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Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life?
#12140025 - 03/04/10 03:30 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I was raised so conservatively christian that I don't even care to discuss it. I had to break some fat chains so to speak. Up until recently I've been able to recall what it was like in those days for me. I've been able to project my consciousness back to what it once was and laugh at how right all of my initial instincts towards christianity actually were. Now it seems this is the only life I know. It doesn't really bother me minus the fact that I hate not being able to do something (especially when I was once able to). This life is awesome and I wouldn't have it any other way. Words are inadequate to express how I truely feel about everything in regards to psychedelics.
Enough of my own side (sorry I'm on a little cocktail of some of my faves ), how about you all? Are you so far down the rabbit hole that you can't remember how your brain once operated?
It may be different for me because I'm 21 and started my "journey" around 17-18. I can still see the light at the top of the rabbit hole, or at least I used to be able to...
Discuss.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: NlightNme]
#12140054 - 03/04/10 03:53 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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This could be a very interesting thread (IMO)! Congrats!  I feel like I'm still not there, I'm still oscillating between my former depressed ego-controlled self, and the confident "enlightened" one. I'm too drunk now, and I've been feeling very low and stressed for the past few days, I think I still need to go on that possibly-very-meaningful trip, all my trips have been fun and introspective, but not really life changing. I know I can't relay on only drugs to change my life, but still... I don't even know if mushrooms are really the substance to accomplish that.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: Tangich]
#12140072 - 03/04/10 03:59 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I feel ya man. And alcohol is in my cocktail so I know how it is. Before I went through some transition recently (which after I could no longer remember my initial mindset) I was extremely low and down on myself/the world etc. I actually havn't tripped since september-ish, sadly enough, but still I am 100% my "enlightened" self as you say. I've already had my very-meaningful trip about midway through my "journey" so I guess that makes a difference.
And it was on mushrooms don't doubt them. Respect them.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: NlightNme]
#12140103 - 03/04/10 04:29 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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Yeah, and I'm your age (21), but didn't try psychedelics until a few months ago (other than weed). I'm turning 22 in 3 days, and birthdays are always very depressing for me. (one more year, nothing significant accomplished). But booze makes everything better, at least for a while. It is very inspiring to read about experience like yours! Becoming a dead-inside zombie has crossed my mind lately, but now I want to fight and go beyond this mindset! Thank you!  And I do respect and love mushrooms, but here I have rad about some other substances and experiences, and how they seemed more life-changing. But now I realized they can't do everything for me, only help.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: NlightNme]
#12140134 - 03/04/10 04:43 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I feel like I don't remember the difference in my life that much before my psychedelic experiences, but I don't think it's because I have forgotten; I think it's because I haven't changed that much since my use of psychedelics.
I'm not sure though, because I definitely feel like I have changed, but I guess it's hard to sense change over a long period of time, err well, for me it's only been like a year, so it's not that long.
I do know that for a good while after I have an experience, I definitely feel "better" than what I had felt before I had taken any psychedelics.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: bardleyrichard]
#12140153 - 03/04/10 04:52 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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i fell head first into the rabbit hole and i have had hard time relating to those who are still standing at its edge peering within
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: bardleyrichard]
#12140180 - 03/04/10 05:06 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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bardleyrichard said: I feel like I don't remember the difference in my life that much before my psychedelic experiences, but I don't think it's because I have forgotten; I think it's because I haven't changed that much since my use of psychedelics.
I feel this way, too. My trips have been fun & HAVE taken me to some cool places in my mind, but I don't think they've CHANGED me. But again, like you, I haven't taken tons of doses over a long period of time, so maybe that's why.
Nevertheless, I feel my trips have given me some (mostly) amazing memories (I danced with druids in my friends' backyard once). They just haven't changed who I am, or what I believe in.
Guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't think taking the amount of psychedelics I've taken over the amount of time that it's been for me is too life-changing. It may have magnified and intesified some things that were already in me, but I don't think it added any new elements to my personality. Didn't "open" any "new doors in my mind" like acid is supposed to.
Never tried LSD. I'm sure I'd have a different story for ya if I had.
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: sun_spots]
#12140185 - 03/04/10 05:09 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I'm 23 now and have changed a lot. I think it's good that I've changed a lot, because otherwise I'd still be acting like a highschooler. Hopefully I still have quite a bit of changin' to do, because my life right now is (albeit fun) not sustainable in the long-run
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Re: Do you remember your mindset in your pre-journey life? [Re: memes]
#12142384 - 03/04/10 02:15 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I suppose a big part of the "change" for me was due to a shift in belief systems (not just the dr00gz). Once I got my psychonaut's liscense I began doing alot of and digging around into stuff. I couldn't get my hands on enough related academia. And when you spend ~15 years of your life being force-fed the bible so literally that it makes you want to puke: switching over to writers like McKenna and the like is pretty eye opening. I began formulating my own hypothesis about life through a socratic way of thinking by finding the intersections of all the new information I was obtaining and developing theories that are consistent with all of them. Its crazy how connected everything is. We don't even realize.
It also is easy for me because I have a twin brother who is more or less completely oblivious to this type of life. He is still ultra-conservative fundamentalist christian. And though I was never as hardcore as he was (even before my journey I knew that christianity wasn't doing it right even by their own merits), he gives a good measuring point for how glad I am I ate all those caps that one time in my room along time ago to "see what it was like". Domino effect from there. I recently finished Straussman's book and wander what I'll think about this topic after I FINALLY get my hands on some DMT. That, mescaline, and ketamine are the only non RC's that I havn't tried that I want to, and from what I hear they're some of the best ones
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