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micro8gb
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scary life changing experience
#14558212 - 06/03/11 11:12 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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today someone smoked me up with a synthetic cannabinoid called pure evil. This. Fucked. Me. Up. as i started walking inside i could feel everysingle muscle working to make me walk and i couldnt tell if i was stumbling or not. I was at work when i got smoked up and i had to get back to doing the dishes. heres where it gets scary. i cant really remember how or when exactly i slipped into this different level or demension but i was experiencing the world in a way that was different then any way you could think of. it was undescribable. i wasnt myself. i was aware that i was something but it wasnt me. i was living extremely in the moment.i was doing the dishes, but i was also DOING THE DISHES. like, doing the dishes, WAS me. that was who i was, the act of doing the dishes. i realized this wasnt me but i couldnt stop it so i got really scared. i couldnt really focus and i was taking a long time. i was doing really retarded shit like playing with the tubaware like a fucking baby i recall thinking "and ill put this here.." while stacking some tubaware that didnt go together. anyway i forgot me, i forgot about living, i forgot how i normally precieved the world, but i remember that this wasnt it. and that scared the crap out of me. i didnt see how i could possibly return to normal. everything was happening in very quick "scenes" and my mind just like stopped thinking almost. when i say i forgot me, it was weird. i still knew all about myself, but the thing that held everything together, the center, ME, my thought process, was GONE.
heres where shit gets weirder.
i started to remind myself, i am a person, i am me. i need to do these dishes so i can get home on time. i have a name. then this weird voice kinda whispered in my mind: say it. and i said Cooper. because that is my name. as soon as i said it, i was me as a little infant. i was little baby cooper. still doing the dishes, thinking still very fucked and unnatural. but at least i had a identity. i remember i started playing with shit again because i was a baby, i started playing with the dishes. my mind started to slip further and further down. i was growing more and more scared that i was never coming back so i cried out, GOD SAVE ME! and i dont even believe in god. but when i said that i felt a huge sense of love coming from god and things started coming back to normal a little bit. i got a taste of normalcy! that went away tho and went back to the completely strange world where me didnt exist only my thinking or something. in what i assume to be my third eye it was weird because my eyes were open but i could see this happening i was a little baby and my mother was calling me and my dad was next to her and i started crawling to them. i wonder if this was a real relived memory. then i went back to doing the dishes as a baby. and i had a different view on the world now. the same view as before, but there was something inside. something that knew about the world and knew all about me and everything and i said to myself alright if im a baby then im a baby. i said (in a loving cooing voice), Cooper, you are doing the dishes because you need to get off work and go home to your dad. you are wanting to move out soon tho so thats why you have a job. you have a girlfriend named daphne. you love her. you want to be with daphne forever. and things slowly started going back to normal in little sprouts i would go completely normal but didnt realize it but as soon as i did realize i was normal i went back to crazy. evenutally i stayed normal.
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The wise person, puts himself last, and thereby finds himself first; holds himself outside, and thereby remains at the center; abandons himself, and is thereby fulfilled -Lao Tzu
Edited by micro8gb (06/03/11 11:30 PM)
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Luman
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: micro8gb]
#14558229 - 06/03/11 11:17 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Dude its called pure evil
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: micro8gb]
#14558232 - 06/03/11 11:18 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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micro8gb said: today someone smoked me up with a synthetic cannabinoid called pure evil. This. Fucked. Me. Up.

Sounds like you had a dissociative experience. Not uncommon with all sorts of psychedelics. Synthetic cannabinoids can really trip you out big time.
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: Luman]
#14558256 - 06/03/11 11:25 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Luman said: Dude its called pure evil
yeeeaaahhhuuupp... thats what i said..
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The wise person, puts himself last, and thereby finds himself first; holds himself outside, and thereby remains at the center; abandons himself, and is thereby fulfilled -Lao Tzu
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: micro8gb]
#14558269 - 06/03/11 11:29 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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Lol yaaaaa....... where can I get some
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: Luman]
#14558277 - 06/03/11 11:31 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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It was probably pure jwh.
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: Luman]
#14558285 - 06/03/11 11:33 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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head shop? smoke shop? dude it was really scary for me. i will never do that again. i mean, when i say i forgot me, it was weird. i still knew all about myself, but the thing that held everything together, the center, ME, my thought process, my core, was GONE. i was precieving the world as it was happening right then and now. no past or future until i was a baby again. just right then, doing the dishes.
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The wise person, puts himself last, and thereby finds himself first; holds himself outside, and thereby remains at the center; abandons himself, and is thereby fulfilled -Lao Tzu
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: micro8gb]
#14558293 - 06/03/11 11:35 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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lol pure evil
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: micro8gb]
#14558295 - 06/03/11 11:36 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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micro8gb said: head shop? smoke shop? dude it was really scary for me. i will never do that again. i mean, when i say i forgot me, it was weird. i still knew all about myself, but the thing that held everything together, the center, ME, my thought process, my core, was GONE. i was precieving the world as it was happening right then and now. no past or future until i was a baby again. just right then, doing the dishes.
Isnt it marvelous? Pure precision of nature operating without bias or emotion.
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Re: scary life changing experience [Re: The_Ghost]
#14558313 - 06/03/11 11:39 PM (12 years, 7 months ago) |
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The_Ghost said:
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micro8gb said: head shop? smoke shop? dude it was really scary for me. i will never do that again. i mean, when i say i forgot me, it was weird. i still knew all about myself, but the thing that held everything together, the center, ME, my thought process, my core, was GONE. i was precieving the world as it was happening right then and now. no past or future until i was a baby again. just right then, doing the dishes.
Isnt it marvelous? Pure precision of nature operating without bias or emotion. 
it was scary! i mean if i went at it knowing what i was going for, then yeah. but it cought me completely off guard.
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The wise person, puts himself last, and thereby finds himself first; holds himself outside, and thereby remains at the center; abandons himself, and is thereby fulfilled -Lao Tzu
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