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Registered: 10/14/09 Posts: 1,408 Loc: Last seen: 11 years, 6 months |
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hahaha. quite a title. :P
these are some things i'd just like to share- exchanges between myself and facebook friends i hope someone may benefit in any way from them ![]() OFFERING- @ girl 1: i'm hell on earth girrlll. lol jk. my heart is pure and my will is true hahahaha lol :P and remember whatever happens home-slice, all it takes for you to be overrun with joy in ANY situation or circumstance is for you to decide to be ) just realize that power to be endlessly joyful is right within you- vividly reflected in just our mere self-awareness and consciousness of what is rightfully the incredibly beautiful and awe inspiring phenomenon of a seemingly infinitely meaningless, lifeless and stoic universe being infinitely confounded and perplexed by the sheer overwhelming complexity and beauty of its components- by the sheer overwhelming complexity and beauty of all of its atoms, forces, molecules, structures, processes, forms of life and ultimately in the undeniably perplexity of the culmination of working consciousness that seems somewhat able to understand, interpret and manipulate this universe... )) the only provision being your desire to realize and understand the potential for happiness that is always present within and without you and to better integrate that beauty and wonder into the fabric of who you are hahahahahaha... :P :P :P there's not one bit of any of that that is easy to actually easy to attain, being as binded and blinded by our ego-ties as we naturally are, but usually nothing worth having is easy in the first place... i know you've been havin a rough time lately and just thought i'd offer an encouraging word and my two cents hahaha... ]^_^[ @ mooseolenappyheadazz: YOU AIN BOU NUNNET G3DOUGH SHTUFF UM OWN UP N DIS HO- N PUT D3T ON SUM R3AL-BOII-SHIT!‼11!!‼!! NA G3T OFF MY PAG3!~!~!~> OLE AIN NER BUSS NUN, AIN HOOD 4 SHYT, OLE FLOSSIN ON SUM PHRESH AZZ TEK-TONICKK JERKIN, WAY 2 DAMN PERFECT DRED HAVIN, SKINNY LIL %9 BODY FAT NUN EEN JIGGLIN, ORGANIC MUFUCKIN EATIN & PREACHIN, MUFUCKIN HIPSTER-SWAGGIN BIGG-AZZ-BLACK-FRAMED GLASSES, >9000FT HIGH KRAZY-AS-HELL ROPE CLIMBIN ER-DAMN DAY UV DA MUFUCKIN SUMMER IN DA 420°F WIDE-OPEN-NO-SHADE SCORCH!NG SUN CUZ YHU A OLE SHTANKIN AZZ HEART-UH-GOLD KID-LOVIN, 2 DAMN DEEP THINKIN, MYSTIC-LEANIN, MUFUCKIN METAPHYSICALLY-CONCERNED, MUSIC/ART/FASHION/TECHNOLOGY/POP you really should come visit me in (nowheresville) the first chance you get sugar-tits. my psychotic-assed, secular-humanist, gaia-tied, live love and love life spirit misses your spirits own special weirdness hahahaha lololol. @ chucknasty: it's been too damn long since we've had one of our epic fucking shedding till our hands cramp up- telling, recounting and piecing together wacked-out-fucked-up remembered stretches of our tales of utter depravity- gettin to' up, laughin, drankin, smokin, kickin it ngaf-n, havin a good time creating more tales to piece together at some point in the future- while tryin to stay out of trouble sessions;; or as i like to call them- "CHUCKNASTY n LANDEEZZY PHRESH n PHUNKY PHESTIVALS of PHIRE n PHOAM :: Made of Nguyen- Victory Guaranteed." so you need to get at me whenever you get to (nowheresville) haha... @ boy "i'llsuckadick" 2: BOII YO CHOPS AIN OWN MA LEVEL HO!‼eleven!!! G3T D3T WE4K AzZ SLOPPY MUFUCKIN, 3/4 -> 11/8 TIEM SIG. CHANGIN THRU SINGLE SONG, BLAST BEATIN TILL I GOTTA MUFUCKIN MYGRAIN UNCONTROLLED TREMOLO BUHH-SHYT UP OUT MY FACE!!‼ :P lol hahaha- jk- the urge to go ham just became too much, so ham i had to go... this is what happens when you're a true boss though... it's a lifestyle you know, bein a BAWSS.. and sometimes that means you just.GO.HAM. =3 yeah- i DID have the time to do absolutely nothing, so i spent it typin all this bull out haha.. maybe that does mean i have no life lol- or maybe something else haha idk .. either way- it's sunday (was when i typed this out), the kick-off of a new week, and i love (you) people [[ "YOU PEOPLE" being those i was addressing on facebook, and any of the kindred spirits of fellow shroomerites <3 and non-specifically, anyone else eager for the growth of positivity and encouragement in themselves and in the world that might somehow stumble upon and read this haha...]] so i spent the time to type this monstrous fucking comment in hopes of creating plenty of that positive energy and encouragement for the coming week- <3 <3 ♥ )) and to get some good company over to my place lol. EXCHANGING- moose- Wow i don't know if I just got cussed out or loved really hard...but ok. me- loved hard lol moose- im gonna copy and paste this and put it a private note for future reference and encouragement. thanx ♥ me- ♥ girl- [avid], i just read that and i want you to know i gots mad love for yo azz ♥ moose- i feels all warm and fuzzy inside. girl- sooo do i we need to all have a big hug moose- for serial! me- stay positive friends and love will win out girl- [avid] u must be in a great mood me- i am. i have been. and i will be... because of the very things i just suggested to you haha. :P girl- xoxox buddy your the best moose- oooooh have you attained the state of non-duality??? dicksuckinboii- "isuckadick" ..... really bro? EXHAUSTIVELY EXPLAINING- me- @ girl: good news, i suppose O.o @ moose: we'll have to talk to fully get into everything that's happened to bring all this about hahahaha i've really no idea what to call this "state" or wtf-ever this is that i've reached lol :P- and being that this incredible "state"-- (((or "W/E-TF this really is: be it an 'enlightened state of being' or a 'delusion concocted in the head of a raving lunatic' - that i have come to evermore deeply realize and respect- and have decided to evermore fully appreciate and embody" ))) -- only seems to be attainable through the honest and genuine: personal experience, personal reflection, and personal revelation of ones own entirety- --and the truly incomprehensible and life-affirming beauty and grandeur of the event of complex life-- --complex life able to evermore understand and manipulate- reflect upon and appreciate- what seem to be consistent phenomena in the physical and spiritual make-up and mechanics of a seemingly infinitely void, unfeeling, unthinking, and unconscious universe-- --evermore able-- thanks to a consciousness and self-awareness of existence and of being that completely defies and perplexes all other heretofore readily observable things contained in this wondrous universe... ♥ ♥ having suffered crippling suicidal depression and anxiety disorders, i NEVER thought i could ever love life so ruthlessly and to the depths i now do hahaha... having finally captured this newly found love and understanding that i have for so long blindly pursued hahaha... sure of its power and presence- (convinced by my heretofore passive experiences with it- having witnessed its power by accident and sheer good fortune- being blessed enough to have been drenched in unconditional and unstoppable love, support and affection through times of unspeakable darkness, emptiness, hopelessness, self-hatred, meaninglessness and all other manner of needlessly-self-imposed spiritual poisons my sick and distorted ego had led me to imbibe and embody.... and through pain, strife and suffering, through ecstasy, good times, and unbridled joy, my final and total realization of my unbelievably blessed existence- given unconditional and unstoppable love, support and affection... that carries with it this immense and ever-growing desire, realization, and application of the appreciation and understanding that this love has brought/brings me.. ♥ ♥ and now, moose ... life is evermore just too incredibly beautiful- -altogether- evermore all too beautiful in its inestimable and unrelenting grandiosity.. hahahahahaha... and be it as i has developed... .. as the whole of my life experiences have progressed--> ((( as "chronologically limited" [haha lol :P ] as my 20 years of life experience suggests, i suggest to you that those bounds and illusions guiding the perception of a fixed-time model of chronology do not apply in my particular case;; the whole of my bizarre and completely unique collection of life-happenings unfolding as they have =3 ))) [[ or, what i would've said if originally posting on the shroomery instead of facebook lol- my 20 years- normally so limited in experience, reflection, and understanding by the confines of time- bound in extension and capacity by the commonplace sober experience of the inability to escape the limits of these chronological confines- have been infinitely stretched beyond their normal limits through countless personal experiences of eternal and time-less realms of awareness and perception made feasible by my continual use of psychedelic tools (all, of course, useless barring my personal dedication to decipher and integrate those things presented to me during those experiences). ]] --> all of my passive life experiences- born more-or-less-separately from me- (("more" or" less" i cannot say :P )) fed to me willingly and/or unwillingly through infinite internal (psychological/genetic/ego-bindi processes and external (environmental/circumstantial/ etc.. ) factors... -filtered, processed, recollected, evaluated, expounded upon in complete detail, and finally fully exhausted- -in rigorous real life application- -coupled with self-determined, constant, vigorous, and personally frank/honest evaluation- ((all of this [and ultimately the entirety of your consciousness] must be free from the misguidance and manipulation of the ego or it will all be perverted and thrown off- tying the ego down to other things instead of progressively releasing it :P lol :P or something-dumthing like that :P )) -of the resulting personal and intra-personal changes thereof- -continually cycled, continually cycling, to be continually cycled... forever refining and retaining this "state" never releasing this "state" hahaha... as it is altogether too beneficial and beautiful for me to willingly give up lol :P ♥ --and by my own blessed experience with this type of honest, positivity-centered-and-oriented of becoming evermore aware, appreciative, hopeful, connected, and empowered... ... of//of//for//to//by the true underlying energy and unbelievable display of incommunicable* awe and wonder present in everything in and around us lol... [*largely limited by the confines of ordinary language, but knowable through honest pursuit, followed by full surrender of all personal ego-ties to this temporal and fleeting terrestrial existence- freeing yourself from any and all disenfranchisement, disillusionment, and/or dissatisfaction with your existence amongst the entirety of a seemingly meaningless and stoic universe... :P lol ] ... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ((( all made tangible through near endless self-realized, self-determined, and self-perpetuated cycles of:: spiritually deep, personally honest, and genuinely truth-oriented reflection (so allusive, as confusing and confounding the ego is.. hahahaha :P ) ((reflection determined to identify and attain a more enlightened and positive state of being;; through ever-growing realization, appreciation and direct experience of life's boundless (yet grossly unappreciated) beauty- and the never-ending complexity and intricacy that beauty entails... beauty manifest- made apparent and undeniable to myself in ever.more.increasing... (* evermore being absolutely necessary in the whole-mind-body-spirit-individua .. evermore increasing.. recognition, respect, appreciation, love and understanding of infinite scores of singular entities, constructs, ideas, etc etc etc:: the universe, the systems, the planets, this planet, its mysteries, life, life's mysteries, the human mind, the human body, the human spirit;; my mind, my body, my spirit- - and ultimately in this truly astounding and under-appreciated occurrence we've all been woven into hahaha - this beautiful and mysterious, self-aware and externally sensitive, "life-energy"/ "consciousness"/ "what-ever the hell it is that constitutes the peculiarity of the human energy and experience" that this mind, body and spirit at present contain and exude, and will someday release- into the universal fabric of space and time- moving ever-onward, into whatever it is that follows the end of life all evermore beautifully connecting and intertwining- further and further revealing the unbelievable joy there is to be found in the simple appreciation of LIFE, whatever it is, in its truly unlimited beauty ♥ ♥ ♥ )) identifying, interpreting and integrating all of this.. all this "too big a deal to be real", sensationalized-sounding, transcendental-hippy-needin-a-ba re-hashed, played out and tired ole mumbo-jumbo i'm going on about- for whatever it's worth hahaha... it has overwhelmed me with a sense of solace, joy, and blessing that i would have NEVER imagined myself reaching, having gone through the PSYCHOLOGICAL, SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HELL of crippling depression and anxiety such a short time ago hahaha... ♥ ♥ ♥ i've come to all this through (among endless other factors) intense, purposeful, and dedicated hours devoted to extreme forms of meditation, abstraction, and the exploration of constantly more beautiful (( -ultimately beautiful in existence- beauty appreciated through clear-headed contemplation, free of the ego- free of the the ugly, unnecessary, and pointlessly painful burdens it so deviously and deceptively binds us to- and free- from all the misguided, useless, and negative insecurities, feelings of hopelessness, despair, shame, and pessimism- that we all seem to dream up- via imaginary and externally dictated valuations and interpretations of inadequacy- resulting from eons of unresolved bruises and insults to individual and collective egos... ♥ free from all of that ancient and common hurt... forever empowered by vigilantly exploring and experiencing this beauty, wonder and jubilation i've realized in releasing my personal ties to the blindness and negative energy of my natural self... it's all just been something of astounding revelation, release and beauty for me hahaha... ♥ i should mention that i find this kind of contemplation and appreciation was made possible by my experiencing, perceiving, processing, recollecting, evaluating, expounding upon and fully exhausting seemingly endless corridors of thought, being, awareness, meta-physics, -and most importantly- unconditional and relentless love, affection, and connectivity on an evermore universally inclusive scale of empathy, understanding, extension and possibility :P :P :P lol hahaha or some krazy shit like that ... )) like i said- i don't know what to call it man- or if it can even be named haha... but i now feel this wondrous, clear, powerful and luminous sense- of an immense inner potential and ability- -to realize and cultivate, to embody and exude- an energy// a "life-force"// //a living and breathing application and model// - -of this positivity in approaching- - - -this appreciation in reflection of- - - -this optimism regarding- - and ultimately, - -in this resulting unconditional(ly increasing) love, lust, and reverence of- - -this.beautiful.life- -its beautiful extensions- -and the underlying and overwhelming beauty, complexity and intricacy bound up and contained in every-single-thing and experience within and without the bounds of every-single-thing and experience that existence and self-awareness truly entail hahaha -beauty, love and peace.. constant and relentless.. all completely within the grasp of someone as psychologically, emotionally and spiritually confused and fucked-up as me hahaha... i think it's pretty damn awesome myself lol.. //a living and breathing application and model// of all of those things- that seems to be so woefully unknown, unexperienced, and utterly alien to all but the very few with the will and the means to unlock, empower and maintain such an immense potential- but a potential which i believe resides in all of us -or at least in all of us that can feel some sort of spark of life somewhere within us having experienced and overcome the personal darkness and despair of suffocating suicidal anxiety, depression and existential-meaninglessness, and having made the progress that i have, i'm convinced this we all have a personal and special capacity for this potential ♥ hahaha... as infuckingsane as i must sound by now, this shit has brought such a real and positive change in my life and my composure that i could not care less how out of my mind it may make me seem hahahahaha :P ♥ through endless experiences and reflections- coalescing and intertwining- all-the-while bent towards the search for truth- and a higher positive state of consciousness/awareness of myself and the rest of my existence- evermore fully seeing- evermore fully feeling- evermore fully experiencing- and thereby ever- evermore- more and more fully appreciating, loving, and revering- this. evermore. all. too. beautiful. existence. ♥ hahahahaha.... to see beyond the tortuously meaningless, useless, entirely delusional and closed-off state of hostility and confusion that the problems of the ego have created... through the/(my) extremely subjective and personal journey of psychologically painstaking, spiritually sublimating, and existentially excruciating dismantling and dissolving those pointlessly painful ego-ties... so intensely and so illusively anchored to and reaffirmed by the malleable, easily misinterpreted, and deceptive nature of being contained in a fleeting and meaningless temporal existence.. unconscious and/or weak-willed constructs- such as the insecurities, the hopelessness, and that insatiable clawing- for some personally and universally valid, predetermined, and externally concocted purpose or meaning in such a fleeting and meaningless temporal existence... all such useless and detrimental distractions from this newly "empowered" and "enlightened" love and appreciation i have found for myself and my incredibly blessed life, for my family, for my friends.. -- and for an evermore growing inclusion of all of life and all of its extensions... and as long as i (or anyone else for that matter) can/will personally hold onto and continue to cultivate this positivity and connectivity that is there to be realized and utilized, it is mine (or whoever else's) to enjoy, to benefit from, and to bring to others ♥ hahahaha... :P ♥ ♥ ♥ does that answer your question, moose? =3 =3 =3 ♥ ♥ ♥ bwahahahaha... aaaannnndddddd... yeahhhhh... @ any who might happen upon and read this ridiculous mass of text i've just taken the time to share with facebook [and now the shroomery ] (hahahaha... :P ) - i DID forgo all other current responsibilities (scholastic, intra-personal, and otherwise) and type this out over the entire fucking night hahahal... and you can all take that as you might, i guess haha!! -- as concrete affirmation of my complete and total retreat from all things akin to basic human "sanity"; repose; and/or psycho-neurological processes;; ( hahahaha :P ♥ :P ) (( or..... if i'm not just crazy.... lol d*_*b )) as some sort of evidence of the reality and the power of this newfound state of being that i claim to have happened upon this limitlessly beneficial, beautiful, open and honest state of personal and universal love, understanding, appreciation, positivity, connectivity, and empowerment that i claim to have happened upon, and have decided to capture, cultivate and embody... ( and another "hahahaha :P ♥ :P lol" ) of course, i prefer the latter haha... i have recently (in the past 12 months, and more-so in the past 7 months, and more-so in the past 3 months, and more-so in the past month-or-so, climaxing and culminating in these past weeks since Halloween) gone through a monumental positive progression of overall happiness, wellbeing, and composure in the face of the most challenging, trying and demanding stretch of events i have ever gone through.. and having gone through what i have to arrive at where i am... hahaha.. :P it just convinces me of the endless positivity there is to be enjoyed, living and loving in and through this wondrous and unburdened state ♥ AND!! @ [name]thesnake-keepinitreal-n-ne NOOOKKKKAAAA. oh- and lastly, i feel it necessary to make clear that i do NOT want anyone to interpret any of the drawn-out and exhaustive words of encouragement that i've just posted as any personal claim to "THE" answer to life, happiness, and the universe (which we all know is 42 anyway.. ) because i most certainly don't want to make that claim haha.. what i'm claiming is the discovery of "MY" answer to life, happiness, and the universe :P hahaha... a discovery that has filled and overrun me with constant joy a contagious positivity and joy running rampant in me ♥ that i want more than anything to see empower and benefit others as it has me ♥ ♥ hahahahaha... but whatever all that's worth- i hope some of this positive emotional and spiritual energy has somehow encouraged/empowered someone haha.. we all need external boosts from time to time life can be rough- real rough lol- can't talk em into lettin you out of the "behavioral health center" rough hahaha... but i'm convinced that through this "life-force" or "energy" i believe i've tapped- of total openness, honesty, beauty, positivity and connectivity- free from the snares of the ego- that there is the potential for a love and appreciation for life so empowering and enlightening- i truly believe it could be the end of all the things that hurt us haha all of those pointless and painful ties to some ego-distorted illusion of reality- wrought with fear, insecurity, shame, regret, and all those other resulting evils of the lies and the misguidance of the unchecked and untamed ego :P hahaha... or whatever the fuck.. who knows haha.. for what i can objectively say about all of it, i might be more delusional and mistaken than sanely possible haha.. if such IS the case :P i'll leave sanity to the sane, and keep living the love and loving the life made tangible and my own by my personal convictions and applications pertaining to all the things i've just gone on and on and on about hahahaha =P =P =P ♥ all-the-while being utterly insane =P =) lololol -------------------- i get hard when i paint. -waka flocka flame Edited by Avid (11/15/10 04:13 PM)
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im not a doctor Registered: 07/07/06 Posts: 6,003 Last seen: 7 years, 1 month |
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-------------------- You are at once both the quiet and the confusion of my heart. -Franz Kafka
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Registered: 10/14/09 Posts: 1,408 Loc: Last seen: 11 years, 6 months |
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Quote: -------------------- i get hard when i paint. -waka flocka flame
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לנשום Registered: 09/01/08 Posts: 7,666 Loc: Α & Ω |
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All words and utterances are symbols that emanate from the same basic set of drives: to share, to understand, to love, to be understood.
It hides in Facebook simplicity as it hides in literary obscurity.
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Registered: 10/14/09 Posts: 1,408 Loc: Last seen: 11 years, 6 months |
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be all of this as simple or as technical as it truly is-
whatever this new potential i truly believe that i have tapped truly is- my entire life and the relationships it entails, to people, to plants, to beasts and to all things animate and inanimate, have(and continue to be)so greatly improved in and by these processes- of "enlightenment"/"truth"/"or w.e"- that i feel anything to be possible through this message and this energy ![]() and if i'm dead wrong about all this- and this is all just some neurotic delusion- then this is one hell of a powerful, persistent and misguiding delusion :P and i could not imagine any more positive and promising a delusion <3 haha
-------------------- i get hard when i paint. -waka flocka flame Edited by Avid (11/15/10 01:59 PM)
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