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OfflineKada
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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13978078 - 02/17/11 09:27 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
you have NO FAMILY!, no Friends, no Job, no Money, no Purpose, no Soul..? what do you do when your all alone?



I wish people would leave me alone more often. I only have time to myself if I stay awake till like 3 am. Even then one of the kids or one of my friends would interrupt the 5 minutes of peace I happened to come across. I am never alone and it drives me insane. I wish I could get time to myself for just a day. I wish I could sleep in one time without worrying about the kids or whether or not my wife is pissed at me for sleeping in. I usually wake up to her screaming at me for not moving my ass in the mornings even if we have no place to go or nothing to do.

I would kill for peace and quiet. A day would be awesome, a week would be delicious. Oh why can't people leave me alone for just a weekend? I am an extreme introvert and not having time to myself is killing me. I love gaming and ventrilo because I can shut the world out by pushing the power button.

I love my family, I just wish they would leave me alone more. When the kids grow up a little they wont need 24/7 supervision. I can't wait until that day.

The grass always looks greener on the other side I guess. I bet after a day I would miss the hell out of the kids and wife even tho they drive me nuts and give me no time to myself.

Cheer up you have us!  :hug:


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: nicechrisman]
    #13978096 - 02/17/11 09:37 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
thanx to you all so much! i have read all your posts this morning as i sip my coffee. i was expecting people to lash out at me or tell me to get over myself, cry me a river or play me a fiddle. :crymeariver: :cryariver:

but it was none of that. it is comforting to see that we are all in the same boat in one way or another and it really makes me feel closer to you guys. i went from looking on these boards for a laugh poking around here and there.

to now, as some may have noticed a spike in my posts. living here. i am just at Rock Bottom. just when u think u couldnt get any deeper the floor rips itself out from under you and you fall a few more hundred feet into dispair :crying:
thanx to you all for putting up with my mood swings, my drug induced states, posting here and letting me pour my feelings out.

:iloveyou: Pub :hug: :eskimokiss: i don't know where i would be if i didn't have this...



Yeah, this thread kinda restores some of my lost hope in the pub. This always used to be a very positive place. All this snarkiness and trash talking that you see so much of in the pub these days wasn't tolerated back then. It's nice to see that the kindness is still underlying, you just maybe have to scratch the surface a little deeper. :hug:



maybe there usually isn't real issues in the pub, and mostly just bullshit?

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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13978254 - 02/17/11 10:28 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
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ellenallien said:
i really need to start therapy soon.




therapy is bullshit. it's just hiring someone to listen to you. just do NOTHING for a day and think. that would be a better way to solve things. and by NOTHING, i mean NOTHING. not TV, not web stuff, nothing. just lie down/sit down and think.




thinking is bad for me. thats why i use things to block it out. thinking makes me :suicide: i have been down the path of therapy before and it was BS then. but i lied to them then in order to get scripts. this time i just need that. someone to listen and give me a different prespective instead of a junkie's point of view




Therapy is NOT bs, and actually quite far from it.
If you go into it with the intention of getting help, like you seem to, it can be very beneficial.
However it only works if you want it to. Its not magic at all. All it is is a trained professionals helping ear, who can help you figure out who you are.

I really suggest you start therapy right away. It can really help you and I have seen what happens when the pain gets too much. You owe it to yourself to get it and always remember that your shroomery family will always be here for you :smile:


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Cyclohexylamine]
    #13978335 - 02/17/11 10:50 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

these are my thoughts exactly going into Therapy this time. i have Insurance so its free i may as well and they do have the Rx Pad as someone mentioned before but thats not mite concern this time. but i wouldnt say No :chillpill:

thank u for this :hug:
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always remember that your shroomery family will always be here for you :smile:




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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13978345 - 02/17/11 10:54 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
you have NO FAMILY!, no Friends, no Job, no Money, no Purpose, no Soul..? what do you do when your all alone?



Start playing sports and stop fetishizing a Japanese children's comic.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: zappaisgod]
    #13978370 - 02/17/11 11:04 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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zappaisgod said:
Start playing sports and stop fetishizing a Japanese children's comic.




NEVER!! kitty has never abandoned, she has always been there for me and has been with from the crib to the club. sometimes she even talks to me and gives me Hugs.



PS~ Eww sports!


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13978395 - 02/17/11 11:13 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

Say, have you ever seen a sports team jump all over each other, hugging and patting?  Human.  Contact.  Just saying.  Maybe people can tell you don't like them.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: zappaisgod]
    #13978472 - 02/17/11 11:39 AM (13 years, 16 days ago)

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zappaisgod said:
Maybe people can tell you don't like them.




oh my apologies i thought u were just trolling. maybe you are right. when i wanted human contact before i would take E and go to a RAVE, get so much Contact i would end up with the FLu and sick for 2-3 days after. since the clubs are not the most conducive to me at the moment. maybe something like sports could be an option :shrug:
EDIT: i must say tho that i have never been much of a fan of activity, excerise, or physically doing anything at all :drooling:

Edited by ellenallien (02/17/11 11:40 AM)

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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13980761 - 02/17/11 07:23 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
these are my thoughts exactly going into Therapy this time. i have Insurance so its free i may as well and they do have the Rx Pad as someone mentioned before but thats not mite concern this time. but i wouldnt say No :chillpill:

thank u for this :hug:
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tymoteusz3 said:
always remember that your shroomery family will always be here for you :smile:






I think therapy can be very useful IF (and this can be a big IF) you can find a good therapist that's not some crazy Freudian. Those people are nuts. Freud was one of the craziest bastards ever to walk this earth IMO. The ones that seemed to help my ex the most were a couple she had that integrated some aspects of mindfulness into their practice. A little more of an eastern/ buddhist approach, but they did a lot more good for her than any crazy ass Freudians ever did.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: akira_akuma]
    #13981538 - 02/17/11 09:44 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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ellenallien said:
thanx to you all so much! i have read all your posts this morning as i sip my coffee. i was expecting people to lash out at me or tell me to get over myself, cry me a river or play me a fiddle. :crymeariver: :cryariver:

but it was none of that. it is comforting to see that we are all in the same boat in one way or another and it really makes me feel closer to you guys. i went from looking on these boards for a laugh poking around here and there.

to now, as some may have noticed a spike in my posts. living here. i am just at Rock Bottom. just when u think u couldnt get any deeper the floor rips itself out from under you and you fall a few more hundred feet into dispair :crying:
thanx to you all for putting up with my mood swings, my drug induced states, posting here and letting me pour my feelings out.

:iloveyou: Pub :hug: :eskimokiss: i don't know where i would be if i didn't have this...



Yeah, this thread kinda restores some of my lost hope in the pub. This always used to be a very positive place. All this snarkiness and trash talking that you see so much of in the pub these days wasn't tolerated back then. It's nice to see that the kindness is still underlying, you just maybe have to scratch the surface a little deeper. :hug:



maybe there usually isn't real issues in the pub, and mostly just bullshit?





Actually, I understand this sentiment well. That is actually one of the reasons I never  posted here much. I've seen many people ridiculed and made fun of for expressing their opinions or talking about their problems.

And people do still get trolled for this, wicked bad. Its not even safe to look for help in the topic forums sometimes.

The other reason that I never posted here a lot, is ironically, probably one of the reasons ellen got such a positive reaction to this thread. (although I was a bit worried at first).


Having always felt a little socially awkward, it is sometimes difficult to become "part of" something. Joining groups, clubs, etc. To such a person, coming to a place like the pub or OTD, it sometimes feels like a Cool Kids Club to which you have not necessarily been invited. Everyone knows each other, about each other, plenty of running inside jokes, and outsiders or those expressing unpopular opinions are sometimes ridiculed, or even insulted. That can be an anxious environment for some to navigate through.

But you post here quite a bit and everyone knows you, so in a weird way it is almost like having an online family....

And btw, I also agree that the pub (and shroomery in general) was once upon a time a much much friendlier place to be. Sure, there's always been some level of trolling and flaming and crap like that... but I have noticed over the last few years, that the vibe seems different sometimes. :shrug:


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13981555 - 02/17/11 09:46 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

Oh, and not all therapists are built equal. You need to find one that likes to listen more than talk. Some will be ready to diagnose you before you've said three words.

Find someone willing to get to know you, who you are comfortable being completely open and honest with.

Also, try to figure out what you want and expect to get out of therapy. If you go to a therapist with something like that, it will be easier for them to work with you in the most beneficial way.

Good luck, Ellen, and keep your head up.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Mello Kitty]
    #13981557 - 02/17/11 09:46 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

Im too lazy to read threw the whole thread... But have you heard of masturbation. Its fun but I warn you: you might go blind. Or go to hell. No-ones really come to an agreement yet.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: TheHandOfDoom]
    #13981606 - 02/17/11 09:53 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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TheHandOfDoom said:
Im too lazy to read threw the whole thread... But have you heard of masturbation. Its fun but I warn you: you might go blind. Or go to hell. No-ones really come to an agreement yet.





If that was the solution to this kind of problem, I would be on the NY Times Bestseller list with my self help book "The Five Finger Cure."


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: CidneyIndole]
    #13981737 - 02/17/11 10:14 PM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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CidneyIndole said:
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TheHandOfDoom said:
Im too lazy to read threw the whole thread... But have you heard of masturbation. Its fun but I warn you: you might go blind. Or go to hell. No-ones really come to an agreement yet.





If that was the solution to this kind of problem, I would be on the NY Times Bestseller list with my self help book "The Five Finger Cure."



:lol:


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: CidneyIndole]
    #13983315 - 02/18/11 07:30 AM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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CidneyIndole said:
Oh, and not all therapists are built equal. You need to find one that likes to listen more than talk. Some will be ready to diagnose you before you've said three words.

Find someone willing to get to know you, who you are comfortable being completely open and honest with.

Also, try to figure out what you want and expect to get out of therapy. If you go to a therapist with something like that, it will be easier for them to work with you in the most beneficial way.

Good luck, Ellen, and keep your head up.




Very true. A true therapist should not tell you whats wrong but guide you to figure it out.


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Re: what do you do when... [Re: Cyclohexylamine]
    #13983383 - 02/18/11 08:06 AM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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Re: what do you do when... [Re: TheHandOfDoom]
    #13983426 - 02/18/11 08:22 AM (13 years, 15 days ago)

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TheHandOfDoom said:
have you heard of masturbation.



i have ZERO sexual desire. ever since addiction.
poly substance abuse

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you might go blind.



im already going blind :shrug:


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