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whatarewemadeof
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Thoughts of crossing into the unknown
#14044029 - 02/28/11 06:05 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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hello, i've been googling my symptoms and came to this place. I've been having terrible bouts of suicidal thoughts.
I've come out of a year long addiction to ketamine and LSD, using k daily and LSD every day or so. My reality is just a reminder of my life before my mind become open, a truth that i now know is a lie.
I now live with my parents, no more cocaine, no more wine bars and no more days layed on the floor with ketamine all over my face.
All I do is write, an action which is pointles, i know i'll never finish my work.
The whole post enlightenment hangover is too much, all i think about is the universe, 'why are we here?' , 'what the fuck is happening in 2012?' and ofcourse, 'what happens after death?'
The final question has spawned a growing curiousity within me which keeps growing every day.
What can I do to stop myself getting too into this thought?
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AlphaFalfa
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Its a personal cure.
So just keep reminding yourself of personal things that slow the thoughts down/stop them.
Don't try and control the thoughts.
Shift your focus, rinse and repeat.
-------------------- if you ever feel lost, just remember, life is not a journey, it is entertainment, all 4 fun...
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Re: Thoughts of crossing into the unknown [Re: AlphaFalfa]
#14044338 - 02/28/11 06:49 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Basically you need to stop living in the abstract and speculative. Whatever other worlds or dimensions, or nothing, that exists beyond this world isn't really a concern. Even if such knowledge could be ascertained and confirmed, it would have zero practical use. My advice is let go off all that. It will take you nowhere besides stagnating circles. Embrace the physical world, you ain't got long here anyhow.
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circastes
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whatarewemadeof said: hello, i've been googling my symptoms and came to this place. I've been having terrible bouts of suicidal thoughts.
I've come out of a year long addiction to ketamine and LSD, using k daily and LSD every day or so. My reality is just a reminder of my life before my mind become open, a truth that i now know is a lie.
I now live with my parents, no more cocaine, no more wine bars and no more days layed on the floor with ketamine all over my face.
All I do is write, an action which is pointles, i know i'll never finish my work.
The whole post enlightenment hangover is too much, all i think about is the universe, 'why are we here?' , 'what the fuck is happening in 2012?' and ofcourse, 'what happens after death?'
The final question has spawned a growing curiousity within me which keeps growing every day.
What can I do to stop myself getting too into this thought?
Wow, sounds like me! I wonder why that is...
I don't know if I've been to the realms or states you've been to but "post-enlightenment hangover" is a good one to describe me these days. I've felt love like I might annhiliate if I let it all in, soul and all, engulfed... beautiful but I'm not sure I'm supposed to be there. And this is sober! On mushrooms it's a whole other deal.
Ever had an OBE? It will really play with the notion of death you have. You step over the boundary of the body like it was nothing, not even 'you'. At least, you'll feel better, having some real data to form conclusions upon rather than just mere superstition.
Life is starting to look like, "been there, done that". I figured it out, can I go home now? Is class over?
At the same time it's beautifully mysterious, in that I don't really know what it is I know...
EDIT: Oh and how do we stop it? The thought? Seems we just have to be happy... Play the game...
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Edited by circastes (02/28/11 10:14 PM)
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circastes
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Re: Thoughts of crossing into the unknown [Re: Grok]
#14045802 - 02/28/11 10:20 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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Grok said: Basically you need to stop living in the abstract and speculative. Whatever other worlds or dimensions, or nothing, that exists beyond this world isn't really a concern. Even if such knowledge could be ascertained and confirmed, it would have zero practical use. My advice is let go off all that. It will take you nowhere besides stagnating circles. Embrace the physical world, you ain't got long here anyhow.
This is better advice than mine.
We definitely need to remind ourselves we're living a life in progress and that death is always stalking - death, which is, at least a very big change.
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Re: Thoughts of crossing into the unknown [Re: circastes]
#14052234 - 03/01/11 11:55 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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i believe this story is jive since taking lsd everyday would give you a super high tolerance.
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Re: Thoughts of crossing into the unknown [Re: tito123]
#14055405 - 03/02/11 03:49 PM (12 years, 10 months ago) |
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All I do is write, an action which is pointles, i know i'll never finish my work.
why do you think you'll never finish your work?
-------------------- Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines
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numonkei
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Find something to focus on, I don't understand why you came to the conclusion that writing is pointless, if it helps you organize your thoughts then it can be invaluable to your perspective even if you don't care to share or do anything else with it.
It sounds like you need something to focus on. The point that living in the abstract will help foster this kind of thought is significant, maybe try taking up an instrument, or a sport, or anything that you can concentrate your focus on and take it from there.
That curiosity can lead to something that cannot be reversed. After such a drug regiment it would be expected that your mind would be a bit out there, but if this is something you don't like you can help yourself regain a baseline by continuing abstinence from these substances.
~Monk
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