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Overcome with crushing anxiety while getting my degree
#14069651 - 03/05/11 05:35 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Over the past few weeks I've been losing my cool and feel really hurt. Friends aren't any real comfort, trying to keep busy with studying for finals, or just doing whatever relaxing thing that I usually enjoy can't hide the fact that I feel like someone is sticking me in a cannon and everyone watching assumes that I'll be able to do some great circus freak shit.
But I feel like a really don't know shit and have no idea what to do. At the beginning of the month I had to quit my menial student job so as the 40-50 hour a week workload of classes and studying can be done with full attention but it's really getting scary. For one, the job barely helped me get by and keep from spending what meager student loans I have left. Secondly it feels like I put all this time and effort into a degree for small business management/entrepreneurship and it might all just explode on me because there isn't so much going on, nor do I have enough capital, and the lack of helpful connections that entrepreneurship clubs were supposed to supply really sucks.
So it feels like I'm just getting ejected into this world with no idea how to support my self. I do know that deep down I just need to relax and keep looking for something to come up (what is there to do anyway?) but the fear washes over me anyway. It feels like it's my fault too and that it's a character flaw to be poor and to have a really hard time finding some prospect. I really want to make a place in this world and feel like traveling hippie days were fun but it's nothing I want to resort to for the rest of my life! Business can be a really fun and challenging game but right now it just feels like a rotten piece of lumber to beat me with.
Ugh... I really hate whining but venting some should help, hopefully.
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Irishdrunk
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Re: Overcome with crushing anxiety while getting my degree [Re: Irishdrunk]
#14069978 - 03/05/11 08:37 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Sorry but no. Drugs won't help me really cope especially ones that push reality away. Besides I'm pretty drug free now, with the exception of psychedelics which I haven't felt the need to take in a very long time (get the message, hand up the phone kind of thing for now).
Reflecting, I'm not sure what posting this topic was going to result in or why I posted it at all. Being scared that there's no real turning back now, that this is the time to act, and even worse that I can't even afford to be afraid right now is probably common to everyone in this situation even if it all seems so absurd. It's just not easy especially when you see friends coming back from "important" colleges claiming they can't even find shitty dead end jobs right now and that becoming an entrepreneur puts the blame on you. Why aren't YOU doing well, why aren't YOU able to come up with a way to sustain yourself, Aren't I supposed to be clever enough etc. etc.. Also because my friends can only relate and comfort me to a point because my next month is going to rely on me trying to scratch together ideas and try to hold them together rather than just applying to the jobs that don't exist that I'm also less qualified for.
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Re: Overcome with crushing anxiety while getting my degree [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14073202 - 03/05/11 10:14 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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start drinking heavily and do so for years and when you come out of it you'll be cool as shit
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Re: Overcome with crushing anxiety while getting my degree [Re: Cherk]
#14073845 - 03/06/11 01:06 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Maybe the realisation that even if you don't magically turn into a shit-hot businessman-entrepreneur after you graduate, you'll still be you, and the people who truly love you will still love you, will help? Trying to live up to other people's expectations, real or imaginary, is a huge source of unhappiness for the entire human race. Avoid it if poss.
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Edited by Irishdrunk (03/10/11 02:15 AM)
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Re: Overcome with crushing anxiety while getting my degree [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14085291 - 03/08/11 05:41 AM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Im sort of in a similar situation but post grad. Best advice I can give is just set aside some time to think about your priorities. I think if you have your priorities straight you'll be alright.
If you're very driven to achieve your desired career you'll be able to work your way in. Me? I wasn't so sure what I wanted to do so I got a lib arts degree and was banking on being able to get a shitty cube job to pay bills while I figure out what I wanted to do but that gravy train is over in today's economy. I also am interested in small business but it just seems that all signs point to people just flat out spending less and being more frugal which means it would be a bad time to start a business unless you had a REALLY solid plan/idea.
Back to what I first said though, getting piss rich wasn't really a priority for me so while I figure out what I want to do, i'm perfetly happy working a shitty retail/service job. Pay is obviously bad but its about as low stress of a job you'll ever find and i'm gettin by so its actually kinda nice  . So sit and think and make sure you have your priorities straight and things will fall in line.
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