Alright. First off SWIM would like to say that SWIM has taken DXM before as well as Morning Glory Seeds. SWIM has positive effects with DXM though abused it too much a had built up a tolerance as well as an addiction that took months to break with psychiatric assistance. Morning Glory was also positive but not on a consistent basis as it was positively effective 1 out of 4 times attempted. Then SWIM heard of Hawaiian Woodrose Seeds and after much research decided to order the Hawaiian Strain of it, which is supposedly the strongest strain of HW. When SWIM finally received his 20 seeds via mail he decided he would try 6 that night. At around 9pm SWIM chewed and ingested the 6 seeds. Within 15 minutes he began to feel the effects. Very horrible nausea set in a few minutes later. It probably would have been worse had SWIM not taken 2 dramamine an hour prior to ingestion. After an hour the seeds were fully absorbed so he decided to vomit to relieve the nausea. This helped much though there was still a noticeable presence of it. From here SWIM fell in and out of consciousness for about an hour. After which what best could be described as mania set in. Information was pouring into SWIM's mind. It seemed as though his conscience and subconscious were merging. Past memories were flowing together that SWIM had forgotten were even there. Elementary School, Middle School and child memories were coming back to him as clear as day. It felt as though SWIM were becoming Autistic. There was so much information. He couldn't stop it. It kept flowing into his consciousness. SWIM felt as though he was going insane like those old people in Retirement Homes. He fought it as best SWIM could and forced moments of lucidity though these were only for seconds at a time before losing himself again. SWIM considered calling 911 but refused due to possible repercussions he would endure. Tried taking deep breaths though that only help for so long. He kept fighting it. He found that keeping the light on in his room helped. SWIM wrote on paper his thoughts:
'Loosing my sanity on LSA rite now I am fighting with subconscious itself. Areas of loosidity such as rite now. Going in and out. Remembering many things. Childhood experiences. Shaving pubes as preteen. Really bloody. Why have acne scars. -Tell myself "I AM IN CONTROL" Middle skools was hyperactive..Elementary, Ms. Garcia, lunch lady who watched us as kids. Wears alot of make-up.'
And SWIM went on until he could no longer write. He tried unsuccessfully to fall asleep so he then proceeded to take sleeping pills. SWIM fought and fought for what seems like hours until the pills took affect and put him to sleep. SWIM woke up in the morning in a drunken stupor with loss of balance and coordination until it wore off hours later. What the heck happened? SWIM is thinking a psychotic break from reality and his consciousness of being. Like literally loosing his sanity and his mind!
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