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Do You Suppress?
#14068704 - 03/04/11 10:30 PM (13 years, 16 hours ago) |
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I have to admit, I am a suppressor. As much as it hurts to know that I am feeble-minded enough to need an escape, I do.
My suppressants of choice are: - Opiates/Opioids - Zopiclone (sleeping pill, knock me out in 20 mins easy) also think It's a member of the benzo family. - Alcohol - Copious consumption of Cannabis.
The opiates are hard to come by around here, so usually lots of weed and alcohol. If it's really severe, I'll take a zopiclone so I can slip away from consciousness entirely for a good while.
So my question is, do you suppress your feelings? If not, how do you manage? Also, if you used to and realized the idiocy of it and found a way to quit, how?
The guilt I get from doing these sorts of things make it almost not worth it, but it feels like there is no way out of it all.
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14068775 - 03/04/11 10:40 PM (13 years, 16 hours ago) |
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well at least you're on the right path of wanting to find a way out of it, so eventually you should
i've been a suppressor my entire life and am currently working my way out of it.. though not nearly quite all the way there yet, yoga, meditation, psychedelic therapy, mdma therapy, and other shit has helped..
it helps to find people who understand you that you can feel comfortable about sharing yourself with.. but you have to try hard enough to break out of suppression mode to do this in the first place
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: owls]
#14068817 - 03/04/11 10:50 PM (13 years, 16 hours ago) |
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Funny, I've been coming to this same conclusion about myself lately. Not so much opiates, but alcohol and pot pretty much daily. I've been taking a break lately and it kinda . I've been waking up feeling rested and feeling clear headed at work. It's almost a kind of high in itself. I'm high on life
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vulcAn
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nicechrisman said: Funny, I've been coming to this same conclusion about myself lately. Not so much opiates, but alcohol and pot pretty much daily. I've been taking a break lately and it kinda . I've been waking up feeling rested and feeling clear headed at work. It's almost a kind of high in itself. I'm high on life
Nice. I found myself diving head-first into a quart of spiced rum earlier, but managed to stop myself before I'd gone too far.
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14068871 - 03/04/11 11:02 PM (13 years, 15 hours ago) |
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This thread has made me wanna listen to
while i eat my chili
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14068912 - 03/04/11 11:09 PM (13 years, 15 hours ago) |
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i suppress by creating other problems for myself and drug use ofc, there really hasn't been many moments in the past year i havent had a perscription/illegal drug active in my system
im trying to be fairly drug free but im dependent on amps/benzos right now..hopefully things pull together within the next couple months
Edited by shr (03/04/11 11:12 PM)
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: shr]
#14068975 - 03/04/11 11:23 PM (13 years, 15 hours ago) |
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shr said: i suppress by creating other problems for myself and drug use ofc, there really hasn't been many moments in the past year i havent had a perscription/illegal drug active in my system
im trying to be fairly drug free but im dependent on amps/benzos right now
I know what you mean, man. Availability makes it really hard, too. Just knowing that it's easier to suppress than solve, and that suppressing is virtually instantaneous whilst a solution is a slow, gradual process makes the former a much easier decision to make.
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14069031 - 03/04/11 11:39 PM (13 years, 15 hours ago) |
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retard thread
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: owls]
#14069049 - 03/04/11 11:44 PM (13 years, 15 hours ago) |
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owls said: retard thread
I'm just going to come right out and say it: What?
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14069076 - 03/04/11 11:53 PM (13 years, 14 hours ago) |
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good job, i'm proud of you for not suppressing your feelings
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: owls]
#14069108 - 03/05/11 12:04 AM (13 years, 14 hours ago) |
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owls said: good job, i'm proud of you for not suppressing your feelings
I'm not trying to be rude, but this is a serious question.. Are you under the influence of anything right now? You sound almost delirious. Your posts in this thread as well as others tonight sound extremely bizarre and do not connect very well with other posts.
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14069145 - 03/05/11 12:16 AM (13 years, 14 hours ago) |
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nope, i guess it's just brain damage i'm not sure
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: owls]
#14069151 - 03/05/11 12:17 AM (13 years, 14 hours ago) |
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owls said: nope, i guess it's just brain damage i'm not sure
Haha alright man, get a good night's rest and hope to see you back in understandable posting order tomorrow!
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Re: Do You Suppress? [Re: vulcAn]
#14069278 - 03/05/11 12:58 AM (13 years, 13 hours ago) |
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Cry about past experiences.
Your probally just overwhelmed because you wern't able as a younger person to deal with the events of the past.
Think about serious events that were traumatic or just made you really sad. Events that you couldn't share with anyone, for example, or emotions from those events that you couldn't share with anyone
. Then listen to some music that reminds you of that time...think about music you actually were listening to at the time this usually helps.
Like i had a rough childhood, so i listen to songs that i remember from my childhood and cry when i need to, feel afraid when i need to...its a great relief, but your are going to cry like a dragon and spit fire so be alone while your doing it.
it has helped me amazingly...i can't stress this method enough.
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is that the Alpha method?
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