant fucking depression throwing me through a roller coaster of pain.. Even over stupid little crap like this.




I would be lying to say Im not having depressed moments right now, simply cause money and work are really hard to come by, a good girl is really hard to come by, and cheap drugs like alcohol do little to help and probably only make things worse.

But this is what life is about. You even said it yourself OP: 'I finally found someone that was in short perfect."

In other words, you ran into a situation where you were able to make yourself feel better, even if you believed that someone else was doing it for you. That chick or whoever it was didnt put the neurons into your head to make you happy for that short period of time, YOU did. If you could do it once, you could do it again: and we all know the behavior of the mind as with most other things in life is that repetition of behaviors = habit.

You have fallen into a behavior of feeling depressed. You can change your behaviors of feeling depressed by working towards the goal of feeling good inside (think of your statement again, and the fact that it was YOUR mind feeling good). Suicide is the easy way out, and working for happiness is the hard way out. However the hard thing to do, and the right thing to do are usually the same thing, and definitely that is the case here. Cool thing is when you make changes in your life through hard work, you REALLY begin to appreciate all youve accomplished. You look back on hard efforts that paid off only in making you able to feel happiness. And contrasting that happiness with the depression you and most everyone else has felt at times in our lives, you begin to feel the way you did when you met this other perfect person. But theres no one else to make you feel that way, its just you. You are that perfect person.

Best way to commit suicide? None. Just need to work to ensure a good life for yourself. Id suggest finding a good group of people you can hang out with. Also, someone else said getting physical (they said fighting, id recommend joining a sport). For me hard exercise and competition (I play baseball with friends every wednesday) is invigorating. Even when I am feeling depressed about some shit, which I always and usually successfully find a bright side, but even when im feeling down, getting out on the field for those 3 hours turns my fucking week around.

GL OP


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Mickalopagus]
    #14935856 - 08/17/11 06:11 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Dr Cid said:
You aren't going to kill yourself. If you were you wouldn't bother posting anonymous.




Ya I am no longer anonymous.. but still feeling like shit and boarder-lining suicide... I am taking some advice I have found while looking for similar posts on this subject... The only one that really stayed my hand was calling a friend lastnight... Its the only reason I didn't gas myself in the garage...

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I would be lying to say Im not having depressed moments right now, simply cause money and work are really hard to come by, a good girl is really hard to come by, and cheap drugs like alcohol do little to help and probably only make things worse.

But this is what life is about. You even said it yourself OP: 'I finally found someone that was in short perfect."

In other words, you ran into a situation where you were able to make yourself feel better, even if you believed that someone else was doing it for you. That chick or whoever it was didnt put the neurons into your head to make you happy for that short period of time, YOU did. If you could do it once, you could do it again: and we all know the behavior of the mind as with most other things in life is that repetition of behaviors = habit.

You have fallen into a behavior of feeling depressed. You can change your behaviors of feeling depressed by working towards the goal of feeling good inside (think of your statement again, and the fact that it was YOUR mind feeling good). Suicide is the easy way out, and working for happiness is the hard way out. However the hard thing to do, and the right thing to do are usually the same thing, and definitely that is the case here. Cool thing is when you make changes in your life through hard work, you REALLY begin to appreciate all youve accomplished. You look back on hard efforts that paid off only in making you able to feel happiness. And contrasting that happiness with the depression you and most everyone else has felt at times in our lives, you begin to feel the way you did when you met this other perfect person. But theres no one else to make you feel that way, its just you. You are that perfect person.

Best way to commit suicide? None. Just need to work to ensure a good life for yourself. Id suggest finding a good group of people you can hang out with. Also, someone else said getting physical (they said fighting, id recommend joining a sport). For me hard exercise and competition (I play baseball with friends every wednesday) is invigorating. Even when I am feeling depressed about some shit, which I always and usually successfully find a bright side, but even when im feeling down, getting out on the field for those 3 hours turns my fucking week around.

GL OP




Question for you... How do I go about this.. I have never been socially adept. Physically my feet are messed up... the best I can hope for is surgery or quarter-zone shots to get the nerve tissue to stop sending pain signals... I am not able to stand on my feet for long stints...

So if I am going to try that I am rather limited... The only thing I could consider doing is biking or some other sport where I am off my feet.. but that brings me to the original problem... How do I get into these things... I do want to die... I really do... but your words are comforting... enough to at least attempt...

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14939202 - 08/17/11 08:15 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Op I have much love for you, if you want to start biking then just get a bike and ride! Trust me don't do it you are just going through a phase and these feelings, like all others, WILL PASS.

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14940563 - 08/18/11 01:35 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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nazakoo said:
Question for you... How do I go about this.. I have never been socially adept. Physically my feet are messed up... the best I can hope for is surgery or quarter-zone shots to get the nerve tissue to stop sending pain signals... I am not able to stand on my feet for long stints...

So if I am going to try that I am rather limited... The only thing I could consider doing is biking or some other sport where I am off my feet.. but that brings me to the original problem... How do I get into these things... I do want to die... I really do... but your words are comforting... enough to at least attempt...




I hear you man, my feet are fucked up too in a way. I have extra bones or some shit, apparently theyve got a chance of being fucked up later in life. Its up to you whether you want to attempt surgery; I would talk with the doctor to see what the chance of success is vs something going wrong. I have always felt that being active is important in my life; I would opt for surgery if the outlook for success was good. And I will get surgery on my feet if/when my time comes later in life.

Biking is Awesome man! I ride my bike every other night down the coast in a big circle in my city. Im actually getting really confident in my endurance and am looking to do a 100 mile trip (im in southern cali) down to San Diego. Gonna be a hell of a ride :grin:. If you have a bike, try looking for some nice natural rides out there, if thats what youre into.

As for getting into groups, I would try everything. Depending on your location you can search google for biking groups

heres one i found that looks kinda cool. I found like 20 in my area.

http://road-biking.meetup.com/

Maybe craigslist as well. But whatever man, even if its not biking, there are plenty of ways to meet up with people. I'm not sure how old you are man but when I was in my early 20's I was dealing with a lot of social problems, anxiety, ocd, and depression. I was determined to overcome that shit (thats the OCD personality for ya :wink:) and started reading self help books, meditation books, just anything I could find to help find answers on how to overcome the shit that I felt was out of control in my life.

I know it sounds a little cheasy but I was even reading those books on how to talk to people (larry king comes to mind, I liked the read!), how to influence people, and how to talk with and flirt with girls, Everything man. It took time and practice but eventually I was able to see that all that negative shit we feel, its all just bullshit going on in our minds. We really get to choose how we want to feel, whether it is feeling down, or embracing the rollercoaster that is life. A common theme among all those self help books and in my life I started to realize is that I have always had control, and I can have control any time I choose to. I just have to sit back, take a deep breath, relax, and remember that this is just a ride.

Look up groups in your area, and go to them, whatever the fuck they may be. There is a really interesting thing ive been looking at trying called the Toastmasters Club (if it costs anything do something else, you dont have to pay to find social groups) where you get up and speak in front of a group of people. Its actually kind of a rush, especially when youre used to being more isolated. But that shit is what its about man, breaking out of the shell youve been in; if its not working, break the fuck out and keep trying new things till you find your niche.

I would check out community centers in your area, maybe they have like an acting/improvisation class available (girls love that shit, and youre chances of meeting some really cool chicks in arts are high). If youre not in college, join a class man, even if youre not interested in getting a degree. When I was taking classes at my community college back in the day I told myself, 'Im gonna hang out and talk to whoever I can!'. It wasnt very hard, there were people everywhere who were interested in talking after class. By the end of the semester there was a group of 4 or 5 of us talking for hours after every class session, like it would get dark and wed still hang out taking. Im still friends with some of these people years later. Put yourself in those situations, as awkward as it may be at first. Youre human, humans learn and youll find your rhythm.

Im telling you this. I put in a lot of work, especially to get over the anxiety, OCD, and it paid off so fucking huge. Even though I get down from time to time, having gotten through that much harder shit earlier in life has made me strong, and given me confidence that I can overcome the odds to better my life. I know things can be Reaaaaly fucking shitty, but if you can get through it with hard work, you will be a monster of confidence, you will love yourself, love life, and embrace every moment man. At 30 I feel like life is just starting, its been awesome, even through the hard shit, but now that I am stable in all those ways i struggled with earlier, its like Ive got a 60 year vacation ahead of me, at least emotionally hehe.

If you have more questions please ask Ill help you with anything I can. I can recommend a million good books to read. Glad you called your friend. Friends are such a great resource, you should force yourself to get out there and meet as many people as you can.

Stay positive bro!


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Mickalopagus]
    #14940666 - 08/18/11 02:39 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

amazing advice. you have even motivated me. i am some what in the same position you used to be in. i didn't really notice my shit was fucked up until just now. I guess i need to start working on myself more. sometimes its like pins all over my body preventing me from breaking and letting loose.


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Mickalopagus]
    #14945068 - 08/18/11 11:18 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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mick said:
Biking is Awesome man! I ride my bike every other night down the coast in a big circle in my city. Im actually getting really confident in my endurance and am looking to do a 100 mile trip (im in southern cali) down to San Diego. Gonna be a hell of a ride :grin:. If you have a bike, try looking for some nice natural rides out there, if thats what youre into.




Southern Cali here as well.

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  As for getting into groups, I would try everything. ... even if its not biking, there are plenty of ways to meet up with people.




Some very good ideas! I think I will give that a try.. just kinda not exactly sure what to look into.. but I will do a googy search for just any sort of random group around my area


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I'm not sure how old you are




27

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when I was in my early 20's I was dealing with a lot of social problems, anxiety, ocd, and depression.




Currently ADHD, Depression and Bi-polar...

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I was determined to overcome that shit and started reading self help books




any recommendations for depression... I mean severe depression?

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I know it sounds a little cheasy but I was even reading those books on how to talk to people (larry king comes to mind, I liked the read!), how to influence people, and how to talk with and flirt with girls, Everything man. It took time and practice but eventually I was able to see that all that negative shit we feel, its all just bullshit going on in our minds.




for that matter what would be some of the better books you could recommend on actually talking with girls / flirting...?

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We really get to choose how we want to feel, whether it is feeling down, or embracing the rollercoaster that is life. A common theme among all those self help books and in my life I started to realize is that I have always had control, and I can have control any time I choose to. I just have to sit back, take a deep breath, relax, and remember that this is just a ride.




If that is the case... then how do I go about and just get started with this?? If it was that easy with all the pills I have downed from quacks and the therapy I have had... I should have gotten SOME progress ... How do I even get started with atleast one step in the positive direction when I am going head first into a bottomless pit of depression????????

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Look up groups in your area, and go to them, whatever the fuck they may be. There is a really interesting thing ive been looking at trying called the Toastmasters Club (if it costs anything do something else, you dont have to pay to find social groups) where you get up and speak in front of a group of people. Its actually kind of a rush, especially when youre used to being more isolated. But that shit is what its about man, breaking out of the shell youve been in; if its not working, break the fuck out and keep trying new things till you find your niche.




actually good to know that the groups are free... money is not a luxury I am able to enjoy currently.

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I would check out community centers in your area, maybe they have like an acting/improvisation class available (girls love that shit, and youre chances of meeting some really cool chicks in arts are high). If youre not in college, join a class man, even if youre not interested in getting a degree. When I was taking classes at my community college back in the day I told myself, 'Im gonna hang out and talk to whoever I can!'. It wasnt very hard, there were people everywhere who were interested in talking after class. By the end of the semester there was a group of 4 or 5 of us talking for hours after every class session, like it would get dark and wed still hang out taking. Im still friends with some of these people years later. Put yourself in those situations, as awkward as it may be at first. Youre human, humans learn and youll find your rhythm.

Im telling you this. I put in a lot of work, especially to get over the anxiety, OCD, and it paid off so fucking huge. Even though I get down from time to time, having gotten through that much harder shit earlier in life has made me strong, and given me confidence that I can overcome the odds to better my life. I know things can be Reaaaaly fucking shitty, but if you can get through it with hard work, you will be a monster of confidence, you will love yourself, love life, and embrace every moment man. At 30 I feel like life is just starting, its been awesome, even through the hard shit, but now that I am stable in all those ways i struggled with earlier, its like Ive got a 60 year vacation ahead of me, at least emotionally hehe.




I do not exactly know what has happened to me in the last two days.. but I am starting to do a total 180... The biggest issue I am having right now is actually allowing myself to accept a compliment... it is like it kinda hurts... but it feels good at the same time... and just other stupid little things like that... but I am starting to notice an improvement... I  am also sore from biking lol... but I am starting to actually get a direction for my life. I currently am setting up to go back to college... and I will admit I am not in the best shape of my life... but slowly I am starting to take steps to get rid of these pounds... and its starting to feel pretty damn good to.

and thank you all that have been posting on this... I am actually .. I guess starting to make some progress? and life is starting to seem less of a torture... more of.. I don't know but something worth doing. Again I just wanted to express my gratitude to those who have been replying.. thank you

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14945572 - 08/19/11 02:07 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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just kinda not exactly sure what to look into.. but I will do a googy search for just any sort of random group around my area





The shroomery, or other venues are a great resource (get used to this word, and use it them your full advantage) to ask these kinds of questions. Ask the pubbers what they do for fun, for hobbies, or with great interest. Ignore the trolls and people who say they use drugs for recreation. I am talking actual stuff that makes your life Better longterm. There are very few drug habits I feel actually better peoples lives.

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nazakoo said:
27





Fantastic age btw. Any age is really good to start initiating positive change in ones life, but consider yourself just teein off.

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nazakoo said:
Currently ADHD, Depression and Bi-polar...





Good to know. These are very important diagnoses.

For ADHD: Have you heard of life-coaching? There are books (check barnes n noble, or online), as well as life-coaching services. Pretty much, you start meeeting with a mentor of sorts who helps you make plans for your life, and meet weekly goals, etc... It is a very useful tool for anyone dealing with ADHD that helps you manage the disorder through behavior changes.

Have you been put on medication for ADHD? How did you respond to it? There are few medications I recommend using (because im such a huge behaviorist), but ADHD medication can be very helpful in certain cases, in my opinion.

Depression and Bi-Polar is useful to have a diagnosis for as well. If you can start to expect swings of highs and lows, you can begin to make checklists for what to do the next time your highs/lows cycle in. To be prepared ahead of time and know your resources is a huge step in the right direction when it comes to attacking the swings. What you are looking for is stability, and there are ways to attain it, preventing a certain set of mental behaviors from kicking in. When it comes down to it, it all results from neural activity. We are happy or sad because certain neurons are activated, synapses filling with certain neurotransmitters, etc... Because physical behaviors and even conscious mental behaviors have the ability to change neuronal activity and even neuronal growth, it is important to utilize behaviors that facilitate positive change, when stable, and especially when in a swing. This again, is done, by knowing how to identify when youre in a swing, and having a checklist of options for yourself. Through repeated behavior, there will be changes. This is a long, albeit superbly effective method of beneficial neuronal change.


Furthermore, speaking of the pills you downed in therapy: pills can be very hit and miss. sometimes the expectation of a quick fix can really fuck progress up, which is why I choose to avoid most of them if possible (adhd the potential exception in your case). Positive behavioral change is about 1000x as effective as whatever change can be acquired through the use of an antidepressent; it is also natural and long lasting.


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any [book] recommendations for depression... I mean severe depression? for that matter what would be some of the better books you could recommend on actually talking with girls / flirting...?





There is a series of books I found incredibly helpful by a guy named OSHO (his real name was Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh) titled: Courage, Creativity, etc...

They are very interesting and quick reads, but at the same time leave you thinking about your life, and applying the wisdom to your own behaviors. I would totally recommend any/all books in that series. Keep an open mind, that you dont have to accept everything as truth, just what you feel can be applied appropriately to your own life. Courage was an Awesome read, and can be applied in many different ways emotionally, and socially.

Other books on depression I would recommend are some older reads called: Your Erroneous Zones, by Dyer, and Self Creation by Weinberg. Once again easy reads. Both these guys followed a philosophy that we can shape our lives by having role models of what we feel a person living up to their full potential (self actualization) as human beings, and using theirs as templates for shaping our behaviors. Really interesting concept.

Other books for talking to people and women, I would recommend the King book, as well as a book called How to talk to Anyone, by Leil Lowndes, and How to Make anyone fall in love with you, by the same author.

Yeah the titles are cheasy, but the knowledge inside is pretty rich! Dont overwhelm yourself with a million books though, start with one, and start working outwards. I would seriously recommend the Courage book first. So super awesome.

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How do I even get started with atleast one step in the positive direction when I am going head first into a bottomless pit of depression????????




The first step is to have resources! Many many many resources, there cannot be enough. Talking to friends, riding your bike, learning to cook, planning parties, watching a sport you enjoy, writing in a journal, meditating, having a cool getaway spot for yourself.

I so highly recommend meditation. It teaches you to connect with this inner energy that is ALWAYS positive. By closing your eyes, relaxing, breathing deeply and slowly, and focusing on connecting with this universal energy that we are all a part of, it cleanses your soul. I recommend you check out different methods of meditations, but there are a few quick ones I recommend right now. One is when youre alone and feeling a bit overwhelmed, interlock your fingers and start running them starting at the back of your neck. Imagine that in your palms is this magnet for negative energy, and whatever it runs across it sucks out any negative energy, into the palms of your hands. With your eyes closed slowly start running your hands up your neck, slowly across your head, pulling out all the negative energy, all the negative thoughts, and balling them into the palms of your hands. Once you get to your forehead, pull your interlocked hands away from your head, pulling all the negative energy with them. Your head is clear, and free from this negative energy now, and you simply pull your hands apart, releasing the energy into the air.

I always think of the outside air as + energy. It is part of the universe, a natural source of energy that we are always surrounded with. The universe is God, therefore the air around us is God. With that in mind my other quick meditation is:

Ill find somewhere quiet to sit (outside is great) and close my eyes. I will take a deep breath of air through my nose, imagining all the positive energy entering my body. I feel it circulate through my mind, through my lungs, and my entire body. All the negative energy inside of me, and my mind is then pushed outwards into my lungs to be expelled. I let out the negative energy, which is immediately turned to positive energy upon entering the universe again. I then take another slow breath and continue to envision my body being filled with positive energy, until there is no negative energy left to expel, and I feel pure and connected with the universe, and this greater source of energy. It is enough just to do the exercise to clear your mind and relax, but it can also be used to get into a deeper state of meditation where you have conversations with this universal source of energy that is pretty much pure love. You can learn a lot by being in this state often. I would recommend trying it in a hottub, where you can be alone.

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I do not exactly know what has happened to me in the last two days.. but I am starting to do a total 180...





That is great to read. Just keep in mind that while youre feeling stable and doing good is the time to Build your resources and start working on those behaviors so you have options when things arent going so well. Im glad to hear youre getting back into college, an excellent tool for creating a social network. Get in there and start talking to people!

As for accepting compliments, look past the compliment and to the fact that whoever is saying it is genuinely concerned for making you feel good. Say thank you, and look for something to compliment them on.

Keep the updates comin!



*BTW, when I refer to God, I am not necessarily referring to some omnipotent creator in the sky. God is or isn't what we choose to identify with on that level. For me, especially in the sense of meditation, it has nothing to do with religion.


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ChrisWho said: "It's all about the journey, not the destination."

Edited by Mickalopagus (08/19/11 04:14 AM)

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Mickalopagus]
    #14946739 - 08/19/11 10:33 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

By no means does anyone really have the right to tell you what to do, but there are some good people here friend :smile:. And personally I would do anything I could to help someone in your situation... You want new life breathed into your existence, or the depression to stop? Try sitting down and just asking yourself what you want, dive deep down into your subconscious being and ask it what your purpose is. Now may not be the time, maybe after you develop some of the fine hobbies these people have suggested or whatever you come up with yourself. But everyone has a purpose, or something they are passionate about, they just have to figure it out and dedicate their lives to it and nothing can bring them down.


Very serious advice though, stay away from sad music or any music with an heir of hopelessness.


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: TRyTOfind]
    #14967874 - 08/23/11 08:17 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

The only thing that ever comes to mind... is the same thing I have always wanted all my life... Just someone to come home to who loves me.. is loyal... and I love back... I am very simple... I don't care to be rich... I just want to have.... someone that compliments me perfectly... I have been with other women before ... and for some reason... she is so different... I mean I actually feel guilty looking at porn unless I am able to see her...

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14967930 - 08/23/11 08:27 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

just curious, does she know how you feel about her?

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #14968070 - 08/23/11 09:01 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Yeah man, why not tell her? It's been a while since I've been low low depressed, but I truly believe you're not asking for much, and there's billions of women, probably hundreds of thousands that would do so much for you you'd feel guilty for that.

I challenge you to challenge yourself more! When you feel complacent and ready to hang it up, challenge yourself to get over it! If you fail, don't look at it as you didn't succeed, look at it as you would a rock face you're trying to climb. Stand back, wayyyy back, and look at it and plot another path. If you can't find one, shuffle down the way a little, a little change of scenery or a view from a different angle may give you the insight you need.

I am kinda liking that and am quoting me in my signature! Than you anon1 for you've created something pretty great (at least in my eyes) by challenging me :laugh:


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I challenge you to challenge yourself more! When you feel complacent and ready to hang it up, challenge yourself to get over it! If you fail, don't look at it as you didn't succeed, look at it as you would a rock face you're trying to climb. Stand back, wayyyy back, and look at it and plot another path. If you can't find one, shuffle down the way a little, a little change of scenery or a view from a different angle may give you the insight you need.

Anything I state is relayed information from a friend of a friend and should be viewed as completely fictitious. I do not partake in any illegal or grey-area-of-the-law activities, but do have lots of friends who may or may not.    -fngbronco

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14972965 - 08/24/11 07:59 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Life is hard but I hope you live it.


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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: Jryan]
    #14974807 - 08/25/11 03:17 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

ya... she does know how I feel about her... she already has a boyfriend.. and she had a emergency meeting with him Tuesday night (the drive to vegas), Wednesday, and Thursday... driving back Thursday night.. and thats when I get to find out... really if we are going to be anything... the waiting is killing the crap out of me..

I have started the exercise thing... lost 54lbs... but then again I know I am pushing myself way to hard... Constant dizzy spells, chest pain, head ache... list goes on... but it's a feeble attempt to make the depression hurt less... And now I am to sore to bike damnit lol...

On the upside! I am getting in better shape!

Edited by nazakoo (08/25/11 03:22 AM)

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14974923 - 08/25/11 05:00 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Good job on the weight loss. I do find it kind of comical that her bailing on one guy for you doesn't throw flags up she may bail on you for another, also that people are content in point painful lives of depression and continuing down the path even when it hurts, but can't push through the physical pain of working out, knowing once you get used to it you feel amazing and it goes away. The headaches and chest pain and dizziness is your body getting used to getting the blood flowing. This will pass as well, then you'll look at yourself and be happy with your gains and your confidence goes trough the roof (make sure there isn't any rain in the forcast) and you look at you life and say "hey, this is fucking beautiful! I love this!"


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I challenge you to challenge yourself more! When you feel complacent and ready to hang it up, challenge yourself to get over it! If you fail, don't look at it as you didn't succeed, look at it as you would a rock face you're trying to climb. Stand back, wayyyy back, and look at it and plot another path. If you can't find one, shuffle down the way a little, a little change of scenery or a view from a different angle may give you the insight you need.

Anything I state is relayed information from a friend of a friend and should be viewed as completely fictitious. I do not partake in any illegal or grey-area-of-the-law activities, but do have lots of friends who may or may not.    -fngbronco

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: fngbronco]
    #14974966 - 08/25/11 05:31 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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fngbronco said:
that people are content in point painful lives of depression and continuing down the path even when it hurts, but can't push through the physical pain of working out, knowing once you get used to it you feel amazing and it goes away.




kinda not really understanding what you were saying here... can you rephrase?

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Re: Painless, quick way to commit suicide [Re: nazakoo]
    #14976689 - 08/25/11 01:45 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Sorry, tired and didn't proof read lol

People will continue living emotionally/physically painful lives and live them contently (i.e. abusive relationships) going through and accepting the pain and hurt day in and day out, knowing that unless they change something it'll stay the same. (It's a poor reasoning system but those with attachment issues would rather see it stay the same and be with someone than risk being alone)

People who inflict pain on themselves (healthy pain) by working out, will break from it til it goes away prior to returning, rather than pushing through it til it goes away.

To me the mentality is reversed, where as the emotional pain should break free and the healthy physical should push through. It's one of the comedies like Shakespeare would write. Sometimes I wish I lived near all these people who were depressed so I could help them. Fuck the psychologists (not really) cuz they have guidelines and things they can and cannot say, but I'd tell people how it is, and help build their strength...maybe I'll start touring and putting on self-help seminars.


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I challenge you to challenge yourself more! When you feel complacent and ready to hang it up, challenge yourself to get over it! If you fail, don't look at it as you didn't succeed, look at it as you would a rock face you're trying to climb. Stand back, wayyyy back, and look at it and plot another path. If you can't find one, shuffle down the way a little, a little change of scenery or a view from a different angle may give you the insight you need.

Anything I state is relayed information from a friend of a friend and should be viewed as completely fictitious. I do not partake in any illegal or grey-area-of-the-law activities, but do have lots of friends who may or may not.    -fngbronco

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