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Synesthetic
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Did I overreact?
#14167632 - 03/22/11 11:39 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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So, I've had an odd day, which left me feeling good at a life despite having a small breakdown at a friend's house. That is, until my ex girlfriend who is one of my closest friends nowadays, and I also still have feelings for her.
Here's the conversation. It's not excessively long.
Also, note that she does heroin and did it with me only a few weeks go.
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The Ex ellllo Synesthetic 'Ello love. The Ex How are ya Synesthetic All right, actually, I went up to my dad's to get my bedding to make my bed more comfy, talked to my grandparents who are going to pay for me to go to the doctor and get my psych meds, went to Benbretti's for awhile, and had a cathartic cry after my dad called and pretty much yelled at me because even though I tried to call him before going to get my bedding he very rudely told me I can never go there without talking to him. The Ex I'm sorry Jake. Synesthetic Like I said, it was cathartic. The Ex Other than that how have things been Synesthetic Although I am pretty angry at him getting so upset because his only son went over to say high to his sister and get something that's his in the first place. And other than that they've been pretty shitty thanks to my horribe mood swings, panic attacks, and terrifying nightmares. The Ex Well you have to keep in mind you don't live so there you don't have a right to go over whenenver you please even if you call wait for an answer. Meditate. Synesthetic I don't live at my grandparents either, but when I go over unannounced they are ecstatic to see me. He also implied he doesn't ever want me in his house when he's not home. The Ex The difference is they didn't kick you out. Well honestly I hate when people are at my house without me being there so I get why he implied it... sorry I'm sounding like a bitch but I'm trying not to be. Synesthetic My sister was home, my grandparents were next door, and his girlfriend was there as well. Honestly, you're making me even more upset about it. The Ex I'm sorry. Don't talk to me if you don't like what I say. Synesthetic Because it feels like my dad has stopped caring for me whatsoever and doesn't ever want to see me. The Ex He still loves you. You have a lot to make up for and he probably feels like you haven't even tried to make an effort Synesthetic That's bullshit. I can't believe you said that. I've apologized for what I did many times, did everything I could to make up for what I did, and he didn't accept any of it.] Not to mention the fact that HE WAS BEATING ME! The Ex I'm not going to sugar coat it anymore. I'm being blunt. You don't like it don't talk to me. I've ended a lot of long-term friendships recently because of stupid bullshit. Actions speak louder than words. Synesthetic How is this stupid? What actions? The Ex If I seen my child on heriorn I'd probably beat the fuck out of them. I'm not taking sides I can see it both ways but just saying I would have beat the living daylight out of you if you were mine. Synesthetic He didn't know I was heroin at the time! The Ex It's not stupid but fighting with me over my opinions is stupid. Synesthetic HE WAS DRUNK AND STARTED BEATING ME WHILE LAUGHING ABOUT IT! The Ex He's not stupid. Synesthetic And even though I was only defending myself, I still think I should have just let him beat me within an inch ofmy life! The Ex I'm not talking about this anymore. This is between you and him. Synesthetic Well that's not even the point. He really hurt me today, andI never saidhewasan asshole or that I didn't understand, I was just telling you that what he said hurt, becauseit did. Fucking spacebar. The Ex Talk it out. Put your egos aside and talk. Synesthetic You think I haven't tried? Every time I tried, the conversation ended because he said I'm just blaming all my problems on him, which I don't do. And have never done. I fucking love my dad, and I still look up to him and wish him no ill will or suffering. The Ex Jake listen to yourself. I know you, you might not realize it but you blame everyone else for your problems. Be ambitious and show your willing to work to get his trust back. Synesthetic I BLAME ALL MY PROBLEMS ON MYSELF! THAT'S THE REASON I'M SO FUCKED UP EMOTIONALLY! The Ex Whatever I'm going to bed. Synesthetic Fine, leave me again. I'm only having a really rough time, I've only tried to be there for you any time you've even hinted that something was wrong and helped you through a lot of your problems, even the ones that really were your fault. The Ex I'm sorry I have a life and work. Text me tomorrow if your still upset but I'm done listening to it tonight.
Did I react poorly to what she said? I feel b
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you are all moody and shit...knock it off it aint attractive
get off the drugs and grow up
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no way man shes being totally insensitive she must feel some stigma or something dont let it get to you man some bitches are just crazy
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Re: Did I overreact? [Re: Coaster]
#14167672 - 03/22/11 11:47 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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She was being a total
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mescalinician
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I don't think so dude, the way she reacted to you getting beat up by your dad was bullshit. Even if your dad knew at the time he beat you that you were doing heroin, that's no justification for physically assaulting you.
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Synesthetic
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I still feel really hurt.
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masterharf
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drink a 40 and chill
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Bodhi of Ankou
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I think you need to talk it with him instead trying to shift all your emotion onto her.
and GTFO the smack
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BeverageFace
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it would be different if this was a one time convo.
but it sounds like this is a reoccuring theme for you, playing the victim. and even when you are one, playing the character rarely gets the desired effects. especially when your addicted to heroin.
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Sounds like the chick hates ya, or is sick of you and now hates ya. They are good at being hateful with words. Ain't duality a bitch.
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it also sounds like this dude needs to get his shit together and drink a 40
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Synesthetic
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I only do heroin once in a great while.
I was having a great and cathartic night until I talked to her.
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LloydChristmas
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I don't know what to tell you, sounds like a crappy situation. One thing I have learned, never have a serious conversation over texts. Body language and inflection are important in these types of discussions.
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Edited by LloydChristmas (03/23/11 12:03 AM)
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Quote:
Bodhi of Ankou said: I think you need to talk it with him instead trying to shift all your emotion onto her.
and GTFO the smack
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muistrue
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Never go to someones home unannounced. I fuckin hate it when people do that shit.
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LloydChristmas said: I don't know what to tell you, sounds like a crappy situation. One thing I have learned, never have a serious conversation over texts. Body language and inflection or important in these types of discussions.
Totally true!
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BeverageFace
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Synesthetic said: I only do heroin once in a great while.
I was having a great and cathartic night until I talked to her.
did you just learn that word, you used it 3 times talking to her, and now in talking to us.
that alone would make me not want to talk to you if i were her.
And why dont you understand, if someone kicks you out, you have no right to go into their home for any reason, even if it is your parents, unless they give you permission. even if they have your things, suck it up and work it out with them to get it back. if they refuse, get a police escort.
youre lucky your dad isnt a super dick and had you charged.
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You bitch a lot and she put you in your place.
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LittleDipster



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Seems like a typical bitch, what did you expect? she really doesn't care about your emotional troubles, and makes that pretty obvious. Really the best thing you can do is try your best at getting shit together with your dad.
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