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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Zpw]
#14519688 - 05/27/11 07:50 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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I never became addicted to IV heroin but I know people whove been off of it for 10+ years. Addicts CAN change, but often times they dont get the proper support that's needed for it and often times instead all they get is enabling which allows them to further destroy themselves.
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519691 - 05/27/11 07:50 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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well.. i didnt always do nothing. i used to live "the Life"
i had a good job. Raves, Clubs, Shows every night. mdma every weekend. once in a while LSD. lots of coke during the week. Kandi Flip once a month. member of the local Kandi RAVE kult.
til we all graduated to Heroin and become lifeless Bobble-head dolls living in the ghetto. i decieded to try to stop or my BF would leave me, i was turning into a club slut and i couldnt function without being high. lost my job cause i couldnt do it while withdrawling and being sick. my friends arent ready to stop. so i slowly drifted away from them.
i have a hard time being sober, and listening to how good the Dope was that they all did last night. i dont like to go to the clubs and raves being sober either. i have to find myself again
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519701 - 05/27/11 07:55 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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I used to have a really REALLY bad cocaine habbit about 6 years ago, I used to sniff 2 grams for breakfast everyday just to get out of bed.. I was on like 4-5 grams a day for about 6 months to the point where i now have a big hole that goes right through my septum.. It was inevitable that i would hit rock bottom which i did, lost my job through it and ended up in debt of about £10,000 which im still paying off to this day! I rarely use it anymore tho, i might have a blast on it once every few months or so, but they were dark days in the past... Im glad there over now!
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: microdotty]
#14519704 - 05/27/11 07:57 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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I had a bad crack cocaine habit 6 years ago but I hear heroin is a different ball game entirely.
The only way I can get talked into doing coke or crack anymore is if Im drunk in which case it always sounds like a great idea.
Alcohol is the main thing Im struggling with staying off of. I used to have withdrawal seizures from drinking every night for months on end.
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519717 - 05/27/11 07:59 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Only thing I think I had became addicted to is opiates, I used to freebase 80mg oxys. MMMMMM :] and everyone moved up to IV and I was a pussy, so I got off, they stay stuck in the game.
ps. you just lost the game
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: microdotty]
#14519718 - 05/27/11 08:00 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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yup. spent 1000's monthly on drugs. my job is nothing compared to my BF's $9,000 a month check. i was spending all his money too. he dabbles but never like i did. debt started wracking up. i didnt care. started selling things around are house. started to become suicidal, contemplating how easy sexual favors would be just to get high, ripping off drug dealers not caring. thats when in knew i was at my worst
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519720 - 05/27/11 08:01 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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aww big hugs to everyone..! we are not alone 
different people, different situation, almost the same demons
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519725 - 05/27/11 08:02 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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fuuuuuuck if i was getting 9k a month Id be slammin heroin ALL DAY haha.
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519732 - 05/27/11 08:03 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Sounds like he makes good money. What does he do?
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519733 - 05/27/11 08:03 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Yeah alot of us on here have been at that point at sometime.. I thank god i have a good family who helped me though all the shit! Now i have a good job a lovely wife to be! The only issue i have now is with alcohol.. It can be sorted tho i've stopped it b4!
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: microdotty]
#14519736 - 05/27/11 08:05 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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CHEER UP EVERYONE. Its early and I feel like theres a downer vibe to this. LETTTTT THEEEEE SUUUNNNNSHIIIIINNNNNEEEEE!!!(let the sunshine in)
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Zpw]
#14519741 - 05/27/11 08:07 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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I feel like Ive made myself borderline retarded from drug use. Like I dont have the potential I once had.
I dont have so much thoughts anymore...just visions....but that was what I always wanted.
Now that Im on the other side I dont see it quite the same. I guess this is still thoughts and i think too much. all I need to see is the visions
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519747 - 05/27/11 08:09 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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haha aren't you tripping? Go out side<3
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria] 1
#14519751 - 05/27/11 08:10 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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My girlfriend's been a bit poorly lately, so I thought that seeing her mates down the pub would cheer her up.
On reflection, it probably would've been better if I'd taken her with me...
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Zpw]
#14519756 - 05/27/11 08:13 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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I usually dont trip indoors at all. It's a strange situation Im in.
I had planned to be at a festival this weekend, but my car broke down. Found a ride but he doesnt want to leave till saturday.
I ended up eating acid and going on a bike ride this morning...well I was going to do errands and before hopping on my bike I popped a blotter. Tripped for the bike ride then came back. All my neighbors are much older than I am and sit around on their lawns all day. I feel uncomfortable with 70 year olds staring at me, sayin "goomarnin" and asking me awkward questions.
Im in Indy and all but I dont quite feel like tripping at the track.
Edited by MisterMuscaria (05/27/11 08:20 AM)
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519815 - 05/27/11 08:31 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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MisterMuscaria said: Sounds like he makes good money. What does he do?
well tbh its something ive never talked about on the shroomery. maybe to my friends in PMs. he has a very reputable job. he has a masters degree hes a few years older than me obviously. the irony is, hes a Chemist, does Drug Development for a living. works at a Pharmacuetical company i wont name. he also does vet tech & animal saftey assesment there. he still does make 9k a month. but is only paid monthly and is the sole income provider. believe it or not its really hard to juggle a montly check with a mortgage, bills, car payments, the cost of living, on top of having a Junkie Girlfriend.
ok im getting antzy. going to get out and get some air. since yesterday i have really wanted to relapse. 8 months clean from my true devil. suboxone is a miracle
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519822 - 05/27/11 08:33 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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Ive got a good friend who is a pharmaceutical chemist with a six figure income and has he himself been off of mind altering substances for 6 years.
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Mello Kitty]
#14519840 - 05/27/11 08:37 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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ellenallien said: hes a Chemist,
Ask him if he'll cook us all up some LSD!!!
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14519842 - 05/27/11 08:38 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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MisterMuscaria said: I feel like Ive made myself borderline retarded from drug use. Like I dont have the potential I once had.
I dont have so much thoughts anymore...just visions....but that was what I always wanted.
Now that Im on the other side I dont see it quite the same. I guess this is still thoughts and i think too much. all I need to see is the visions
Whoa, familiar...
I used to take as much drugs as possible to "dumb" myself down.
Felt asleep for a hours , there goes the GHB high
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Re: (E)llen (M)akes (C)osmicFool late for work Again!1!1 [Re: Cyclohexylamine]
#14519848 - 05/27/11 08:40 AM (12 years, 8 months ago) |
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tymoteusz3 said:
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Zpw said: has anyone ever met a heroin addict who has completely recovered and never relapsed or used again? Because I know addicts who can't stop for anything, even there baby boy who neeeeeds em
Yeah. My best friend
yup my mom and dad both addicts
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