14mg 2ce + 14mg 2ct2 + top shelf cannabis + a shot of scotch
Kicked off the night with the Rolling Stones, followed by some Dylan. Effects started to become physically overwelming and I had to take a bath to raise my temperature.
During the bath, my ego was completely dissimated, every illusion revealed to the barest. I was brought to a single thread of awareness, only comprehending the single moment. Hallucinations were massive but I could still see the physical world perfectly. At one point I'm talking to my roommate and we're floating in space amongst the stars, yet at the same time I'm completely aware of our presence in the apartment. There was a strong link of internal dialogue with my roommate which seems confirmed, we could communicate highly abstract ideas without speaking and then confirm that we were on the same page. This went on for hours. At this point I'm sure a lot of it was illusory though.
Played guitar for a bit, but was too overwhelmed by the various psychedelic sensations to play at my potential.
As the night turned to morning I did some yoga and lay down for sleep, everything was much less overwhelming and I began to undertand the illusions I carry to be as I knew, the mere constructs of my physical reality. Not my belief in their solid existence, both real and false. These illusions which are transparent, are only the role an actor must assume to be a part of the play. The actor knows that they are acting and they know that the play is only a show, but they instill belief and feeling into it - to give it life. One regenerating theme throughout the night was homosexuality, and there is no doubt in my mind that to the last straw I am 100% heterosexual.
To sum the dosage, I'm a lightweight and while the experience was worthwhile - the dosage was too high. That kind of experience is best left to occasion, for the most part I prefer to be able to function during my experiences... but the high-ego death experiences always have their place... Next time I'll be lowering my dosage, if I do 2ce+2ct2 it'll be 8mg each plus the cannabis, plus the whisky and/or salvia if I feel like it. Won't be going for that combination for awhile though, will probably be using other substances the next few weeks.
-------------------- Psychedelics will not give you a lobotomy, but tv will.
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