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shroomgatherer
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Re: breaking up is the worst thing that's ever happened to me [Re: oxalic32]
#14255739 - 04/07/11 09:19 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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it didn't grow. it eased the pain for me a lil..numbness..time heals all wounds
eventually
drop the pain and move on...dont carry the pain...dont carry anything and be free
Thats good. I've seen friends really spiral. A kid i knew started doing OCs when his g/f broke up with him. Then that developed into dope. Then that developed into a real addiction. He was fucking his life up hard.
It always start out as a little thing you like to do, but it can completely consume you. Not saying it will be you, just saying i've seen it happen. Its always the same story of "i dont do it too much" and stuff like that. Any addict will tell you thats how they started, not that im saying you're an addict.
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I'm actually doing really well for myself these days. I still drink more than I should, but it's maybe 2/3 nights of the week? Compare that to 2009 when I was pretty much drunk 24/7, for no particular reason other than boredom.
My ex inspired me to go back to school. When we were still together we had a conversation about intelligence. I was talking about my struggles with school, and she told me that you can't consider yourself intelligent if you're not willing to work, even when it's unsatisfying. And I realized she was right, and I went back to school last summer.
I was so inspired by her own example. She's had poetry published, and shortly before we broke up she got a scholarship to Mills College. I'm so proud of her for her success.
The pain is not as bad now as it was when the breakup first happened. It is noticeably getting better. Just... very, very slowly. 
By the way, I just want to say thanks, guys. I never thought I would get such a huge number of supportive, empathetic responses. You have no idea how much this is helping me. The Shroomery is amazing. 
thannks ox and by dope I meant xanax (cuz that was the worst)...ive seen lots of spirals off opiates..i don't like seeing that
OP I know whatya mean. They usually are right in some way or another. It's a lifestyle change that you're coping with. Everything's gonna be allright Bob Marley told me 
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MLDSMDA
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Re: breaking up is the worst thing that's ever happened to me [Re: Sophistic Radiance]
#14255842 - 04/07/11 09:36 PM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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I started talking to the first girl I fell in love with again like two weeks ago. Ends up she's not really ready for a relationship and I was ready for one with her again. My heart feels so fucked up. She led me on pretty bad
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