My girlfriend of two years broke up with me two months ago and no matter how hard I try I cannot get her out of my mind or heart. I feel like I've lost a huge chunk of my heart and soul. I have lost over 20 pounds since then, which i couldn't really afford since I'm 6ft and never weighed more than 145 in my life, and no matter what i do or what anyone else tells me I CANNOT be happy... in fact, I can't feel any emotions at all, towards anything. I pretend when I'm around friends so I don't bring them down, but in reality I feel nothing except sadness. But the sadness is weird too because I feel so sad but I can't cry anymore. I would give anything to be able to just sit and have a good cry, but I can't. I am so fucking depressed and I've felt like this for two months straight... I have not had one happy day. I have been getting out and doing things every day to try and keep my mind off, and it works, but I still feel nothing. I've even started having sex with other people and somehow I still get off, but I still don't feel any emotion from it. I don't even know why I still have sex besides just having something to do.
It's like I'm walking in this empty shell of a body with nothing left to drive me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, I can't think, the things I used to love do not appeal to me in the slightest... my friends are there but they might as well not be because it wouldn't make me feel any different. This is the weirdest fucking feeling I have ever had and it's lasted so long. I have never felt like this before and I'm worried it will never go away.
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Anyone have any advice? Any input would be appreciated.
P.S. I know it may seem like this is for the relationship forum, but it is really my mental well-being I'm concerned about. So please don't move mods!
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Its natural to feel this way, because youve lost something you care about. Not only that, but your mind was in a routine of seeing this person, which made/helped you feel good inside. Now that it is gone (and in the case of relationships its usually gone cold turkey) your mind is in its withdrawal stage, and your sense of what made you happy has inflated the relationship to more than it actually was doing.
The relationship wasn't realistically making you happy, your brain was making you happy. A relationship cannot put serotonin, dopamine, GABA, etc, in your brain. Only you and your behaviors can do that. The girl, the relationship, they actually mean little to your state of feeling empty or fulfilled. What means a lot is what you do to change your neural behaviors.
Go break something, run a mile, work out, bake a cake, drive a car across the country. Do something for yourself; help your mind find new relationships and stop thinking about the past. Its gone, over, done with. but youre still here, so keep living.
-------------------- notapillow said: "you are going about this endeavor all wrong. clear your mind of useless fear and concern. buy the ticket, take the ride, and all that.... " ChrisWho said: "It's all about the journey, not the destination."
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