Background: Prior to this event I was very socially awkward. Could not hold a conversation with anyone I did not know. My social anxiety was ruling my life to the point where I would skip meals and go at only certain times because the dining hall was too full and I did not want to go in. I couldn't receive cues from girls for shit or even attempt conversation. My outlook on life was terrible and at times I just wanted to die.
I went to a festival last weekend and finally got Molly for the first time after countless failed attempts involving ripoffs,bum, and super methy pills. Probably 100 mg the first day and 300 mg the second day. Needless to say I completely shed all the shit I had been carrying by simply just letting go and doing all the things that I wouldn't have normally done. I had some hits and I had some misses but the point is that I tried and I got over my fear of talking and being around people. Before I couldn't smile around people or even by myself most of the time. I now can't stop smiling and my outlook on life has completely changed. The lesson that I took away from it was that you missed out on life if your worrying too much about the past or the future and that it's all about living in the moment. This isn't a my life is terrible what the fuck can I do thread. It's a my life is now awesome try this if you were like me thread. I used to read a lot of threads like that and just wanted to basically scream out how awesome today and the next day, etc. will be.
Get out of your comfort zone, with or without drugs. It's pretty much the only way out of that hole, as many other wise shroomery members have told to others with similiar fears. It sure as fuck helped me.
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