It would be a dream, wouldn't it? If we could just take a drug and magically understand ourselves to the point where we never felt bad again. This, however, is not the case. I am not saying drugs, especially psychedelics, can change the way you look at life, because they can, but if you are in a funk, using it to make you feel happy is not the answer.
Happiness does not lie within a drug, it lies within yourself.
I have been going through some rough times with anxiety issues. It started after I had a panic attack of weed. Is the weed to blame? No. It catalyzed an event to unfold. I have gotten over weed panic and had anxiety extremely sober. It is you, my friend. And just as I have received anxiety off drugs, I have done away with anxiety off drugs. Alcohol, seems to be my anti-anxiety cure. And it helps, it sure does help.
But what am I gonna do? Be drunk forever. I can't do that to myself. Happiness does not lie at the bottom of a bottle. It lies within myself. It lies within yourself. Happiness is there my friend, it is in you still, no matter how far you think you've gone, it is always in you. You just need to find it. Gain some perspective on you life and grab it.
Eating right, going to the gym, and even meditating will put you on this path. Finding what you love will put you on this path. Being who you are and not worrying about the rest will put you on this path. Thanking god for life, this crazy, wild, unimaginable gift that you've somehow been granted, will put you on this path.
So much can put you on this path. Just making yourself cheer up a bit and realizing shit isn't so bad will put you on this path. Only you know what will help. And you do know what will help. You just have to think.
You will be fine, don't worry. Just hang in there and talk yourself through it. You are the master of your own mind. The mind is not an unalterable thing. You can alter it if you want. You just need to believe in yourself.
Also, if you have the money, therapy is a great option. People like to shit on therapy, but it truly helps to talk about your feelings with a stranger who is sitting with you for one reason only, to listen, and give advice if necessary. Therapy, personally, helps me. Just talking through my issues makes me see them, and kind of see the big picture as to why I am in a funk.
You will be fine. Just know and believe in yourself. You are your own best friend.
Drugs will come and go, but you are you. You need to be happy with you, not with the drugs. Once you've achieved this, drugs will work for you, if you even decide to use them at all.
(It is really best to not use drugs on a daily basis, in my opinion, coming from a once daily toker, I know both spectrums)
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