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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Mello Kitty]
#13977956 - 02/17/11 08:43 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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so how did he accidently commit suicide? seems like he made the decision to do it in advance, like it was obviously planned out
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Shroom_i]
#13978083 - 02/17/11 09:30 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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@RP-My brother did something similar. I don't have time to tell the story right now, but he got really fucked up on meth for many years, then went to opiates. He ended up shooting himself in the head in the bedroom of my Grandmother's house. My dad walked in to find him. Pretty fucked up shit. This was several years ago, but I'm still kinda learning to deal with it.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Mello Kitty]
#13978167 - 02/17/11 10:03 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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ellenallien said: i would like to take a second to thank u for posting this. i feel i am at rock bottom. i have had Suicidal Ideation almost my whole life even as a child. that is the one thing me and H.S.T. have in common. the one thing that draws me to him the most. i am a person of constant change. but the one comforting thing that has always stuck in my mind is the one true easy way out -suicide.
in truth, i think i was born at the wrong time or wrong era. i dont think or feel like i was meant for this world or time. i am an old soul or maybe have no soul. i am empty. purposeless. i feel any purpose i do or did have has maybe been replaced with the times/ society. most people i come across want to use and abuse me as a tool.
so i sit in my room, surrounded by 4 Walls of Hell. a Prison i have created for myself. i felt abandoned by the world at a young age, so at a young age i abandoned the world. now i have nothing, no-one, nobody. maybe i should have sent this in a PM i dunno didnt think it would come out this way..
sorry and thanx again
i read posts like these and feel at a loss for any real words of "comfort". i feel like anything said would somehow diminish where you are really at. i've only been on the shroomery for a few months but from what i've seen you post i can see that you are a sincere and genuine person.
my friend and i were talking the other day about how what we value, what we want others to value in us, is our authenticity and honesty. we were talking about how much of a struggle it is to be an "old soul", as you put it, in a time and culture where things like "depth", "sincerity" and "honesty" are not valued outright.
i guess i write all of this to try and empathize with you. i've dealt with depression my entire life. nothing like what you're describing but depression none the less.
i wish i had some sort of solid "help" i could offer you but the reality is i'm limited in my ability to truly offer anything of substance.
thanks for being honest, it's more than most people can ever muster.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Shroom_i]
#13978174 - 02/17/11 10:04 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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Wow, so very young to die. That's sad. I'm sorry for your tragic loss.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: nicechrisman]
#13978191 - 02/17/11 10:10 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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nicechrisman said: @RP-My brother did something similar. I don't have time to tell the story right now, but he got really fucked up on meth for many years, then went to opiates. He ended up shooting himself in the head in the bedroom of my Grandmother's house. My dad walked in to find him. Pretty fucked up shit. This was several years ago, but I'm still kinda learning to deal with it.
wow. such a heart breaking story. my heart goes out to you and your family and your brother.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Shroom_i]
#13978267 - 02/17/11 10:32 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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Sorry to hear about your loss Shroom_i. That really is tough.
I have had two suicides in my family and they can really be devastating. My step brother used a shotgun in his room while I and step-dad where out. Luckily i didn't walk into that room but I will never forget the sounds my step dad made that night. I think he was 18 and I was around 8 or 9.
My cousin at around 16 or 18 grabbed a hunting rifle and walked down by the pond to end his time on earth.
None of those where drug related, just teenage depression, mostly about girls I believe. Such a trivial problem but when you are that young... it just seems so big.
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nicechrisman said: @RP-My brother did something similar. I don't have time to tell the story right now, but he got really fucked up on meth for many years, then went to opiates. He ended up shooting himself in the head in the bedroom of my Grandmother's house. My dad walked in to find him. Pretty fucked up shit. This was several years ago, but I'm still kinda learning to deal with it.
When I heard that over this last summer it tripped me the fuck out. I was hanging out with him when he started getting back into meth and watched pretty helplessly as his life spiraled into the wrong direction. I remember once telling him we should hang out but asked him if he could do it sans meth. Then he kind of disappeared and I never saw him again. Really sad.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: 4runner]
#13978291 - 02/17/11 10:38 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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im so sorry to hear about Shroom_i's, chrisman's and annunikian's stories of these things.
It's such a to know that these things have happened to your loved ones.
   
   
  
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Dosile Kouki]
#13978312 - 02/17/11 10:44 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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How old is this kid?
Sorry to hear about your loss though, keep your head up.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Shroom_i]
#13978411 - 02/17/11 11:19 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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OP, I am sorry for your loss, these are the situations where you get to the limit of what words can express, again, I'm sorry to hear this sad story and and I wish you all the best and all the love, take care man.
As for the drugs, I often find that hardcore drug-use is a symptom rather then a cause, but that's just my view, people get something out of their drug use, it's always a fair-trade to the person doing it, for anybody who is in this situation or knows somebody in this situation, it's worth thinking about.
   
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: 13.step] 2
#13978485 - 02/17/11 11:41 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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rp is obviously underage, please let this kid slide.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: PreparationH] 1
#13978507 - 02/17/11 11:46 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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it does seem that way
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: DrMambo]
#13978535 - 02/17/11 11:55 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: DrMambo]
#13978536 - 02/17/11 11:56 AM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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his 15 year old friend killed himself 8 months ago, while they were younger at 14 he threw weed out he had bought from him. dude is at most 17 I'm leaning toward 16, he has a tattoo though, who knows could be 18.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: PreparationH]
#13978811 - 02/17/11 01:06 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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what cruel irony to get banned for a post like this.........
suicide is something that you have to be sure about, not something to attempt or what have you for attention. it's never nice to hear that somebody accidentally them self.
but an excellent reminder how drugs can lead people down a path like this, and why they're not for everybody. we could gripe in this thread about all of the things anybody could have done to stop this, or change his life, but it really doesn't matter. OP, I'm sorry it had such an impact on you, I'm sure we all wish he could have been happy and stuck around. i hope you don't feel at fault at all, because just as it is, you've got none.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: Salomon]
#13978970 - 02/17/11 01:44 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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I'm sorry, man. I really have nothing else to say. I wish I did. Hopefully you trust that I'm saying it 100% from the bottom of my heart.
Also, if the OP is underage and someone decides to ban him ... wow. Come on, there are better candidates to ban, right?
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: GEncore]
#13978993 - 02/17/11 01:54 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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Yea seriously^ Whoever hits that ban button is a poo poo head.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: PreparationH]
#13979303 - 02/17/11 03:07 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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Sounds like his problem was growing up in New Jersey. What a fucking shithole man.
And I don't mean that in terms of what people usually think. People come around where I live and cower up and act all silly like someone is going to hurt them. "THE HOOD" isn't NEARLY as bad as people make it out to be.
For sure there are people who will rob you, kill you, rape you, etc. They are few and far between. There are crackheads and dopeheads and assholes and skank bitches and all of that.
The thing about "THE HOOD" is that for the most part, despite your race or class or ethnicity (depending on where you live) people tend to leave you the FUCK alone if you do the same. This is an axiom that is all-too-often forgotten about poorer neighborhoods. If you're an armed individual living in an armed house and you don't give ANYBODY any shit or any mean mugs you will almost guaranteed be FINE to live your life in peace doing WHATEVER you want to do.
NJ is the exact opposite of that. There are a few inner-city areas but for the most part NJ is filled with suburban prisons. Neighbors watching neighbors, family members watching family members and the police and courts watching everyone. Everyone is corrupt and everyone does wrong. Kids grow up spoiled rotten with no idea of cultural relativism or fairness or equality or any of that shit. It's such a rat race, and everything is so fake living like that.
Living like people live, man I can't even imagine it. It's so terrible. IMO your friend needed clean drugs and a good place to use them along with people who were using responsibly and could have helped him to do the same.
Growing up in that shit as a person who is interested in and wants to use drugs involves a LOT of cognitive dissonance. You have everyone you care about telling you how much of a shithead you are when they don't know the first thing about life themselves.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: PreparationH]
#13979522 - 02/17/11 03:48 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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PrepH why the fuck do you even have to bring that into discussion here? WTF man? You of all people should keep it shut about things like this. Was that irony with the poo-poo head? I can't tell and since you where the only one ridding the age thing it would seem so, maybe you had good intentions but I can't see them, you suck mate.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: 13.step] 1
#13979588 - 02/17/11 03:57 PM (13 years, 16 days ago) |
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I don't see where the OP mentioned anything about his age.
That rule exists for a reason and this is a private community which people can voluntarily choose to be a member of (or not).
That said, why in the fuck would you go spoiling for a banning? There are plenty of <18 year olds flying under the radar here.
Why are you asking the OP how old he is and if he's older than the 15 year old etc. when he specifically made it a point to not post his age?
Some really nasty, grimy ass shit if you ask me. Mind your fucking business bro.
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Re: How my 15 year old brother accidentally committed suicide. [Re: PreparationH]
#13979717 - 02/17/11 04:15 PM (13 years, 15 days ago) |
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making observations pisses you two off eh? good.
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