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InvisibleCactilove
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Holy shit I died!
    #14159880 - 03/21/11 03:20 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Something profound happened to me last night. I expierenced something called ego death. Ego death is an expierence sought after by mystics, shamans, psycholgists and psychedelic pioneers. Going through this expierence reveals the illusionary aspect of ego or you, yourself, the me in you. When one is in a deep state of mind one may acheive ego death. The expierence itself is profound. You lose control and temporily go insane. While in this state one is givin a choice to hold on to their world and their ego, or to let it go. If you hold on to life than your ego will come back. If you let go however you are thrust into a new world. Its hard to describe. In this world there is nothing but its not empty like a void. You no longer realaize who you are, what you are, or whats going on. You become part of this nothing and everything. You expierence a feeling of oneness or unity with everything to ever exist. You feel as if you are floating through the cosmos where everything works together perfectly. During this time you see intense geometric patterns that turn into actual recognizable images. At this point you have broken through the veil and expierence things that alot of people never will. This is where it gets to weird and is impossible to explain in human language. This was my death my litteral death my body did not die but I did. The world is new to me everything that I once knew was tossed down the drain. In my opinion this was inevetible for me. I felt similair feeling of losing my mind and being on the verge of ego death. This time though it happened fully. I saw wonderfull things. I think my special diet along with my immense respect for altered states gave me the chance to expierence death before my time? I'm I afraid to die? no. Do I like living? yes. Am I still afraid of the pain? yes. WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT THOUGH, DEATH SHOULD ONLY BE LIKE WALKING THROUGH A DOOR INTO THE UNKNOWN AND NOTHING ELSE.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Cactilove]
    #14159931 - 03/21/11 03:31 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Is your name josh?

I feel the same way about death. Its the unknown. Sometimes I find myself anticipating it because I really want to know what happens that bad.

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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: twiztidthoughts]
    #14160045 - 03/21/11 03:58 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Same I've always wanted to know what dying is like I'm no believer in a soul other than the Aristotelian sense of the nature of a being which can not exist exosomaticaly so after death would probably be boring albeit unperceptively so.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: wal0013]
    #14160085 - 03/21/11 04:08 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Congratulations.  Welcome to the club.  Now what do you do with that situation you had yesterday?  How will you change your life because of it?  Will your life improve now that you've had the experience?  Does it answer any of your existential questions?  Bring you closer to divinity, the universe and your place in it?  How do you know it has anything to do with death?  Perhaps it has no relation to death at all.  That's just optimistic speculation.

I've experienced these episodes many times on high doses of psychedelics.  From textbook Buddhist enlightenment to cosmic quivering orgasms, I've cum purple-pink goo that was the Big Bang.  Seriously.  The consequences of such a profound experience:I still shit and piss daily.  I still get a raging hard on and jerk off.  I am still a rotten, sarcastic, petty asshole and my balls still itch.  I hope you are able to transcend due to your experience last night.  I haven't.  It hasn't meant shit to me, other than the memory of "What the Fuck was that?!"


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: joemolloy]
    #14160115 - 03/21/11 04:16 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Lol my new way of life will be to make a permanent mark on this earth. I will be a permanent part of this world.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Cactilove]
    #14160144 - 03/21/11 04:20 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Do it for me, motherfucker!


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: joemolloy]
    #14160157 - 03/21/11 04:22 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

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joemolloy said:
Congratulations.  Welcome to the club.  Now what do you do with that situation you had yesterday?  How will you change your life because of it?  Will your life improve now that you've had the experience?  Does it answer any of your existential questions?  Bring you closer to divinity, the universe and your place in it?  How do you know it has anything to do with death?  Perhaps it has no relation to death at all.  That's just optimistic speculation.

I've experienced these episodes many times on high doses of psychedelics.  From textbook Buddhist enlightenment to cosmic quivering orgasms, I've cum purple-pink goo that was the Big Bang.  Seriously.  The consequences of such a profound experience:I still shit and piss daily.  I still get a raging hard on and jerk off.  I am still a rotten, sarcastic, petty asshole and my balls still itch.  I hope you are able to transcend due to your experience last night.  I haven't.  It hasn't meant shit to me, other than the memory of "What the Fuck was that?!"





Hide we have a realist among us!
These things are just experiences for which we find meaning, it is a bit naive I should think to expect to have one or several psychedelic induced episodes and become the Dalai Lama. Nice to finally encounter someone that is not of the understanding that they are now some mystical celestial saint or deity just because they had some drugs. People will likely not take kindly to what I'm saying but idc deal .


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: joemolloy]
    #14160224 - 03/21/11 04:34 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

I think the thing to do after being in states like these...

BTW LMAO to Ive cum purple-pink goo that was the big bang!


anyways...is to (like the Buddha figuired out) spread the word. Enlightenment is gift meant to be sharred.  This helps humanity the most. 

Who cares about making your mark, unless you make it because when people think of who you were they think wisdom, knowledge, ect...


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: wal0013]
    #14160319 - 03/21/11 04:57 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

always important to know though that ego death is only half the experience sought by buddhists (idk about others, I can only speak for my own beliefs/philosophy) and psychologists, because the ego is an essential part of your mind, but you must tear it down and rebuild it in a new image without greed and that egotistical pridefulness, rather having an ego that is centered around friendship, discipline, good intentions etc


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: 1tokeovrtheline]
    #14160396 - 03/21/11 05:10 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

These drugs only show you the door for a brief amount of time. It's up to you to go to the other side.

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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: thormaxim]
    #14161168 - 03/21/11 07:53 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

I find the responses to this post to be rather naive, as too their writters transpire... Characteristic of the experience is understanding "everything", literally: not complex physics, for instance, for these aren't REAL. For one to have such an experience and fall back to the types of sayings that have here been written just shows the experience claimed wasn't the actual thing. I reccomend having another such experience as a means of integration.

This is in fact initially so much to bear that Cactilove has already convinced himself he can actually do anything whatsoever. You can't leave a mark, for there is no you to do so. This thing goes on its own! THIS!

You'll naturally be more with it.

Edited by Comcouveflor (03/21/11 08:00 PM)

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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Comcouveflor]
    #14161244 - 03/21/11 08:12 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

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Comcouveflor said:
I find the responses to this post to be rather naive, as too their writters transpire... Characteristic of the experience is understanding "everything", literally: not complex physics, for instance, for these aren't REAL. For one to have such an experience and fall back to the types of sayings that have here been written just shows the experience claimed wasn't the actual thing. I reccomend having another such experience as a means of integration.

This is in fact initially so much to bear that Cactilove has already convinced himself he can actually do anything whatsoever. You can't leave a mark, for there is no you to do so. This thing goes on its own! THIS!

You'll naturally be more with it.




This post makes less sense than my most retarded trip.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: joemolloy]
    #14161314 - 03/21/11 08:23 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Can't relate to having a "retarded trip" but ya know, many find the trip-content to be highly individual, in fact an excretion of your own depths: this could be used as a way of dismissing it further (in the fashion of your replies)

were it not defining you as "retarded".

I'm in for not taking it seriously, because it'd seem like suggesting that "play" has less reality than seriousness: but from there to such an undermining of the experience is quite a LEAP (i.e., from the experience, reality).

I am merely suggesting that by plunging in such a direction you're betraying your own endeavour. And that you may not be of this aware.

Edited by Comcouveflor (03/21/11 08:26 PM)

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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Comcouveflor]
    #14161341 - 03/21/11 08:28 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

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Can't relate to having a "retarded trip" but ya know, many find the trip-content to be highly individual, in fact an excretion of your own depths: this could be used as a way of dismissing it further (in the fashion of your replies)

were it not defining you as "retarded".




Ah, you clever hippy, you got me!  Touche.  :pipesmoke:

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I'm in for not taking it seriously, because it'd seem like suggesting that "play" has less reality than seriousness: but from there to such an undermining of the experience is quite a LEAP (i.e., from the experience, reality).




You lost me again.  This sounds like esoteric nonsense.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Comcouveflor]
    #14161587 - 03/21/11 09:25 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

I am almost positive this was the real thing. I fail to see how having similair experiences others do result in "not the real thing". You speak true of not being able to leave a permanent mark, it is true nothing lasts forever. What I was trying to say is I want to positively influence as many people as I can in this life. I do not claim to know all or be Ghandi or some shit. I'm just trying to explain that this was the most I feel I could ever get out of these substances. These are the states of mind that I have been looking for my whole life and I didn't even know it. I probably won't be inducing these states of mind for a good while. Ahhh life is great though for real ha ha.:grin:


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Cactilove]
    #14163818 - 03/22/11 10:23 AM (12 years, 11 months ago)

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I am almost positive this was the real thing. I fail to see how having similair experiences others do result in "not the real thing". You speak true of not being able to leave a permanent mark, it is true nothing lasts forever. What I was trying to say is I want to positively influence as many people as I can in this life. I do not claim to know all or be Ghandi or some shit. I'm just trying to explain that this was the most I feel I could ever get out of these substances. These are the states of mind that I have been looking for my whole life and I didn't even know it. I probably won't be inducing these states of mind for a good while. Ahhh life is great though for real ha ha.:grin:



I think perhaps you experienced a jhana, I know it seems unimaginably wonderful, difficult to believe you could be any more enlightened but there are many of these. some say 4, some say 8, I've even heard up to 12 before you are fully enlightened (I think the only difference is that some count neighboring jhanas and things of that nature)


just be aware that it will probably start to fade in a few months and then you will want to experience that again, and its going to take a lot more next time, lots of meditation and philosophical pondering, each time you experience a greater joy than you could've thought possible, until all suffering and all joy start to diminish and you approach true enlightenment, then you would have pure sublime peace, no highs or lows


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Highgrade we puffin as usual
Fight down the system as usual
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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: 1tokeovrtheline]
    #14163999 - 03/22/11 11:09 AM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Yes I will admit I still have lots to learn and I believe that there are other states of bliss I have yet to experience. Once you feel one state though its hard to comprehend how it could get better. Hope it does though lol. It was amazing how I have taking a ten strip of pretty good acid and 6 hits of really good acid but the trips never equaled the divinity I felt off of this one hit I took last night. I also experienced what I though could be heaven on mushrooms. So fucking beautiful I started crying in front of people I didnt even know. I chose to hold on to my ego that time though.


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Re: Holy shit I died! [Re: Cactilove]
    #14164916 - 03/22/11 02:22 PM (12 years, 11 months ago)

Ego death taught me to live a more carefree life if anything

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