First time was with an ex last March, not sure on our dose, not even an 8th I don't think. Two other people joined. I ended up locking myself in the bathroom because I couldn't handle being around them. They annoyed me terribly. I ended up watching myself in the mirror for about 45 mins. The trip took forever to hit and didn't last long at all. When I came down, I was depressed and angry. Second time was a few months later with my friend. He is pretty experienced, so I thought he would be a good person to do it with. We each took 2grams. His music was so painful to me, it burnt my face and the entire time (approx 6 hrs) was miserable yet interesting. I felt invaded by his music and had to have him turn it off. I felt as if I had something caught in my throat the entire time. I saw his body covered in scales. Saw his chest swell and at one point, he left his body and was replaced by a very old being and it terrified me. I could feel everything he was thinking, even sexually. I couldn't turn off my "inner chatter" and had 3 beings talking to me all at once, one in a language I couldn't understand. I saw a Medusa type of spirit by him. I was a nervous wreck our whole trip. I heard everyone in my apartment building, like their conversations! We both came down at the exact same time. When I told him I saw the scales, Medusa, swollen chest and felt he had left his body, he was shocked. He believes 2 of his spirit guides are Medusa and one that is reptilian. And the swelling of his chest was from him doing something with the Chakra in that area. Was bizarre.. Next session, I tripped with another friend, one whom is now my boyfriend. We fed off of each other and it was very emotional. I felt intense love from him and was so happy to be there with him and he felt the same. I went into a Wonderland type of place and he was the Madhatter and I was the Cheshire cat. I felt insane but felt I was where I belonged. When I started to come down, I laid in his arms and cried because I didn't wan to come back. Death seemed to be the answer to all my problems, I just wanted so badly to stay in the insane world I had created. The last time was last December. I took 3 grams with the first friend and we had another friend who was there out of curiosity. It hit me fast. I felt my hands become cold and it moved up my arms. I laid in bed and was in an igloo looking out into a snowy world. The air around me was crisp and felt good to breathe in. Then, I lost it. I hid in my bathroom for hours in the dark it seemed. I cried hysterically. I just wanted my other friend (now bf) to be with me. I rocked back and forth and had a raging battle in my mind. I was lost in my insanity(but felt safe in this insanity)I realized then I had to be with him and loved him with all my being. I encountered various spirits as well. They reminded me of the Tree Spirits from Princess Mononoke. I encountered an evil one and told it to go away. Though I am a mess when shrooming, I feel stronger than ever. Something tried to talk to me, but I wasn't interested in listening... Shrooming to me is a way to work through my emotions. Therapy kind of. But for a few weeks after that experience, I felt a "door" had been opened in my mind and I was having nightmares and feelings of entities being in my apartment and my boyfriend's. I can slip into Hypnogogia and lucid dreaming very easily now. I have never tripped during daylight, just doesn't seem right to me and I never go outside. I like being shrouded in darkness which is weird because a lot of people I know can't be in a closed up dark bathroom like I can lol. I plan on doing them here again soon with my boyfriend since they are currently available... I am excited yet scared like always. I hope this trip is as amazing as the last couple times:-)
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