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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15274838 - 10/25/11 05:28 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275472 - 10/25/11 09:55 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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sirdonut said: as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
no I never put that much emphasis on sex. Sure sex is a big part of life ( I techinically woulden't even know cuz i'm still a virgin)
I'm just saying it sucks cuz I wont ever even be able to even experience it or have a relationship or kids unless this shit heals. So I pretty much just want to
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275479 - 10/25/11 09:57 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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sirdonut said: as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
I meditate alot. It's the only thing thats getting me through this shit. Because the source of suffering is all mental. But just cause I can stop negative thoughts from springing up doesn't mean I'm happy.
Still have no future to look forward to.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15275667 - 10/25/11 10:45 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275684 - 10/25/11 10:49 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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sirdonut said: Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
right but you can only judge me based on the words i write you don't know me personally in real life so its not really fair for you to make any of those observations about me. even if some of them are true.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15275731 - 10/25/11 10:58 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
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sirdonut said: Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
right but you can only judge me based on the words i write you don't know me personally in real life so its not really fair for you to make any of those observations about me. even if some of them are true.
I would never claim to know anyone, even people I'm close to. No worries, I'm not judging, just trying to help.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15277140 - 10/25/11 04:32 PM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: Can you pop a boner still?
You missed this.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #3]
#15277422 - 10/25/11 05:28 PM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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sirdonut said: Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
well at this point all everyone is telling me to do is to suck it up and learn coping skills. Even my parents pretty much gave up on me and want me to see a councelor for depression. Wtf is that supposed to do. you can't talk me out of depression.
I just want to get better. The only thing keeping me going is believing that this is temporary and it will pass. It's hard to believe in love or god or a higher purpose or being in harmony with the universe when your dick is leaking. I was living in my own blissful delusional bubble until this happened. Leaking from the dick kinda snaps you out of all of that. And shows you the cold hard truth. Love is just a chemical reaction and life is just a bitch and then you die. There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit. If this doesn't heal all i have left to look forward to is living alone at some repetative factory job for the rest of my life and never getting to experience what its like to be in love.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15277600 - 10/25/11 05:58 PM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
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sirdonut said: Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
well at this point all everyone is telling me to do is to suck it up and learn coping skills. Even my parents pretty much gave up on me and want me to see a councelor for depression. Wtf is that supposed to do. you can't talk me out of depression.
I just want to get better. The only thing keeping me going is believing that this is temporary and it will pass. It's hard to believe in love or god or a higher purpose or being in harmony with the universe when your dick is leaking. I was living in my own blissful delusional bubble until this happened. Leaking from the dick kinda snaps you out of all of that. And shows you the cold hard truth. Love is just a chemical reaction and life is just a bitch and then you die. There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit. If this doesn't heal all i have left to look forward to is living alone at some repetative factory job for the rest of my life and never getting to experience what its like to be in love. 
You have manifested this life for your self.
you want it to change, then fucking change dont just sit around and mope.
You have no drive, no fucking will to live. No reason to fight.
Go find it. You don't need a dick to love, or make a chick cum.
And i'll tell you this, if they can give a girl a working cock then you can fix yours. nuff' said.
You need a life changing experience
You need to come close to death before you'll learn to experience life.
If i was near you I'd smack you into next fucking Tuesday then drown you in some fucking acid.
Plus, i'm pretty sure one of the bitches i know would fuck ya.
Go out and do something fun man you by the beach?
Ladies: i don't mean disrespect but this is guy talk. Exit the thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
#15279345 - 10/26/11 12:35 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread. It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out. Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift. cause and effect. you do something, a result happens. you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly. Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie. You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention. Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop. "my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself. Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop. You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right? "my life sucks forever and ever" How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement. Your choice 
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing. Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world. Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15280184 - 10/26/11 08:30 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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schmoopy said: sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread. It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out. Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift. cause and effect. you do something, a result happens. you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly. Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie. You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention. Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop. "my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself. Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop. You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right? "my life sucks forever and ever" How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement. Your choice 
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing. Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world. Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
It's easy to go out giving advice when it isn't happening to you. Were you in my position you would be just as pessimistic about life as I am. Stop trying to cheer me up with a little cheerleader speech it isnt going to work. I don't mean to be mean but you all are making light of this. This is a serious problem and you all are acting like I just stubbed my toe or something. The possibility of having a loving relationship? Bullshit. Fuck off. Even if there was a woman who would Why would I ever drag someone else into my hell? Fuck that. Your full of shit and you know it. Karma? there is no such thing. Why don't you fly to a foreign country and take a good look around. What did these people ever do to deserve a life of poverty. Having to scrounge around for scraps of food just to live another day. Innocent people are raped everyday. Innocent people are framed and given life sentences for things they didn't do. Are you saying these people did something to deserve this?
Your just living in your own blissful delusional bubble. you accused me of rejecting your words before I finished reading your post. And your right I did. Because I've heard it all before a million times. But guess what your going to read this post and reject it just the same. Because it's something your mind can't cope with. Your mind will reject anything that doesn't conform to the way you see things. You just want to live in your blissful bubble you call reality.
Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it. I just happened to get a shitty role of the dice and happened to fuck my life over because I decided to do some experimentation out of bordom. So unless you can direct me to a doctor who actually gives a fuck then fuck off with the cheerleader stories. That's not what I need right now. And it's not helping at all. I just want to bitch about my life a little bit okay? Can you understand that? Sometimes it feels good to bitch about things. I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life about this embarrassing condition. So sorry if I inconvenienced you with my story.
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Dionili
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15280192 - 10/26/11 08:32 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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schmoopy said: sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread. It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out. Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift. cause and effect. you do something, a result happens. you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly. Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie. You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention. Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop. "my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself. Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop. You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right? "my life sucks forever and ever" How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement. Your choice 
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing. Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world. Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280263 - 10/26/11 08:59 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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poptart.
it really saddens me to read this thread. especially that this happened to you of all people because at least if it happened to some sex crazed dimwit it might waken them up a bit and make them reasses their life.
i can relate to you and i know this would fuck me up big time too. you are the kind of highly self reflexive introverted type, passive and untrusting of people, who already makes a meal out of very small issues and so a big one (like this) is almost too much.
i cant really give any advice because i myself am pretty much the same. i agree that the whole "There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit." is true and i suspect the 'all is love' mantra is bullshit as well.
that said, a lot of people say they dont believe in god, but actually do hold themselves to some higher standards or do think they are constantly being judged, need to act right or whatever. i think you need to not only say you dont believe in god, but realize that you are actually abandoned by god, that you are completely freed from that comforting ideal and it is truly up to you amd only you to act in this world... dont know how much this applies but i read it the other day and realized it does to me 
anyway, have you thought of asking a plastic surgeon? surely with all they can do they could fix you up?
goodluck man, i hope it all turns out for the best.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280273 - 10/26/11 09:03 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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Poptart said: Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it.

the universe is really playing a far out game with you.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: quinn]
#15280340 - 10/26/11 09:30 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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quinn said: poptart.
it really saddens me to read this thread. especially that this happened to you of all people because at least if it happened to some sex crazed dimwit it might waken them up a bit and make them reasses their life.
i can relate to you and i know this would fuck me up big time too. you are the kind of highly self reflexive introverted type, passive and untrusting of people, who already makes a meal out of very small issues and so a big one (like this) is almost too much.
i cant really give any advice because i myself am pretty much the same. i agree that the whole "There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit." is true and i suspect the 'all is love' mantra is bullshit as well.
that said, a lot of people say they dont believe in god, but actually do hold themselves to some higher standards or do think they are constantly being judged, need to act right or whatever. i think you need to not only say you dont believe in god, but realize that you are actually abandoned by god, that you are completely freed from that comforting ideal and it is truly up to you amd only you to act in this world... dont know how much this applies but i read it the other day and realized it does to me 
anyway, have you thought of asking a plastic surgeon? surely with all they can do they could fix you up?
goodluck man, i hope it all turns out for the best.

Nice to hear an honest down to earth response for once. I really appreciate it. I havent really thought of asking a plastic surgeon ...wut are they going to do give me a plastic dick? (joking) But ya I'm trying to keep my head up. I still think somewhere in this world there has to be some doctor smart enough to fix me. I still really really want to believe this is some kind of test but i don't know anymore.
But ya once agian thanks for actually giving an honest down to earth response. It's refreshing to hear.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280360 - 10/26/11 09:39 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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no probs man. we might all be alone but we are alone together
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: quinn]
#15280375 - 10/26/11 09:42 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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quinn said: no probs man. we might all be alone but we are alone together 
True that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280410 - 10/26/11 09:58 AM (12 years, 3 months ago) |
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maybe they can cut the tip of your toe and penor off and switch them, you'll get feeling back in your penis and you won't need feeling in your toe, and you'll gain a penornail for scratching the gspot
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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It's easy to go out giving advice when it isn't happening to you. Were you in my position you would be just as pessimistic about life as I am. Stop trying to cheer me up with a little cheerleader speech it isnt going to work. I don't mean to be mean but you all are making light of this. This is a serious problem and you all are acting like I just stubbed my toe or something. The possibility of having a loving relationship? Bullshit. Fuck off. Even if there was a woman who would Why would I ever drag someone else into my hell? Fuck that. Your full of shit and you know it. Karma? there is no such thing. Why don't you fly to a foreign country and take a good look around. What did these people ever do to deserve a life of poverty. Having to scrounge around for scraps of food just to live another day. Innocent people are raped everyday. Innocent people are framed and given life sentences for things they didn't do. Are you saying these people did something to deserve this?
Your just living in your own blissful delusional bubble. you accused me of rejecting your words before I finished reading your post. And your right I did. Because I've heard it all before a million times. But guess what your going to read this post and reject it just the same. Because it's something your mind can't cope with. Your mind will reject anything that doesn't conform to the way you see things. You just want to live in your blissful bubble you call reality.
Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it. I just happened to get a shitty role of the dice and happened to fuck my life over because I decided to do some experimentation out of bordom. So unless you can direct me to a doctor who actually gives a fuck then fuck off with the cheerleader stories. That's not what I need right now. And it's not helping at all. I just want to bitch about my life a little bit okay? Can you understand that? Sometimes it feels good to bitch about things. I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life about this embarrassing condition. So sorry if I inconvenienced you with my story.
With that attitude, you're not gonna get laid with a working dick.
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