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phishytrip
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ever been in love?
#1381618 - 03/16/03 02:47 PM (21 years, 18 days ago) |
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i think its the worst feelings ive ever had in my life. its the only reason ive been reduced to tears on so many nights. this girl who i feel ive been in love with since 1997, who has shot me down, shit on me and wanted nothing to do with me, is on my mind everyday of my life. i was 12 or 13 when i started all this, im 19 now. i have dreams about her and shit. i think she thinks im a scum bag, i try to talk to her but she blows me off. when we were 15 we hooked up for a summer but never really went out. i have emails saved from her that i read all the time...why i dont know. she didnt want me to do drugs so i had to lie to her about them, and that how i fucked it up. i think if i never did drugs or never lied to her we would have had gone out, i dunno if we would have made it this far, but i think i would have gotten the love out of my system....heres some of the things she wrote to me in e mail in 2000.... when it was good...when she got high
"Nicoles sucked- well if i wasn't high it would've sucked- but it wasn't that bad- Yeah i got your page- i heard it go off and i said to mere "watch its gonna say 143" and it did.. WOW you're not predictable!!!"
"YOU'rE a fucking nasty boy!!!! haha- we never went in your jacuzzi naked- hmm.... maybe- u know what that means!! umm yeah i keep tellin mere that i want u right now- we havent hooked up in while- you're so deprived"
then she quit smoking and i had to lie and say i did and it got bad....
"Trust... Well, isn't that a good word. Maybe you should fucking learn the meaning of it before you try to have a relationship with someone."
"it figures- you were high when you did it... but thats no excuse w/b"
anyone know what i should do about this, i told her i was in love with her so many times years ago...she never believed me. i dont know if i should tell her again, i think shed just ignore me or think i was a freak or i was drunk or something. i dont know what to do.
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adrug
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Re: ever been in love? [Re: phishytrip]
#1381656 - 03/16/03 03:02 PM (21 years, 17 days ago) |
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You're still a young guy...most relationships you have when you are a teenager end eventually and you move on. Don't try to quit drugs just because someone else is pressuring you to. If your heart isn't in it, resentment may set in and cause even more problems.
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Blue_JAY
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Re: ever been in love? [Re: adrug]
#1381691 - 03/16/03 03:11 PM (21 years, 17 days ago) |
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I tend to fall in love, too much. Ever hear the phrase "You always want what you cant have."???? I don't know if this is the case for you though.
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phishytrip
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Re: ever been in love? [Re: adrug]
#1381756 - 03/16/03 03:45 PM (21 years, 17 days ago) |
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if this girl said cut your pinky toe off, id do it
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Fliquid
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Re: ever been in love? [Re: phishytrip]
#1382177 - 03/16/03 08:41 PM (21 years, 17 days ago) |
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You are going into a self destruct sequense. Go do something you always wanted to do. It will keep your mind off of her.
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Fliquid
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Re: ever been in love? [Re: phishytrip]
#1382183 - 03/16/03 08:53 PM (21 years, 17 days ago) |
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Bet you feel like these songs.. Maybe you could listen to them. Music sometimes takes the pain away.
- Needles and pins * The Searchers - Anyone who had a heart * Cilla Black - Have you seen her * The Chi-Lites - Go now * Moody Blues - Darlin * Frankie Miller (A bit lame ) - Do wah diddy diddy * Manfred Mann (For good memories) - Sexy eyes * Dr Hook (If you can get her alone in a room, i recommend this one!)
Good luck!
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