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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14560525 - 06/04/11 03:10 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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laserpig said: Life is arbitrary and meaningless, so why bother suffering? You've got a short span of years with no purpose to achieve and your death guaranteed at the end. Just find your small pleasures, no matter how small they are, and comprehend what it is about them that you enjoy. Change your circumstances, even if only slightly, to make those enjoyments more pronounced. If you can get in that habit, then you can love life, even though no matter what you'll never understand it and it's all probably meaningless in the end.
How you feel is always just a product of momentary circumstances, always susceptible to change. If you've meditated, you know this. Nothing traps you in your mindstate other than maintenance of routine. My question to you is: why maintain a routine which yields suffering? I am not assuming you have superhuman willpower to lift yourself up by your bootstraps. I am telling you that in this finite and arbitrary existence, you have the chance to feel happy or the chance to feel sad. Either way, you're only gonna feel it for a little while before lights out. So why not at least finagle your circumstances a little bit to bring out more pleasure where you can?
People seem to get the idea that they deserve to be sad because they've wasted their life being so sad. They punish themselves for punishing themselves. But guess what? Nobody deserves anything. Shit's random.
There are some things you enjoy. That's a fact. Identify them and move towards them. If that seems like amoral, pointless sense gratification, who cares? You live then you die. Stop withholding permission from yourself to be happy.
haven't seen laserpig since the rap thread. great post.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560548 - 06/04/11 03:15 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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I very much doubt that. If he's a doctor specialising in DICKS do you really think he's never seen a damaged dick before?
If he referred you to another specialist why didn't you go?
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But I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew my life was fucked.
You're conferring your own opinions onto this doctors actions.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 5
#14560563 - 06/04/11 03:17 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said: I used to get really sad about this but now I think I've just shut down and I don't feel anything anymore. I went to the bar last night and drank a
Drank a what? That's your problem dude, you don't finish your
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: mongo lloyd]
#14560566 - 06/04/11 03:18 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560583 - 06/04/11 03:21 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Mad_Larkin said: I very much doubt that. If he's a doctor specialising in DICKS do you really think he's never seen a damaged dick before?
If he referred you to another specialist why didn't you go?
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But I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew my life was fucked.
You're conferring your own opinions onto this doctors actions.
no. I can read people pretty well and I could tell he had a genuine wtf moment. He had the look of shit I don't know what to do and I don't think anyone can fix this. and he didn't want to be the one to tell me my life was fucked so he said he would refer me to another doctor. Probably one who has the balls to tell me that nothing can be done.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560593 - 06/04/11 03:24 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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I can't even exercise because It aggravates it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560595 - 06/04/11 03:24 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Okay, if you want to continue believeing that, it's cool but it isn't going to do you any good.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and sort your shit out.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560604 - 06/04/11 03:25 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Mad_Larkin said:

Like I said it's like a cosmic joke. That's why I'm such a drug addict. It's the only time I can disassociate from the situation and laugh at it from a different perspective.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560634 - 06/04/11 03:32 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Do you actually want to be in a better situation? You seem to quite enjoy feeling victimised.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560644 - 06/04/11 03:34 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said: I can't even exercise because It aggravates it.
stop yourself of negativity
hold your head up high but not too high. never low
also dont think youre intuitive bc most the times your brain will tell you are, everyone is intuitive with body language anyways. be positive and life has a lot to offer other than intuitive powers/gifts.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560660 - 06/04/11 03:38 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Mad_Larkin said: Okay, if you want to continue believeing that, it's cool but it isn't going to do you any good.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and sort your shit out.
I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I just have nobody to talk to about this. It's to weird to bring it up in real life. And it's not like being crippled where other people can tell. I have to suffer in silence unless I yell out HEY everyone my dick is broken there is no god!
My life goal is to be a comedian or something and joke about how shitty my life is in a positive way. I'll cope with laughter or something. Or do lots of drugs and write down thoughts and make lots of art.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560666 - 06/04/11 03:39 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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what is making you antisocial?
if you have problems talking i can help you in this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
#14560679 - 06/04/11 03:43 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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the human abstract said: what is making you antisocial?
if you have problems talking i can help you in this thread.
Well Adhd doesent make me antisocial but having it as a child kind of alienated me from everyone so i never grew up with good social skills. Almost like being autistic except I'm more socially aware.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560693 - 06/04/11 03:48 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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soooo youre saying youre gifted in being social?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560702 - 06/04/11 03:50 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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You need to break the monotony.
Here's what I would do if I were in your situation:
--Find a counselor or psychologist to see. It can be TREMENDOUSLY helpful to sit down and talk with someone who is trained to help people deal with life troubles like you are.
--If you're not doing it already, start exercising. Free weights and some form of cardio will do.
--To help you make some friends and develop your social skills, I'd suggest joining a club or a city sports league. You might also consider picking up a part-time job that would force you to interact a lot with others.
--And for now, I'd suggest not smoking the herb.
Good luck man
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
#14560715 - 06/04/11 03:54 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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the human abstract said: soooo youre saying youre gifted in being social?
no lol. I just see thinks from a different perspective. its hard to explain.
And now that my dick is broken all the psychological bullshit in my head sprung out of my unconscious.
Humans are just designed to fuck and when that is taken away. It kind of puts a damper on things.
Every morning I have to wake up to the reality that I may have to live alone the rest of my life and bleed to death in the corner. It puts things into perspective.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560726 - 06/04/11 03:57 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560741 - 06/04/11 04:02 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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You need to get away from the computer by any means necessary.
You can post here as long as you want about how it isn't your fault or how doomed you are, and you're totally right when you say it won't change anything.
And for someone with no social skills, you seem oddly certain you can read the minds of that doctor.
Even if your dick IS broken beyond the help of medical science (which I doubt), there's no excuse for self-pity and inaction.
Get some air and some exercise, find something productive to do. Listening to more hatebreed is optional, but I recommend it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract] 1
#14560750 - 06/04/11 04:05 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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the human abstract said: building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
True.
Its just sex is always the carrot tied in front of us that everyone unconsciously chases all the time.
And when it's not there the desire to do is no more. I don't have a carrot to chase. I don't have sex to look forward too.
At the core we are all shallow animals hiding behind clothes and technology and all this bullshit. All humans want to do unconsciously is just fuck the most attractive well of person. Were just made to fuck. Freud was right. At the root sex just drives everything. Love is just a chemical reaction.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Kid_Orgo]
#14560754 - 06/04/11 04:06 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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