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Envix
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: elliev]
#14304085 - 04/17/11 12:05 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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what is it you want to do?
or what do you want to be happening that isnt happening already
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Edited by Envix (04/17/11 12:06 AM)
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: Envix]
#14304114 - 04/17/11 12:15 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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elllev
You and I are in a similar position. I feel held back from living with my mom, and I've had a gloomy outlook on life for the past year or so but.......
I just found out I have to move out by the end of June because my mom and sister are moving to florida, I could go but I would rather go to school and live on my own, because if I moved there I would live with my mom, my sister and her four kids.
So now I have to make some money because I have like 25 dollars to my name and need to find out where i'm going to live in a couple months.
It's kind of exciting, because I know everything is going to work out, as it will for you too 
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: Envix]
#14304121 - 04/17/11 12:17 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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things that i want to do?
move out to a decent city (love, love san francisco. i go there alot) where having a car isn't really needed; i don't mind the bus or riding a bike
don't care where i live. i'd be fine with an empty room and a bed
not give a shit about much
go to college/school
get a job to earn $ to get by life
multitask (anything)
be occupied/not be at home or future house or appt
live happy
walk the city (i live in a shitty town atm)
have friends that i can actually relate to
find a guy friend/find a partner in crime that i can share beds with, without worrying that he'd be a fucking creeper and touch me
go out and eat locally or fine dining
travel
meet someone/people with an entrepreneurial spirit
make my mark on the world
help people out/volunteer (family thinks its a waste of time)
go to the zoo for no reason
eat gelato every fucking week
get a macbook laptop just cuz
stay out all night
ride a bike everyday
meet someone who can hold a conversation
sorry i just rambled. everything is based off $. pisses me the fuck off and frustrates me
edit: i dont know if i mentioned this or not- i don't have much friends here. i was enrolled in independent studies when i was 15 (when i moved out of my hometown), i've been a loner most of my life up until i was 15. i had a boyfriend and a decent amount of friends, but that got cut off. i got really depressed and shit and started getting anxiety when i moved to a different city. meh. probably my fault. i should have stayed in a public school i guess.
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Edited by elliev (04/17/11 12:21 AM)
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Envix
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: elliev]
#14304128 - 04/17/11 12:20 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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thats a pretty long list
riiiighhht noww.... i want some icecream
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: Envix]
#14304136 - 04/17/11 12:23 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
Big Worm said: It's kind of exciting, because I know everything is going to work out, as it will for you too  
thanks! i'm hoping it will too. i know it will in the end! (: good luck to ya as well
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Envix said: thats a pretty long list
riiiighhht noww.... i want some icecream 

forgot to add that i'd like someone to do drugs with u_____u heh.. eh.. heh....
Edited by elliev (04/17/11 12:26 AM)
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: elliev]
#14304163 - 04/17/11 12:31 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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me too. all anyone ever wants to do around here is get drunk but drinking makes me sleepy 
my nxtdoor neighboor is cool i smoked dmt w/ him out on the roof but i hardly ever see him any more hes always out having fun and im stuck inside with no friends
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: Envix]
#14304176 - 04/17/11 12:36 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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i don't like drinking with other ppl z__z
but when i do it (which is rarely) by myself, i do it wrong cuz i find myself puking in my bathroom???
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Re: feeling empty all the time. rambling. [Re: elliev]
#14304190 - 04/17/11 12:42 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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i think thats whats supposed to happen 
u must be doin' somethin right tho cuz at least youre able to make it to your bathroom
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