Hey guys, I know this is a long read but I wanted to give as much detail as possible so I hope you can push through. As for the last few months I've been getting these insanely vivid dreams, only after having endured a bad trip on only 10 grams of fresh truffels.
I took it as a learning experience and didn't trip since then. The dreams are so clear that I wake up confused and I still remember some of them to this day. Even the ones that occured months ago.
Now I've been dealing with cannabis induced hyperventilation and panic attacks almost everyday for about 6 months now and it got way more pronounced after the bad trip. It has been easing a little but to my surprise I got lucid dreams two times in a row this week. These were particulary terrifying.
The first started with me walking home listening to music. I start to hear a buzz inside of my head that is getting louder to the point that I can feel the pressure banging against my ears. My body starts to cease working and I collapse. I fight until I can't anymore and let myself fall to the ground. The ground ends up being my mattras and the buzz is still present while I'm awake. The radio is on playing the song I was listening to in the dream.
The second started with me in my room which looked completely normal, I actually thought I was awake and was actually trying to fall asleep. My tv is broken for awhile now but in the dream it wasn't although it didn't seem odd to me. In my attempts to sleep I decide to watch a movie.
I put on the tv and this guy is staring violently at the main character, then he pulls a knife and puts it deep into the characters chest. No expression no remorse not anything. He keeps doing this and everytime he repeats it I get weaker. A sense of sadness and despair falls over me and eventually I'm not able to move.
I'm completely paralysed. This is when I woke up (I think), still not able to move. 4 waves of panic attacks hit me all in the same minute. I can't breathe all my muscles are REALLY tense, it goes away, I keep waiting, then I feel the butterfly effect comes into my stomach and everything starts to tense up again and I feel this HUGE pressure everywere, I even hear it in my ears. All this 4 TIMES in 1 minute...
Now I really liked the psychedelic experience, I did 5 grams dry shrooms about 4 times, Salvia 40x and 20x plenty of times. I had a bad trip with 10 grams of fresh truffles. WTF! Now I really want to trip again mabey not this month, this year, or whatever but I want to be ready someday. I think the dreams are trying to tell me something, it always involves around me dying in someway. But how do you guys do it? How do you integrate experiences like that (bad trips for example)and learn from them? Because I just can't see what could be causing this and I have been sober (even from weed) for a very long time now... I'm really looking for some awnsers here. Any response much appreciated.
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