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Losing my psychedelic idenity
    #14279573 - 04/12/11 06:48 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I was not really sure were to post this thread, but I figured I would get some good feedback here.

My history: Growing up I was always a really good girl. I went to church, hung out with the preppy girls, played sports, never got in trouble, got good grades, and was really involved in my school. When I hit about 14 my parents got divorced, this left a huge hole in my heart. I started drinking every weekend with my older brother. I made a habit out of it, but some how found a way to keep my innocent stigma with my friends. It was almost like my secret. When I turned 16 I met a boy at my first job, he soon became my boyfriend. I lost every ounce of innocence to him. First it was my virginity, then weed and slowly working my way up to psychedelics. Which I feel in love with all three of them and him. We dated for 3 years, and to be honest that is where I have most of my psychedelic experience from. I had some of the best times of my life and swear I would one day marry him. My last 2 years of high school were spent fucked up and having endless amounts of sex. All well some how keeping my grades up and being in National Honors Society all of this would eventaully lead to me getting into a private advance course nursing school. Things eventually got bad and he started getting into other drugs such as coke, and xanax. I believe this totally changed who he was on the inside. He started ditching me constantly to get extremely fucked up with his friends. Needless to say our relationship soon failed. About a month later he wanted to get back together and told me he changed. I had just started my first semester of nursing school, and did not want to be around that, so I say no. Some times I believe that may have been a mistake. Although there is a lot more detail to this I am going to move on to my real point.

My current situation: Now I am 20. I have let almost all of my drug use go besides tripping maybe every 6 months. I am going into my last semester of nursing school and will soon find myself being thrown into the real world. This is a very hard concept for me to grasp. I feel that me having a career will throw away my identity. Especially being a nurse I cannot mess around with any type of drug. When I graduate in December I feel as if i will no longer be myself. I will be a robot to this world and have to work just like everyone else. One of the only reasons I am willing to give up my identity is because I do not know how else to make it in this world. I must be able to make money to move out of my mom's house and take care of myself. I feel as if I can not find a balance between who I am and what the world expects me to be. I have a really normal life right now as if I went back to the life I lead before I took any psychedelic. Boyfriend that has never touched a drug, good grades, part time job, yet I am missing the most important thing my true happiness. I have a hard time taking in that I can live the life that I want to without psychedelics. I don't believe I can. They have embedded into me all that I am. I know if I go on like this I will end up severely depressed because I am already starting to see a onset on sadness in my heart. It really kills me to have a "normal" boyfriend. He treats me so good and I could spend the rest of my life with him, if I have never jumped down the psychedelic hole. He doesn't truly understand my love for the world and all it's beauty. Don't get my wrong he's not a bad guy he's just never been there. I am just so lost in what I want to do and the expectations I have for myself and others around me. I do not feel like I am ready to transition out of my hippie-like self into a body that is foreign. I don't want to give it up, but I feel as if I have no other choice.

I am sorry if this is really long and ranting, but I truly believe someone on here has been in a similar situation or could provide me with great advice.
Thank you for reading. :heart:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14279605 - 04/12/11 06:55 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

People always worry about living a successful life with a career and not being able to do psychedelics. I live a very successful life and I can still indulge in psychedelics frequently enough to keep me sane. I, like you, love psychs and I would never want to give them up, and I dont think I have to


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14279646 - 04/12/11 07:01 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I dont see the reason you would need to throw out something you love in your life because of being a nurse. psychedelic isnt a drug like any other. non addictive and less harmful to your body than a cup of coffee in most cases. (different substances you know..) what you should keep away from in your career would be snatching pills and getting into anything else than weed really. thats what most in the health sector burn themselves with.

Introduce your current guy into trippin'. why not? share the love, spread the love. just keep it rational.. just get into the research and have a good life.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14279658 - 04/12/11 07:03 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

why do you think you won't be able to trip while being a nurse? you'll have days off you know.

but I know how you feel because right now I have Acid and suspected 2C-X pills that I can't enjoy. why? I'm a construction plumber but my company also does service call and I'm the only one in the (small)cie that can do them so I'm stand-by 24/7.

just a few hours ago I was with a friend debating wheter or not I would do some E when the damn phone rang.... so glad it didn't rang an hour or 2 later or I would have been in some shit


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: lasdR]
    #14279664 - 04/12/11 07:04 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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I dont see the reason you would need to throw out something you love in your life because of being a nurse. psychedelic isnt a drug like any other. non addictive and less harmful to your body than a cup of coffee in most cases. (different substances you know..) what you should keep away from in your career would be snatching pills and getting into anything else than weed really. thats what most in the health sector burn themselves with.

Introduce your current guy into trippin'. why not? share the love, spread the love. just keep it rational.. just get into the research and have a good life.




    :whathesaid: Exactly, if something is an important part of your life, and not dangerous, don't let it go.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: bholzer]
    #14279760 - 04/12/11 07:24 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Your first paragraph had me sad, waiting for the trainwreck to come.  Your second paragraph is a testament to your intelligence, good decision-making abilities, and dedication to carving out a healthy life for yourself.  Bravo.

Damn, that's a tough question you are asking us and I am sure you will get some thoughtful, heartfelt, and honest answers.  I really don't know where to begin in answering it, but I suggest that you consider seeking input from places other than forums dedicated to the celebration of the psychedelic lifestyle.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: bholzer]
    #14279863 - 04/12/11 07:41 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Hey, I read your post and I think I can feel for you. I'm 20 as well, and I'm getting whacked in the face by the real world. It's all really overwhelming and extremely confusing; life is a trip. I'm trying to decide whether I can and should follow through with engineering, or live a little and save some money. Being so self aware at a young age leaves me with so many questions about my future and the direction of my life. All I know for sure, is that I want to be happy; right now, drugs make me happy.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14279872 - 04/12/11 07:42 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

TrippyHippie..

I'll keep it short and concise here..

I've met a handful of really awesome, solid women that are in the medical field- women I admire and am attracted to because of their compassion towards helping others and their ability to handle the situation at hand. Very attractive qualities! Just because you like to have fun and spend your recreational time delving into the psychedelic realm doesn't make you any sort of weirdo.

With that said.. Do what feels right with reason and sensibility and find your own personal balance


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: lasdR]
    #14279899 - 04/12/11 07:45 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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I dont see the reason you would need to throw out something you love in your life because of being a nurse. psychedelic isnt a drug like any other. non addictive and less harmful to your body than a cup of coffee in most cases. (different substances you know..) what you should keep away from in your career would be snatching pills and getting into anything else than weed really. thats what most in the health sector burn themselves with.

Introduce your current guy into trippin'. why not? share the love, spread the love. just keep it rational.. just get into the research and have a good life.





I have tried really hard to even get a spark of interest in psychedelics with him. His mind is really shut out towards them.

I guess my biggest worry is the drug testing the comes along with the medical field. I know it's really hard to piss test for psychedelics but hair testing kind of scares me. I'm really paranoid about getting caught and possibly messing up my entire life over it.

After I wrote this I took a shower and I thought to myself maybe it wouldn't be so bad if every year I took a vacation to a new place for a week and one day out of the week just took a hit of acid to refind myself, the continue on building my life. I really do want to get my PHD eventually. Gaining knowledge and helping others is what I pride myself on.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: smokin427]
    #14279916 - 04/12/11 07:48 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Hey, I read your post and I think I can feel for you. I'm 20 as well, and I'm getting whacked in the face by the real world. It's all really overwhelming and extremely confusing; life is a trip. I'm trying to decide whether I can and should follow through with engineering, or live a little and save some money. Being so self aware at a young age leaves me with so many questions about my future and the direction of my life. All I know for sure, is that I want to be happy; right now, drugs make me happy.





If I wasn't so far into my school I may consider taking some time off to travel the world, and if i had the money. Neither one is a true option for me. Isn't that to ultimate goal in life happiness? Drugs make me happy too but theres a point in my opinion that they shouldnt be your soul source of happiness.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14279934 - 04/12/11 07:50 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

follow your heart or you'll never be happy,once your a little older you'll look back with regret if you dont follow your heart,,,,,,,,,,,tomorrow's promised to no one,,,,,,,,,,,,, good luck


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: smokin427]
    #14279970 - 04/12/11 07:54 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I feel really bad for you to be honest.... I would recommend getting him into psychedelics lol, if that doesn't work idk deal wiht the fact that you picked a boyfriend that will never understand what you've seen and felt and experienced and that you're going to be stuck as a cog in the machine for the rest of your life.... Unless you decide to sneak in some psychedelic use haha, if he's cool with you partaking that would work too but then you'll be sad that you won't be able to share each wondrous experience with him!!


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: ant61]
    #14279982 - 04/12/11 07:55 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

As of right now I have my heart set on graduating, getting a traveling nursing job, leaving everything in my life behind and seeing every place i can in the world


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14280008 - 04/12/11 07:58 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I feel really bad for myself too, but when we first started dating I thought that he was a pothead. I did not know until 2 moths after we were dating that he's never touched a drug in his life. Then I thought for sure that I could convince him to take something with me, its been almost 6 months and still nothing. Although it took me almost a year with my ex before I finally said yes to mushrooms. I have not given up on him yet. He has so much potential and I can see it in his heart. I just have to dig it out.

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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14280015 - 04/12/11 07:58 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Traveling is a great substitute for the psychedelic experience. :thumbup: And it might scratch that itch you have.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: joemolloy]
    #14280061 - 04/12/11 08:05 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Maybe what I'm looking for is exactly what I want to do and I just have to wait to do it.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14280092 - 04/12/11 08:08 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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smokin427 said:
Hey, I read your post and I think I can feel for you. I'm 20 as well, and I'm getting whacked in the face by the real world. It's all really overwhelming and extremely confusing; life is a trip. I'm trying to decide whether I can and should follow through with engineering, or live a little and save some money. Being so self aware at a young age leaves me with so many questions about my future and the direction of my life. All I know for sure, is that I want to be happy; right now, drugs make me happy.





If I wasn't so far into my school I may consider taking some time off to travel the world, and if i had the money. Neither one is a true option for me. Isn't that to ultimate goal in life happiness? Drugs make me happy too but theres a point in my opinion that they shouldnt be your soul source of happiness.



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As of right now I have my heart set on graduating, getting a traveling nursing job, leaving everything in my life behind and seeing every place i can in the world




Well then do that!! if that's really what your heart wants there shouldn't even be a question about it.

I absolutely love learning, same as you, but I don't see myself ever quitting psychedelics (at least that's what my heart wants lol), even if I go to college and get a demanding job. I see people like timothy leary, ram dass, aldous huxley, terence mckenna and I see TRULY smart people. They not only have an abundance of book smarts, but they're full of such wisdom and sagacity, they are so happy and give off such a light that I can't help but hope for the same for myself. they are the shamans of today!
That's quite the pickle you're in tho lol


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14280118 - 04/12/11 08:12 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

If I'm not mistaken Timothy Leary did get his PHD at Harvard. What if I get mine and make some wonderful advancements in psychedelic research just like him. That would be amazinggggggggggg


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14280172 - 04/12/11 08:20 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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If I'm not mistaken Timothy Leary did get his PHD at Harvard. What if I get mine and make some wonderful advancements in psychedelic research just like him. That would be amazinggggggggggg



mhmm ram dass got his phd too, aldous didn't but is recognized as one of the most intelligent people of this century, and terence mckenna is just the best, most interesting philosopher I've ever seen or heard.

I'm obsessed with these 4 people lol


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14280181 - 04/12/11 08:22 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

About 2 years ago I was too and now all I read is nursing books which saddens me :frown:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14280247 - 04/12/11 08:31 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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If I'm not mistaken Timothy Leary did get his PHD at Harvard. What if I get mine and make some wonderful advancements in psychedelic research just like him. That would be amazinggggggggggg





yeah that would be awesome, but where would boy fit in?


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: ant61]
    #14280282 - 04/12/11 08:37 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Trippy Hippie 74 said:
If I'm not mistaken Timothy Leary did get his PHD at Harvard. What if I get mine and make some wonderful advancements in psychedelic research just like him. That would be amazinggggggggggg





yeah that would be awesome, but where would boy fit in?



good question.
trippy hippie, What has he said about psychedelics?? like more than just "wont do em" lol

edit: wrote ur name wrong lol


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14282300 - 04/13/11 05:08 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

DOn't get my wrong I really do care and love my boyfriend, but when it comes down to me I'm going to do what's best for me. If he's not willing to change with I really don't think he will it's going to be hard for me to stay with him. I talked to him a little bit last night about it and he told me that he doesn't need drugs to be happy, and he just doesn't want to do it because he never has. First off I will say that he does not judge me on the things I do, he has never restricted me or told me I was wrong. That means a lot to me because most non drug users usually flip out about things like that. I have been honest with him from the very start. He also knows that if I do the the chance to leave I will. He doesn't like that fact because he wants to stay where he grew up and where his friends and family are which nothing is wrong with, this town is a nice town, but I'm such a free spirit that I'd go insane if I stayed. Now I have no promises that I will get my dream job and I may very well end up staying here for a while. I just take it day by day and when I am put into that situation we will make a choice. As for now I feel no reason to not have him as my boyfriend even if he doesn't want to explore what I have to offer, that his choice.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14282488 - 04/13/11 07:00 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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DOn't get my wrong I really do care and love my boyfriend, but when it comes down to me I'm going to do what's best for me. If he's not willing to change with I really don't think he will it's going to be hard for me to stay with him. I talked to him a little bit last night about it and he told me that he doesn't need drugs to be happy, and he just doesn't want to do it because he never has. First off I will say that he does not judge me on the things I do, he has never restricted me or told me I was wrong. That means a lot to me because most non drug users usually flip out about things like that. I have been honest with him from the very start. He also knows that if I do the the chance to leave I will. He doesn't like that fact because he wants to stay where he grew up and where his friends and family are which nothing is wrong with, this town is a nice town, but I'm such a free spirit that I'd go insane if I stayed. Now I have no promises that I will get my dream job and I may very well end up staying here for a while. I just take it day by day and when I am put into that situation we will make a choice. As for now I feel no reason to not have him as my boyfriend even if he doesn't want to explore what I have to offer, that his choice.




Yea, I don't think it's something worth losing your boyfriend over. He seems like a pretty good guy, and if he's understanding and respectful and doesn't judge your drug use, then I would say he's worth staying with.

Some people can't be convinced to delve into the world of psychs, and there's nothing we can do. The fact that he's accepting of your use despite his non-use is pretty impressive. I'd say it's something pretty unique that's worth holding on to.

When it comes to drug testing, there is a way to avoid it if you're still worried about acid or shrooms (both of which are very rarely tested for. I'm on probation for a misdemeanor drug charge, and I still trip). You can make your own ayahuasca. It's cheap, and super easy. LSD was my drug of choice until I made my first huasca.

There's a really good tek that makes the nausea almost nonexistent, and it also keeps you from having to taste the stuff: DMT jello shots. You can make this all in the matter of under two hours, so it's very convenient.

Like I said before, don't give up on something that you think is an important part of your life, find a way to embrace it responsibly.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: bholzer]
    #14282645 - 04/13/11 08:14 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I'm sure there will be a point where I grow out of drugs.. I would LOVE to get away and travel around the world.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: smokin427]
    #14283476 - 04/13/11 11:48 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

TrippyHippy, you will always be able to take psychedelics. But if you want a career you need to take the responsibilities.

It seems like you really want to be something other than a nurse though.

So I suggest using your qualifications to get casual/part tiem nurshing work while you keep exploring your life options. You are quite young.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14283693 - 04/13/11 12:36 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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DOn't get my wrong I really do care and love my boyfriend, but when it comes down to me I'm going to do what's best for me. If he's not willing to change with I really don't think he will it's going to be hard for me to stay with him. I talked to him a little bit last night about it and he told me that he doesn't need drugs to be happy, and he just doesn't want to do it because he never has. First off I will say that he does not judge me on the things I do, he has never restricted me or told me I was wrong. That means a lot to me because most non drug users usually flip out about things like that. I have been honest with him from the very start. He also knows that if I do the the chance to leave I will. He doesn't like that fact because he wants to stay where he grew up and where his friends and family are which nothing is wrong with, this town is a nice town, but I'm such a free spirit that I'd go insane if I stayed. Now I have no promises that I will get my dream job and I may very well end up staying here for a while. I just take it day by day and when I am put into that situation we will make a choice. As for now I feel no reason to not have him as my boyfriend even if he doesn't want to explore what I have to offer, that his choice.




That's the thing, we don't need drugs to be happy.... If anything drugs make me slightly less happy, and that's kinda the point, you know the old saying "ignorance is bliss."

As for your situation right now, I see no reason to change it, but who knows where the world will take you in 2 years.

I'd say just go with the flow haha :smile:

Edit: elaborating on the "slightly less happy" comment. I don't think pure unfounded happiness should even exist. I'd say it's good to have a pessimistic, questioning outlook on humanity in general and a decent amount of sympathy.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Noteworthy]
    #14283776 - 04/13/11 12:54 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I understand the predicament you are in as I am nearing completion with college as well. But I think you are making this a bigger deal than it has to be. Just because you have a career does not mean you have to give up psychedelics. They don't test for them, not in urine or hair! The only thing you may have to initially give up is pot for a few weeks to get it out of your system for if/when you get drug tested.

Unless your future employer does random drug tests you can probably return to smoking again if you wish. So don't worry about leaving your psychedelic identity behind its still there and always will be even if you quit them forever. They have planted a seed in your mind which is clear by your postings and have forever changed the way you see the world.

I am also in a similar situation with my girlfriend. She's cool with my pot use and will occasionally smoke but not so much with psychedelics. She has no desire or curiosity about it and just says "its not for me". To which I say, "good,more for me!"

In all serioiusness though, the experience is absolutely earth shattering and it is natural to want to share the experience with a loved one but unfortunately for us they are too close minded,scared, nervous, or apprehensive to be open to such an experience. This is the issue I struggle with as we have been in a relationship for almost 2 years. And although we are compatible in just about every other way we tend to but heads on this issue. My advice is to just let them live the way they want to and if they allow you to do the same then I say to just leave it at that and carry one with your relationship. Luckily for you if the relationship doesn't pan out there are a lot more guys that do like to dabble in psychelics versus females that you could embark on a relationship with.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14284059 - 04/13/11 01:40 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

It's not easy living in the default (real) world as a psychedelic explorer. You would be surprised how many of us (psychedelic users) are living "undercover". It can be done.

I myself graduated from a four year university and have two master degrees. Trust me, there are a lot of us out there.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: FleshCap]
    #14284160 - 04/13/11 01:59 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Just set time aside to do what you love... i work sometimes 6 days a week and have a girlfriend that is not really in to tripping, so i had last weekend off, told my girlfriend that i wouldn't be seeing her that night and i ate a ten strip of LSD.. It was wonderful! Had a great night at home alone solo tripping! If you really wanna do it im sure you could set time aside!


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: microdotty]
    #14284307 - 04/13/11 02:30 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I think she means the following: it's not the inability to do psychedelics, but the "noise" which defines the life foreseen thrusts their teachings to the background, or even perverts them.

Here's the deal: the complex of ideas which stitchs society is very, very fragil, tiny. It's owed to its constant mental impinging (its characteristic anticipatory mindset and so forth). It's not reality that you leave yourself into in this case, but its illusion/fiction. the commitment. And this commitment never actually exists, it is an imaginary disposition of your lived spaced that's being resisted - it Here's what you ought to do: take the leap now, before concretizing is IMAGINARY. Its reality is by conviction, layed by your ego, which is what you must give up. And what I'm telling you is that the reality of the situation remains.

To live as you anticipate, forcefully, may only then become an option.

If you do not enjoy the performing of the job's enterprise (inc. its microcosmic reflections, e.g., literally "injecting someone") why should you perform it? The finality is an abstraction. To this "why" the anticipatory nature of mentioned mindset replies, imprisons. It's the issue of survival - transcended by WANTING to live, an exchange of the indirect desire to for the direct, which is what you are.

Take your present uncertainty to a "level 5" dance. :wink:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Comcouveflor]
    #14288482 - 04/14/11 04:59 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Hi Trippy Hippy.

You have nothing to worry about. I know a few people in the medical field, including a travel nurse that I know VERY well.

There is no test for psychedelics, unless you happen to have to take a 10 panel, which will then include ecstasy, but it leaves your system so quickly that it is not a problem.

Travel nurses only have to take a test when they switch assignments, and even then it is just a pee test, usually five panel (THC, coke, barbs, opiates, pcp).  You just stop smoking weed for a few days, buy one of those "drinks" if it makes you feel better, and you are good to go.

I know one nurse who has been at it for 15 years, 10 of them travelling, and there has never been anything more than a pee test that came with plenty of warning (she was switching assignments).

You don't have to give up your true self to have a career.  It's just that you have to do the daily grind instead of indulging yourself all the time.  It sucks, but it does make the time you spend your own way that much sweeter.

Travel nurses can take all the time they want between contracts, along with not getting caught up in all the political BS that long term hospital employees love to stir up.  Add in the great pay and adventures (with money to fund them) and you are in for a good time.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Psynsns]
    #14288989 - 04/14/11 09:18 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

You guys make me have hope that I can do what I wan to do. I really do want to be a nurse though. I love everything about it and I love my school. I don't smoke weed so I really don't have to worry about a piss test. I am really lucky to have a boyfriend that doesn't rub it in my face about being a "drug user". A lot of you have given me really good advice and I feel better about what may or may not happen :smile:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14289737 - 04/14/11 12:08 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I live the life of Truman, sort of. I am 39, I am an IT professional with a great paying job I really like, a house, a wife, two kids and a dog. And yet I have never had to give up psychedelics. I have a whole drawer full of candy of all sorts and indulge whenever I feel like it and the situation is right. Of course it isn't the same as when I was 20, when I'd get stoned every day and tripped every week, but it would be horrible if I hadn't changed in the past twenty years. It's normal. I had the same "Oh my god, I am 20 now, my youth is over and it ain't coming back!" depressions, but trust me, it's temporary. Every age has its special charm. Interests and priorities change all the time. Life isn't static.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic idenity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14290456 - 04/14/11 02:33 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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I lost every ounce of innocence to him. First it was my virginity




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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14290548 - 04/14/11 02:48 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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You guys make me have hope that I can do what I wan to do. I really do want to be a nurse though. I love everything about it and I love my school. I don't smoke weed so I really don't have to worry about a piss test. I am really lucky to have a boyfriend that doesn't rub it in my face about being a "drug user". A lot of you have given me really good advice and I feel better about what may or may not happen :smile:




You seem really smart and I don't doubt you can do whatever you put your heart into! don't be so hard on yourself, you seem to have your shit in order and I'm sure it will be fine.

I wish the best of luck to you on your journey! :smile:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14290565 - 04/14/11 02:52 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

you don't have to identify so much with what you do
job is to earn money and/or help
if you can don't give up tripping
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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: German Kahuna]
    #14293548 - 04/15/11 12:14 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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I live the life of Truman, sort of. I am 39, I am an IT professional with a great paying job I really like, a house, a wife, two kids and a dog. And yet I have never had to give up psychedelics. I have a whole drawer full of candy of all sorts and indulge whenever I feel like it and the situation is right. Of course it isn't the same as when I was 20, when I'd get stoned every day and tripped every week, but it would be horrible if I hadn't changed in the past twenty years. It's normal. I had the same "Oh my god, I am 20 now, my youth is over and it ain't coming back!" depressions, but trust me, it's temporary. Every age has its special charm. Interests and priorities change all the time. Life isn't static.




Are you the exception to the rule?  How many of you do you think are out there living a successful life in the conventional sense and still regularly tripping or taking drugs?  Man, I think of all the regular drug users that have entered in and out of my life and the vast majority of them were struggling.  Whether that was a consequence of the drugs or a reaction to their circumstances, I don't know, but there seems a strong connection between unhappy lives and regular drug use.

Perhaps the OP should consider not putting her career, mental health, personal relationships, criminal record, and future on the line so she can trip.  Think about those five categories that she could possibly destroy by taking the advice of the chorus of Yes's in this thread.

Here's a different tune and you're all gonna hate it:
TrippyHippy, weed makes you dumb(believe it), psychedelics make you nutty(read some threads around these parts), and everything else is too addictive (check out Other Drugs Forum.)
You made amazing strides, watched other drug users fall by the wayside, and you're contemplating muddying up the waters again?  You're smarter than that.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: joemolloy]
    #14293714 - 04/15/11 01:03 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Anyone else want to see a picture of Trippy Hippy?

Or maybe just a description and the type of appeal she wears?
Tommy hillfigure, or tye dye?

Don't really have anything to add that these fellow shroomates haven't so i thought i'd ask that.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: HeiligBoomerz]
    #14294488 - 04/15/11 08:13 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Anyone else want to see a picture of Trippy Hippy?

Or maybe just a description and the type of appeal she wears?
Tommy hillfigure, or tye dye?

Don't really have anything to add that these fellow shroomates haven't so i thought i'd ask that.



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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: bholzer]
    #14295776 - 04/15/11 02:00 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Well...even if he was sober would you mind him sitting you? Honestly, just having him THERE might be good enough. Maybe have him spark up if you don't like 100% straight sitters.

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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Shroomerited]
    #14297011 - 04/15/11 06:02 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I'm experiencing the same Issue, I'm a so called 'artist'. dedicated my life after high school, to art. Offered my whole being to it, put up the middle finger to the system and chased my dream.. 7 years passed. And to this day I managed to survive, but the system still can't be beaten, it was my main goal, that every day of my life I wake up to fuck the system and not let it fuck me. But who am I to screw the system? I tried creating my own system but I live in a tiny island with a shitty society and government.. With few opportunities.. Psychedelics are a big part of who I am now and where I stand, yet I find myself suffering, for struggling to live. I simply cannot face the 'not so real world'.. i can't call it real world..

Real world my ass.. I wasn't made to work all my life in a shitty job i hate till I die like a moronic robot.

I want to live like a creature, a habitant of planet earth.. Yet I was raised in the western world, and it is not easy to destroy the way you were brought up and go live like an animal..

I hate money.. It saddens me, the lackness of it, it's texture.. I just cannot sell my soul for paper that only has currency..

It's fucked up. I'm only 22 and going thru all kinds of mindstates and cannot handle the system nor society..

I'm a very solitairy being and usually stay away from the 'unreal' world out there.

All I want is peace, and to live comfortably.. I don't wanna be rich.. i just want to live without struggling.

I hope you find what you're seeking for TrippyHippy, but form my perspective, its already there. You can keep taking psychedelics in your situation. And if anything doesn't feel right, go ahead and change it!

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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: HerbalJunkie]
    #14300044 - 04/16/11 08:51 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Are you the exception to the rule?  How many of you do you think are out there living a successful life in the conventional sense and still regularly tripping or taking drugs?  Man, I think of all the regular drug users that have entered in and out of my life and the vast majority of them were struggling.  Whether that was a consequence of the drugs or a reaction to their circumstances, I don't know, but there seems a strong connection between unhappy lives and regular drug use.

Perhaps the OP should consider not putting her career, mental health, personal relationships, criminal record, and future on the line so she can trip.  Think about those five categories that she could possibly destroy by taking the advice of the chorus of Yes's in this thread.

Here's a different tune and you're all gonna hate it:
TrippyHippy, weed makes you dumb(believe it), psychedelics make you nutty(read some threads around these parts), and everything else is too addictive (check out Other Drugs Forum.)
You made amazing strides, watched other drug users fall by the wayside, and you're contemplating muddying up the waters again?  You're smarter than that.




Thanks for going against every one. I like to see different sides and views. You are right, weed does make you stupid. When I smoked every day I could never thing right and moved so so slow. When I stopped all the cloudiness cleared. I will also agree with you that psychedelics can make you nuts. I went through that phase last summer and stopped tripping for a good 8 months because I had a trip where my entire life shattered and it took me that long to regain myself. It was like from the movie Inception when their times up and the whole dream world starts shattering, well that's my my REAL world did. Also if i ever did get caught and had something on my record I would NEVER get a nursing job. About a month ago I was supposed to go to a rave with my friend, I had a really bad feeling about it and ended up staying home on a Friday night to study instead. Well she got caught with prescription drugs, well that's a felony. Nurses and felonies don't mix.


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HeiligBoomerz said:
Anyone else want to see a picture of Trippy Hippy?

Or maybe just a description and the type of appeal she wears?
Tommy hillfigure, or tye dye?

Don't really have anything to add that these fellow shroomates haven't so i thought i'd ask that.




If you look hard there are pictures on me on here. Depending on where I'm going or who I'm with I have tye-dye and Hollister clothes.


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Well...even if he was sober would you mind him sitting you? Honestly, just having him THERE might be good enough. Maybe have him spark up if you don't like 100% straight sitters.

Or would he freak, and hence cause YOU to freak?




He was with my last time I tripped on my birthday. He told me the next day that I was being mean to him, but that's because he brought all his friends around me and they freaked me out. He didn't at all, but his friends just gave me the creeps. I felt like they were sitting there just judging the shit out of me. Also this is really finny. He refused to kiss me all night which lead me to think he was mad at me, so the next day I asked him why he wouldn't kiss me and he told me he thought if he kissed me he would start tripping. Lol silly boy.

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I'm experiencing the same Issue, I'm a so called 'artist'. dedicated my life after high school, to art. Offered my whole being to it, put up the middle finger to the system and chased my dream.. 7 years passed. And to this day I managed to survive, but the system still can't be beaten, it was my main goal, that every day of my life I wake up to fuck the system and not let it fuck me. But who am I to screw the system? I tried creating my own system but I live in a tiny island with a shitty society and government.. With few opportunities.. Psychedelics are a big part of who I am now and where I stand, yet I find myself suffering, for struggling to live. I simply cannot face the 'not so real world'.. i can't call it real world..

Real world my ass.. I wasn't made to work all my life in a shitty job i hate till I die like a moronic robot.

I want to live like a creature, a habitant of planet earth.. Yet I was raised in the western world, and it is not easy to destroy the way you were brought up and go live like an animal..

I hate money.. It saddens me, the lackness of it, it's texture.. I just cannot sell my soul for paper that only has currency..

It's fucked up. I'm only 22 and going thru all kinds of mindstates and cannot handle the system nor society..

I'm a very solitairy being and usually stay away from the 'unreal' world out there.

All I want is peace, and to live comfortably.. I don't wanna be rich.. i just want to live without struggling.

I hope you find what you're seeking for TrippyHippy, but form my perspective, its already there. You can keep taking psychedelics in your situation. And if anything doesn't feel right, go ahead and change it!

Boom boom




Yea at one point in my life I was determined to beat the system too and move into the woods are try to be self sufficient. I think that was a fantasy from psychedelics... Yea it sucks having to live in this culture, but I also think I am very privileged. I have amazing opportunities to go to college. I have always had food to eat and a place to sleep, I don't have to worry about not having medication when I'm sick or getting some outrageous disease with no stable health care around. Yes There are other countries that do no have to live with the system controlling them but there struggle to survive outweighs what I have to deal with. There are places I can go to hide from the system for a little while get my mind in tact and then just return still being happy, they can't hide from starvation. I know money can be the root of evil cause greed, power struggle, and control issues, but it also provides me with the basic needs of my life and the ability to perhaps one day do something great.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14302215 - 04/16/11 05:15 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Thanks for going against every one. I like to see different sides and views. You are right, weed does make you stupid. When I smoked every day I could never thing right and moved so so slow. When I stopped all the cloudiness cleared. I will also agree with you that psychedelics can make you nuts. I went through that phase last summer and stopped tripping for a good 8 months because I had a trip where my entire life shattered and it took me that long to regain myself. It was like from the movie Inception when their times up and the whole dream world starts shattering, well that's my my REAL world did. Also if i ever did get caught and had something on my record I would NEVER get a nursing job. About a month ago I was supposed to go to a rave with my friend, I had a really bad feeling about it and ended up staying home on a Friday night to study instead. Well she got caught with prescription drugs, well that's a felony. Nurses and felonies don't mix.





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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: joemolloy]
    #14302241 - 04/16/11 05:22 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

I rage it 24/7. I'm at least high and probably drunk at any given point in time, and I'm always down for a psychedelic journey. I've never "prepared" for a trip outside of getting myself all excited for it, and I'm doing fine.

I work my job, pay for my house, and am constantly fucked up. I'm probably an exception to the rule of constant drug use will make you useless. Actually, I work better not sober (on anything outside of heavy psych doses) than sober.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Joolz]
    #14302250 - 04/16/11 05:24 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Oh, imagine what Joolz coulda been.  Damn, still selling himself short.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: joemolloy]
    #14302290 - 04/16/11 05:37 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Oh, imagine what Joolz coulda been.  Damn, still selling himself short.




You say selling myself short, I say raging it hard and having the time of my life. I'm sure you know how much fun my life is better than I do Joe.


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: HerbalJunkie]
    #14302549 - 04/16/11 06:30 PM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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I'm experiencing the same Issue, I'm a so called 'artist'. dedicated my life after high school, to art. Offered my whole being to it, put up the middle finger to the system and chased my dream.. 7 years passed. And to this day I managed to survive, but the system still can't be beaten, it was my main goal, that every day of my life I wake up to fuck the system and not let it fuck me. But who am I to screw the system? I tried creating my own system but I live in a tiny island with a shitty society and government.. With few opportunities.. Psychedelics are a big part of who I am now and where I stand, yet I find myself suffering, for struggling to live. I simply cannot face the 'not so real world'.. i can't call it real world..

Real world my ass.. I wasn't made to work all my life in a shitty job i hate till I die like a moronic robot.

I want to live like a creature, a habitant of planet earth.. Yet I was raised in the western world, and it is not easy to destroy the way you were brought up and go live like an animal..

I hate money.. It saddens me, the lackness of it, it's texture.. I just cannot sell my soul for paper that only has currency..

It's fucked up. I'm only 22 and going thru all kinds of mindstates and cannot handle the system nor society..

I'm a very solitairy being and usually stay away from the 'unreal' world out there.

All I want is peace, and to live comfortably.. I don't wanna be rich.. i just want to live without struggling.

I hope you find what you're seeking for TrippyHippy, but form my perspective, its already there. You can keep taking psychedelics in your situation. And if anything doesn't feel right, go ahead and change it!

Boom boom




Gotta speak their language if you wanna be able to change the system. Can't just stick to your beliefs, ignore theirs, and expect them to change the way they make the rules. I myself have been (well still am haha) in a similar situation as yourself, extremely frustrated with society, feeling like the conventional get a college degree, work a 9-5 job thing is complete and utter bullshit, wishing that traveling around the world, playing my music would be all I'd have to do in my life (with a few other things :biggrin:). But let's be real here, what kind of change can we impose if we have no experience in this real world of theirs? Find others like us and build up an army? No. The whole idea of peace would be compromised if its achieved through war. The only way we can get the system to change is if we work with it instead of going against it.

Yes, all the hippie ideals are great, but honestly look around you: this isn't the reality we live in. I can't go around the world, playing music with my band, because I don't have the money to. You can pretend that abstaining from the system is fine and ignore everything and everybody else, but that won't get you anywhere. And it doesn't have to be this way. True, in our society, money and material success are the major highways out of struggle. Yes, they're evil, but how can you expect to affect the masses if you yourself are struggling to bring home the meat, just because you feel like you're too good to conform to the way things are?

TrippyHippie, life's about sacrifices. I'd say take a break from drugs for a long while. Make that sacrifice in exchange for advancing your education and position in the 'real world'. Take care of your basic needs first, you don't want your children, if you have them, growing up in a shit-hole, do you? You don't have to change your beliefs, only your behavior. Think about the rest later. Perhaps, once you're established, you'll find a way to integrate your beliefs into your own life and lives of those around you. Hopefully, with life will come wisdom, and years later, when you find yourself pondering over these matters again, you'll have the answer.

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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: TrippyHippie74]
    #14304268 - 04/17/11 01:05 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

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Thanks for going against every one. I like to see different sides and views. You are right, weed does make you stupid. When I smoked every day I could never thing right and moved so so slow. When I stopped all the cloudiness cleared. I will also agree with you that psychedelics can make you nuts. I went through that phase last summer and stopped tripping for a good 8 months because I had a trip where my entire life shattered and it took me that long to regain myself. It was like from the movie Inception when their times up and the whole dream world starts shattering, well that's my my REAL world did. Also if i ever did get caught and had something on my record I would NEVER get a nursing job. About a month ago I was supposed to go to a rave with my friend, I had a really bad feeling about it and ended up staying home on a Friday night to study instead. Well she got caught with prescription drugs, well that's a felony. Nurses and felonies don't mix.




Well i wouldn't go thaaat far, everything in moderation you know. I think as long as you aren't using marijuana habitually and you don't take psychedelics obscenely often or in experimental doses you should be fine.... But then again it totally depends on the person.

I quit weed personally (for the most part) because I found the enlightenment to detrimental effects ratio (lol) to be lacking compared to other psychedelics.

I'm worried that at some point I'm going to reach this same point and I might have to decide whether to just keep using or to give up my psychedelic use and get on with my "real" life.... I know that it's not going to make me too dumb for my job or anything of the sort, but if anything will make me realize (key word realize) the shittiness of my pseudo-real situation. It's all going to come down to whether I want to be blinded or not, similar to having a hole in your pants in a speech to an auditorium full of people and whether you'd want to be aware of it (maybe a bad analogy lol)

It's all too much to figure out right now

PS. I saw ur pics, you know curiousity.. and wow you're gorgeous :smile:


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Re: Losing my psychedelic identity [Re: Synapses-R-Us]
    #14305746 - 04/17/11 11:30 AM (12 years, 9 months ago)

Well I know I'm not going to quit until after the summer. I already have a trip planned to go to Electric Forest and I don't want to do it sober. That's probably the only weekend I will trip all summer. I don't like tripping a lot. To me it is special and I don't want to ruin it by doing it too often. Plus it takes a huge toll on my body. My mind loves it but my body hates me the next day. I don't know what I will end up doing, but it was nice to get some input and see how other people handle there psychedelic use and uphold their lives. At this point I am sure it is possible to maintain both. I don't think I can fully make a true decision until that point in my life comes. I will take the chances I get to trip this summer because it very well may be the last time I will do it. I know this festival is going to be life changing and who knows it may hold my answers. I'm going with great great people, one of which I met on here, who has become my big brother. And my very best friend who I gave her first trip. If any of you live near Michigan or not I still think you should make the trip out to electric forest! I love meeting my shroomery people.


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