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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15316804 - 11/03/11 08:26 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15316963 - 11/03/11 09:35 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said: This thread has been very fun. I really enjoy your bitching. These people who think going for walks will change a person from being sad and introverted into happy extroverts are very deluded. I am attached to my misery, not by choice and I have read many self help books and tried all kinds of stuff to change my attitude but that is wrong and it is all ineffective. There are hellish forces that rise up, they always over power me. I have tried to ignore them, fight them, positive affirm them away, cast them out in christs name, align myself with them, there is nothing I can do. It all comes down to my nature, that is I am nothing. Last night I got stoned and laughed allot. That is my joy in life, there is very little else. I have some loyal friends that I hang out with but I hardly talk to them really. Got nothing to say. I think I am more aligned with these demons now. That works best, it is acceptance and surrender to the sadness and hopelessness that brings peace. Not trying obtain a positive mental attitude, that is unreasonable expectation.
As for being alone for the rest of your life, look up bramacharia and sublimation of sexual energy. Listen too Hank Williams and be glad you never have to feel like that. I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life but I'm ok with that.
you're just continually buying into and reinforcing the illusion of the ego. It's your choice, though. You are right about one thing and it's that "you" are nothing but it's not a negative poor little me type of nothing. It's the nothingness of space that we all are. You realize you've been putting on a charade for years due to conditioning on multiple levels and the veil is lifted that reveals the infinite nature of existence itself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15317255 - 11/03/11 11:18 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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At least you're not living alone anymore?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15325169 - 11/05/11 01:50 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Mad_Larkin said: Do you actually want to be in a better situation? You seem to quite enjoy feeling victimised.
Seriously, ever since I noticed this guy he's acted this way. Definitely loves feeling a victim. Quote:
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usulpsychonaut said: It's taken 35 years to get this delusion to where it is. I'm no emo kid you prick, I'm a hallucinating poet. I see snakes floating above my head and I'm proud.
wait let me get this straight... everyone in the world is busy mindlessly fucking eachother like animals. meanwhile my dick is broken and the only person I have to keep me company is some random psychotic schizophrenic, who see's snakes floating above his head and makes drug's look bad for the rest of us... 
OK GOD you've had your fun torturing me! You can end your cosmic joke now! I surrender! please wake me up from this nightmare.
Dude, YOU make drugs look bad for the rest of us. Not every heavy pot smoker is so weak like you...
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i like cow poo
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15332021 - 11/06/11 04:24 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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keep workin out man. Atleast you'll feel healthier  but forreal lookup self-improvement books on amazon they made me a happier person
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: i like cow poo]
#15334192 - 11/07/11 01:54 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Poptart... in the end you're just chasing your own tail man... and you know it, doncha?
Watch that video and ask yourself the final question of the video, are you a victim of the world, or are you the world?
If you still choose to play the victim role, then watch this video and tell me the primary difference in attitude between you and this guy.
In the end, you can keep wishing for things you don't currently have, but all you're doing is neglecting the things that you do have in this present moment.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: foliocb]
#15334897 - 11/07/11 08:20 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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foliocb said: Poptart... in the end you're just chasing your own tail man... and you know it, doncha?
Watch that video and ask yourself the final question of the video, are you a victim of the world, or are you the world?
If you still choose to play the victim role, then watch this video and tell me the primary difference in attitude between you and this guy.
In the end, you can keep wishing for things you don't currently have, but all you're doing is neglecting the things that you do have in this present moment.
Thank you miss america!!! for your wonderful inspirational speech!
Sorry I don't mean to be a sacrastic dick but it's one of the few joys I have left in life. I'm a dick because mine is broken.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15335595 - 11/07/11 11:23 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wheres the pictures in this thread? We need to see already. Stop trolling us
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Almond Flour] 1
#15335937 - 11/07/11 12:28 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sorry I don't mean to be a sacrastic dick but it's one of the few joys I have left in life. I'm a dick because mine is broken.
Well hey, atleast youre working with what you got... thats a baby step in the 'right' direction if you ask me
Now look bro, I wish I was banging a new chick every other day and had a super jacked body among other things, but sooner or later you're gonna realize that you're just comparing apples to oranges. The more you focus on things you dont have, the less time you spend enjoying the things you DO actually have, that a lot of people probably don't have.
Imagine right now if you lost all 4 of your limbs(and your internally bleeding dick as well), how would you feel? My guess is even shittier, and you would suddenly realize that things weren't that bad before this happened. And atleast you wouldn't be able to bitch about it on the forums anymore 
You're putting all your energy on dwelling on the past, and worrying about the future, is this how life should be lived? I personally don't think thats living at all imo, because you're missing the main point, the point of the present moment, which sad to say, is all you really are guaranteed in the end. And then you die, regardless if you had a functioning dick, or banged 500 girls before your time was up.
Playing the victim card won't get shit done and you know it. Do you expect your life to instantly change and your dick to suddenly be cured because the universe feels bad for you?
I used to think just like you, would always victimize myself and spent all my energy figuring out the problems with what was going on in my life, but thats just one half of the equation, the other half is actually finding a solution to the problem that you identify. You're living alone, have no future plans, and dick is internally bleeding. Three serious problems identified, where have you even attempted to find a solution for those problems? Ok, you went to a few urologists, are you going to take no for an answer and stop there? You said they don't give a shit about you? Well it looks like you don't give a shit about yourself either, so how can you expect anyone else to give a shit about you? It all comes from within
I dunno what else to tell you dude, you can victimize yourself for the rest of your life if you choose, or you can realize that every experience and perception in your life is a reflection of your inner shadow and thus you are attracting all this 'shit' in your life because you have inner conflicts that you aren't able to consciously deal with. Read up on Carl Jung if you are serious about fixing that.
Other then that, I don't really care what you choose in the end, and neither will anyone else. Regardless, you're going to perish just like the rest of us and will soon be forgotten. If you want to spend the limited time you got in misery like a bitch, then go for it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: foliocb]
#15339095 - 11/08/11 01:17 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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I dunno what else to tell you dude, you can victimize yourself for the rest of your life if you choose, or you can realize that every experience and perception in your life is a reflection of your inner shadow and thus you are attracting all this 'shit' in your life because you have inner conflicts that you aren't able to consciously deal with. Read up on Carl Jung if you are serious about fixing that.
Other then that, I don't really care what you choose in the end, and neither will anyone else. Regardless, you're going to perish just like the rest of us and will soon be forgotten. If you want to spend the limited time you got in misery like a bitch, then go for it.
I've read up on Carl Jung and my understanding of it is that I will stay with my emptiness. There is no choice here. Within the emptiness lies the seeds of wholeness. I'm not sure why I'm having to stay with my emptiness forever though. What I don't understand is how can people come on here and tell the sad folks to get happy, even Poptart told me to get happy after being pissed off that people were telling him to get happy.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15339112 - 11/08/11 01:31 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said: This thread has been very fun. I really enjoy your bitching. These people who think going for walks will change a person from being sad and introverted into happy extroverts are very deluded. I am attached to my misery, not by choice and I have read many self help books and tried all kinds of stuff to change my attitude but that is wrong and it is all ineffective. There are hellish forces that rise up, they always over power me. I have tried to ignore them, fight them, positive affirm them away, cast them out in christs name, align myself with them, there is nothing I can do. It all comes down to my nature, that is I am nothing. Last night I got stoned and laughed allot. That is my joy in life, there is very little else. I have some loyal friends that I hang out with but I hardly talk to them really. Got nothing to say. I think I am more aligned with these demons now. That works best, it is acceptance and surrender to the sadness and hopelessness that brings peace. Not trying obtain a positive mental attitude, that is unreasonable expectation.
As for being alone for the rest of your life, look up bramacharia and sublimation of sexual energy. Listen too Hank Williams and be glad you never have to feel like that. I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life but I'm ok with that.
you're just continually buying into and reinforcing the illusion of the ego. It's your choice, though. You are right about one thing and it's that "you" are nothing but it's not a negative poor little me type of nothing. It's the nothingness of space that we all are. You realize you've been putting on a charade for years due to conditioning on multiple levels and the veil is lifted that reveals the infinite nature of existence itself.
Yes I'm continually reinforcing my ego, but I don't have a choice, it is not my decision. I did not choose to even exist. My ego is defined by society as mentally ill, unhappiness is the rule in my universe, for no reason. Happy people are simply ignorant to the fact that they don't make themselves happy, they just take credit for something that comes naturally and look down on sad people. At least I know that I lean on superficial delusions.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15339120 - 11/08/11 01:36 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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happiness is definitely a choice
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #5]
#15340108 - 11/08/11 10:33 AM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: happiness is definitely a choice
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15341611 - 11/08/11 07:49 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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I dunno what else to tell you dude, you can victimize yourself for the rest of your life if you choose, or you can realize that every experience and perception in your life is a reflection of your inner shadow and thus you are attracting all this 'shit' in your life because you have inner conflicts that you aren't able to consciously deal with. Read up on Carl Jung if you are serious about fixing that.
Other then that, I don't really care what you choose in the end, and neither will anyone else. Regardless, you're going to perish just like the rest of us and will soon be forgotten. If you want to spend the limited time you got in misery like a bitch, then go for it.
I've read up on Carl Jung and my understanding of it is that I will stay with my emptiness. There is no choice here. Within the emptiness lies the seeds of wholeness. I'm not sure why I'm having to stay with my emptiness forever though. What I don't understand is how can people come on here and tell the sad folks to get happy, even Poptart told me to get happy after being pissed off that people were telling him to get happy.
I didn't come on here to tell Poptart or any other sad dope to get happy. The choice is theirs, not mine...
"you either get busy livin, or get busy dyin"... same shit in the end.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: RonaldFuckingPaul]
#15341631 - 11/08/11 07:53 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: happiness is definitely a choice

well you are wrong. You decide whether or not you are happy with your situation. I could be perfectly happy being homeless. Just the same I could be fucking miserable and be filthy rich. Once you realize that all you have to do is CHOOSE to be happy, you can be happy.
just like poptart. He doesn't have to be miserable. He is creating his own misery through his rigid definitions of what makes a life "good". So, since he has convinced himself that he can't possibly be happy, he can't. It is all under his control. It is also his choice whether or not he wants to suffer in misery or quit being a whiny little bitch and be glad he's even alive at all.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #5]
#15341677 - 11/08/11 08:02 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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Anonymous said:
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reeferaddict69 said:
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Anonymous said: happiness is definitely a choice

well you are wrong. You decide whether or not you are happy with your situation. I could be perfectly happy being homeless. Just the same I could be fucking miserable and be filthy rich. Once you realize that all you have to do is CHOOSE to be happy, you can be happy.
just like poptart. He doesn't have to be miserable. He is creating his own misery through his rigid definitions of what makes a life "good". So, since he has convinced himself that he can't possibly be happy, he can't. It is all under his control. It is also his choice whether or not he wants to suffer in misery or quit being a whiny little bitch and be glad he's even alive at all.
This doesn't apply to people with mental issues.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: RonaldFuckingPaul]
#15341797 - 11/08/11 08:29 PM (12 years, 2 months ago) |
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ok excluding the 15% of the population that has a serious mental disorder.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #5] 1
#15508078 - 12/12/11 11:50 PM (12 years, 1 month ago) |
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It's been almost a month now and I have to report back. I don't really know where to start.
There most definatly is a benevolent loving God. I cannot deny that anymore. Jesus Christ lived and died for our sins.
I fear I may have commited the unpardonable sin. I've blasphemied against the holy spirit and spread lies and denied God. After I've been shown multiple signs time and time again of his existence and wrote them off as coincedences. I've Twisted scriptures to fit my veiw of reality and tried to spread it to as many people as I could.
At this point my physical condition isn't really a concern to me anymore. It was my fault the whole time. I guess I wasn't fully concious. I've been possessed for the past couple of years. Sitting in my back yard in the same exact spot stoned.
I've given up drugs now but I still feel as if I'm somewhat possessed by the same sadistic mocking spirit. But now I'm aware that it's there so I can fight it.
I know alot of you won't believe what I'm saying. But I know God is real now. And it's taken me to the brink of suicide trying to fight the reality of that.
I hope you all can restore your faith in God without going through as much pain as I put myself through.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15508088 - 12/12/11 11:54 PM (12 years, 1 month ago) |
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Did you have to go to rehab?
I like you but ur crazy.
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