My first psychedelic experience was salvia when I was 16. It was me and 3 other friends, they all took a rip out of the bong and had very little effects. I was stumped as to why it wasn't working so I said fuckit and packed a full bowl.
I ripped it until it was full of green smoke, inhaled and held it in. before I could exhale i was already gone. As I faded out I was staring at my friend, but i didn't know what he was. Everything around him turned black and eventually everything was black. I was no longer human. It felt like I woke up from a dream and the dream was my life. I was in a pitch black void, in the distance I could see an opening that looked like a door. In the doorway there was three human figures. They were each a different height, the medium sized one was on the left, tallest one was in the middle and the smallest one was on the right. Standing there next to each other. I than started to communicate with some other form of consciousness. It was trying to teach me something, taking me to different places. I saw a pathway, it was my pathway. This thing that was communicating with me showed me places or maybe past lives that I lived. It than showed me lives that i was yet to live. There was like a timeline, everything to the left one the timeline was past lives, and everything to the right was lives i have yet to live. Meanwhile, outside of my trip, my friends say that i was being licked and jumped on by my friends dog and they spent the entire time trying to get the dog to stop fuckin around with me. I have no recollection of that. They also said I was talking to something, saying things like "where am I now?" and "why?". So after this was all revealed to me I started to descend back down into my dream of life. While I was regaining my normal consciousness somethign was telling me that the government has this knowledge and is using it to control us. Before this experience I was an atheist. I took this experience as a meaningless hallucination. It wasn't until I started researching psychedelics years later and discovered Terrence McKenna, Ram Dass, and Tim Leary. This triggered my fascination with psychedelics. In the deepest parts of my LSD trips I go back to that place where there is three human like figures. What do they mean?
My second salvia trip was earlier this year, but it was nothing like my frist experience. I was in a parking lot with 2 other friends inside my van. I took a rip out of a bowl and just as it started kicking in my friend spooked me as he pointed out a car that was pulling in close to us. I was than sucked inside of a fractal like tube and felt as if I was being suffocated. I was staring at the digital clock on my dashboard the whole time, the time on the clock was at the end of the tube I was in. I felt like i was trying to fight what was happening to me. I had the sense that my hands were shoved down my throat. it actually tasted like a shit load of fingers were in my mouth. I struggled and yelled to my friends to get my hands out of my mouth. I felt the sense that something wanted to know what time it was, and since i was still staring on the clock I screamed, "I SEE IT ITS 7:59!!!!!!!!" immediately after i yelled i was released. Kinda scared me away from salvia.
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