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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Any of you derelic for 5+ years?
    #14585084 - 06/09/11 11:41 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

How do you cope without drugs?  I've tried go out, eating at nice resturants, hiking different areas, mountain biking, traveling around, all kinds of things, but it still sucks being alone.

The only way I can get myself yo laugh is by pulling some sick minded twisted shit prank of some random person and by cheap thrills.  I'd like to be more normal, but facing life as a derelic is hard.

What do you do for your birthday and the holidays?  I go out alone a few days before my B-Day and last X-Mas I ate dinner alone in another town.

How do you motivate yourself to stay in the game of life?  My brain scrambles for anything but usually just comes up with parasidic ideas.  I'm looking for a new bridge to help me continue life.  I know that I'll still have to live a low quality life, but I'm not going to let society push me out.


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14585116 - 06/09/11 11:46 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

be gratefull you can last on your own. most people i notice these days make me fucking sick

they all have ADD and cant stand to be alone for anything more than an hour without going mad.

find what makes you happy and continue it. life's really not that hard.

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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: I R Crankey]
    #14585134 - 06/09/11 11:49 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Having ADD and being able to stand alone are not related.


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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: I R Crankey]
    #14585313 - 06/09/11 12:31 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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Wut a Twist said:
be gratefull you can last on your own.




Pride for my parasidic accomplishments wears quickly.


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: Distorted Vision]
    #14585383 - 06/09/11 12:46 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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Distorted Vision said:
Having ADD and being able to stand alone are not related.




what i meant was that people who cant stand to be alone are insanely annoying when they finally do find someone to talk to, because they say everything they didnt get the chance to say before.

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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14585790 - 06/09/11 02:14 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

I have hope for all wishing to get off drugs.. drugs( hard drugs), mostly prescribed, are a terrible roadblock to the higher self(interpretation). Even vitamins are drugs, but we need them, especially vitamin C! So take care of yourself, and eat right when you cna and think a lot about the things that get you out of the same old routine. Good lUck,.

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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: Two_Swarm]
    #14587725 - 06/09/11 09:11 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

I'm not on any hard drugs, I just smoke weed lightly on and off and I drink a few beers here and there.  I'm very healthy.  I eat extremely well.  I've tried  just about everything.  I just need motivation to move on as a derelic and reasons why I should keep fighting in the game of life.


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14587871 - 06/09/11 09:37 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Keep fighting because life is full of change and change is always interesting; find more things that interest you or you have a passion for. Learn to love and be loved, by not finding love your missing a huge part of what life truly has to offer. Stay strong, continue being healthy and live for the moment, instead of living for the next.

Lah'Kesh


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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: don_vedo]
    #14593755 - 06/11/11 12:29 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

The only reason I ask here is because internet forums are about my only form of communication.  I don't have a job or co-workers.  I guess it's time to stop going to others for help.  I went to my mom for help when I was younger and she basically said "fuck off, lifes a bitch and then you die".  From there it just seems like my life has been fucked.  Now I'm 27 and about to snap.  I give up.


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14594176 - 06/11/11 02:54 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Do you have any education or work skills at all?  Its ok if not, I don't really either, but that would be a big factor in what I would say to you.  Also, I'm not sure what you mean by 'direlic', is that like homeless?

I have a hard time connecting with people too sometimes, but I really do try and make an effort to connect, so if you feel you want someone to chat, PM me anytime.  I usually check here every day when I am at home.

There, now you've got al least one friend :wink: - don't give up on me buddy!

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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: moonrockmushy]
    #14594270 - 06/11/11 04:07 AM (12 years, 8 months ago)

travel for a few months in third world country, its dirt cheap, utterly amazing, you learn a fuck load about the world, life, yourself and its easy to meet people who are just like you. Seriously, it will revive you. do it and don't think twice.


5 grand is enough to get by in India for almost a year if you stay/eat at the right places


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: JackofSpades]
    #14596731 - 06/11/11 04:11 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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JackofSpades said:
travel for a few months in third world country, its dirt cheap, utterly amazing, you learn a fuck load about the world, life, yourself and its easy to meet people who are just like you. Seriously, it will revive you. do it and don't think twice.


5 grand is enough to get by in India for almost a year if you stay/eat at the right places





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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: don_vedo]
    #14596911 - 06/11/11 04:48 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

if you don't like being alone, why not look for people to be together with? if you can't do that, why not learn doing that?

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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: moi]
    #14598131 - 06/11/11 09:53 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

I've only had low skill jobs and rely on parasidic activities.  I cheated my way through middle school and high school(I'm very uneducated).

I'm 27 and lack almost all social requirments to survive in society.

I think it's the weed.  When I smoke it, I feel fine, but when I'm clean, I realize that everyone walks all over me and treats me like trash.  When I'm high, I don't mind, it's when I stop.

I think my family is trying to push me to kill myself.  Everytime I'm around them, they rub it in how I have no friends, no life...  That's why I stopped having anything to do with them.  Then they tell everyone how I'm such a horrible person for rejecting them.

It's the world vs Me, and I'm not leaving.


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14598208 - 06/11/11 10:12 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

Have you considered mature age entry to university? Hell, you could even study mycology!
I don't know how it works wherever you're from, but here in Australia, there's this thing called the STAT test for mature age applicants.
Essentially it's a chance to do year 12 in 2 tests, and get a grade with which you can get to uni. You can get in almost any course providing you do well enough on the test, and they tell you exactly what you need to know weeks before in a booklet!
You'll a. get an education/skills, b. meet a lot of new people and c. fill up all your spare time! Not to mention the amazing amount of drugs you can find being sold at universities. :wink:

EDIT: Oh, and the women :tongue:


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I am a sybaritic, an epicure of the most deviant kind. Hedonism is my religion, and I devote my life to sensuous pleasure and decadence.

So who are you to tell me how to live my life, 'cause I won't give this up, these are my shoes, my view, my cue to say I do give a fuck!
And pretty soon I'ma bloomin' it'll be alright, 'cause every day's another chance to ignite, 'cause I'm addicted, I'm addicted, I'm addicted to this universal feeling of life

I feel like a child, so naked and wild, your body's my playground, where pure is defiled :gethigh:

Edited by Harry Jackson (06/11/11 10:12 PM)

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OfflineUniversalParadox
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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: Harry Jackson]
    #14598373 - 06/11/11 10:53 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

The problem is that I cheated my way through middle school and high school.  Teachers unions + big class room = me passing and looking normal.

As far as the perks at school, woman don't like me(nobody likes a derelic) and I'm trying to stay off drugs(they give me a false view on reality).


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14598630 - 06/11/11 11:40 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

You shouldn't worry about their, or societies expectations of you, but you need to get rid of this negative view of yourself.

I struggled my way through high school, and failed out of college.  I kinda blame the weed too, but I had serious problems with depression and acedemics before I started any drugs.  Sometimes we just have to go through this shitty patch in life, learn some hard lessons, and take those lessons and apply them, hopefully things improve.

Theres gotta be some things you like to do that have probably fallen to the wayside.  Make youself do this shit, even if it is hard.  Also, if you are a physical type, look around for a manual labor type job.  Mine was easy to get with no references or education, taught me discipline, how to deal with difficult people, got me in shape, and most importantly gave me alot of confidence in myself.

It seems you've realized the problem, now take some steps to make change.  Things will never be easy, but if you take a more optimistic attitude about your own abilities, you will at least give yourself a chance to be happy.

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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: moonrockmushy]
    #14638981 - 06/19/11 05:58 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

I'm not a sociopath, I'm a phycopath.  I just realized that sociopaths fuck up(get caught) and don't know they are sociopaths, but phycopaths plan, prepare, and get away with shit.  We also know what we are.

Go Bundy!


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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: UniversalParadox]
    #14639764 - 06/19/11 09:04 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

I realize that you're maybe joking/exagerating to some extent, but is this really something you're proud of?

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Sociopathy and psychopathy share many traits, which is the main source of confusion for differentiating them in psychology. Traits that sociopaths and psychopaths share include:

■a disregard for the rights of others
■a failure to feel remorse or guilt
■a disregard for laws and social mores
■a tendency to display violent behavior and emotional outbursts
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Psychopaths(...) have an inability to feel empathy and are just as likely to hurt their family and friends as they are strangers.




I'm not very into psycology, or the terms that come with it, the more I try to label and classify my behavior, the less sense it makes to me.  I sometimes feel like I have every single psycological disorder myself, and so must everyone else, but it is just expressed in different ways from person to person.

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Re: Any of you derelic for 5+ years? [Re: moonrockmushy]
    #14640184 - 06/19/11 10:30 PM (12 years, 8 months ago)

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moonrockmushy said:
I realize that you're maybe joking/exagerating to some extent, but is this really something you're proud of?

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Sociopathy and psychopathy share many traits, which is the main source of confusion for differentiating them in psychology. Traits that sociopaths and psychopaths share include:

■a disregard for the rights of others
■a failure to feel remorse or guilt
■a disregard for laws and social mores
■a tendency to display violent behavior and emotional outbursts
...
Psychopaths(...) have an inability to feel empathy and are just as likely to hurt their family and friends as they are strangers.




I'm not very into psycology, or the terms that come with it, the more I try to label and classify my behavior, the less sense it makes to me.  I sometimes feel like I have every single psycological disorder myself, and so must everyone else, but it is just expressed in different ways from person to person.




I'm quite sure I am.  The first three traits are certain.  The last one I learned early that violence only gets me in trouble before middle school(I got suspended twice in a row for beating others, lol...before that, I had done more).

Maybe not proud, but I know that people right me off right away(they know from others what I am) and label me a evil being.  No matter how well I fake, others warn them.  So I have to but up a fight against everyone else.  I'll never be given a fair chance(if any chance) even by religious-types(they think I am a demon, look it up).  So, I have to live my life, and stay caught up.

I know I wont ever be able to get married, have kids, have a meaningful relationship, have real friends, and I'll probley end up in prison, but I have to put up a full fight, I wont kill myself like everyone wants.  That's why I started to eat healthy, I could tell everyone wanted me to kill myself and everyone was trying to make me feel horrible about my life(rubbing it in).


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