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hamidagh
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WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip
#14083408 - 03/07/11 08:09 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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March 5 2010 how I broke my mind
On my road trip to the Death valley in march I decided to eat four dried grams of psilocybe cyanofriscosa. I wanted lot have the silent, in the dark experience so i chose to trip at night. I ate the mushrooms on an empty stomach at about 7 pm. Approximately half an hour after that I started to feel the effects. While talking to some neighbor campers I noticed that I started seeing geometric patterns for their faces so i crawled into my tent to lie down and fully experience the trip.
At this point i started to have very beautiful closed eye visuals, which got more beautiful as time went on. This is when I met the mushroom entity. It asked me why I was there, I.e injecting the shrooms. I gave it the best answer I could, though it took me forever to formulate. The entity wanted to show me visions but I had the notion that I had to check myself at the gate. This got more and more difficult as time went on.
It was around this time that I lost full awareness of what was happening to me. The rest of the trip is a series impressions of my state at various points. Hanging my head out the tent window, feeling of extreme anxiety about where I was or even who I was. I was trying so hard to hold onto a sense of what i know to be Hamid. But this was really difficult. At points I was even unsure whether I had eaten mushrooms and whether I was dreaming or not. and in fact I am certain that I dozed off a number of times.
Eventually I found myself awake, totally lost but glad to be back. I'm not sure if I would ever go down that path again. the experience was mostly confusing and quite desperate actually.
Or should I ? Has anybody had a similar thing happen to them on a high dose of mushrooms? What to do about it? I have tremendous respect for our little friends and would hate to not be able to learn from them again.
I should say that I have done about a dozen times but never such a high dose and never before in the dark.
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip [Re: hamidagh]
#14083662 - 03/07/11 08:58 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Things do get...absolutely insane.. at higher doses. You really don't/can't understand until you go there and then its very difficult to explain exactly what went on when you get back. I think this is what makes you feel a bit off when you return to baseline, even for weeks/months after the experience. All you can really do is try integrate it and get whatever meaning you want from the experience.
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip [Re: hamidagh]
#14083873 - 03/07/11 09:38 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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hamidagh said:Has anybody had a similar thing happen to them on a high dose of mushrooms? What to do about it?
Yes, I've completely lost myself several times, kind of forgot I was even a human being..
It's absolutely fascinating if you ask me.
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hamidagh
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip [Re: hamidagh]
#14088440 - 03/08/11 07:12 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Yeah, well that is interesting i guess , completely losing all concept of who you are. But how is it of any lasting value? I don't feel like it teaches me anything. and how about blacking out or falling sleep? Is this normal?
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hamidagh
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip 2 [Re: hamidagh]
#14088450 - 03/08/11 07:13 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Yeah, well that is interesting i guess , completely losing all concept of who you are. But how is it of any lasting value? I don't feel like it teaches me anything. and how about blacking out or falling sleep? Is this normal?
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip 2 [Re: hamidagh]
#14091865 - 03/09/11 10:56 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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normal. dose lower if you want to be able to remember more, spend less time in the WTF zone, and integrate easier, is all.
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Re: WTF just happened? My first 4 gram of cyanofriscosa trip [Re: hamidagh]
#14091947 - 03/09/11 11:14 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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hamidagh said: March 5 2010 how I broke my mind
Or should I ? Has anybody had a similar thing happen to them on a high dose of mushrooms? What to do about it? I have tremendous respect for our little friends and would hate to not be able to learn from them again.
I had a journey that began with 5gm of friscosas lemontek tea. It was fucking fast hitting, strong and "out there". I may do that much again some time, but not for a while, those puppies are way potent.
Definitely respect the teacher.
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Eventually I found myself awake, totally lost but glad to be back. I'm not sure if I would ever go down that path again. the experience was mostly confusing and quite desperate actually.
I felt just about that exact way, it was like - whoa dude, you just saw more than you were prepared for! As time goes by, it becomes more of an enjoyable memory than the frightening experience that it was a couple times along the way.
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I should say that I have done about a dozen times but never such a high dose and never before in the dark.
I found my sweet spot with friscosas would be about 3.5 to 4gm.
I may try to mix equal amounts of friscosas and cyans to equal 3.5 to 4 sometime to see what that combo creates. Ahhh science!
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