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AZrooj
AZ/WA



Registered: 09/02/05
Posts: 788
Loc: USA Washington
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I feel great, even though im homeless...
#13110221 - 08/27/10 02:11 PM (13 years, 5 months ago) |
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Since I was 14 I had an addiction to tar, and life has been pretty hectic. Dad allowed me stop going to school when I was 15 so that I could run his business.....To make a long story short I was allowed to do whatever i wanted....which included working my ass off at 15 and slamming dope all day. Fast forward into my 20's and now I just have a horrible addiction to tar, and nothing to show for it. When I hit 19 my parents kicked me out for being to old, and now I've had to learn how life is totally on my own.
I stopped doing all opiates/coke/stimulants, and only partake in MJ, and psychs now. Although im homeless and trying to get my life back I actually feel so good right now. I finally have feelings back again, and I can actually smile at the world. Life can be a little depressing at night when I'm staring up through my tent all alone in the middle of a forest, but I bring myself back, and just can only smile.
Although shits pretty crazy I feel so good not doing tar. I've been "spreading love" to get by (to get food/little bit of cash), and although it was intense at first I actually feel OK. Mushroom season is starting so I've decided to take the next couple months off. Gonna go hunt up the coast, and then come next year I'm going to settle down and get a job finally.

-------------------- Power booster, I'm talking to god and more.
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The24HourMC
Master Of Ceremonies



Registered: 10/16/09
Posts: 7,704
Loc: Gone
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Re: I feel great, even though im homeless... [Re: AZrooj]
#13110282 - 08/27/10 02:23 PM (13 years, 5 months ago) |
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My Baby In MCLA Fuckin Shit Fuck that stay high
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lil_demented
Loner will lone

Registered: 09/11/06
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Re: I feel great, even though im homeless... [Re: The24HourMC]
#13110302 - 08/27/10 02:29 PM (13 years, 5 months ago) |
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Very honorable way to start your life.
Once you get back down to the basics, everything might start to make sense again. I feel for ya man, wish you were in my area, I'd give you hand.
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HaplessHero
Student



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Re: I feel great, even though im homeless... [Re: AZrooj]
#13110309 - 08/27/10 02:29 PM (13 years, 5 months ago) |
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Although I never hit the tar, my opiate and stimulant addiction took a large part of my life as well, resulting in homelessness and a series of abusive friendships and relationships. Although shit is better now, and I've completely stopped my hard drug days, I still look back on those times as a dark point in my life, making the present day so much better than most people can ever realize.
Keep on man.
-------------------- I appreciate your help in this journey back to center.
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AZrooj
AZ/WA



Registered: 09/02/05
Posts: 788
Loc: USA Washington
Last seen: 8 years, 5 months
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Re: I feel great, even though im homeless... [Re: HaplessHero]
#13110497 - 08/27/10 03:08 PM (13 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah at first I felt really weird not having a job, but I'm actually making enough to get by and then some right now. So I decided maybe it was best just to stay focused for a couple more months until I have more time under my belt of being clean.
I feel really strong, but I know the power opiates have and I don't want to fuck around. Just been reading a lot in my spare time, and even though I may be some what lazy for the next 60 days at least I'm taking care of my physical/mental health!
-------------------- Power booster, I'm talking to god and more.
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