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Dr Cid
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Knowledge and responsibility 1
#14529192 - 05/29/11 02:01 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Ok so I was doing LSD back in December and January. Quite a lot actually. The reason I started was because I was curious. Then I continued to do it a lot because I liked it. Probably about 2 or 3 times a week. I really didn't understand the concept of tripping. It was fun and thats all I knew. But then after a month and a half of repeatedly tripping people kept telling me I was gonna go crazy. I felt completely sane though. So I continued to do my thing.
Then the bad trips started to come. When I was tripping all I was thinking about is how everyone is thinking I'm gonna lose my mind and ruin my life... Which really fucked with my head. I started to realize I was acting different around people. I just thought everyone knew I was an acid head. Which is kinda a buzz kill when everyone today thinks LSD is a bad drug.
So I stopped doing LSD. Then next few months I felt kinda out there. It was hard to focus and I felt somewhat trippy all the time. I tried mushrooms a little later thinking they wouldn't be so bad. But mushrooms is just mind full of confusion and made my condition worse.
So I completely stopped smoking weed and stopped tripping. My condition got better slowly over the next month. But not that much better.
I wanted to fix myself completely and get back to normal. So I started researching these psychedelics. I realized that basically everything was in my head and the more I think about the negative things the worse it got. I'm only gonna go crazy if I believe I'm gonna go crazy. I'm only gonna have HPPD if I focus to hard on what things look like. But its easier said than done. I did my best to not think about it so much and my condition got even better. But I was still kinda off...
Then a week ago I decided I to give LSD another try. I was power washing my deck. I was getting rid of the old brown look on the deck and bringing out the bright new color. I was relating this to myself. I was gonna put all the negative things behind me and I was gonna be reborn a brighter person. Rainbows were everywhere.... It was magical. I was gonna do what makes me happy and not care about other people thought. After the trip wore off my HPPD went away. I can focus better. And I'm happy 
If you ask me people who trip only isolate themselves because society has such a problem with these things. It sucks when everyone think your some crazy guy, when really your just a lot more open minded.
Before tripping: I was hard headed, close minded, sold weed, and smoked weed all day. I didn't care really about anything other than getting high and making money by selling weed. Yet deep down I felt like this isn't who I wanted to be.
After tripping: I find basically everything so interesting, I want to see the world, I quit smoking and selling, I realize there is more in more to life than partying everyday. And I still love money, but I want to make it the right way.
Only bad things is I am a little more antisocial. But thats just because everyone has a problem with what makes me happy. Plus I've always been somewhat shy. I don't wanna hang around them and drink and smoke all the time anymore. And they don't get that. So they think psychedelics have had a negative impact on me. They say I changed... and they say it in a bad way. So I plan on hanging out with people who are more open minded.
At first I thought LSD was fun. But it's so much more than that. It brings meaning to life and brings meaning to whats important to you.
Its funny how everyone just listens to what they are told. Their parents told them drugs are bad. except for weed and alcohol of course... I mean alcohol is legal, and everybody smokes weed... so they must me ok, right? WRONG! Any drug is bad is misused. I do agree psychedelics are harder than weed and alcohol because you have to know what your doing and you can't do it as often.
I do agree it's bad to trip as often as I was doing it. I also realize tripping needs to be planned and with people that you trust and are comfortable with.
Basically I just wanna say: Do your own thing. Don't be a follower. Do what makes you happy. Being normal is over rated. Just make sure you know what your doing. And be responsible. And most importantly, do it with a god damn smile
Edited by Dr Cid (05/29/11 02:05 AM)
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eckhem

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Re: Knowledge and responsibility [Re: Dr Cid]
#14529195 - 05/29/11 02:06 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Re: Knowledge and responsibility [Re: eckhem]
#14529197 - 05/29/11 02:08 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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SHORT-dont be a fuck head
i concur
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Re: Knowledge and responsibility [Re: eckhem]
#14529199 - 05/29/11 02:09 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Definitely.
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TYL3R


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Re: Knowledge and responsibility [Re: Dr Cid]
#14529240 - 05/29/11 02:29 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Welcome to the shroomery.
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