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Another 'Get over it' thing...
#14129279 - 03/16/11 06:28 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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My boyfriend of four years finished with me completely around two months ago. It stemmed from my personal head issues, his physically abusive and the mistrust and hurt he felt when I went with someone else for comfort and safety.
In that time I went from harassing him with emails and texts to getting on with my life, as did he respectively.
He got in touch to tell me a letter from the psychiatrist was delivered (I'm back at my parents). There's a massive possibility that I'm bi polar or some sort, but have never been able to get anywhere with it until now. My first session is tomorrow.
I asked him to post it on, but he more or less insisted we meet up. We did a week ago, had a laugh, had some drinks and had some sex. This relationship is totally fucked due to me being a slut, but we still miss each other and all that crap. We were perfect if you took away the mental.
I cant stop contacting him or leave him alone cos I'm clinging on like fuck, and he dosent want to know. Basically would like me to roll in front of a bus. I cant distract myself very well, I have few friends and I dont have any other activities apart from working.
The thoughts of all the things we should be doing with each other keep tormenting me and knowing he will have an amazing time without me is stabbing me (why dont I feel that way about myself?)
I can't let go, but know I should and I'm not sure if it's my illness or me just being a dumb bitch that won't leave it alone.
WTF.
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jokefox
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14130305 - 03/16/11 11:50 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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i went threw the same thing with my girl
we broke up in august, cause i was a totaly pieace of shit to her i went back to here 3 times a month , and she was always dating someone
it took me 6 months to get her back ill never let go again
but the thing is maybe you should move on
i love my girl dont get me wrong , but theres alot of stress in there air
ask yourself if your willing to go threw torture to make it work again hell isent so bad, but being tortured in hell is diffrernt
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: jokefox]
#14130434 - 03/16/11 12:18 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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You will never EVER be happy in a relationship unless you are 100% happy with yourself.
Now say it again, out loud so it sinks in and has an impact. You can never truely be there to love someone until you love yourself.
I recently went through a break up myself. It was awful and horrible and dark and depressing, then we got back together for like 2 months.... and I realized it wasnt the break up that made me sad. I was just sad. I was just low self-esteem, and it was bleeding into all my other life aspects. After we broke it off again, it was so much easier. Because I knew she wasnt the source of my happiness, only YOU can be the source of your own happiness.
Honestly, if you get back into that relationship, it will fucking RULE.... for about a week, And then you'll remember all the bullshit you secretly hated about it.
Take some time to work on yourself. If you ove yourself, you will find someone 100 times better who deserves you and you deserve them.
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Azure Essence]
#14132412 - 03/16/11 05:34 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Thanks for the positive feedback, it's greatly appreciated.
You're right, I do need to work on myself and I'd rather not have to go through or put anyone through 'thangs' again. Endless cycles go nowhere.
I need to let it sink in and trust myself, occupy myself when I'm alone and learn what life is about.
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14143053 - 03/18/11 12:47 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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This reads like something my ex would have written *almost* to a T. There are some things which make it clear that she probably didn't or wouldn't have written this.
That's pretty fucking scary though. Apparently there is a "type" that I need to stay away from, and it's definitely *you*
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Humility]
#14143070 - 03/18/11 12:53 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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evildee125
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Anonymous #2]
#14143077 - 03/18/11 12:55 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: evildee125]
#14144155 - 03/18/11 04:37 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Who's trolling?
Scary if there are more females like myself, also comforting.
Got to be a general (or not so) mental malfunction thing. It's not like stalk you to your grave thing, but it's pretty disturbing.
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Azure Essence]
#14144484 - 03/18/11 05:37 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Honestly, if you get back into that relationship, it will fucking RULE.... for about a week, And then you'll remember all the bullshit you secretly hated about it.
Exactly. People tend to romanticize the past. Youre not thinking about all the shit that drove you two apart in the first place, and thats what matters here. Youre lonely and you miss him. Its part of the process, but try not to let your emotions fog your logic.
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Re: Another 'Get over it' thing... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14150868 - 03/19/11 09:34 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Quote:
Anonymous said: Thanks for the positive feedback, it's greatly appreciated.
You're right, I do need to work on myself and I'd rather not have to go through or put anyone through 'thangs' again. Endless cycles go nowhere.
I need to let it sink in and trust myself, occupy myself when I'm alone and learn what life is about.

If you love this kid you need to get better. If you aren't better the relationship goes through the same thing. You love him, but you hurt him.
The best thing you can do for both of you is to get better. The worst thing you could do is get back with him without working out your own issues.
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