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MOTH
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Do you ever just want to go AWOL?
#13445509 - 11/06/10 09:09 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I have to admit this is my fantasy and has been for quite some time. Basically, saying "peace out" to everyone you know and disappearing for awhile, perhaps forever; preferably to some tropical island.
I just want to take off and truly start over. I want to cut all ties with everyone I know and just leave.
But it's so hard to do.
But I feel like it's inevitable that one day I will be pushed to this point...until then, I'm biding my time.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445527 - 11/06/10 09:14 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I went awol just before 9 11 and I hitchiked around for a bit. It sux unless you have a support structure. The streets are lame. I was raisedwith a percieved idea of hippie culture but by the time I got on the scene, all that was left was drug addcts... If you go awol, hit the wilderness. Just head north not south. Mexico
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445537 - 11/06/10 09:16 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yes, I want to do that all the time. Then, like you, it just feels too hard to do. I know it's the only way to solve my problems with life, but at the same time I would miss it all. It's pretty paradoxical.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445538 - 11/06/10 09:16 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ive done it before a few times, will probably do it again someday too.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445539 - 11/06/10 09:16 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: cacharstar]
#13445540 - 11/06/10 09:17 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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cacharstar said: I went awol just before 9 11 and I hitchiked around for a bit. It sux unless you have a support structure. The streets are lame. I was raisedwith a percieved idea of hippie culture but by the time I got on the scene, all that was left was drug addcts... If you go awol, hit the wilderness. Just head north not south. Mexico
I'd likely go to a tropical place, but not Mexico.
Yeah, it probably does suck without a support structure, but at the same time, I really want to experience this type of extreme change one day.
I just want to be properly prepared, so that I don't crash and burn. No limping back.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445595 - 11/06/10 09:29 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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You guys are awesome. Thanks for the feedback...feel free to share your experiences in going AWOL. Just fucking saying, "peace out" and going. That's my dream. I feel like it'll happen. I have to do it alone, though, and I won't be able to tell anyone before I do it. Every time I tell someone my AWOL plans, they try to get in on them, but then it's not going AWOL like how I envision it.
I don't want to do this to hurt anyone; but to help myself. Going AWOL is all about me. Maybe that's selfish, but I can afford to be selfish right now.
I feel like I need this experience like I need to breathe...make sense?
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drSE said: do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
Wow, thanks for the encouragement, man. I am going to do this. I just have to be ready. What makes it really difficult to just leave is that I have a dog who is my best friend (practically my child) and the thought of leaving him behind is hard. I feel like if I didn't have a dog I'd be long gone already.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445609 - 11/06/10 09:32 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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drSE said: do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
What school did you go to in spokane?
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: twighead]
#13445611 - 11/06/10 09:32 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Watch into the wild.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445612 - 11/06/10 09:32 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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i have also felt this way for a while now, but i feel the need to move into the rainforest,or somewhere like that,with the natives . ,that would be cool to me ,. i am not sure if it would be in the long term though.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445614 - 11/06/10 09:32 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think I'm right there with you, actually, I've been planning on hopping a train this summer and riding to somewhere in Canada.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Caine]
#13445627 - 11/06/10 09:35 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Caine said: I think I'm right there with you, actually, I've been planning on hopping a train this summer and riding to somewhere in Canada.
I have a partner and I do love him but I feel like he doesn't understand completely that I am a free soul and need to totally go nuts sometimes and get away in the most radical way possible. My biggest challenge will be preparing for my AWOL adventure without informing him. My plan is to ready myself...and then just go. Probably by this summer.
It's weird...I have a real focus on taking care of myself and my dreams before anyone elses. I don't even feel selfish. It feels like the way it needs to be for my own sake.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445642 - 11/06/10 09:37 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I can only dream of the long hike to nowhere now, my responsibilities are bigger than I am
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445660 - 11/06/10 09:40 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I hope you're planning on at least leaving a note on your way out. I know it would scare me shitless if my partner just up and left without a trace. As free as you are, there's always that one little thread tying you to your life.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Prisoner#1]
#13445684 - 11/06/10 09:44 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Caine said: I hope you're planning on at least leaving a note on your way out. I know it would scare me shitless if my partner just up and left without a trace. As free as you are, there's always that one little thread tying you to your life.
I definitely will. I'll leave a note, but I won't say where I'm going, for obvious reasons. He's the type to track me down.
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I'm worried that unless I do this soon, I'll never get the chance. I can feel responsibilities piling up on the horizon; the longer I stay attached and bonded to certain people, the more heavy the attachment gets.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: twighead]
#13445710 - 11/06/10 09:48 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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drSE said: do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
What school did you go to in spokane?
spokane community college (SCC). I took Electrical Maintenance and Automation, and Hydraulic and Pneumatics on the side.
I am currently again in college in MT for Computer Systems Technology and Networking
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445721 - 11/06/10 09:51 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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drSE said: do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
What school did you go to in spokane?
spokane community college (SCC). I took Electrical Maintenance and Automation, and Hydraulic and Pneumatics on the side.
I am currently again in college in MT for Computer Systems Technology and Networking
Sounds like some handy knowledge you've picked up, I just began attending SFCC this fall
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445722 - 11/06/10 09:52 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I'm worried that unless I do this soon, I'll never get the chance.
you're absolutely right, you may never get the chance if you dont jump on it
live life and enjoy every minute of it
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: twighead]
#13445727 - 11/06/10 09:54 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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drSE said: do it. it is the best thing that would ever happen.
I did it once. i remember packing and leaving and running out of gas in Dylan, MT and slept in the parking lot of a hotel because i had no money. I called my parents in the morning to see if they would put gas in my truck to come home, which they did. I then continued west ( i live east of Dylan, MT) and ran out of gas again in Spokane, WA.
Borrowed some money, and stayed in a hotel for about a month and a half. applied for fasfa and went to college their for the next 2 years.
when i came back i was a completely different person. quit drinking and smoking pot for awhile. got my life in line. was no longer a jackass to police running around with warrants all the time. etc...
What school did you go to in spokane?
spokane community college (SCC). I took Electrical Maintenance and Automation, and Hydraulic and Pneumatics on the side.
I am currently again in college in MT for Computer Systems Technology and Networking
Sounds like some handy knowledge you've picked up, I just began attending SFCC this fall
i remember when 50 cent was shooting a movie their and so many people picketed he ended up leaving
saw cuba gooding jr. filimg a movie their down by the mall downtown that is 7 stories tall. can't remember the name but the top 3 or 4 floors are movie theater.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445734 - 11/06/10 09:56 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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when im abit older, more mature and fitter i plan on doing the heysen trail in south australia.map of heysen its a 1200km (roughly 745 miles) hike that goes through the hills (which i get my mushrooms from) and finishes out in the bush, (kinda like a desert in summer here). i want to live off the land for a month or two, just take bare essentials. knife,water treatment pills, clothing/lightweight swag, fishing rod and a few porno mags for reference
oh yeah, and a fuckload of drugs
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: lucas_southoz]
#13445747 - 11/06/10 09:59 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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lucas_southoz said: when im abit older, more mature and fitter i plan on doing the heysen trail in south australia.map of heysen its a 1200km (roughly 745 miles) hike that goes through the hills (which i get my mushrooms from) and finishes out in the bush, (kinda like a desert in summer here). i want to live off the land for a month or two, just take bare essentials. knife,water treatment pills, clothing/lightweight swag, fishing rod and a few porno mags for reference
oh yeah, and a fuckload of drugs
would be cool but a long ways to go by yourself. I would probably take someone.
at least when i bailed to washington i could still meet people. even though everyone in my course were sober virgins that have never smoked pot. quite the change for me. and i gave them quite the change also.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445750 - 11/06/10 09:59 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I always found it strange how much filming actually goes on in that city, as mediocre as much of it is But I definitely dig that, its pretty simple to find work as an extra around here... there can't be an easier job out there
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: lucas_southoz]
#13445757 - 11/06/10 10:00 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I'm worried that unless I do this soon, I'll never get the chance.
you're absolutely right, you may never get the chance if you dont jump on it
live life and enjoy every minute of it
thanks dude. That's so what I need to hear right now. It's the truth!! Gotta live for today.
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lucas_southoz said: when im abit older, more mature and fitter i plan on doing the heysen trail in south australia.map of heysen its a 1200km (roughly 745 miles) hike that goes through the hills (which i get my mushrooms from) and finishes out in the bush, (kinda like a desert in summer here). i want to live off the land for a month or two, just take bare essentials. knife,water treatment pills, clothing/lightweight swag, fishing rod and a few porno mags for reference
oh yeah, and a fuckload of drugs
Totally...that's what I've been wanting to do too...some sort of solo adventure that takes me deep through the wilderness. I think I'm going to start directing my focus towards this.
I've also been looking for a boat shipping out of the Gulf of Mexico to crew upon...sometimes they hire newbies. I figure it's a good way to get adventure and $$$ all in one shot.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: twighead]
#13445765 - 11/06/10 10:02 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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the other thing that is cool a bout that town is everyone is 18-30 their it seems like. their is like 9 colleges or something ridiculous like that.
some of the porn stores their are kind of creepy. i remember one porn store their sold used walt disney movies as you walked in the door.
( i used to be a n20 fanatic)
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Prisoner#1]
#13445768 - 11/06/10 10:02 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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It's pretty far in the future but you should start preparing for this as soon as possible. In my adventure, I'm planning to bring as little supplies as possible. Backpack, couple of spare changes of clothes, blanket, pillow, flashlight, whatever drugs I can forage/afford beforehand... I think I will learn from the humbling experience. That is the goal, at least, and I think 90% of the game is mental preparation.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445784 - 11/06/10 10:05 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I don't know if you've hit up Zanies before, that shop is Almost all of my glass and N20 has originated there And much less awkward to walk into with another man than most sex stores hehe
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Caine]
#13445787 - 11/06/10 10:05 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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You're 100% right on about that.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445790 - 11/06/10 10:07 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'd likely go to a tropical place, but not Mexico.
Yeah, it probably does suck without a support structure, but at the same time, I really want to experience this type of extreme change one day.
I just want to be properly prepared, so that I don't crash and burn. No limping back.
i did this about 3 mo ago.
It can be emotional torture at times, and really fun at others. not sure how to describe it really.
i moved in with a a guy and a girl from face book. We never met before and whatnot so its been interesting.
in the world of roomates i am the clean one.
theres easy access to any drug in miami.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445795 - 11/06/10 10:07 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Caine said: I think I'm right there with you, actually, I've been planning on hopping a train this summer and riding to somewhere in Canada.
I have a partner and I do love him but I feel like he doesn't understand completely that I am a free soul and need to totally go nuts sometimes and get away in the most radical way possible. My biggest challenge will be preparing for my AWOL adventure without informing him. My plan is to ready myself...and then just go. Probably by this summer.
It's weird...I have a real focus on taking care of myself and my dreams before anyone elses. I don't even feel selfish. It feels like the way it needs to be for my own sake.
I'm the type that can't stand to hurt anybody. Doesn't he (SO) love you? Are you really in a relationship you would feel comfortable completely abandoning the other person, forcing them to live the rest of their life not knowing what happened? If it was their fault, or what even became of you?
I'm not being an asshole here, but what i tell people who are thinking of suicide kinda applies here. Even if it doesn't seem like anyone cares about you, when you're gone someone will be missing you. Even if they don't want to admit it.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: drSE]
#13445796 - 11/06/10 10:07 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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yeah i would definantly have to take atleast one more person, im going to be doing this in the next 5 years or so, enough time to get knowledge on local edible plants and stuff. you can do that walk on sections but for me that wouldnt be as fulfilling
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: blujay]
#13445820 - 11/06/10 10:15 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Rodfava, I was thinking of going to south Florida and traveling through, checking out Miami.
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Caine said: I think I'm right there with you, actually, I've been planning on hopping a train this summer and riding to somewhere in Canada.
I have a partner and I do love him but I feel like he doesn't understand completely that I am a free soul and need to totally go nuts sometimes and get away in the most radical way possible. My biggest challenge will be preparing for my AWOL adventure without informing him. My plan is to ready myself...and then just go. Probably by this summer.
It's weird...I have a real focus on taking care of myself and my dreams before anyone elses. I don't even feel selfish. It feels like the way it needs to be for my own sake.
I'm the type that can't stand to hurt anybody. Doesn't he (SO) love you? Are you really in a relationship you would feel comfortable completely abandoning the other person, forcing them to live the rest of their life not knowing what happened? If it was their fault, or what even became of you?
I'm not being an asshole here, but what i tell people who are thinking of suicide kinda applies here. Even if it doesn't seem like anyone cares about you, when you're gone someone will be missing you. Even if they don't want to admit it.
It wouldn't be forever, but I feel like I need the solo experience, where I have absolutely nobody around to draw upon for support or energy. Yes, he loves me, but I've been telling him I want to do this for years, so he shouldn't be so surprised.
I think I would be comfortable with leaving him behind because I have my own life to lead, and he does know how I've always wanted to do this.
Basically I would take off without a word (maybe a note) but it would be a few weeks before I would be comfortable telling people where I am.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
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I have a partner and I do love him but I feel like he doesn't understand completely that I am a free soul and need to totally go nuts sometimes and get away in the most radical way possible. My biggest challenge will be preparing for my AWOL adventure without informing him. My plan is to ready myself...and then just go. Probably by this summer.
It's weird...I have a real focus on taking care of myself and my dreams before anyone elses. I don't even feel selfish. It feels like the way it needs to be for my own sake.
I'm the type that can't stand to hurt anybody. Doesn't he (SO) love you? Are you really in a relationship you would feel comfortable completely abandoning the other person, forcing them to live the rest of their life not knowing what happened? If it was their fault, or what even became of you?
I'm not being an asshole here, but what i tell people who are thinking of suicide kinda applies here. Even if it doesn't seem like anyone cares about you, when you're gone someone will be missing you. Even if they don't want to admit it.
It wouldn't be forever, but I feel like I need the solo experience, where I have absolutely nobody around to draw upon for support or energy. Yes, he loves me, but I've been telling him I want to do this for years, so he shouldn't be so surprised.
I think I would be comfortable with leaving him behind because I have my own life to lead, and he does know how I've always wanted to do this.
Basically I would take off without a word (maybe a note) but it would be a few weeks before I would be comfortable telling people where I am.
Yeah I'm definitely someone with the wanderlust, too. But when i decided to drive to the Badlands and lay on a hot rock in the middle of the desert just to get the right atmosphere for my mescaline kicks and spend a few days in solitary meditation I perfer people to know I'm okay so they send help if I do not report in.
Take rugged GPS solution with topo data. I have a solar cell that charges mine in a day that weighs < 1lb. Take charged old-school two-band prepaid phone turned off so if you ever need it you can turn it on. Bring a good knife, something that can open cans reliably, and identification should you end up dead so they know who you were (I like dog tags :P) uhhh... what else- A vehicle, and the money for fuel or a plan to generate money and an idea as of where to drop anchor. I like to stay at free public camp sites.
You want the clothes on your back to be rugged. Wear trekking and outdoor gear if that's what you're gonna do. You'll have a much easier time. I carry a flint & steel, and lighter, usually some lighter fluid.
Of course my type of wandering is more road-trip based with sorties into the wilderness (North Dakota was BEAUTIFUL) that last just a few days. I have a tent that I can carry with my pack really easy and I've had no problem hiking miles in a day and hiking multiple days out and then back to see cool natural phenomena from great locations.
Take a book, something you can read hundreds of times.
If you're going to take psychedelic drugs use them with experience.
Hiking pack >>> bookbag. I also carry a small single-compartment corduroy Jansport bag for stuff I get at constantly, usually food. It's convenient to have a small, seperate bag to suspend food in if you're in the woods for the night.
Hiking packs also have this thing where the back has a hard palate that extends to your lower back and provides extra support taking the weight off your back with a hip-strap or somesuch setup. It's huuuuge difference for how little added weight.
Just random thoughts. I've done a lot of crazy trips, a few of which ended up lasting months instead of weeks.
-------------------- wat man rly
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Maverick
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: blujay]
#13445866 - 11/06/10 10:26 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'd love to disappear but I am a lonely person and would find myself wanting company on the way.
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truekimbo2
Cya later, friends.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Maverick]
#13445888 - 11/06/10 10:33 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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you don't need any mental preparation unless you have a specific goal.
just start moving and then do what makes sense.
You know how many completely fucked up drug addict drunks travel around the country all the time and still manage to live, eat AND stay high?
mothra i've been rooting for you for years to find your adventure that you never come back from. In the good way.
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: truekimbo2]
#13445899 - 11/06/10 10:35 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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mothra i've been rooting for you for years to find your adventure that you never come back from. In the good way.
I know you have Kimbo. I appreciate you so much for this!!
It's coming. I'm in Texas again and my tolerance for "traditional lifestyles" after street-sleeping in San Diego for four months is woefully low.
I feel like I need to break free in the worst way and that when I do, it'll be the best thing for me.
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Legend
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Prisoner#1]
#13445900 - 11/06/10 10:35 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Prisoner#1 said: I can only dream of the long hike to nowhere now, my responsibilities are bigger than I am
pris, this is the only thing ive seen you say, that i respect and agree with.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Legend]
#13445907 - 11/06/10 10:36 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Prisoner#1 said: I can only dream of the long hike to nowhere now, my responsibilities are bigger than I am
pris, this is the only thing ive seen you say, that i respect and agree with.
It's weird, usually I unconsciously agree with what Pris has to say even if I don't consciously agree with it. I can tell he has a big heart.
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truekimbo2
Cya later, friends.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445914 - 11/06/10 10:38 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Your adventure in cali sounded wonderful. Find your hustle, I know two people that went down there and lived for a couple months just selling drawings and wire wrap jewlery.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: truekimbo2]
#13445920 - 11/06/10 10:39 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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truekimbo2 said: you don't need any mental preparation unless you have a specific goal.
just start moving and then do what makes sense.
You know how many completely fucked up drug addict drunks travel around the country all the time and still manage to live, eat AND stay high?
mothra i've been rooting for you for years to find your adventure that you never come back from. In the good way.
I can't find a goal and don't know what my adventure is. I wish someone would snag me and take me away, force me to realize it. I tried once, ran away to Portland but ended up relying on money too much and clinging to my 'things'.
MOTH if you do this, I wish you the best of luck, still communicate but dont' get attached to things that bind you to a single place. A giant ass water cooled PC binds you to places. ;P
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Legend]
#13445939 - 11/06/10 10:43 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Prisoner#1 said: I can only dream of the long hike to nowhere now, my responsibilities are bigger than I am
pris, this is the only thing ive seen you say, that i respect and agree with.
I guess we all stoop to some pretty low levels now and then
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Prisoner#1
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13445953 - 11/06/10 10:47 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I can tell he has a big heart.
it might surprise you just how big
seriously, I'm great guy... many flaws that get me into trouble like loyalty and compassion
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Prisoner#1]
#13446005 - 11/06/10 11:00 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I can tell he has a big heart.
it might surprise you just how big
seriously, I'm great guy... many flaws that get me into trouble like loyalty and compassion
I love how you speak your personal truth unflinchingly...that is admirable in today's world.
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: truekimbo2]
#13446007 - 11/06/10 11:01 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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truekimbo2 said: Your adventure in cali sounded wonderful. Find your hustle, I know two people that went down there and lived for a couple months just selling drawings and wire wrap jewlery.
Dude! I've been meaning to learn how to create my own wire jewelry, using crystals.
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blujay
pass it b*ch!
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Prisoner#1]
#13446251 - 11/07/10 12:06 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I can tell he has a big heart.
it might surprise you just how big
seriously, I'm great guy... many flaws that get me into trouble like loyalty and compassion
I'm also the loyal compassionate type. It star-crosses you no matter what you do in the end.
-------------------- wat man rly
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13446605 - 11/07/10 01:14 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I have to admit this is my fantasy and has been for quite some time. Basically, saying "peace out" to everyone you know and disappearing for awhile, perhaps forever; preferably to some tropical island.
I just want to take off and truly start over. I want to cut all ties with everyone I know and just leave.
But it's so hard to do.
But I feel like it's inevitable that one day I will be pushed to this point...until then, I'm biding my time.
i think about this all the time. just packin a bag and leaving.
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MOTH
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JesusGoneRogue said:
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MOTH said: I have to admit this is my fantasy and has been for quite some time. Basically, saying "peace out" to everyone you know and disappearing for awhile, perhaps forever; preferably to some tropical island.
I just want to take off and truly start over. I want to cut all ties with everyone I know and just leave.
But it's so hard to do.
But I feel like it's inevitable that one day I will be pushed to this point...until then, I'm biding my time.
i think about this all the time. just packin a bag and leaving.
What stops you?
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JesusGoneRogue
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13446626 - 11/07/10 01:27 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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no supplies. like someone said before not mentally prepared. and a girl. who i'm hurting over right now. and thats making me wanna leave even more. oh and also i'm still young and haven't quite got the drifter beard goin on yet.
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collie man
Jai guru deva om
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I would love to leave. Pawn everything off, and just hit the road. But i feel that i would end up failing to set up a new life.
God i wish i could just forget it all and start over. A true clean slate free of memories and feelings. A rebirth, like the next day from acid only the feelings and memories don't come back.
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: collie man]
#13446660 - 11/07/10 01:46 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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yeah id be down
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Enlightenedwon
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: collie man]
#13446665 - 11/07/10 01:48 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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For me it's a part of who I am. The entire experience of it is filled with this power.. it starts with planning & dreaming and when you think of all the possibilities it's so energizing and dopaminergic, each step you take is so much easier than you thought it would be it's like you've done it before, and when you finally reach the place where you're too far gone to turn back the euphoria and rush of emotion you feel is indescribable.
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MOTH
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Enlightenedwon said: For me it's a part of who I am. The entire experience of it is filled with this power.. it starts with planning & dreaming and when you think of all the possibilities it's so energizing and dopaminergic, each step you take is so much easier than you thought it would be it's like you've done it before, and when you finally reach the place where you're too far gone to turn back the euphoria and rush of emotion you feel is indescribable.
Woo, that got me all tingly to read. Hell yeah, dude.
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13446687 - 11/07/10 02:06 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I basically just feel like I am so cramped in my life all the time, like it's too small for me. I feel like the only way I will be able to break free is if I take off alone to a place where I can be unknown and truly start over.
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collie man
Jai guru deva om
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13446689 - 11/07/10 02:08 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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MOTH said: I basically just feel like I am so cramped in my life all the time, like it's too small for me. I feel like the only way I will be able to break free is if I take off alone to a place where I can be unknown and truly start over.
If you can go through with that more power to you. Some of us are slaves to what we know. And change brings fear.
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: collie man]
#13446700 - 11/07/10 02:14 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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collie man said:
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MOTH said: I basically just feel like I am so cramped in my life all the time, like it's too small for me. I feel like the only way I will be able to break free is if I take off alone to a place where I can be unknown and truly start over.
If you can go through with that more power to you. Some of us are slaves to what we know. And change brings fear.
I feel like if I can't go through with it, I will always wonder..."what if..." and I don't want that...
Change is scary...but also filled with growth opportunities.
I have my whole life to settle down...I feel like now is a time for mobility and self-experience.
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Enlightenedwon
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: collie man]
#13446718 - 11/07/10 02:25 AM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sometimes you have to cut ties & be free, learn lessons & teach others at the same time. I also feeling like going soon.. the place I live in and the people here are lifeless & draining.
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MOTH
Wild Woman
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I'm going to do it.
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Ima Trooper
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13454657 - 11/08/10 04:30 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Good, but please come back with stories of your adventures! I would feel sad if I didn't see your posts anymore.
-------------------- "Its moving of its own accord...and I like that in a shirt!" - Me, tripping. deCypher said: Schizophrenia beats dining alone, you know.
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MOTH
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Ima Trooper]
#13454707 - 11/08/10 04:39 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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Oh, I'll be around. The Shroomery has been a reliable constant in my life for years and no doubt will continue to be. Anyway, I need some time to sell my car.
I just feel like I need to be away as soon as possible.
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stuntmanmike
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Ima Trooper]
#13454713 - 11/08/10 04:39 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think about going AWOl everyday i really want to live in london for awhile
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muistrue
Inspired by the mystery
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13454785 - 11/08/10 04:56 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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I went awol for three years once and while I had the time of my life for sure I would never think of doing it again. My friends and family mean so much to me now it's doesn't even cross my mind to leave them indefinitely.
I wish you the best tho Moth, just follow your heart it won't lead you astray.
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Enlightenedwon
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: MOTH]
#13454813 - 11/08/10 05:01 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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McTwist
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Re: Do you ever just want to go AWOL? [Re: Enlightenedwon] 1
#13454923 - 11/08/10 05:25 PM (13 years, 4 months ago) |
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You should read the book The Alchemist, it suits your plan perfectly as far as following your heart. Very inspirational work, I think you should check it out
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