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Poptart


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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565194 - 06/05/11 03:43 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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MisterMuscaria said: Im 25, schizophrenic, unemployed(and unemployable), live with my mom(whose also schizophrenic) and my lungs are filing up with fluid so I cant even smoke herb anymore. Not to mention most women find me awkward and repulsive. Ive got back hair for christ's sake!
at least you arent that?
You should do art then. That's what I'm doing
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14565214 - 06/05/11 03:48 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565219 - 06/05/11 03:49 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Favorite. That is fucking sick. I had no idea you were such an artist MM.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: muistrue]
#14565221 - 06/05/11 03:49 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said: Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
No, to become a shaman you must learn to heal yourself fully before you can start healing others. Sounds like you have a long way to go.
Gential mutilation was a pre-Jewish semitic ritual which was intended to simulate the female period (they were fertility worshippers) and that's why Jews mutilate their penors to this day.
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Poptart


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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565272 - 06/05/11 04:02 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said: Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
No, to become a shaman you must learn to heal yourself fully before you can start healing others. Sounds like you have a long way to go.
You guys might not believe me but I know people who have the power to influence alot of people in the entertainment industry. If I spread the news of iboga I could heal alot of heroin addicts. Quote:
MisterMuscaria said: here's some of my art; 






I think your art reflects a brilliant mind. But highly misunderstood. Is schizophrenia kind of like being on a permanent trip? or am I way off?
Edited by Poptart (06/09/11 10:13 AM)
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Poptart


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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14584673 - 06/09/11 10:23 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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I haven't tripped for about 2 years. Do you think it would be a good idea to trip and reevaluate my life. Or would it just make things worse?
I feel like my life is on hold unless this heals.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14584862 - 06/09/11 11:00 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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My motto is: when in doubt, ingest huge amounts of psychedelic substances.
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Anthony917
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: waves]
#14584901 - 06/09/11 11:08 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life. on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14585160 - 06/09/11 11:54 AM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said: I haven't tripped for about 2 years. Do you think it would be a good idea to trip and reevaluate my life. Or would it just make things worse?
I feel like my life is on hold unless this heals.
If you're WILLING to re-evaluate your life, then do it. But it's not a magic bullet. If you don't bring the intensity, the honesty, and the focus, the drug is not gonna do any work for you.
A psychedelic experience in the right setting at the right time can turn a person's life around on a dime, but not by magic. It works because the person works with the drug.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14586496 - 06/09/11 04:38 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Pretty much
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Poptart


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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
#14587487 - 06/09/11 08:25 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life. on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.

That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 2
#14588252 - 06/09/11 11:00 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life. on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.

That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
If you really think your life is hopeless just because you can't get a hard on anymore than you should probably just go ahead and do it now. If that is all you have to live for that is a truly pathetic life.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: waves]
#14601357 - 06/12/11 02:46 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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TheDukeofLizards said:
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Poptart said:
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Anthony917 said:

poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life. on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.

That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
If you really think your life is hopeless just because you can't get a hard on anymore than you should probably just go ahead and do it now. If that is all you have to live for that is a truly pathetic life.
No but now I can't have a relationship and living alone for the rest of my life just wouldn't work for me. I can barely even take care of myself and my parents are getting sick of supporting me.
Freud was right sex drives almost everything we do. And when that is taken away the drive and will to live is gone. It's painfully obvious to me now. Everything else in life is just a filler to pass the time.
But like i said earlier I could never kill myself. I'm just saying I'm not really enjoying life anymore and everything i do is going through the motions.
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Anthony917
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601394 - 06/12/11 02:51 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Really? If you think life is only about sex then...all I can say is 
I haven't had sex in the last 2 years and my life has been fucking awesome 
it's getting kind of old to hear you keep spitting out the same nonsense over and over and over again, after people have told you hundreds of times to quit feeling so sorry for yourself.
Look man, you're either going to say "my life is over" in which case you should kill yourself, or "i'm gonna quit bitching about my problems and enjoy my life". There are a lot of infertile chicks out there, are their lives over cause they can't have babies? I mean damn dude you could always hook up with a chick who can't get pregnant, marry her & adopt a child...
you seem to think that just because you destroyed your cock that your life is over...
I mean for fucks sake be happy you aren't this guy

see? He's wearing a nice shirt, I bet you he thought his life was over too...but it's not, and I also bet you he doesn't bitch and moan about it all day seeking attention either
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What is life? I'm tired of life...
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MisterMuscaria



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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601402 - 06/12/11 02:52 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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I tripped the other day and faced a slew of internal demons. After coming out on the other side I realized that though this body may not be enduring the best of fates I am also part of the greater whole and some of the other parts are enduring much greater fates. I should draw happiness from the happiness of the whole rather than one unit that is not enduring the best of fates. I may not be sexy, but I can be happy for those who are. I may not be getting laid right now but I can be happy for those who are. I may not be in love but I can be happy for those who are.
Emotional anguish stems from jealousy. If we can overcome that jealousy we can be content with whatever cruel hand we are dealt and move on.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14601614 - 06/12/11 03:29 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Anthony917 said: Really? If you think life is only about sex then...all I can say is 
I haven't had sex in the last 2 years and my life has been fucking awesome 
it's getting kind of old to hear you keep spitting out the same nonsense over and over and over again, after people have told you hundreds of times to quit feeling so sorry for yourself.
Look man, you're either going to say "my life is over" in which case you should kill yourself, or "i'm gonna quit bitching about my problems and enjoy my life". There are a lot of infertile chicks out there, are their lives over cause they can't have babies? I mean damn dude you could always hook up with a chick who can't get pregnant, marry her & adopt a child...
you seem to think that just because you destroyed your cock that your life is over...
I mean for fucks sake be happy you aren't this guy

see? He's wearing a nice shirt, I bet you he thought his life was over too...but it's not, and I also bet you he doesn't bitch and moan about it all day seeking attention either
its easy to say all that when it isn't happening to you. And pointing out other peoples shitty life situations doesn't make me feel better either. Diminishing my situation isn't really helping.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601630 - 06/12/11 03:36 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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To be quite honest, it's pretty damn funny that your dick's bleeding internally because you kept pulling on it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601657 - 06/12/11 03:42 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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well it seems like you're pretty set on living a horrible miserable life, so why are you even here posting? 7 pages later and you're still saying the exact same thing as you were in your first post.
You've convinced yourself that your life is over, so it is.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
#14601789 - 06/12/11 04:08 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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mongo lloyd said: To be quite honest, it's pretty damn funny that your dick's bleeding internally because you kept pulling on it.
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Anthony917 said: well it seems like you're pretty set on living a horrible miserable life, so why are you even here posting? 7 pages later and you're still saying the exact same thing as you were in your first post.
You've convinced yourself that your life is over, so it is.
Well I already was depressed as fuck growing up and kept holding on to the idea that everything will be better once I get in a relationship and I don't have to be alone. then this happened and now that idea is fucked over.
now what? go to school, get a career, and then do the same repetitive action over and over again. I just can't live alone.
That's why I would rather live in denial. I can't mentally cope with this. I don't think you understand how traumatizing it is to not have a working dick. sure it could be worse. I could be that guy. But I'm not.
I don't really know why I'm posting. Maybe a part of me loves bitching cuz i feel that life dealt me a shitty hand and I have a lot of anger bottled up inside and I just need to vent.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
#14601800 - 06/12/11 04:10 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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The miserable secretly desire their misery.
OP; have you tried direct prostate stimulation? you could always get a girl to fuck you with a strap on.
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