Last night was a night of awakening for me. After having travelled many times before and reminiscing about certain parts of my life, doing it for fun, or to escape life's everyday problems, a lesson I've heard my whole life finally became almost a physical reality.
I ordered 15 grams of Psilocybe Tampanensis Atlantis and 15 grams of Sclerotia(Philosopher stones) from an internet shop. My wife had to work last night so I figured I wouldn't have a better opportunity.
845pm: I put my son to bed and instantly chewed 7.5 grams of each.
955pm: The first effects; Air feeling cooler, almost a scratching in the back of my throat, and tracers were seen in my peripherals. I immediately moved myself to my bedroom with the phone to call a friend. His euphemisms are insightful and his metaphors are always said with a tongue in his cheek.
1015pm: We end our conversation and I pick out a few movies I want to watch and partied up with a few friends to play some MW2. It was here that I lost track of time.
One wall of our room is papered with a scene full of roses with deep reds and sparkling dew drops. One wall is red while others are yellow and orange. I began to look around my room while in the middle of a match and apparently my character on screen was doing the same in his digital little world. My party mates were yelling at me, asking why I was staring into the sky and spinning in circles. "I do believe I wont be of much use for tonight, guys," I said. "The funky fungus has taken over."
Because of the rose wallpaper, I changed one of my movie selections to American Beauty but I slowly realized soon into the movie that my concentration was more on the colors of my room than on the movie.
I went outside to smoke and had a chance meeting with a neighbor who is polizei(german police) and became all too uncomfortable about my situation and tried my hardest to end the conversation. I began to turn around when he grabbed me by the arm and swung me back towards him. He looked deep into my eyes and said, "Next time, invite me to visit the stars with you next time." Then with a nod from me and a wink from him, we parted ways.
Returning to my room, I lay down on my bed but couldn't get comfortable. Standing again, I began looking for my slippers. My feet nudged on and the first thought was, "They all come dancing around." I was more than confused about why this would even come up in the act of slipper-searching.
I sat on my bed with my legs crossed and my head held low and staring pondering over the things that have happened the past few months and my thoughts turned to action and reaction. Now, I've always heard this age old lesson but had never truly understood it until then. Many parts of these ponderings are still unclear to me seeing as how my mind is still processing and evaluating. With this, my mind changed to Karma.
Ah yes, Karma. Many associate karma with spiritual intervention, at least of a kind. I began to dissect every part of karma I've ever read about or heard and focused on the the simpler parts; i.e. For every negative/postive action, there will be a negative/positive reaction. I realized that karma is physical, plyable and we can all "bend" it to our will. And with that, I associated karma with people and realized that PEOPLE are karma. And with this I realized that karma all just comes dancing around. Again, I'm still processing this trip so if you have questions or feel like pondering my ponderings, feel free to comment.
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