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That "connection"
#14134112 - 03/16/11 10:37 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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I only had it once, when I was 14. I am now 19 and I still haven't experienced it again. Recently i have been wanting a girl so bad it's not even funny, sometimes I can't focus in school because of it. I have some girls in my past that liked me, but I just felt nothing. Where did that connection go? How can I get it back? That feeling you get when with an attractive woman. I can't get it again and I hate that. People tell me the bullshit "oh just wait until you meet the right woman", like waiting did anyone any good. I DO go out there, I DO go talk to women, I do look around.
Where did it go? I couldn't get up when I tried to fuck some random girl, I just felt nothing. Even being there eating a girl out was completely unexciting. I hate feeling this cold. I mean on the inside I feel so much love, I just have no outlet for it.
It's not physical, either. I see beautiful women all the time, but it never goes deeper than that. It never really goes deeper than "oh she's pretty".
Masturbation doesn't get me off anymore either. It stopped feeling good a LONG time ago. I just race til I cum. Orgasm is fun, but before that just SUCKS. Porn doesn't do it either. I used to watch all sorts of depraved things, but I don't anymore. I just watch normal-ish porn but it's meh. The shock value of crazy porn is gone, so I don't enjoy it.
I'm actually an extremely happy guy with tons of friends, just no girlfriend which I hate.
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dummy
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you're probably projecting the feeling of desperation that you're feeling. chill out dude, you're 19. you have a while to figure shit out, you know? in the mean time i suggest you focus on making yourself happy. you think having a woman will make you happy... but the truth is happiness comes from within. a woman just compliments it.
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Re: That "connection" [Re: dummy]
#14134158 - 03/16/11 10:44 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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dummy said: you're probably projecting the feeling of desperation that you're feeling. chill out dude, you're 19. you have a while to figure shit out, you know? in the mean time i suggest you focus on making yourself happy. you think having a woman will make you happy... but the truth is happiness comes from within. a woman just compliments it.
I don't know if you read my post. I AM extremely happy. I have women that do like me, and have liked me in the past. It's just that I feel NOTHING. It's all internal. I could get with a few women right now if I wanted to, it's just that I don't feel shit around them.
I AM happy though, I said that in my first post. :p
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dummy
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lol my bad... maybe you're trying too hard to feel that connection?
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Re: That "connection" [Re: dummy]
#14134217 - 03/16/11 10:55 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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dummy said: lol my bad... maybe you're trying too hard to feel that connection?
I don't try really to feel anything. I just go up to women that seem cool and I talk to them. I can carry a conversation with attractive women. On more than one occasion in the past month I've talked to an attractive woman I just met for like an hour. I can carry a conversation.
And hey, even if I can't get a girlfriend out of it, I'm always up for a good conversation and a new friend.
Sometimes when women start expressing more, I just shut off. It seems so forced and like they don't even know me. I don't know man. I KNOW it's all internal, but I don't know why...
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Oops, didn't click anon. Oh well. I don't care if I'm anon or not hahahaha.
I'm just so used to being anon in here.
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dummy
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well i don't know man. maybe there isn't anything to feel. maybe comparing your adult self to your 14 year old self is a trap you've fallen into.
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Re: That "connection" [Re: dummy]
#14134269 - 03/16/11 11:05 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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dummy said: well i don't know man. maybe there isn't anything to feel. maybe comparing your adult self to your 14 year old self is a trap you've fallen into.
If there's nothing to feel, why even bother starting a relationship? lol The big thing is like I said, I have so much love inside me (like I said, I'm extremely happy now) that really has no outlet. I want to project that love somewhere I feel deserves it, and I think having a girl there would be really awesome.
I could post more about my shit, but I know exactly what you would say and it would just piss me off lol.
Edited by Shroomerited (03/16/11 11:06 PM)
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