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soggysocks
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Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality
#14229759 - 04/03/11 02:53 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Now I know theres a lot of threads similar to this out there but i wanna talk about my experiences and you opinions... I'm gay and have known all along wished to be straight for simple conveinience (socialy and physicaly...and it seems more natural). i have had several sexual break throughs using psychedelics. One on a strong mushroom trip i became completly bisexual (or asexual and just equal acceptance), must have been the closest thing ego death i have had...
another was lying in bed very very high on weed, closed my eyes and watched visions spiral around. So the kalidoscope paterns are always pink (with a bit of yellow) (i see this pink even when im sober i think got HPPD) so watching these i saw a bit of blue in there... i followed that blue and after metal casing it through the pink i went into the blue and was completly imersed in it (yellow replaced with green). at the point of this my complete mind set changed, i cant even begin to explain this.... it was like a was a dffernt person, but the same person at the same time.
I was the straight version of me: my mind prosseced in a different way, it was fantastic i felt so much better with myself!
i was realling hopng this was pernament but the next day it was just a memory and it was back to seeng pink... i think i could make it pernament but i never have any weed to try it. i feel like me being gay is somethng wroung with one of my 8 circuit imprints (a theory by tim leory, very good i should suggest googling it and reading it if you havnt already) or something like that.
i have attempted to meditate on mushrooms and pray that they fix it but its all to scary to face up too when i go to lie down in a dark room, i see all sorts of scary things and end up gong outside in the sun shine and havng a nice trip rather than facing the problems (and now mushrooms are going out of season so im afraid i wont get another chance).
i guess i would accept i were gay if it were that simple but....i fall in love with girls, strong feelings that arnt backed up by much sexual disire (id be fine with this too if it wernt for the torterous lust for men) i could have sex with a girl but, im afaid at how it will be, i might not cum or it mght be weird for me the whole time(would chicks like it if i couldnt cum for an abnormally long time, or infact would i cum regardless?).
its all too confusing, all i want is to be set in stone one sexuality or another. bisexuality would be the ultimate result rather than being emotionly attracted to women and sexualy attracted to men.
hope that all made enough sense typed in a bit of a rush, thanks
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Anthony917
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: soggysocks]
#14229777 - 04/03/11 03:03 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't really know what else to suggest except you should have sex with a chick. You never know 
BTW vagina feels better than bootyhole IMO. Some people say the asshole is tighter, but the vag is just much better
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: soggysocks]
#14229805 - 04/03/11 03:17 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't think sexuality is as big a deal as you seem to think
there is nothing wrong with you timothy's 8 circuit model of consciousness does not seem to explain anything to me and is IMO a poor description, but maybe that's just me
it's more convenient to be straight I guess try to go with the flow in honesty and sincerity for yourself
you can easily grow mushrooms indoors
Edited by Ferdinando (04/03/11 03:21 AM)
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soggysocks
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: Ferdinando]
#14229813 - 04/03/11 03:23 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't think sexuality is as big a deal as you seem to think
this sort of what i realised on mushrooms, that i can have sex with who ever i what regardless of attraction but on mushrooms it also feels like i could eat peanut butter mixed with ketchup as a meal as though taste isnt a factor for but when your sober that would taste horrible...
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soggysocks
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: Anthony917]
#14229819 - 04/03/11 03:27 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Anthony917 said: BTW vagina feels better than bootyhole IMO. Some people say the asshole is tighter, but the vag is just much better
this is also what i mean by being straight is more convinient.... im not even attracted to butt sex, just the male body, vagina is much for apealing for something to actully have sex with...
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: soggysocks]
#14229823 - 04/03/11 03:29 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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you are a beautiful person and I am sure you will find people of both sexes seeing that
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soggysocks
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: Ferdinando]
#14229848 - 04/03/11 03:43 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thank you, the shroomery is a good place to come to for getting stuff out and having feed back because of people like you :-]
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: soggysocks]
#14229908 - 04/03/11 04:45 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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Girls would definitely like it if you didn't cum for an abnormally-long time.
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Re: Psychedelic Experience and Sexuality [Re: soggysocks]
#14229926 - 04/03/11 05:01 AM (12 years, 9 months ago) |
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soggysocks said:
its all too confusing, all i want is to be set in stone one sexuality or another.
who said sexuality is solid?...one could easily say it is fluid as well.
...I personally think it doesn't matter what you are attracted to as long as it makes you happy in the end.you sound more nervous about women than unattracted to them sexually..my advice would be to just go with the flow of things and do what you feel is right,not what is "socially acceptable".A few times with a woman would take away that uncertainty I am sure.Just don't go trying to change what isn't wrong with you because of other shitheads.
Edited by Boheim (04/03/11 05:02 AM)
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