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BluePixieWaves



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Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity?
#12513097 - 05/05/10 08:18 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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Uhhhhh. Lately my case of neurosis seems to be getting worse. The problem is I can't differentiate it from just extreme neurotic tendencies or ADD. My dilemma is whenever I walk through my house and make a wrong face, step somewhere that is violated with unlikeness of my character, or see some picture from the corner of my eye I have to retrace me steps. My reason's for doing this are not unknown to me though. I preform these strange relapses because I do not want to lose the uniqueness, intelligent, emotional state, and overall complexion of myself. If I don't do this an let myself be subjected to these disturbances I will loose myself, or so I think. It plagues my life and takes a lot of time away from me. All day long I have to retrace my steps, put my tooth brush back multiple times until it gets in the exact right position, sing to myself in the mirror to make sure I am in my full complexion and etc...
I do have a small superior complex but I do not have these tendencies because I believe I am some supreme being, I just don't want to loose myself and become some one else. Telling myself I won't change doesn't seem to help due to the compulsive nature of these delusions. This has been going on for at least 3 or 4 years now and they seem to be getting much worse. Last night I spent an hour staring at my reflexion and constantly opening my door then repeating until I finally got it 99% rightly in my complexion zone. I don't know if I have ADHD but it doesn't seem likely because I don't fit any of the criteria for ADD or ADHD. I'm a very skilled listener, can easily sit still for hours almost as if I have been sedated, I love mental work, and I know many people who have ADD and ADHD and I blatantly am just not like that. 
I have come to two conclusions. A.I'm insane and need a shrink. B.I'm mostly sane just with some extreme neurotic tendencies.
So what is your diagnosis Doc?
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513114 - 05/05/10 08:20 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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My diagnosis is you need to simplify your paragraphs man. TL,DR
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BluePixieWaves



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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: Hakim0777]
#12513142 - 05/05/10 08:25 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks...
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513187 - 05/05/10 08:31 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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You just need to chill out and not overthink things. I really don't understand.
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Hakim0777
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: pwnasaurus]
#12513200 - 05/05/10 08:32 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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You need to get you some benzos.
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BluePixieWaves



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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: Hakim0777]
#12513251 - 05/05/10 08:38 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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OCD... Great I have OCD.
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513279 - 05/05/10 08:41 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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have you tried meditation?
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: Don Juan]
#12513292 - 05/05/10 08:44 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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Definitely sounds like OCD man. I have OCD without compulsion which is pretty shitty too. I basically just have reoccuring thoughts that pop up 50+ times a day. Meditation has helped me along with tripping. I'd like to eat some mushrooms soon as they are supposedly helpful. I have eaten mushrooms before but not since realizing I had OCD. If you ever want to talk shoot me a PM man I'd be happy to talk with you. I've been dealing with this for about a year now. My Dad has the same kind of OCD as well.
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BluePixieWaves



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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: Don Juan]
#12513301 - 05/05/10 08:45 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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I have been trying to meditate each night but I get such anxiety while trying that I just can't continue. It feels as though there is a giant blood sucking bug digging into my membrane.
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513336 - 05/05/10 08:50 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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Quote:
BluePixieWaves said: sing to myself in the mirror to make sure I am in my full complexion and etc...
I just don't want to loose myself and become some one else. Telling myself I won't change doesn't seem to help due to the compulsive nature of these delusions. :
DON't TAKE BENZOS THEY WILL NOT HELP YOU.
Look here. healthy people often lose themselves, see a situation from multiple shifting views, and get confused. THIS IS NATURAL.
Telling yourself "i'm not going to change" will never make you feel better. Change is the natural state of the universe you were born into. It's time to get used to it and ReJoyce 'cause like James Joyce coolest most interesting people understand that the self is illusive and always moving and transforming in WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, BEWILDERING ways and waves...
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: collinZzZz]
#12513392 - 05/05/10 08:57 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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You misunderstood what I meant by change. I in fact do know everything about my complexion is in a constant state of change but I don't want MYSELF to change into SOMEONE else. Do you get the problem here?
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513414 - 05/05/10 09:00 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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im no expert but to be it sounds like obsessive compulsive disorder or OCD. speak to some professionals they can treat it with medication and other various forms of treatment like therapy that aims to change your cognitive patterns and belief systems so that you dont feel you have to keep repeating these things.
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: Rocker232]
#12513423 - 05/05/10 09:01 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thanks man! It's nice to know I have someone who can relate to my dilemma. Good vibes coming your way.
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collinZzZz
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#12513454 - 05/05/10 09:04 PM (13 years, 9 months ago) |
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BluePixieWaves said: You misunderstood what I meant by change. I in fact do know everything about my complexion is in a constant state of change but I don't want MYSELF to change into SOMEONE else. Do you get the problem here?
I think I may understand part of the problem because I have had very similar fears.
My point is that those fears are possibly a defence mechanism against a part of your personality that you don't want to face, something you're affraid you can't understand or explain to yourself.
THE TRICK 'might be' To realise that this fear is an illusion. You are affraid to turn into someone else when you ALREADY are someone ELSE. You are just hiding.
Maybe...
cause I don't Know You.
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: BluePixieWaves]
#13684221 - 12/25/10 07:27 PM (13 years, 2 months ago) |
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I have something I think is similar but it has to do more with interacting with others. I have to fly on this is balance that is hard to maintain, but if I dont it feels disrespectful and not myself etc. I also have OCD fears of random things being contaminated although I know it is not rational. Cleanliness and hygiene are pretty important too. For the record BEnzos make it MUCH Better and then MUCH Worse as soon as they wear off. I havent eating mushrooms in awhile but they seem to help alot actually. One love.
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Re: Neurotic Tendencies, ADD, or Insanity? [Re: jpa23245]
#13684224 - 12/25/10 07:28 PM (13 years, 2 months ago) |
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Before anyone else posts just realize that this is pretty old
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