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So... does this make me a sick person?
#14151372 - 03/19/11 11:15 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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I've been seeing this girl who was abused sexually daily from 5-18. For reasons i don't understand this is a good chunk of what attracts me to her, and it definitely excites me. She makes really crazy faces in bed. It kind of scares me but i also like it.
Also, it hasn't happened yet but she told me she has dissociative episodes followed by crying sometimes in bed. I find the possibility of that exciting as well.
I'm in no mood to jump into the deep end just yet, but she's told me she likes pretty rape-y stuff and a little violence, same as most girls i've been with, but still, thats going to be a weird and fun mental space for me. Pseudo raping an abused girl.
Oh yeah also she's been raped by at least one other person after she got out of the original situation.
lol i feel like such a freak for this stuff turning me on. comments and psych evaluations welcome. I can't tell any of my friends in real life because they'll be all like "WTF is wrong with you".
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #1] 1
#14151803 - 03/20/11 12:45 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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I've never felt a more while reading a thread.
If it's consensual it's okay with me.
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Humility]
#14152673 - 03/20/11 07:59 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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wow. well, don't forget to strap up a jimmy hat. and have fun? weird that you two found each other.
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Anonymous #2
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: joshisstoned]
#14153891 - 03/20/11 01:32 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Also, it hasn't happened yet but she told me she has dissociative episodes followed by crying sometimes in bed. I find the possibility of that exciting as well.
How could this be a turn on? She is probably remembering being raped and associating you with being the rapist, even though you aren't raping her. She probably doesn't know the difference between good/bad sex.
I think its kind of gross you're into fake-attacking someone who has been attacked. I think this girl has serious mental issues (that haven't been worked out yet) and you take advantage of them for weird sex. Even if she is consenting she probably doesn't know better.
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #2]
#14154174 - 03/20/11 02:23 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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I have the same thing. Broken girls turn me on. I love doing rape role playing. Nothing is better.
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #3]
#14154194 - 03/20/11 02:27 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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sounds like she'd be a fun girl to give the business to all day but dont get in a relationship with a bitch who's that kinda crazy.
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: LeeHarvOz]
#14156562 - 03/20/11 09:59 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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while were talking about whats sick...
is it sick that i get off on incestuous porn while ive never practiced incest myself?
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #4]
#14158115 - 03/21/11 06:32 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: while were talking about whats sick...
is it sick that i get off on incestuous porn while ive never practiced incest myself?
i role play with mom online about incest fantasies. She would never do it with family, but enjoys the fantasy. I've watched incest porn... and honestly when it comes to porn there is little difference besides a few lines of script typically lol.
The woman lives like 2 hours away, still trying to seal that deal haha.
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Lennyk]
#14158463 - 03/21/11 09:27 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Maybe you guys like it because it is forbidden? Personally i find incest disgusting whether its porn, roleplay or just in thought.
If you wouldn't think about doing it, how does it turn you on when other people doing it? Its like watching gay porn but saying you'd never do anything gay. If it were you performing it would it be hot?
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #2]
#14158626 - 03/21/11 10:20 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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well I would say you have to figure out why it excites you, but to be honest I can't really think of any psychologically healthy way to be excited by something like that....
you know ted bundy and jeffery dahmer (not to mention others) stated that they got started out with that type of fetish and it just grew more and more until they decided to follow through with their fantasies. not saying you are a serial killer, but perhaps you should go get yourself checked out before you let it grow into something worse?
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: 1tokeovrtheline]
#14159179 - 03/21/11 12:52 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Re: So... does this make me a sick person? [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14160264 - 03/21/11 04:43 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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I think as long as you don't take it too seriously than it is nt sick. I read someones elses pst on here that thinks the opposite and said "How could this be a turn on? She is probably remembering being raped and associating you with being the rapist, even though you aren't raping her."
I disagree. From personal experience I was raped at a young age into my teens by my own grandfather and again in college when a guy I met earlier broke into my house and raped me. However I love rough sex or role playing and NEVER think of how I was abused. Maybe bc I have recovered from it and I think most girls love the feeling of a mans "power" on her. Given I use to have horrible flashbacks and problems, but if she asks and enjoys then by all means have fun. It is all on how a person copes just be careful bc this statement is concerning "Also, it hasn't happened yet but she told me she has dissociative episodes followed by crying sometimes in bed. I find the possibility of that exciting as well" You are the only one who can read her just be mindfull.
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